"You won't leave me, will you?"

The question caught him askance.

"No," he said. "I won't."

"Really?"

"I promised," Hicks said. "I promised John and I promised you. I'll stay here for as long as I'm needed."

She opened the door, he opened his, and they both stepped out.

"Are you hungry, Hicks?"

He had tried several times to persuade her to call him Alex, but she always reverted back to the more formal address.

"I am," he said. "What do you fancy? A takeout?"

"No. I've had enough pizza and curry to last a lifetime. I thought I would make something. Dawood basha. Would you like some?"

"I've no idea what that is."

"Syrian meatb.a.l.l.s. The meat is flavoured and cooked in a tomato sauce. It is very good."

"Lovely." He locked the car and walked her to the entrance of the flat. He opened the door and stood aside as she went in. "Do you need anything?"

"I could use some ghee," she said. "I don't have much left."

"I'll get some."

HICKS WENT back outside and ambled to the shops on Old Street. He thought about what she had told him. There had been no mention of her boyfriend until then, and, although she had made a joke about it, even Hicks could see that her words were an indication of something that bothered her at a deep level. He was no psychologist, but the diagnosis was, surely, elementary. Her father and then her boyfriend; it wasn't their fault that they had been killed, but their losses had imbued her with a sense of abandonment and an almost const.i.tutional distrust of attachment. It wasn't unreasonable.

Hicks realised how difficult it must have been for her to trust Milton and then, as Milton left, to trust him.

He remembered the comment she had made about the radio and remembered that there was a place that sold cheap electrical goods next to the supermarket. He walked up to it and paused, gazing in through the plate-gla.s.s window. There were vacuum cleaners, kitchen appliances, game consoles and, to one side, a digital radio. The proprietor was in the process of closing up. Hicks opened the door and went inside.

SARAH TOLD HIM TO WAIT IN THE SITTING ROOM.

He did as he was told, inhaling the delicious aromas that were spilling out of the open kitchen door. He smelled cooked beef, sauteed onions, tomato and a confection of spices that he couldn't identify but which, nevertheless, smelled appetising.

Hicks left the digital radio on the table.

Sarah came through after ten minutes. She was carrying two bowls, one in her right hand and the other braced between her elbow and wrist, and, in the other hand, she clutched the necks of two bottles of beer. Hicks sat up straight and took the balanced bowl and one of the beers. The meal was appetising: browned meatb.a.l.l.s in a thick tomato sauce, served with rice.

"This looks good," he said, slicing through one of the meatb.a.l.l.s with his fork.

"What's that?" she said, nodding at the box on the table.

"It's for you," he said.

"What is it?"

"Open it."

She rested her plate of food on the table and took the box out of the plastic bag.

"A radio?"

"You said you missed yours. I thought it might make things a little easier. And, you know, driving with you in the car-I've had enough R&B to last me a lifetime."

She slid her finger inside the box, pulled back the flap and took out the radio. It was a cheap model, a little flimsy, but she made no comment. Instead, she put it back on the table and turned to him. Her face, usually so severe, became bright and open, and a broad smile revealed her white teeth and the sparkle in her eyes.

"Thank you," she said. "You didn't have to do that. You've already done a lot for me."

"Forget it. I thought you'd appreciate it."

"I do," she said. "It's very kind of you."

She held his eye for a moment, long enough for him to feel a twist of awkwardness in his gut. Hicks looked into her dark hazel eyes, noticed that he was holding his breath and, perturbed, looked down at the bowl and started to eat. After another moment, Sarah did the same.

THE REST of the evening was very pleasant. Hicks helped Sarah to set up the radio and, after five minutes of frustration trying to interpret a manual that had been put together by someone with only a pa.s.sing familiarity with the English language, they succeeded. Hicks sat down with a second bottle of beer as Sarah scanned through the channels and, with a grin that underlined that she was choosing for his benefit, settled on Absolute 80s.

"I'm not that old," he complained.

She ignored his protest, waited until the end of the ads and the start of 'Living on the Ceiling' by Blancmange and then went to sit down in the armchair. She reached out for the packet of cigarettes she had left on the table, took one out and reached back down for her lighter.

"John said-"

"He won't mind," she interrupted, lighting up.

The mood between them was as amiable as it had ever been, and Hicks had no interest in spoiling it over a cigarette or two. He leaned back against the cheap sofa's marked upholstery, took a swig of his beer, and allowed himself to relax.

HICKS OPENED HIS EYES. He didn't know what time it was, nor how long he had been asleep, but he realised, quickly, what had awoken him.

Someone was in the room with him. His view was obscured by the armrest of the sofa, but he could see a shadow in the doorway.

He lay still, but slowly reached his hand beneath the cushion that he had been resting his head upon. His fingers touched the stippled grip of his Sig. He closed his hand around it and threaded his finger through the trigger guard.

The shadow stepped toward the sofa. There was a shaft of sodium-yellow street light that cut through a gap in the curtain, and Hicks could see that it was a woman. It was Sarah. She was wrapped in a sheet. She sat on the edge of the sofa, reached down for the edge of his blanket, pulled it aside, and slithered across the cushions and leaned down so that she was pressed up against him. He could feel the softness of her b.r.e.a.s.t.s against his chest and the hard angle of her hip as she ground it against his.

Hicks let go of the pistol and sat up.

"Alex?"

It was the first time that she had called him by his first name. He shuffled away from her.

"What's the matter?"

The sheet fell away and Hicks could see the fullness of her body in the silvery light.

"No, Sarah. That's a really bad idea."

"Why not?"

"I can't."

"You don't like me?"

"I didn't say that."

"You don't think I'm pretty?"

"You're very pretty."

"What, then?"

"My wife. I told you-I'm married."

"Why would she need to know?"

Hicks slid farther away and then stood. "You're very beautiful," he said, "and you're very sweet. But I love my wife. I'm faithful to her. I'm not interested in anyone else."

Sarah reached down for the sheet and wrapped it around herself. She stood, but then paused. "Please?" she said. "Can I stay with you? Just for tonight. I'm afraid."

"No," Hicks said. "I can't."

"What about John?"

"I can't speak for him."

"Would he like me?"

"I don't know. But I think he would say the same thing: it's not a very good idea. It's the last thing you need. Work out what you want to do next. You don't need to hurry into a relationship with a man you don't know."

"Who said I wanted a relationship?"

"No." Hicks crossed to her, put his hand on her shoulder and gently impelled her toward the door. "Get some sleep. You must be tired. We'll forget this happened in the morning."

She didn't say another word, but left the room and made her way down the hallway to the bedroom. Hicks waited and watched until she was inside the room and the door had been closed behind her. He shut the door to the reception room, went back to the sofa, lay down again and covered himself with the blanket.

He tried to sleep, but he couldn't. He thought about what had happened. He had done the right thing. He would never have cheated on his wife, and certainly not with a girl who was as plainly vulnerable as Sarah. But that vulnerability worried him. What was it that she wanted? It wasn't about him. He was too old, he wasn't particularly good looking and, most of all, she hardly knew him.

It was the fact that Sarah was vulnerable. She was young, in a country that she didn't know, a country where she had no friends, and she was frightened. She wanted to feel protected, and she was prepared to give herself to a man she didn't know in order to forge a relationship and make that possible.

And Hicks had shunned her.

He got up and went to the front door. The key was still in the lock. He checked again that he had locked it and withdrew the key. He turned and looked down the hallway at the door to her room. It was shut and there was no sound from inside.

Hicks took the key back to the sofa, put it under the cushion next to his pistol, and closed his eyes again.

He could still see her standing naked in the doorway.

Vulnerable.

They would have to talk.

Chapter Thirty-Seven.

THE PREVIOUS NIGHT'S EVENTS were on Hicks's mind when he awoke the next morning. He got off the sofa and paused at the door, listening intently. He couldn't hear anything. He reached for the door, almost reluctant to open it, and, when he did, he stepped through with a sheepishness that he knew was ridiculous.

The door to the bedroom was closed. Hicks went to it and listened; he could hear the sound of her breathing.

That, at least, was good. She was still here.

He went into the bathroom, locked the door behind him, and stripped off for a shower.

SARAH WAS waiting for him in the sitting room when he came out.

Hicks looked at her: her eyes were rimmed with red. She had been crying.

"Look-"

She interrupted him. "No," she said.

"About last night-"

"There is no need to talk about it."

"I just don't want you to feel uncomfortable."

She stared at him scornfully. "Why would I feel uncomfortable? I have been selling my body for weeks. Why would I care what you think?"

He felt awkward, unexpectedly put onto the back foot. He knew that he should probably take her invitation and let the matter drop, but he couldn't. "I don't want there to be a bad atmosphere between us. I promised John that I would look after you until he gets back, and I will."