Lily! d.a.m.n, the thought of her still makes my heart pound and my d.i.c.k hard. Almost two years down the road I'm thinking it might be time to take that next step. I had no hang ups because of the demise of my first go around, one woman was about as different from the other as two people could get. Besides, I wasn't one to hold onto to bulls.h.i.t baggage.

Deanna had been a hard lesson, I was young, h.o.r.n.y and dumb when we first met but it hadn't taken long for the shine to wear off. Still I'd made a commitment and I intended to see it through. Then she'd fallen pregnant eight years after we were married. I'd lost that loving feeling for the selfish, self centered woman who'd hidden her true self for the first few years of our marriage, but the knowledge that I had a kid coming had me on the moon.

I started planning for my seed from the moment I heard those two words, aI'm pregnant'. I didn't care if it was a boy or a girl I just knew I wanted it. I'd tried back then to relight that spark that had been there in the beginning but too much had pa.s.sed by then and I couldn't do it.

For my kid though I decided to stay. I'd been raised in a loving family with both of my parents, aunts, uncles, grand parents and an abundance of cousins and extended family. I wanted my kid to have the same. Things hadn't worked out that way so now we were all making the best of what we had.

Deanna still tries every once in a while to get back into my bed but that was never gonna happen, and now with Lily in the picture there was no way in h.e.l.l. Lily was just what I needed in my f.u.c.ked up life. At the time we met I'd been in the middle of turning my life completely upside down. I had a new business and was part of something that filled the void left after I'd quit the force.

I was still a little raw and angry from the s.h.i.t that had went down in my marriage, not to mention the s.h.i.t that was going on in the force and life just seemed to be thirty shades of f.u.c.ked up. She'd blazed into my life with her fiery att.i.tude and her f.u.c.k me body and I haven't been the same since.

Lily has one of those pinup girl figures, heavy on the t.i.ts and a.s.s and little on the waist with a yard of raven colored hair that brushes the top of her a.s.s when she walks. And boy what a walk! She's all of five two, olive skinned, big brown eyes and lips that made me think of sinning every time I look at them.

Her voice makes me want to f.u.c.k her into the wall hard and furious, and her sweet smile makes me want to wrap her up in cotton b.a.l.l.s and protect her always. Yeah, I think it's time I put my ring on her finger. I know she wasn't going anywhere but still, women needed that s.h.i.t to make them feel secure and loved or some f.u.c.kery. Plus if I put a ring on Deanna's trifling a.s.s it would be a grave insult not to marry the woman who was truly the owner of my heart.

I was brought back to the present by the beeping of my phone. "What's up D'Angelo?"

"You call Jake?"

"No, why?"

"He's headed this way."

"No problem." I closed my phone and waited.

Jake was an old buddy of mine; in fact he was the only cop still on the force that I could say I was truly impressed with. He was honest to a fault and always went the extra mile. He didn't suffer fools lightly and had a rep for facing down anyone who got in his way no matter who.

He had his own division in the force that was rumored to be some type of elite top-secret outfit that dealt with the more dangerous s.h.i.t that went down in our neck of the woods. He'd offered me a place on his team when I'd walked but I'd already set my sights on the bar and forging a different way.

When I fell into this little sideline, he was one of the first people I'd tapped for help. It was always good to have someone on the right side of the law for all that the department was full of crooks and a.s.sholes. I knew that Jake was like me. He could be trusted. I didn't know what he was doing here tonight though, since I hadn't called him in since I'd asked him to be on the lookout for Sid.

He came around the side of the building like smoke and I couldn't hold back the smirk. f.u.c.ker thinks he's cool. I can't see where having a wife and kids have softened him any, but he didn't have that aI'd skull f.u.c.k you for breakfast and then p.i.s.s in your eye' look about him anymore.

Before I could open my mouth to ask him why he was here he beat me to it. "Where's your boy Deke?" Oh s.h.i.t. I wasn't about to show my hand, there wasn't anything I couldn't get my guys out of and I'm pretty sure that Jake wouldn't burn Deke for a piece a s.h.i.t like Sid, but it never hurt to be careful. "Who wants to know?" He c.o.c.ked his brow at me with a adon't f.u.c.k with me' scowl and I was hard pressed to keep my laughter in check.

We both know his intimidating tactics wouldn't work on me though I felt Stryder shift nervously in his chair. Jacka.s.s, that only brought him to Jake's attention and the other man turned one of his glares his way. "Cut that s.h.i.t out Jake, now what do you want with my boy?"

"I've been keeping an eye on the Carter place since you told me about a.s.shole number two's threats against our girl. I figured you'd have eyes over there as well, but what I was not expecting was to be saving Sid from crazy a.s.s Deke. You've got to do something about that one Masters he's not wrapped too tight."

"Deke's cool, he just gets a little jumpy every now and then."

"Frogs get jumpy, this one's something else altogether. I had my guys run Sid to the hospital because Deke wasn't looking too excited about doing it himself."

"Where is he now?"

"I left him there watching the flames so they don't get out of control. Couldn't you come up with a better idea than torching the woods?"

"Nah, that place has been used to hide too much evil over the years, it was time someone took care of it. Now no one can use it as a cover to hide dark s.h.i.t." Dwayne had kept his victims hidden back there in a makeshift underground bunker he'd built.

Men had scoured those woods for days without a trace of anything and the whole time Stephanie had been buried under there. She could hear people going by overhead calling out to her, so close and yet so far away. I'm sure that had only added to her torment, and was now feeding her fear that no one would ever hear her or come when she was in distress.

It was by sheer luck that she'd survived after he'd taken her out and left her for dead elsewhere. No one knew why he hadn't killed her there in his drop sight but we were forever grateful that he hadn't. When she'd been found badly beaten and bruised with her head barely on her shoulders no one thought for a minute that she'd live let alone live to tell where she'd been kept.

She was one strong little angel. It was because of her that they'd been able to close at least three cold cases of other young girls who had gone missing over a ten year period from the area and there were believed to be even more who'd found their demise at his hands.

When the bunker had been unearthed there'd been DNA from the three cases that were now considered closed and they were still sifting through the s.h.i.t they'd found down there. "I figure burning the s.h.i.t would serve two purposes, he can't use it anymore provided he ever sees the light of day again and the way the justice system works I'm not too sure that's not an option. And two, when I drive Stephanie by there later she can see that her h.e.l.l hole has been destroyed."

He just nodded at me and with that I guess the conversation was over. "You bringing your girls by this weekend right?"

"Wouldn't miss it, Holly's already looking forward to destroying your place." My daughter's an angel but for some reason whenever she gets around Jake's kids she turns into the Tasmania devil or some s.h.i.t. I never knew little things that size could do so much damage but there you have it.

"I got them one of those bouncy house things that I staked into the ground in the backyard they can destroy that s.h.i.t and please heaven leave my s.h.i.t alone."

"Good luck with that. What about that other thing everything still on?"

"They'll be there."

We exchanged bulls.h.i.t small talk for a little bit before he headed back out.

Chapter 9.

The next morning as the others showed up, we headed for our respective homes and women. Some of the guys had families of their own that they needed to get back to. I wondered if Lily would be up waiting for me as she'd been doing every morning for the past week and a half. No matter how much I told her not to do that s.h.i.t she didn't listen.

She had her own s.h.i.t to take care of since she'd opened her own private practice, and I didn't want her losing sleep over me, and f.u.c.king up her s.h.i.t. That little lady thought she was super woman or some s.h.i.t but I wasn't about to have her running herself into the ground.

I don't think I've had anyone worry and fuss over me the way she does since my mom. She just has that natural nurturing thing going on and I'm man enough to admit to enjoying that s.h.i.t every now and again. It's not cool to compare the two but the difference between Lily and Deanna couldn't be more glaring. I know now that Deanna was a selfish self- centered man-eater who was thrilled at the idea of f.u.c.king a cop; something about a man with a gun did it for her.

There's no telling if she would've cheated had I not left the force or not or if that was in her all along, but what I do know is that once was enough. "Speak of the f.u.c.king demon." I was not at all pleased to see Deanna's car outside my place so early in the morning. Anytime I had to deal with her a.s.s was bad but this early could only spell trouble.

I hopped off the bike and took off my helmet before running my hand over my head. Holly was okay or she would've called me instead of sitting out here like this. Walking over to the car I schooled myself for whatever bulls.h.i.t she was going to throw my way today. Coming up on the back pa.s.senger side I bent down to the window to see my kid. Her bright half sleepy smile was all I needed to rea.s.sure me that my little princess was okay.

Deanna saw me and got out of the car while I helped Holly out of the car seat. She clung to my neck in that way that made my heart hurt, and made me wish I could be there for her always. I brushed the momentary sadness aside and headed for the house. No point in going there, I just have to make it up to her in other ways.

I put her down on the top step before turning to her mother to see what it was that she wanted. She pulled on my pants leg to get my attention.

"Dad did you see Stephanie?" That's what she was trying to say but it came out in her baby speak. "Yeah princess I saw her, you're gonna see her again this weekend when we go to Jake's.

"Yeah." She squealed and clapped her hands in glee making me smile in wonder. Sometimes it was hard to believe that I had done this, that she was actually a part of me. f.u.c.king miracle.

Her mother was twitching from foot to foot and huffing. What the f.u.c.k was her problem now? Ever since her last attempt to crawl back into my bed and I'd rebuffed her a.s.s she's been getting worst and worst. I ignored her a.s.s and concentrated on my kid.

"Give me a minute lil bit let me tell Lily I'm home." I opened the door and walked in, the scent of coffee and breakfast hit me as soon as I got through the door. I found her in the kitchen puttering around with the music blasting as she turned what would most likely be turkey bacon on the grill.

She was just as I expected and that's why I didn't bring Holly in with me. Lily is an exhibitionist, if she could get away with going naked twenty-four seven she would. How anyone could be comfortable cooking in their birthday suit was beyond me but she looked right at home.

I walked up behind her and wrapped my arms around her naked waist pulling her body back into me. My c.o.c.k was already on the rise from the feel and smell of her. She jumped a mile high and tried to escape. "Hey it's me babe."

"Hayden you jerk you almost gave me a heart attack." She was fussing and lifting her mouth for my kiss at the same time. "Holly's here with her mother. I just wanted to let you know I was here, I gotta go see what Deanna wants." I snagged a piece of cardboard masquerading as breakfast meat and headed back the way I came after tossing her the robe she had hanging on the back of a chair for just such an occurrence. Somebody was always at my d.a.m.n door these days. I was barely back out the door before Deanna started her s.h.i.t. I knew it wasn't going to be long in coming, it never was.

"I don't have time for this s.h.i.t I didn't come here for this. How dare you leave us standing out here like this?"

"Hey, not in front of my kid." I kept my voice low and even. If there was one thing I know it's that parents fighting in front of their kids f.u.c.ks with their little heads. I never want that for my kid. Her mother and I might be f.u.c.ked up but there's no way I'm going to let that touch her.

"Is your little wh.o.r.e in there? I don't want her anywhere near my kid." I could see that look in her eye that I knew only too well. She was ready to show her a.s.s but good. The thing that got me is how she could've lived with me for so many years and not know me at all. She should know by now that her att.i.tude was only going to p.i.s.s me the f.u.c.k off.

"Hey princess why don't you go on inside while I talk to mommy for a minute?" I lifted my daughter's chin and looked into her eyes so I could be sure that she wasn't affected by the little drama unfolding.

"Okay daddy." She grinned and ran through the door, her head was probably full of chaos and mayhem. If her mother ever knew how much she liked Lily there would be h.e.l.l to pay, but that was not my problem. I waited until she was out of earshot before turning to the pain in the a.s.s in front of me who was h.e.l.l bent on causing my a.s.s grief.

"First of all, that's not gonna work." She swallowed audibly because she knows my looks too, and she knows d.a.m.n good and well that I wasn't about to play that game. "Let's get something straight okay, the only reason you still have my kid is because I have a mother, I know what that s.h.i.t means to a kid. You've also never given me any reason to doubt your ability to take care of my kid. And lastly who I have in my home has nothing to do with you, you burned that bridge when you decided to ride some other dudes d.i.c.k."

"It was a stupid mistake..."

"Not going there with you again, it's done, we're done. The only thing we have to say to each other is about our kid. Now what was it that you wanted? Is Holly sick?"

"No."

"Is there food in the house?"

"Of course there's food in the house; I need some cash..."

"No. My kid's taken care of, I don't owe you s.h.i.t. I gave you this month's money, I just took her to the doctor and dentist, Pre-school's paid up and she went shopping with mom two weeks ago."

"Is that all you think about is her, what about me? We were married for ten years how can you be so cold?"

"You f.u.c.ked someone else in my bed while my kid was in her crib crying, be glad that your a.s.s isn't the one that's cold and in the f.u.c.king ground. And the next time you disrespect my woman things are only gonna get worst for you. I don't disrespect whoever you choose to shack up with."

"No you just run background checks on them and threaten me with custody if you don't like what you find."

"You bet your a.s.s, if anyone's gonna be around my little girl they better not even have a speeding ticket. I don't care who you f.u.c.k as long as they're not a danger to my kid."

"What about her, your precious Lily?" She flung her hand out towards the door.

"I ran her a.s.s too and she knows it, besides she doesn't come with any baggage, I was her first." I knew that would cut her deep but what the f.u.c.k did I care? Any feelings I'd had for her had died a long time ago. If not for my daughter I wouldn't even say hi to this beast on the street. But because I love my kid immeasurably there wasn't anything I wouldn't do to make sure she was happy.

Holly loves her mother no doubt about that, and she loves me. I can't give her everything she wants, like a solid home with her mom and dad, because dad would end up decapitating mom over the breakfast table and that s.h.i.t wouldn't be good for anybody. But everything else, daddy had it covered.

I didn't even feel sorry for her a.s.s; she's been running from man to man since the divorce. She kept that s.h.i.t discreet and didn't bring that s.h.i.t around my kid or I would've taken her a long time ago. I wasn't about to tell her how to live her life but she wasn't going to f.u.c.k up my kid's life. Lily wasn't the first f.u.c.k I've had since the split but she's the only one that Holly has ever met. That's because she was more than just a f.u.c.k and as soon as I realized what she meant to me and would mean to my life I knew it was okay to introduce her to the woman in my life. My daughter.

Deanna was out in the cold and she knew it. While I was moving on with my life she was still floundering around looking for what the f.u.c.k I don't know. But I know she was sure that what I had with Lily was serious, and that there was only one place for us to go. She probably knew that s.h.i.t before I did.

It had been almost two years and we were going stronger now than in the beginning; anyone with eyes could see where the s.h.i.t was going. I had no doubt that s.h.i.t was throwing my ex into a panic. For some f.u.c.ked up reason she seemed to think there was a chance we could get back together. Yeah! About as much as a s...o...b..ll's in h.e.l.l.

"If that's all you came for, I need to get going. I just pulled an all nighter. I need some rest before I go see about my place." I had management opening the bars these days so I didn't have to run that s.h.i.t myself. Plus with two more that needed my attention I was stretched pretty thin.

I usually split my time between the three on different days just making sure that things were running smoothly. No one messed with my s.h.i.t because my new acquaintances didn't exactly give people the warm fuzzies. So I didn't worry about stealing and s.h.i.t, but there were other concerns when running a business that I liked to stay on top of. Funny that the fact that I was an ex- cop didn't deter bad behavior, but the fact that my boys were bad a.s.ses did. It's the world we live in I guess.

She wasn't happy about being dismissed but that was nothing new. It couldn't be easy to have to live with my indifference after having been under me for so many years and bearing me a child. But that s.h.i.t she pulled had literally soured me against her for life. If I'd been a vindictive p.r.i.c.k I would've cut her out of my kid's life and be done with her but I won't do that to my little princess unless s.h.i.t got drastic.

I had a quiet word with my girl before giving her back to her mother, making sure that all was right in her world.

Chapter 10.

After they were gone, I had two things on my mind. p.u.s.s.y and sleep, breakfast could wait. I took the coffee cup from Lily's hand as she sat at the island and set it aside. There was no need for conversation, she knew what was up, and if there was any doubt, the bulge in my pants was sending a clear message.

She dropped the robe she'd just donned as I lifted her onto the counter and spread her legs so I could fit in between. With my face buried in her neck my fingers went straight for her core and dove in. She was still tight around my long thick fingers, and that little hitch in her throat told me she still had difficulty taking them at first. As soon as she started juicing it would be smooth sailing though.

"Miss me?" I bit her neck and f.u.c.ked my fingers into her after posing the question. "Yes." She opened wider and pushed her p.u.s.s.y harder against my hand as she stretched her neck farther back. "Hurry Blade." I pressed my hard on into her thigh through my rough jeans for some relief. The throbbing had already started and it was only a matter of time before I start leaking. Her little hands came down between us and she fought with my zipper before pulling me out into her palm.

She pushed me back roughly and got down off the counter and onto her knees. "f.u.c.k." She licked all around the head of my f.u.c.k meat before taking me into her throat and out again, teasing the s.h.i.t out of me. Digging her nails into the flesh of my thighs she bobbed her head back and forth as she f.u.c.ked her mouth on my c.o.c.k.

My hands went to her hair helping her along as she got my b.a.l.l.s into the action. "Ummm." She hummed around my c.o.c.k and I felt that s.h.i.t in my toes. There was a good f.u.c.king bet I was going to empty down her throat, but I had no worries. The first bout in the morning usually left me hard for another round or two.

I tried to remember if she had rounds today because I'm pretty sure neither of us was leaving the house any time soon. I felt the exhaustion from the night evaporate as I lost myself in the feel of having her suck me off. She was getting really good at it.

Lily had come a long way from the innocent she'd been when we met believe it or not. Between school and her family's upbringing there had been no time or room for s.e.x, or much of anything else. It was pretty safe to say that I was her rebellion. She'd said f.u.c.k everything else to be with me, almost losing her family in the bargain. That's something I won't ever forget, and it's one of the things that made me love her so f.u.c.king much. That and what she was doing to my c.o.c.k right now.

"You want it on your tongue or in your neck babe? Talk fast because I'm almost there." She pulled her head back for an answer, leaving me on her tongue, eyes opened on mine tongue working. It was all I needed to start shooting into her mouth as she squeezed my nuts with one hand and stroked my meat with the other. I gave her a good couple of shots while pulling on her hair a little too hard I'm sure, but she didn't complain.

Instead, she showed me the c.u.m on her tongue, before taking me back into her mouth and rubbing my c.o.c.k around in the wetness before swallowing. She can be a bit freaky like that. "You done?" I have to ask because sometimes when she's in heat she can take hours at this s.h.i.t. She stood up and licked her lips with a big s.h.i.t-eating grin on her face. I helped her back up on the counter and this time pushed her all the way back before lifting her legs over my shoulders and burying my head in her crotch.

This is the reason for the tongue piercing, why pretend otherwise? I know that s.h.i.t drives my woman crazy, especially when I go after her G-spot like I'm doing now. "Ahh, Blade, s.h.i.t." I guess the neighbors were in for a show; that s.h.i.t was loud. She pulled on my hair to get me to let up but I was nowhere near done, even though my mouth was now full of p.u.s.s.y juice.

I opened her wider with my fingers and pressed down on her c.l.i.t with my thumb while giving her p.u.s.s.y a workout. My c.o.c.k was bobbing in the wind but he wasn't at full steam yet. I wanted him iron hard, because after that little powwow outside my door I was in the mood for a hard f.u.c.k.

When we were both primed I pulled her down off the counter and turned her around before nailing her from behind. I slammed into her womb with the first thrust and didn't let up. It was a tight fit; that ring around her cervix or whatever the f.u.c.k it was that she claims I was entering was like a vise. I know from experience that she got pleasure and pain when I went there but we both liked it so every once in a while I liked to play around in there. I didn't do it too often though because otherwise she wouldn't be able to walk for a week.

She was well and truly f.u.c.ked this morning though, because she pushed back hard against me and egged me on. When she c.o.c.ked her a.s.s and flung her head back that was my cue. I wrapped my hand around her throat and squeezed as I pounded into her p.u.s.s.y like a man on a mission. "I've...decided...we're...getting...married." Not the most conventional proposal but what the f.u.c.k.

I didn't need a yes, her p.u.s.s.y clamping down around my c.o.c.k and gushing was all the answer I needed. "Good girl, now say it." I guess I needed the words after all. "Yes, yes ,yes." She went wild moving that a.s.s for all she was worth and d.a.m.n near breaking off my d.i.c.k.

Now that the deed was done, I'm not sure why I'd waited this long. It's not like I didn't know that she was it for me and I wasn't afraid of facing another divorce. Lily was nothing like my ex, besides she knows it would be her a.s.s if she ever f.u.c.ked me over. Yes, I've warned her about that s.h.i.t. As an ex-cop, it's probably the epitome of stupid to threaten a woman with a maiming if she f.u.c.ked around on me but I'm not into hiding what I feel.