Life, Once Again! - Chapter 615
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Chapter 615

Chapter 615

The relationship between lovers was a tug of war in the end. It was a fight to see who pulls the rope stronger, and who gets pulled. A relationship where one side is one-sidedly pulling, while the other side is being one-sidedly being dragged will make the involved parties fed up eventually. Only when a change of power happens regularly, so that neither side knows who was in the lead, can a relationship between lovers continue without both sides losing interest. This is why many people think about making changes to their relationship when they find out that they’re scheduling the next date out of habit. They say love will eventually turn into an agreement and a duty, but anyone would want to maintain the ‘love’ in their relationship while they were still lovers. A relationship that’s stimulating and new every time they meet - in order to maintain such a fresh relationship, Maru knew that there needed to be a tug of war with a balance of power, but he couldn’t do that.

He bought a cup of coffee from the cafeteria before walking a lap around the school field. He could hear vocal exercises from the 5th floor of the main building from where he was.

“I am afraid.”

Maru looked down at the half-filled coffee. Daemyung was very adept at observing others. What was surprising was that he didn’t just see the surface; he noticed the underlying meaning behind each of those actions. He might have been born with it, but he probably learned to notice what other people were thinking when he was being bullied, so that he could avoid getting injured, which improved his talents even further.

Daemyung’s words were true. He hit right on the bullseye, rendering Maru unable to retort with a joke like he usually would. When someone got hit on a part that really hurt, that person would not have the leisure to counterattack and would lose strength before avoiding that place altogether.

I am afraid - Maru smiled bitterly as he looked at his eyes reflected in the deep brown surface of the coffee. A relationship always had to be fresh, otherwise, both sides would get fed up. Time did not consolidate relationships. It wasn’t that there was a special reason for long-time lovers turning their backs on each other. Maru listened to his long-time friends whining about breaking up. He couldn’t remember their names, faces, or the specific details of their situation, but he could remember their words to a certain extent.

They… just didn’t have a reason to keep meeting.

There was no grand reason for breaking up. This was especially true in a romantic relationship.

A partner bound by business is generally continuous unless the monetary agreement is broken. For an employer and an employee, as long as there’s a clear employment contract, neither side can break it one-sidedly. However, friendship and romantic relationships didn’t have such clear-cut contracts. Friendship would sometimes mature on its own even if left alone sometimes, but for lovers, that definitely wasn’t the case.

Love, it was such a vague word. No literature anywhere in the world had a clear definition of love. Some called sacrifice the essence of love, while some called devotion the essence of love. Some called overcoming hardships together love, and some called mercy and forgiveness love.

Perhaps the reason why the reasons for lovers breaking up were so bland was precisely because of the vagueness of love.

That was why Maru decided to fit himself into that context. Maru was playing tug of war with Gaeul. However, he never pulled too strongly. He always readied himself to be dragged, and sometimes he would pick up the rope and walk over to her side on his own accord. He knew that the exciting tug of war of love was the route for their relationship to not become worn out, but Maru knew the downsides of that tug of war too well.

A tug of war could only occur when both sides are grabbing the rope. If either side lets go of the rope, it’s no longer a tug of war. It’s just playing with the rope by oneself in a lonely manner.

The reason he showed her a side of him that he did not show others was a way for him to show his struggles. Yes, he was revealing his honest feelings, but at the same time, he was acting cute in front of her. Don’t abandon me - that might be his honest feeling.

Maru emptied the rest of the coffee in one go before crumpling up the paper cup.

Sometimes he thought - why does it have to be her? Rationally speaking, it was definitely strange for him to be so hung up over Gaeul. Indeed, Gaeul was definitely a charming woman. She was lovely, and he thought that he could give her his everything. However, it wasn’t that people were matched 1 to 1 like a puzzle piece. Even if it wasn’t Gaeul, if he looked closely enough, he might find another woman who’s more lovely and would make him want to endear more.

However, from the moment he came back to life, he only thought about Gaeul and wanted her.

Thinking about it closely, it was definitely something strange. Why did he try to regain Gaeul? Was it because he hadn’t given her enough things in his previous life? If he had to come up with a reason, that was the most plausible one. After all, his wife quit doing the plays that she so loved in order to take care of the housework. It wasn’t that he couldn’t understand the compensating mindset, but was that really all? Was that the only reason he did all the things he did in order to meet the woman who was his wife in his previous life and became lovers with her?

“If that’s the case, I guess this is more like redemption, not love, huh.”

It became vague. The thoughts that never came to mind when he pursued blind love and wanted a return of the same love, gained weight with Daemyung’s words and dug into his mind.

Of course, it wasn’t like he was dissatisfied that she was the only woman in his life. It was just that he found it strange, now that he thought about it. What made him want Gaeul so much? Strictly speaking, it was all a matter of the past, so why was he so hung up on her?

Why would there be any reason to like someone? - he tried to think that way and start walking, but the iffyness in his mind still haunted his thoughts. As he climbed up the st