MEI TREVOR
"… I'm not sleeping in the same bed with you!"
'Wow'
It has been hours since I've been arguing with Donna. She's like a solid rock in her stance.
'Darnit'
"And what do you suggest?" I shouted back.
"Should I sleep on the cold floor?"
"… and what's with this resort?"
"They don't even have extra mattress!"
I could hear Donna sneered at me at that.
"And why are you complaining to me?"
"Do I own the place?"
'Gosh'
She's really p.i.s.sing me off.
"Wether you like it or not, we are sleeping together!"
And I made Donna's eyes round with that. I know I constructed my sentence wrongly but I won't retract it anyway.
'Hahaha'
"In your dreams!"
She eyed me right there while hugging herself as though I'm going to ravish her.
'Wow'
"Huh, what's this?" I smirked.
"Huh…"
"This is what most straight girls' problem is…"
"You automatically think WE WANT YOU."
"Goodness, we have taste for G.o.ddam sake!"
And with that, I know I hit a nerve.
It's not like Donna isn't beautiful but I'm not admitting that in her face.
'Bleh'
She snickered at me and I could tell she's fuming in anger.
"Huh, just right back at you, you SHRIMP!"
And that … hit a nerve on me.
I surveyed my body from my toes to my busted b.r.e.a.s.t.s.
"Me?"
"A SHRIMP?"
I can't possibly accept that.
Just as much as my body is to drool for, my face is to die for.
'Goodness'
"And you… BIPOLAR!" I snapped back.
And that enraged Donna even more. Her chest was rising and falling in anger.
'Hahaha'
And I'm enjoying that.
"What did you just say?"
"BIPOLAR."
I reached out a pillow and took a step backwards towards the door.
I could already feel the change in Donna's energy, going darker.
'Hahaha'
But I'm not scared. I just felt like running away.
"BIPOLAR, BIPOLAR, BIPOLAR…"
"BIPOLAR!..." I shouted again before finally getting out the door.
[*******]
So here, I ended up in Erika and Andy's room.
As much as I regretted barging in, I can't really undo it anymore.
I was really sorry.
'And readers, forgive me, okay?'
So I was lying in bed with the both of them cuddling at my side.
'd.a.m.n'
I did not gave a thought before coming over in their room. I was so occupied of p.i.s.sing off Donna and wanting to get some sleep that I forgot the state of my heart when it comes to Andy.
And of all time, sleep did betray me.
So I was wide awake, staring at the ceiling with the two love birds at my side.
'funny'
But it wasn't that bad after all.
I have this feeling of fear before, that I avoided meeting Andy if possible.
A lot of Erika's invitations were bluntly rejected by me in the past months so as not to ignite the fire I have been quenching.
I was scared that if I meet Andy even once, my buried feelings would come alive.
So it took my all when I accepted Erika's plea of getting everyone together for a drink one night.
And again, everything wasn't really bad as I thought it would be.
Surprisingly, it didn't hurt anymore.
Yeah, I'm not hurt anymore.
Was it just INFATUATION?
No…
I know for myself that it was LOVE and it's real.
You know it's real when it hurts.
And it seriously hurts at that time that it made me devastated for a couple of months.
And now…
Guess this is what it felt like of someone who has moved on.
I know now that it's over.
Well, it never really began but in my heart I know it did.
And now it's over.
So I guess this is 'closure'.
Moving on isn't easy. I'd been sad, angry, devastated but with all my might I continued to live my life without Andy and tried to erase even the thought of her.
It was hard but then... time really heals all wound.
And here I am now, I just woke up one day… not loving Andy anymore, that way.