The double doors led to a den. On the desk was an Apple computer.

"Thank you," she whispered and crawled into the room.

She pulled herself up onto a chair. While she didn't have Charlie's pa.s.sword, she could access the guest account, and was able to get on the Internet.

She logged on to her Facebook page and was about to send Trey a message when she realized she didn't know where she was. She needed to search Charlie's office and find an address, anything, but she could barely see, as if everything on the periphery was black and she saw only what was directly in front of her.

She typed Trey a message and hoped it made sense. She didn't know if she had the strength to crawl back to bed, but she had to try. She needed to sleep.

Don't you dare, b.i.t.c.h ...

SEVEN.

At nine a.m. Thursday, Suzanne met Detective Panetta at the Starbucks around the corner from the apartment of their Jane Doe, identified this morning as Jessica Bell. "Light, no sugar," Panetta said and handed Suzanne her coffee.

She didn't hide her surprise. "After all these years, you remembered?"

He grinned. "My ironclad memory keeps my wife happy."

They walked down West 112th Street, St. John the Divine Cathedral at the far cross street. It was a nice, clean neighborhood lined with apartment buildings of various ages, many filled with college students from nearby Columbia University. The wind had died down, but it had been drizzling on and off all morning.

"Did you see the Post?" she asked.

"Couldn't miss it."

"They make us look like idiots."

"You got to ignore them."

"It's hard to ignore a front-page headline."

Suzanne resented the media because they'd f.u.c.ked up one of her cases a few years back. She pushed aside her frustration and changed the subject.

"So you ID'd the victim fast."

"Had it by last night," Panetta said. "She was reported missing by her roommate Monday morning, so we did a photo ID, then had the university send her prints in for confirmation. The coroner confirms that Jessica Bell was dead at least forty-eight hours before her body was found. It'll be hard to get a specific time of death."

"A range?"

"Not longer than a week, more than forty-eight hours. They're performing some advanced tests that could possibly narrow it further, but those results won't be overnight."

"That's good enough for now; we'll be able to establish when her roommate last saw her and go from there. Chances are that she was at that party and died Sat.u.r.day night." Suzanne sipped her coffee as she walked. "She didn't go to that party alone."

"You don't know that for a fact."

"College kids may be idiots with their wild parties and drinking and drugs; they may leave with people they don't know. But going to the party? Girls don't go alone. Maybe guys do, but not girls. Or they meet up with someone when they get there."

"Point taken."

"So why didn't one of her friends say something? Or look for her? Go to the police department and say, Hey, I was at a party with my friend Jessica and she disappeared." Panetta opened his mouth to respond, but Suzanne answered her own question. "Because they'd be busted. Trespa.s.sing. Drunk and disorderly. Vandalism. Underage drinking. Possession of drugs. Whatever it was they were into, it was illegal. But more likely a misdemeanor, and we'd be on the case faster, talk to people faster, track down a witness, and maybe have a f.u.c.king clue who this b.a.s.t.a.r.d is."

Panetta stopped walking and looked at her feet.

She glanced over her shoulder. "What's wrong?"

"Just looking at the soapbox you're standing on."

She grinned and shook her head. "Okay, I know, it's a sore spot for me." They continued walking. "But you have kids, right?"

"Three daughters."

"What would they do?"

"Call me."

"You sure?"

Panetta nodded. "My oldest has never been in any serious trouble, but the other two have called me several times over the years to pick them up from a party where things got out of hand. I told them they'd rather be grounded than dead, and they agreed." He sighed. "My youngest is graduating from high school in June. She's deciding between Boston U and Georgetown."

"Two great schools," Suzanne said, impressed. "I was a Terrier."

"How'd you like Boston?"

She shrugged. "I like Manhattan more." She'd hated Boston, partly because she'd felt sorely out of place there, a conservative small-town Southern girl going to an urbane, big-city university. It was perhaps ironic, she'd ended up falling in love with New York City after the FBI a.s.signed her here when she graduated from Quantico ten years ago. Now she didn't want to leave. She'd turned down a promotion last year because she would have had to move to Montana. New York was cold enough. She'd have been a supervisory special agent in the Helena regional office-a smaller office, different crimes, and in the middle of nowhere. The incremental increase in pay wasn't enough for her to give up fieldwork, and sitting behind a desk issuing orders wasn't her style.

Besides, she'd grown up in the middle-of-nowhere South; she wasn't working in the middle-of-nowhere North.

They stopped in front of Jessica Bell's seven-story apartment building. At one time, the building had been comprised of large one- and two-bedroom apartments; most had been divided and the place was now more like an off-campus studio dormitory than individual apartments.

Jessica Bell's roommate, Lauren Madrid, appeared sh.e.l.l-shocked when she opened the door and faced Suzanne and Detective Panetta. Lauren was a young, attractive, light-skinned Hispanic-a little on the skinny side maybe, thought Suzanne.

"You're here about Jessie."

"May we come in?" Suzanne asked.

Lauren opened the door wider and Suzanne stepped inside. There were two rooms: a small living area with a kitchen, and a bedroom that they shared. Two twin beds on opposite walls could be seen through the open double doors.

Panetta closed the door when Lauren walked to the worn couch and sat down cross-legged. "She's really dead."

"Yes," Suzanne said, taking a seat next to her. "We have some questions, and for us to catch Jessica's killer, it's critically important that you be completely honest with us."

Lauren looked at her quizzically. "Well, yeah, of course."

"When was the last time you saw your roommate?"

"She was here Friday morning when I left for my cla.s.ses. After that I caught a train to Albany, where my parents live. I didn't come home until Sunday night."

"And Jessie wasn't here?"

"No, but I didn't think too much about it, really. I mean, she often stays with her boyfriends."

"Boyfriends? Plural?"

"Well, whoever she's seeing at the time. She didn't like to get attached to anyone. Jessica was kind of wild, but really super nice. My dad has a hard time just paying my tuition, and Jessica took care of November and December rent for me. She didn't take my money when I tried to pay it in January."

"Is Jessica from a wealthy family?" Suzanne asked, though these were hardly luxury accommodations.

Lauren shrugged. "I guess. I don't know."

"Did she have a job?"

"No."

"How long have you known Jessica?"

"Since August. This is my first year, her second. She advertised for a roommate, and we hit it off."

"Did you socialize together?"

"Not really."

Suzanne didn't understand how someone who advertised for a roommate could so easily cover said roommate's rent for two months and not want to be repaid.

Panetta asked, "Do you know Jessica's friends? Does she have a boyfriend? Or an ex-boyfriend?"

"Um," Lauren frowned.

"She had no friends?" Suzanne asked, surprised.

"No, but I don't really know her friends well. She didn't really have a lot of people over here. Oh, there's Josh."

"Boyfriend?"

"Not really, they were more friends with benefits. You know, they had s.e.x but-"

Suzanne cut her off. "I know what friends with benefits means." All too well. "And Josh is a student? Teacher?"

"He's a senior, I think. He lives upstairs, in seven-ten."

After searching Jessica Bell's room and not finding anything useful except an address book and laptop computer-which Suzanne took and gave Lauren a receipt for-they trudged up the three flights to Josh Haynes's apartment.

"Friends with benefits," Panetta grumbled. "I'm not a prude, but to me, s.e.x without love and respect is meaningless."

Maybe, but not always, thought Suzanne. And sometimes, there was affection and respect without love. And why shouldn't she have a guy to expend s.e.xual energy with? She answered her own question. Because there was a double standard, even at the age of thirty-three. Guys could sleep around, but girls-not so much.

After reaching the top-floor hallway, Panetta rapped on Josh Haynes's door. He answered wearing gray sweats and no shirt.

They showed their badges. "We're here about Jessica Bell," Panetta said.

"Is something wrong?"

He seemed concerned, but Suzanne had faced some great criminal actors over the years. Maybe in prison they could brush up on their Shakespeare.

"When was the last time you saw or spoke with Jessica?" Panetta asked.

Josh frowned. "Sat.u.r.day."

When he didn't offer any more detail, Suzanne prompted, "Did you have a date?"

"We went to a party on Sat.u.r.day."

"Where was the party?"

"Brooklyn. I went with her because she was nervous about riding the subway at night, but we didn't hang out. She said she had plans."

"I was under the impression you and Jessie were involved," Suzanne said.

"We weren't dating or anything like that."

"Her roommate said you were sleeping together."

"Well, yeah, sometimes, but we weren't exclusive or anything. We just liked hanging together."

"So you went to this party in Brooklyn. At a vacant warehouse?"

"Is that what this is about? The warehouse? It was just a party."

"Jessica is dead." Panetta was blunt.

Josh blanched. "What?"

"Her body was found fifty yards from the main entrance to the warehouse," Suzanne said.

He shook his head. "But-I-don't-" He stopped, confused, and stepped back.

Suzanne took that as an invitation to enter, and Josh didn't stop them.

Panetta's voice was harsh. "You went to a party with your good friend Jessica, didn't leave with her, and didn't bother to check in with her on Sunday? Or Monday morning?"

"We weren't dating-I don't understand. She's not dead."

"We have a positive ID," Suzanne said, closing the door behind her.