While my brains engaged elsewhere, Jacky sits in the chair Ruben just vacated. "It's okay Sebastian. I know you're not interested in me so don't worry about taking me anywhere. I know your brother dropped it on you."

She's crying. Why me? Standing I walk around the desk and crouch in front of Jacky, offering her a tissue. "Jacky, you're a nice young woman." I pause. "It's just that I'm not really looking for a relationship right now."

Perhaps if I take her, it will take my mind off Carla, who I can never be with. I need to move on. Have I got it in me to move on right now though? What the h.e.l.l. "Jacky you know what? Let's go to Kenza tonight and have a d.a.m.n good time."

Her tears miraculously disappear. "You mean that? You're seriously going to take me out on a date?"

Standing, I back up and sit on my desk. "Yes," I whisper, wondering what the h.e.l.l I'm doing. I need a distraction, but I'm not sure Jacky is the kind of distraction I need or want.

d.a.m.n Ruben!

Chapter 11.

Carla Trying to get the spreadsheet data together for Ramon is easier said than done when my mind keeps wandering to Sebastian. I haven't seen him for close to a week, which is normal, but after the embrace we shared, my longing to be back in his arms is tenfold.

No one has ever made me feel the way Sebastian does. With just one look, my panties are wet and my core throbs to be filled by him.

Having told Ramon to leave things for a few weeks to see how everything goes was stupid of me. Instead, I could be with Sebastian right now, seeing where the thing between us goes. I have the feeling that once I get with Sebastian he won't let me go. I've seen the possessive look on his face when he thinks no one is watching and just knowing he's kept his zipper up since we met does things to my insides.

"Earth to Carla," Ramon says.

I press my hand against my chest in fright. "Where the h.e.l.l did you come from?" I must have been so lost in my daydream about Sebastian that I hadn't heard the apartment door open.

"Sebastian," Ramon says rubbing at his temples. It was a bit unnerving that Ramon could read my mind so easily. "Look I know you feel as though you owe me for helping you out when you arrived in Lexington, but you don't. Noah is your brother, which automatically means I help. In fact, I'd have helped you regardless."

He crouches down beside me as I spin slightly on the chair to face him before he takes my hands into his. His eyes are solemn as he rubs my hand with his fingers. "I asked you for twelve months to help me out," he shakes his head to stop me from interrupting, "but when I asked that of you, my brother wasn't in the equation, you hadn't even met. I know you said you wanted to carry on like we are for a few weeks, but are you sure you still want to? Because I'll understand and even talk to Sebastian to smooth the way if that's what you want. You're a good person Carla and so is my brother."

I want to jump up and down and say 'yes please talk to Sebastian and tell him our relationship isn't the kind he thinks it is,' but something is holding me back. I think it's fear, but I can't be sure or even what the fear would be of. Fear of Sebastian rejecting me, which I don't think will happen, but I can't shake it, and fear of the unknown, which makes my stomach churn.

"I'm scared, Ramon. What if he doesn't want me? Or what if he only wants one thing from me?"

"Then I'll beat the s.h.i.t out of him."

Pulling my hands free of Ramon's, I glare at him while he laughs, but when he realizes I'm serious, the laughter dies.

"Sorry Carla, but are you serious? Yes, my brother wants to get in your panties," he cringes, "but he wants more than that from you. Sebastian has never gone, um, too long without before and from what he's said he's not been with anyone since he met you. That fact alone should tell you something. You won't know unless you give yourself a chance with him, and I promise to beat the s.h.i.t out of him if he doesn't treat you like a princess."

He makes me chuckle. "Princess, huh? I'm afraid I left my crown in Canada."

"As you're such a smart a.s.s, I think I'm going to take you out tonight to Kenza. Ruben rang and asked us to head over there. Initially I told him we'd pa.s.s, but I think we both could do with a night out. A night filled with distraction. So what do you say?"

Jumping up from my chair, I nearly knock him on his a.s.s, but he manages to get to his feet. Before he can even brace himself, I throw myself into his arms and kiss him on the cheek before running to the office door wanting to get a head start with my pampering for tonight. It's been so long since I had a night out that I'm going to go all out tonight. "How long do I have?" I ask Ramon over my shoulder as I reach the doorway.

"Couple of hours," he replies getting comfortable in the chair I've just vacated with his feet propped up on the desk.

Shaking my head, I leave him to it and dash to my room while my head is inside my closet trying to decide what to wear.

Should I let my hair down and wear something s.e.xy or should I wear something that says hands-off, like a trouser suit.

I can't help but wonder whether or not we might b.u.mp into Sebastian. My teeth worry at my lips as I look at the selection. If Sebastian is there, I want to be in something, um, s.e.xy and sultry. Something that will get his hands on me again, and I know just the dress.

Smiling to myself, I pull my closet doors open and rooting to the left where I keep my evening clothes, I find the slinky black dress I bought a while ago and have never worn. It should have been five hundred dollars and was in a ma.s.sive closing down sale so paying seventy-five dollars was a steal. Although there was always the chance they'd changed the ticket to read five hundred before putting the sale price on, but never the less I love this dress and I look amazing in it. Even Ramon did a double take when I tried it on for him, but since then I've not been able to work up the courage to wear it outside the apartment.

The only thing is, I really don't want to fight off any unwanted attention because that could get awkward especially with Ruben being under the impression I'm with his brother. I certainly don't want to be the cause of any fighting.

Oh, boy!

Taking a deep breath, I hang the dress on the closet door and retrieve my strappy four inch sandals from the back of the closet, which I toss onto the bed before walking into the bathroom for my primping session.

Chapter 12.

Sebastian Stepping out from the shower, I'm hard as f.u.c.k and so d.a.m.n tempted to look down and inspect my b.a.l.l.s to see if they've changed color because I'm so f.u.c.kin' frustrated.

Trying to ignore the throb going on, I quickly scrub the towel over my body before dumping it in the laundry basket as I walk into the bedroom to yank my clothes on, starting with my pants.

b.a.s.t.a.r.d! I can't do the zipper up and, quite frankly, I'll probably come within minutes with how aroused I feel right now. Carla is under my skin and driving me crazy. The amount of times this week that I've picked the phone up to ring my brother and get an invite round to his place for dinner has been too many to count. I've even gotten into my car and found myself outside Ramon's apartment building before coming back to my senses.

This craving I have for Carla is an obsession, one that's taking over my life and one I have no idea how to handle. After holding her in my arms I know she feels more for me than she should when she's sleeping with my brother, which is like a punch in the gut every time I let my mind wander in that direction.

Taking a deep breath, I look down at my wayward body part, step back out of my trousers and head back to the shower for some relief because there is no way in h.e.l.l I want Jacky thinking my c.o.c.k is wanting to dip inside her.

Shuddering at that last thought, I climb into the shower and turn the water on as I reach for the gel.

Letting the spray pound into the muscles on my back, I coat my hand in gel before grabbing hold of my d.i.c.k, which is weeping at the tip. I close my eyes and feel Carla's smooth body run over mine as she presses her body to me. I smile, my fist squeezing my c.o.c.k as the imaginary Carla runs kisses down my chest, the hot spray turning her delicate flesh pink, her lips swollen as she lowers to her knees in front of me and licks the tip of my shaft. Groaning, I tip my head back and start to fist my c.o.c.k, back and forth, back and forth.

With my other hand I ma.s.sage my b.a.l.l.s, which are so f.u.c.kin' tight to my body. Gripping the root of me, I continue beating off, but all I can imagine is her warm lips sucking my d.i.c.k into her mouth. As I stroke myself, my imagination takes on a fevered dance as Carla leans against the low seat in the stand up shower, her legs spread wide, beckoning to me. I position myself into her arms, her legs wrapping around my body as she pulls my c.o.c.k deep inside her. I can imagine how tight and wet her p.u.s.s.y is as I slide inside her.

"f.u.c.k. F...U...C...K," I growl my release as my sperm shoots all over the wall, over and over again nearly bringing me to my knees.

s.h.i.t, what the h.e.l.l is wrong with me? I'm a grown man acting like a kid who's just discovered the pleasure of his own d.i.c.k.

Quickly drying off again, I walk back into my bedroom, picking my clothes up and pulling them on. Well at least my d.i.c.k's behaving now.

This obsession I have for Carla is ridiculous and I need to get over it. Well tonight, I'm going to go out with Jacky and enjoy her company for once. I'm not interested in her as long term, not even for a night if I'm totally honest, but she's there. The date has been set with thanks to Ruben, the b.a.s.t.a.r.d. I owe him one, big time, for that in the office earlier. No way can I let that slide. I'll get him back when he least expects it.

Fastening my Armani watch to my wrist, I glance at the time and realize I need to get a move on if I'm to be a gentleman and collect Jacky from her apartment on time, which just so happens to be three flights below me.

On the way out of the door, I grab my keys, locking up behind me and make my way to the stairwell to walk down the three flights of stairs to Jacky's apartment. The entire way, I find myself hoping I'm not about to screw up.

Reaching the door to her floor, I try and draw air into my lungs as I open the door and spot her walking a hole in the carpet outside her apartment door.

I just stand and watch her while I'm un.o.bserved. She's a beautiful woman with a slim body, magnificent b.r.e.a.s.t.s as Ruben has informed me on more than one occasion, but she isn't Carla.

Dammit! Pushing away from the wall I make myself known, which causes Jacky to pull up short and look at me with nervous eyes, as though she doesn't know how to take me or how to act tonight.

Trying to put her at ease, I take hold of her hand, kissing her knuckles. "Jacky, you look amazing." I offer her the panty dropping grin that a previous girlfriend told me I had and it appears, by Jacky's reaction, that it's having some effect.

"You're not looking bad yourself, Sebastian." She looks me up and down.

Chill. I seriously need to chill and try and have a good time with her. She's harmless and if I'm correct she's lonely and just wants company. Well, that I can help her with.

"Should we go, Ruben mentioned a live band," I ask as I slip her arm in the crook of my elbow and walk her to the elevator.

I pray Cody is already waiting outside for us in the car, the last thing I need is small talk especially while she looks ready to go over in the shoes she has on her feet. And don't get me started on the dress, if that's what you can call the bits of material barely covering the essentials, and yeah I keep trying to peek, but what the h.e.l.l, I'm still a hot blooded guy.

Chapter 13.

Carla Kenza is really rocking tonight with the group on stage, 'Deception.' The lead singer, Phoenix is one hot guy not to mention Reece on the drums and Donovan on guitar. A well made up group, not just with talent, but also with looks. Reece seems like a player and keeps giving me the eye before they kick off on stage. Reece also had a few s.e.xy words to say to me when Ruben introduced us on arrival.

Ramon keeps giving me funny looks and has been keeping me close. I think he expects some hunk to carry me off to his lair. Then again, he probably knows the only hunk I want to carry me off is Sebastian.

Sighing, I take a swallow of the white wine Ramon has just shoved into my hand for the third time since arriving.

"What's with the heavy sigh?" Ramon asks me, his arms wrapping around me to keep me close.

How the h.e.l.l did he hear me sigh with the volume of the music going on in here?

"It doesn't matter," I shout into his ear, not meeting his eyes.

"Dammit. Um, Carla." Ramon looks behind me before meeting my eyes and pulling me tighter into his body.

Without turning around, I know exactly who's standing behind me and I'm not too sure I'm ready to be in the same s.p.a.ce as him without throwing myself into his arms.

Ramon whispers into my ear. "I'm here for you, turnaround."

I turn and my heart breaks when I see Jacky next to Sebastian. His arm is draped around her neck and she's leaning into him playfully.

Emotion floods through me and I'm not sure if I'm angry or disappointed. So much for wanting me. At least I know where I stand before I made an even bigger fool of myself.

Ramon wraps me up into his body and turns me towards the back where the seating in the club is located. After pointing in the general direction for Sebastian to follow, he starts leading us over to them.

On the way over to the club tonight, Ramon told me he was going to explain to Sebastian about my ex, Gary. He told me he was going to use him as the only reason as to why I'm living with him and why we've gone all these months letting his family think we're an item, but it looks like that conversation doesn't need to take place now.

With legs that feel as though they're no longer going to hold me up, I gratefully sink into the sofa in the slightly quieter area only to have Sebastian take up residence beside me. Why can't he sit with his date?

While I'm breaking apart inside trying to come up with an excuse to leave, he's sitting next to me probably making faces at 'her.'

Did Ramon know he was going to be here? Is that why he mentioned talking to Sebastian about our situation?

"Jacky, please dance with me," Ramon asks.

Traitor!

Glaring at him, he just laughs at the expression on my face and walks off with Jacky, shaking his head.

Sitting here, I can't help but notice how stiff I am. I scan the crowd and debate how easily I can escape from the table and leave Sebastian. And then he shifts and all thoughts of fleeing disappear as he moves closer to me. "Ignoring me isn't going to work. You know that right?"

I finally turn and meet his eyes, which is a huge mistake because I can't look away.

"Sebastian, please don't do this," I say, having finally found my voice. "You're here with Jacky and I'm with Ramon. Let's just leave it."

Does he know those words I've just spoken were some of the hardest words to ever leave my mouth?

Over the past few months, I've really fallen for him and seeing him with Jacky, who the brothers sometimes call the office shark, hurts. It hurts a lot. But what do you expect him to do, Carla? He's a grown man with urges and he's already gone five months without a woman under him, which looks as though that's about to change.

Feeling close to tears, I start to slip out from behind the table, but before I can make my escape, Sebastian is standing in front of me looking p.i.s.sed.

"You keep telling me you're with my brother yet you always react to me. I've never seen you react to Ramon the way you do me. But that being said, I can't wait around for you to make your mind up about who it is you want to be with because imagining you in bed with Ramon drives me crazy," he says the last bit through clenched teeth as he reaches for me.

Stepping back, I try to get my thoughts together. "You're here with Jacky, Sebastian. You need to leave me alone, perhaps if you stop grabbing me every two minutes you'll realize you didn't want me after all and you'll be able to carry on with your parade of women."

I'm not sure if I'm warning him away from me or I'm warning myself. I push away and make a dash for the restrooms, leaving Sebastian standing in frozen shock. I race away from him in hope of being able to hide in the restroom for a short while, all night if I thought Ramon would let me get away with it.

As I push through the crowd on the dance floor, I find myself with a pink feather boa wrapped around my neck, then as I remove it a blonde woman with a Scottish accent, if I'm not mistaken, apologizes, "Sorry la.s.sie, my aims a bit off. Had a wee too much to drink, I think," before hiccupping and wrapping herself around another blonde woman.

Well at least some people are having fun. I think as I continue pushing through the throng of people still dancing and singing along to the band on stage. Spotting Ramon, he makes me smile and then chuckle when Jacky rubs up against his groin with her a.s.s. My chuckle soon stops though when I see Sebastian pushing his way through the crowd towards us or maybe towards me. Which gets me moving again, seeking the escape the female restroom will give me. I hope.

The restroom only has a couple of women inside so I dive into an empty stall, pull the lid down and sit while I concentrate on breathing so the tears won't fall.

What am I doing? And d.a.m.n Sebastian for bringing Jacky here with him tonight. Is he going to take her back to his place afterwards or stay at hers? If he'd been alone then I would have let Ramon talk to him because my will to keep him away has weakened. I want him with everything in me and I don't ever remember feeling jealous over anyone before.

"Carla? Are you in here?" Ramon shouts from the door.

"Maybe," I mumble in reply.