"No. There's a church on Forty-second Street I like to go to now and then. They say the Ma.s.s in Spanish and it sounds like Latin. I do miss the Latin Ma.s.s. I made egg salad sandwiches. I wasn't sure if you eat meat, so many young people don't nowadays."

"Egg salad's one of my favorites. Do you ever notice street characters, Mrs. Ryan? Hustlers and so forth?"

"I try not to, but yes, of course I do. I'm only human."

"Ever see a big white fellow with red hair, a flashy dresser? He crawls around in a red sports car that matches his hair."

"I have seen him, yes."

"Lately? Like over the weekend? Since Thursday, say."

"No, no. I couldn't say when, but I do know that when I did see him, I had the feeling I'd seen him before. Somewhere entirely different."

"You mean not on the street?"

Mrs. Ryan thought about it. "I can't really say. It's like something you almost have and then it goes up in smoke."

Julie was tempted to back off the question that came to her mind, but she asked it: "Would you have seen him anywhere with Pete?"

Mrs. Ryan's eyebrows went up and she pursed her lips. Julie would have given a lot to have been able to track that stream of a.s.sociations.

"I shouldn't think so."

"Meaning you don't want to think so."

"Well, I suppose that's so, and when you first asked, I said to myself, Was it? Something... Oh dear, I'm not much help, am I? When Laura Gibson was alive I was much more alert. She was such a vital body, even toward the end of her life, quick witted. She made a person think."

It was interesting that Laura Gibson had been cued in then. Julie took a bite of her sandwich and let Mrs. Ryan muddle through her memories. Her faded blue eyes were on the crystal ball, not that she was seeing it: it was simply in her line of vision. "Now isn't it strange, I've made a peculiar connection. When Laura finally had to go to the hospital, it was to St. Jude's and I do believe that's where I saw this Mack person."

Julie held her tongue. And her breath.

"He was ordering someone around," Mrs. Ryan went on tentatively. "Laura was having a spasm. I suppose he said, Get the doctor, or something like it. I was just coming in the door so I didn't see much of it. I only guessed what was happening. Or maybe Peter told me."

"Was he there?"

"He was always there. Laura died holding onto his hand."

The question was, What was Mack doing there? Julie asked something she afterwards wished she hadn't: "Could Mack have been visiting one of the other patients?"

"It was a private room."

"Yeah," Julie said, feeling she had interrupted Mrs. Ryan's a.s.sociations. Whatever Mack was doing in the hospital on that occasion, Pete would have known him from there, seeing him afterwards. They would almost certainly have had to meet on the street, in the vicinity, say, of Mr. Bourke's or even in the building where both Pete and Rita lived.

Mrs. Ryan was off on a reverie of her own. "We had such grand times in the Willoughby before that, Julie. Peter had a lovely voice, especially singing Irish songs or reciting poetry. My own father was an Irish rebel and the light of his life was Maude Gonne, a beautiful wild patriot for all that she was an aristocrat. She was the one Yeats wrote the play for that we seen the other night..." Speaking of the Irish, Mrs. Ryan became more Irish. "Sometimes the two of them would pretend at being Yeats and Maude Gonne," she went on, "him pouring out his heart in poetry and swearing he'd marry no woman if she wouldn't have him, and her saying she'd have no man until Ireland was free. It was a queer sort of make-believe between them, her and Peter. She never married, you know, but when she was younger, her affairs were legion. And Peter... We talked about that before, didn't we? Are you a Catholic, Julie?"

The question surprised her. Like a random shot and yet somehow it was relevant. "Can you be part Catholic, Mrs. Ryan?"

"No, dear. If you're part, you're all."

Julie shook her head. "My father was Irish and Catholic."

"Hayes," Mrs. Ryan said.

"That's my married name. I grew up with my mother's maiden name."

"Oh, dear. He was one of those, was he?"

"There were circ.u.mstances," Julie said.

"Don't be so sure. There is nothing annoys me more than the excuses women make for the weakness of Irish men. Have a part of my sandwich. You're skin and bones."

"No more, thank you. You eat it. It's very good."

"I'm not that fond of my own cooking. If you want more information about those days in the hospital, Julie, I know how we can get it. Sheila Brennan is an R.N. and lives at the Willoughby. It was her got Laura into St. Jude's in the first place. I'll find out when she's off duty and bring her around, shall I?"

"Do, and afterwards I'll buy us all a beer at McGowan's."

17.

IT WAS ALMOST FOUR in the afternoon before Julie finished her letter to Jeff. She had been tempted several times to rewrite, having proposed at the outset that it be an orderly chronicle of the events, but the events evaded order. Or her mind did. Questions kept coming up which seemed as important as the incidents that prompted them. In the end, she decided that it was better to get everything on paper than to define "facts" arbitrarily without their qualifying circ.u.mstances. The decision might be a cop-out, but the ten-page letter gave her a veritable catalog of issues without answers. What it would give Jeff was something else.

What became apparent along the way was her own need to know. Her need. Absolutely. If she was going to understand Julie Hayes, understanding Pete Mallory was a part of it.

The letter had not been without interruptions. A female legman (legwoman?) for the columnist with the two P.M. deadline came by. Her boss had a great idea: Julie the occultist's premonition of the murder. No way. Several kids from the Forum stopped. She promised to join them later there and sent word with them to Amy Ross. She persuaded a customer that the next day would be more propitious for an inquiry of the cards.

Adding a postscript to the letter to say that she and Doctor Callahan had postponed the Paris decision for a session or two, she sealed the envelope, locked up shop, and walked to Thirty-fourth Street to mail it at the main post office.

Then she went to see Mr. Bourke. She remarked, going through the shop, that she had never seen a customer on the premises. He was tagging a group of lamps set apart, she guessed, for rental.

"Well, Julie. I didn't expect to see you."

"I don't know why not."

"The police and all. I figured they'd advise you to keep away."

"From what?"

Mr. Bourke sighed heavily. "Contamination. And they'd be right. I must've said it to you before: it's not a place for the likes of you. It wasn't a place for the likes of Pete either. I'll miss that boy in a way n.o.body's going to understand."

"I can try."

"Maybe you," Bourke said. A sad little droop of a smile.

"Have the police been here?"

"Time and again. What could I tell them that they don't already know? Not much they'd want to hear. I missed Pete at St. Malachy's yesterday. He was the lay reader. Do you know what that means?"

"I know. I'd heard him myself."

"Did you?" Bourke took off his gla.s.ses and polished them. "I've been going to that church for forty years. Every Sunday morning my mother and I used to sneak out of the house, leaving the old man to sleep it off, and go to Ma.s.s there. To this day, when I leave a church and dip my fingers in the holy water, I can see her reach out her hand and take a drop from mine." He crossed himself, telling it. "Afterwards, we used to go to the Mayflower Shop and have doughnuts and coffee. Pete and I often did the same thing. A half-hour. We never said much. It was... kind of a rest. For me anyway. There was something-I don't even know if it had to do with G.o.d. Peace, that's what it was about. If I could tell you, I would. You know what it was like? Forgiveness. Two people knowing and forgiving and yet never having to say a word about what."

What did you know? Julie wanted to ask. Forgive what? But she said, "Yeah."

"Well, G.o.d knows what happens now. At the moment, I don't care." He put his gla.s.ses on again, letting them slide down his nose almost at once.

"Did Pete really study to be a priest?"

"Not for long. His people were killed in a car accident and his sister was laid up from it for a long time. He took care of her and went to school part time, art school in Chicago. Then he blew the whole thing and ran away. Too much. Instead of getting better, she got more dependent on him. Like a marriage. He got to hate her and everybody else in the town where they kept saying he was such a good boy."

"Libertytown," Julie said.

"That's the place."

"Do you know Detective Russo?"

"Since he was that high." Bourke held his hand waist level.

"He talked to Pete's sister on the phone Sat.u.r.day night. She was planning to come out to see the Irish Theatre Production."

"Did she tell the police that?"

Julie nodded.

"Even after she knew he was dead, she told it?"

"I think so."

Bourke shook his head. "She wouldn't have come. It was a game they played. Every few months Pete would say, 'I'm going to invite my sister out,' or 'I invited my sister to come and visit me. Where do you think I ought to take her, Philip, besides theater if I can find a play that won't shock her?' They talked about it on the telephone, him and his sister, how she was coming on such and such a date, but she never did come to see him."

"That's wild."

"I suppose it is, but I can understand it. They were probably closer that way than living together."

Oh, boy. Paris or bust.

"When did you first get to know him, Mr. Bourke?"

"I've been trying to think. I must have met him two or three years ago at the Willoughby. There'd be a party at Miss Gibson's-or Mrs. Ryan's. When they'd get feeling good, they'd invite anybody who came along. Like myself. She was a very gracious lady, Miss Gibson. Then after she died, I got to know him better. While she was sick, he'd come in sometimes and talk. And after she died, he'd just come in."

"How was he able to pay her hospital bills?"

"I don't know that."

A cutoff, Julie thought. Too quick. She should not have asked so directly. "But he did, you know."

"I'm not surprised. Now I've got to get these lights together, Julie. They'll be picking them up in an hour or so."

An hour or so was going to be six o'clock. The moonlighters: without whom, as he had told her himself, he could not stay in business.

"About Rita, Mr. Bourke. Did you know she lived in the same building as Pete?"

"Not till I read it in the paper."

"Did you ever see them together?"

"I think I may have introduced them, Julie. A couple of months ago. The vice boys came out full force that night and Rita ducked in here. Pete was here and she asked him if he would do her a favor. She changed clothes in the can in back and he walked out with her. She had one of those knitting bags and he even carried it for her. Half the gals on the street were busted that night. Not her."

"Was she ever busted?"

"Not that I know of. She hadn't been around long then, but she was a pro."

"I was just thinking, she knew how to take care of herself in an emergency, didn't she?"

"You're d.a.m.n right. I resented what she done that night, picking Pete up like that."

"Did you like her? Feel sorry for her? What?"

"Nothing like that." He thought about it for a minute. "What you're asking me, Julie, is why I let her come in here in the first place."

"All right."

"Because I was afraid of Mack and he was the one decided I was going to be her shelter."

"I get it," Julie said, but she didn't, not all of it. "What could he do to you?"

"I don't want to find out."

"Has he got other rackets besides prost.i.tution?"

"I have no idea. Why don't you leave police work to the police?"

"You're right," Julie said. She was only making him more uptight.

To appease her or something like that he said, "How... about that book you were going to lend me?"

"I'll try and remember next time around." She didn't think she was ever going to loan Mr. Bourke that or any book. That notion had come out of another era when she thought everybody was as innocent as she had thought Rita.

By the time Julie got to the Forum Amy had gone, but she had left a note on the message board: "The Master says no memorial here. So that's that." The Master was the director of the Forum. "I left out some sc.r.a.pbooks for you in the library you might like to look at. If you want to call me at home tonight, here's my number."

The stories Amy had marked concerned theater productions in which Pete had been involved. In all the clippings the names of members of Actors Forum had been underlined, the reason for the sc.r.a.pbooks in the first place. A review of the Street Theater Festival carried the picture of Pete that had appeared in that morning's Daily News. "The New York Street Theater troupe took their caravan last night to a vacant lot on Houston Street, the gateway to Little Italy. They set theater back four hundred years. Is that bad? Not as seen by this reviewer. I should think they modeled their wildly improvisational happening on the cla.s.sic Commedia dell'Arte with something for everybody in the family. Pratfalls, mime, political satire all combined to make an hour's hilarious entertainment. Take the balcony scene from Romeo and Juliet: 'O, Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo? Deny thy father and refuse they name... what do you mean, deny my father, refuse my name? I am proud to be an Italian!'