Make love to me.

It felt like I might die if I couldn't have her, if I couldn't grant her wishes.

"You have no idea how badly I need to be inside of you right now."

"Please...I don't want to have the talk tonight, okay?"

Getting that taste of her had weakened all of my inhibitions, turning me into a virile beast. In that moment, I could resist Nina no more than a druggie could resist a vial of heroine hanging over his nose.

Wrong or right ceased to exist as I stood before her blinded by an uncontrollable need. I knew I was giving in, because the risk of never having this opportunity again was a significant one, especially after the way she reacted about Desiree. Selfishly, I convinced myself that if given the chance to own her body tonight, I could wreck her for anyone else, make her mine and increase the likelihood that she wouldn't be able to leave me.

I'd made the decision to take what I needed. Knowing already what the answer would be, I made her a proposition to at least help ease my conscience. "Nina, either we have this talk now, or you are going to have to make me a blind promise."

"Okay..."

She was scared. When a teardrop fell down her cheek, I placed my tongue along her skin, licking it away as I whispered against her face, "I need you to promise me...that you won't leave me."

She silently and repeatedly nodded against my forehead.

"Make sure you mean that. Because I can't make love to you the way I want to tonight, only to lose you the next day. It will f.u.c.king destroy me. I need to know you'll be mine no matter what I throw at you. Promise me."

"I'm yours. I have never belonged to anyone before...but I know that I belong to you."

"Look at me and say it."

"I'm yours. There is nothing that could make me leave you, because I don't think I could live without you."

That was all I needed to hear. Those words meant more to me than anything, and I prayed that she was telling the truth. I searched her eyes for any hints of hesitation; there were none. It didn't take much convincing for my weakened mind and body to agree that it was okay to trust her, okay to give in. Pulling her into me, I knew that this time I wasn't letting go. "Well, that's good, because I wasn't living before you."

I stayed holding her, letting the heat of her body evaporate all remnants of doubt within me.

The words that came out of her next confirmed there was no going back.

"I need you to f.u.c.k me, Jake."

We'd started off slow and steady. I'd undressed her down to her underwear, and we just explored each other's mouths for a while. She kept tugging at my lip ring with her teeth while her bare t.i.ts rubbed against my shirt. It was driving me insane, and it wasn't long before I'd lose the ability to go easy on her.

She whimpered as I lowered my mouth onto her nipple and sucked hard before switching over to the other side.

"Does that hurt?"

"No...feels good."

I sucked harder, unable to fully believe she'd given me free reign of the beautiful rack I'd spent months worshipping from afar. Her skin was soft, and sweet, and I couldn't wait to mark every inch of her body.

As I continued feasting on her, she placed her hand on my d.i.c.k, which was bursting through my jeans. She sighed when she got a load of how hard I was.

I clamped down on her nipple gently with my teeth and released it. "Now you know what you do to me. I want to feel what I do to you."

Nudging at her underwear, I slipped my finger inside of her warm opening. She was so incredibly wet that I could hear it as I moved in and out of her repeatedly for minutes. At one point, her p.u.s.s.y was starting to convulse around my hand, so I pulled out before she could come. Unable to resist, I slowly licked every drop of her off of my fingers and moaned, savoring the sweet and salty taste.

"You taste better than I could have imagined."

"I almost came," she said.

"I know. I almost lost it myself because I love how turned on you are. That's why I stopped. But that's not how I want your first time with me to happen. And believe me, Nina, this is gonna be your real first time."

According to Nina, she'd never come during s.e.x in her life. Being the first man to make that happen was a challenge I was happy to take on and planned to succeed multiple times tonight. How it was going to happen first was the question.

She needed to lose the panties. I pulled her underwear down and took her in as she stood completely naked before me. A thin landing strip of hair barely covered her beautiful p.u.s.s.y. My beautiful p.u.s.s.y now. My mouth watered with a need to devour it. So, I decided that I'd bring her to o.r.g.a.s.m with my mouth first.

Feeling like the luckiest man on Earth, I grabbed her face and pulled her into a pa.s.sionate kiss.

"You're the most beautiful woman in the entire world."

"I want to see you naked too," she said.

I smiled over her mouth and in a low and seductive voice said, "Undress me. I'm yours."

I watched as her tiny fingers worked to undo the b.u.t.tons of my shirt. She kissed and ran her tongue slowly over the rippling muscles of my chest and abs as if she were worshipping me. She traced lines over my tats with her tongue. My heart was beating a mile a minute from the intensity of feeling her mouth on my body for the first time.

My d.i.c.k twitched in antic.i.p.ation as she undid my jeans. When she tried to take my boxer briefs off, I grabbed her wrist to stop her.

"I think we need to keep these on for a little while."

"How come?"

"Because I don't want to lose control and bury myself inside of you before I have the chance to make you come with my mouth. Lay down, beautiful."

I hovered over her and over the next several minutes worked my mouth slowly down her body from one set of lips down to the other.

"Open your legs wide for me, Nina."

She seemed hesitant, giving the impression that no one had ever done this to her.

More insistently, I repeated, "Wider."

I stopped for a few moments to just appreciate the vision of her spread eagle before me. My lips trembled with need as they lowered down onto her. The second the tip of my tongue landed on her p.u.s.s.y, my c.o.c.k began to painfully throb. My mouth opened and closed over her wet folds, alternating between kissing, licking and sucking her tender c.l.i.t. Each time the ball of my tongue ring would lap over it, she'd writhe under me, whimpering and kicking her legs.

I'd gone down on women before. The turn on had always been derived from simply knowing that I was giving pleasure to someone else. It was different for me with Nina. Not only was I getting off on pleasuring her, but even more, I couldn't seem to get enough of her taste, of her heat, of her wet arousal on my tongue. I was consuming her greedily like I was starving and couldn't stop. I was torn between never wanting her to come so that I could continue on endlessly and wanting so badly to feel her coming on my face.

Her legs were becoming more fidgety and her breathing irregular. It seemed like she was holding back, trying to prolong it.

"It's okay...let go," I said.

When it seemed like she couldn't take anymore, I decided to stop for a bit to see what would happen. I stuck my fingers inside of her again and rubbed her c.l.i.t with my thumb.

Her voice was groggy. "Jake..."

"What do you want, Nina? Say it."

"I want you to lick me there again."

"Good, because I want to taste you while you come."

She surrendered the instant my mouth bore down on her p.u.s.s.y again. Her muscles pulsated against my insatiable tongue as she dug her nails into my hair. We screamed out in unison, her hips bucking as I moaned into her, lapping up every last bit of her o.r.g.a.s.m.

As she slowly came down from her climax, I rested my head on her stomach, licking the remnants of her sweet come off my lips. I then slowly kissed my way up her body to her mouth, wanting her to taste herself on me.

So painfully hard from what had just taken place, waiting much longer to be inside of her was not an option.

"I want more," she breathed out.

"Now, I want...you."

Nina surprised me when she took the initiative to pull my boxer briefs down. My fully erect c.o.c.k sprung forward, glistening with prec.u.m. She wrapped her tiny hand around my girth and began to stroke me. The euphoric feeling of her touching me was too much to bear, so I got up, kneeling over her. She stared at me in awe, like she was surprised at the sheer size of me. That look of wonder on her face caused more beads of wetness to build at my tip. I enjoyed watching her face as she continued to size me up. When she took my c.o.c.k in her hand again, I almost lost it.

"Stop," I urged.

I grabbed a condom as fast as I could, ripping it open with my teeth and sheathing myself. I stopped to look down at her, relishing the last moments before she'd be fully and wholly mine. I wanted so badly to tell her that I loved her but didn't have the courage yet. Despite her giving herself to me, I was still terrified of losing her tomorrow, and that fueled the urgent need to be inside of her.

Lowering myself between her legs, I waited before moving in, knowing that I would want to see the look on her face the second I entered her.

"I want you to forget the other s.e.xual experiences you think you had because this is your first time. You will always belong to me and unlike your p.r.i.c.k ex-boyfriend, I'm gonna finish the job."

Her chest was heaving as she looked up at me in antic.i.p.ation. I ran my nose slowly and teasingly along her neck to take in her smell a final time before claiming her.

Her eyes flew open wide, and she winced as I pushed inside of her in one slow but intense movement. My eyes shut in ecstasy upon feeling her tight, wet p.u.s.s.y wrapped around my d.i.c.k. For several minutes, a fear of hurting her caused me to move slower than I could stand.

"You're so tight, Nina. So f.u.c.king tight. I wasn't expecting it to feel like this at all. It's too good...too hard for me to want to go easy on you."

I knew I needed more, to f.u.c.k her harder, rougher, but in discovering how small she was, I wondered if she would even be able to take it.

As if she could read my mind, she said, "f.u.c.k me harder, then."

"You sure you can take it, baby?"

"Yes." She inhaled deeply before exhaling. "Please."

"You don't have to ask me twice."

She screamed out as I rammed into her, "f.u.c.k!"

With each thrust, she seemed to stretch, gradually molding to me. As I moved in and out of her body, I spoke into her ear, "Nothing's ever felt like this. You've ruined me." I whispered even lower, "You've ruined me."

"Oh G.o.d...don't stop. Go deeper."

Pumping in and out of her as I lightly bit her shoulder, it was hard to keep myself from coming.

"You're gonna feel this tomorrow," I said into her ear. "You'll still feel me inside of you."

"Good. That's what I want. I want it to hurt."

s.h.i.t.

Her words egged me on as I f.u.c.ked her harder.

"You...belong...to me now, Nina."

She spoke through heavy breaths, "I've belonged to you from the moment you said 'hi, I'm Jake.'"

We laughed against each other's mouths as I continued to pound into her as the bed squeaked over and over. Her sweet words cut deep. I'd always felt that way, too. Somehow, she'd owned me from the beginning even when it didn't make sense to feel that way about a stranger.

When her hands landed on my a.s.s, I let out a growl. That was a serious weak spot for me.

We continued to f.u.c.k hard until I sensed she couldn't take it any longer. Her p.u.s.s.y had clenched around me as she closed her eyes tightly.

"Open them. Look at me. I want to look in your eyes when we come together."

I knew no matter what happened that I would never forget that moment. She held my face in her hands, and our eyes locked. When she screamed out in pleasure, every ounce of fear, every emotion I'd ever felt toward her, all of the love exploded out of me as I came in an o.r.g.a.s.m so intense, it seemed like it might never end.

As my seed spilled inside of her, I silently mouthed, I love you. I love you. I love you.

We'd stayed up for hours f.u.c.king to the point of near exhaustion. She wasn't going to be able to walk straight, and it still hadn't been enough for me.

Not only had last night done a number on us physically, but now, almost nothing had been left unsaid.

Nina had nodded off around one in the morning. Watching her sleep had made me restless, and I needed something to get my mind off the day ahead since we'd agreed to have the talk as soon as I came home from work.

I used the opportunity to write her a poem, putting down on paper what I was afraid I'd never be able to articulate in the right way. At the end of it, I finally used the 'L' word.

And as I lay here watching her sleep, I realize my feelings run deep.

Because they burn and cut like a knife.

I think I love her more than life.

Sleep claimed me shortly after I wrote it. Nina had woken up first around 2 a.m. and had found the poem. The very first thing that came out of her mouth when I woke to find the white piece of paper in her hand was, "I love you, Jake." She'd said it with no hesitation, as if the words were always there at the tip of her tongue waiting to come out.

As beautiful as it was to finally hear them, they also stung in light of this being the day I had to tell her I was married.

Would she still love me?

The clock showed 5:30 a.m. now. She'd finally gone back to sleep around four. My bladder was ready to explode. Even though the thought of leaving her for even a second bothered me, I needed to get up to take a p.i.s.s.