She scarcely noticed the eager note in his voice.
"That's an idea!" she exclaimed. "I was wondering what I'd do about this evening, and I was determined not to go home till ten o'clock. I don't know why, but if I can make myself stay right away on my own pleasure till then it will be like breaking a spell. But why I'm talking like this to you I don't know. You'll think me mad."
"No, I shan't."
An office-boy staggered in with tea, and for a while the business of it kept them lightly occupied, and talking inconsequently; but presently Rokeby went back to:
"So you _are_ going to see Miss Winter this evening? Look here, Mrs. Kerr, Osborn would never forgive me if I let you go alone. I'll take you--yes, please. Do let me! We'll both give her a surprise."
Recovering a spark of the old audacity which her prettiness used to justify, she laughed: "No, you won't. We shall want to talk--and _talk_. You'd be in the way."
"I solemnly swear I won't. I'll wash up and do a lot of the jobs bachelor girls always keep for their men friends to do. I'll sit and smoke in the kitchen. Honest, I will! There, now?"
Her laughter was real and merry. "_You_? What's come to you?"
"I hardly know," said Rokeby quickly, in a low voice.
Marie's hand and eyes were hovering critically over the dish of cakes; youth and delicious silliness had visited her, if but for an hour, and a curious kind of champagne happiness fizzed through her. The earnestness of Desmond's sudden look passed her by; at the moment there was nothing earnest in her; she was, all so suddenly, a holiday woman out for the day. Selecting her cake, she began to eat it.
"It will be awf'ly good of you to take me there," she answered; "it will be something to write and tell Osborn about."
"Do wives have to hunt for topics for letters, as they have to hunt for suitable conversation, when husbands want it?"
"Oh! have you noticed that?"
"I've noticed my married friends seem to have very little of interest to say to each other."
"Why is it?"
"I don't know. I think they give each other all they've got in a great big lump too soon. But I don't know; how should I?"
"I wonder if I could tell you. _I_ think it's because a man carefully robs a woman of all power to have any interest outside her home; but at the same time he votes her home interests too dull to talk about."
"Married life!" said Rokeby quizzically.
"But there are beautiful things in it; children, you know. I shouldn't have said what I did."
They let a silence elapse as if to swallow up the memory of the things Marie shouldn't have said, and after it he asked: "What time shall we go?"
At six o'clock they were speeding down Cannon Street, along the Strand, and the gaudier thoroughfares of the West, in a taxicab, to Julia's flat.
Her delight at seeing Marie was obvious, but a veil of reserve seemed to drop over her vivid, strong face when she saw who escorted her.
Rokeby would not take leave of Marie on the threshold, though; he followed her in and sat down, asking if he might stay. There was about him an air of smiling determination, and his eyes obstinately sought Julia's, which as obstinately avoided his. She began to chatter, as if to slur over a momentary confusion.
"I've only been in ten minutes, and I was going to settle down to a lonely evening. I'm awf'ly glad to have you, Marie darling. If Mr.
Rokeby's going to stay he'll have to be useful. I'm afraid you find me almost deshabillee, but I'm one of these sloppy bachelors, as you know."
But Julia had a taut way of putting on even a silk kimono, and she could not have been sloppy had she tried; her lines were too fine and clean.
The two women went away to Julia's bedroom, a little box like a furnisher's model, and there Julia gleaned Marie's news. But far from giving unmitigated sympathy, she was almost crudely congratulatory.
"It's what most wives of your standing want badly. A year off. A year to go to some theatres, to find their own minds again; to look after their wardrobes, and thread all the ribbons in their cammies that they've been too busy to thread for ages. It's no good coming to me for pity. I'm not sorry for you."
"I--I'm not sure that I want you to be. I see what you mean. But--"
"But?"
"Last night, when I knew, I was just heartbroken. I don't know when I've cried as I did. For a while I thought I'd just have to die."
"You won't die. You'll renovate yourself; you'll get new feathers, like a bird in spring."
Marie looked slowly at Julia.
"I know."
Julia began to smile, first a smile of inquiry, then of delight.
"'Rah! 'rah!" she screamed softly; "we'll have Marie pretty again."
Marie took off her hat and coat and began to fluff her crushed hair.
"See my grey hairs, though, Julia?"
"They're nothing."
"My teeth, of course, haven't been touched since I was married. I don't know if I'll be able to afford that, but I'll try."
"Marie," said Julia, at an inexplicable tangent, "for heaven's sake why bring Desmond Rokeby here?"
"Oh, do you mind, dear? He brought me."
"Mind!" said Julia, now inexplicably tart, "I don't mind! Why should I mind anything about him? Only--"
"Only?"
"Oh, well, it doesn't matter! Let's all be jolly, if he's got to stay."
It was one of those gay, rowdy, delightful, laughing evenings which can happen sometimes. They were all three in the minute kitchen together, Desmond taking off his coat and rolling up his sleeves to cook, and excellently he cooked, too. Julia tied an apron around him, and Marie twisted up a cook's cap from grease-proof paper, and they laughed like people who have discovered the finest jokes in the world.
There was no care; there was no worry; no time-table. No Jove-like husband, no fretting, asking wife, no shades of grocers and butchers had a place there. It was a great evening. No one was married.
Everyone was young. Oh! it was jolly! jolly! jolly! All one wished--if one stopped to wish at all--was that it might never end.
But the end was at 9.30, punctual to the stroke of Marie's conscience.
At No. 30 Welham Mansions, Hampstead, were three little sleepers who depended upon her for all they needed in the world, and over them watched a tired old grannie who would fain go home to bed. Marie left the others suddenly, in case the strength of her resolution should fail her, crying, as she ran out:
"Now don't stop me! I'm going to put on my hat--and GO!"
Julia got up to follow her quickly, but quick as she was, Desmond was quicker. He had his back against the closed door, facing her, and he said: