'I'm sorry,' he said.

'So am I.'

He couldn't bear leaving right away as she proposed. The thought of driving home in this hostile silence appalled him. You don't leave anywhere like that: it would feel too irresistibly as though they were leaving each other. Better to sit tight, with throbbing temples, and wait for the mood to change. How many marriages might have been saved if only the parties to it had waited a days, weeks, months, it didn't matter a for the mood to change?

'Let's get your phone fixed and then go,' he said.

He wanted to be back where they were before the swearing. And he was anxious to show her that her concerns were foremost in his mind. It was concern for her after all, his desperation to get her back to the hotel so she could sleep off her migraine, that made him fight for the taxi. Unless it was the responsibility he felt for her that had unhinged him. Was he not up to the job of looking after a woman? Did fear of failure unman him?

'I don't care about my phone,' she said.

'But I do. And I'd like an errand to clear my head.'

'To clear your head!'

'To clear both our heads.'

'So how do you propose we do this? Go outside and hail a taxi?'

So the punch came, whoever delivered it. But he still refused to capitulate to what it could have meant had he let it.

'I'll get the hotel to call us one,' he said.

He said it firmly. He was not going to allow looking after a woman to emasculate him.

v It took an hour for a taxi to arrive but when it did the driver swung out of his cab to greet them, bowed low, introduced himself as Ranajay Margolis, looked up at the rain and produced an umbrella as a magician might produce a wand. He insisted on opening the passenger doors for them, one at a time, Ailinn's first.

Struck by his manners, Kevern asked where he was from originally.

Ailinn dug him. He had lived too long in Port Reuben where a black or Asian face was seldom seen. No one had entered the country from anywhere else for a long time. Every person's country of origin a regardless of whether they were a Margolis or a Gutkind a was this one. Wasn't that what made now so much better than then?

Kevern didn't mind the dig. So long as she was digging him they were together.

Ranajay Margolis was amused. He almost danced himself back into his seat. 'I am from here,' he said. 'As for originally that depends how far back you want me to go. Where are you from originally?'

Kevern held up a hand. He took the point.

Ailinn explained that they wanted to get her phone fixed.

'I'm just the man,' the driver said in his quicksilver manner, turning round frequently and flashing them his snowy teeth, 'but first I'll give you a tour.'

'We don't want a tour, thank you,' she said. 'Just my phone fixed.'

'There are special places for that,' the driver said. 'I know them all. But they aren't easy to find and some of them aren't very trustworthy.'

'We know, that's why we're asking you to take us.'

He bowed as he was driving. 'You sure you don't want a tour?'

'Certain.'

'In that case,' he said, raising a finger like an exclamation mark, as though to punctuate a great idea that had just come to him, 'we will have to go to where the Cohens lived.'

'The Cohens! I'm a Cohen,' Kevern said. He felt a burst of excitement as he said it. Ranajay Margolis had asked him where he was from originally. What if he was from here? Would he encounter people who looked like him on the streets? Uncles, nieces, cousins? Would they be sitting on benches a so many tall, angel-haired 'Cocos' with long faces a minding their language and wondering what their lives amounted to?

Ranajay studied his reflection in the driver's mirror. 'No,' he explained, 'I mean real Cohens.'

Kevern offered to show him his ID.

Ranajay shook his head. 'That changes nothing,' he said.

They drove north for about half an hour, along tense, surly streets, past stores selling Turkish vegetables, and then stores selling Indian vegetables, and then stores selling Caribbean vegetables, until they came to a suburb of houses built in a bygone, faraway style, Greek temples, Elizabethan mansions, woodland cottages, Swiss chalets, Malibu country clubs. No film set could have suggested lavish living with so little subtlety. But whatever their original ostentation, the mansions housed more modest domestic ambitions now. Indian children played on the street or stared out at the taxi through upper-storey windows. A handful of men in open-necked shirts played cards under a portico that might once have sheltered foreign dignitaries and maybe even royalty as they drank cocktails. Perhaps because no one could afford their upkeep, some of the grandest dwellings had fallen into disuse. Colonnades crumbled. Corinthian columns that must once have glowed with the phosphorescence of fantasy were dull in the drizzle, in need of replastering and paint. Yet this was no slum. Those houses that were inhabited looked cared for, the neat gardens and net curtains, the atmosphere of quiet industry a even the card-playing was businesslike a mocking the grandeur of those who'd originally occupied them. Many of the garages, large enough to take a fleet of Hollywood limousines a one for him, one for her, and something only marginally smaller for Junior a served as electrical or mechanics workshops and even retail outlets, though it was hard to imagine any passing trade. Signs promised prompt and efficient repairs to utility phones and consoles. Black-eyed adolescent boys sat cross-legged on walls, engrossed in their electronic toys, as though to advertise the competence of their parents' businesses.

The Cohens had lived here, Ranajay had said. What did he mean? Had it been a Cohen colony? Cohentown? He was adamant, anyway, that no Cohens lived here now, and that Kevern's family never had. But who was he to say that? How did he know?

Kevern's parents would never tell him where they had come from. It didn't matter, they'd said. It wasn't important. Don't ask. The question itself depressed and enraged them. Maybe it reminded them of their sin in marrying. But his father had warned him off the Necropolis. 'Don't go there,' he had said, 'it will dismay and disappoint you.' But he hadn't said 'Don't go to Cohentown, it will disappoint you.' Just don't go anywhere. Just stay in Port Reuben which a he might have added a will also disappoint you.

He didn't see how he could be disappointed when he had no expectations. But he had been excited when Ranajay had said Cohens had lived here. So there must have been some expectation in him somewhere, some anticipation, at least, that he had known nothing about.

Cohentown a why not?

What do I feel, he asked himself, thinking he should feel more.

What he felt was oppressed, as though there was thunder about.

He asked to be let out of the cab so he could smell the air. 'There's no air to smell,' Ranajay Margolis said. 'Just cooking.'

'Cooking's fine.'

Ranajay was insistent. 'Come. I will take you to the best place to have your phone fixed. I can get you a good deal.'

'Just give me a minute. I want to see if anything comes back to me.'

'You were never here,' Ranajay insisted. 'It's not possible.'

'I think that's for me to decide,' Kevern said.

Ranajay blew out his cheeks, stopped the car, got out with his umbrella, and opened Kevern's door. A group of children looked up, not curiously, not incuriously. He bore no resemblance to them but they weren't amazed by his presence. He had a thought. Were they used to sentimental visitors? Did other members of his family turn up here periodically to find themselves, to smell the air and see what they could remember?

This was silly. There were countless Cohens in the world. There was no reason to suppose that the Cohens whose neighbourhood, according to Ranajay, this had been, were his Cohens. But he fancied he would know if he stood here long enough. Birds navigate vast distances to find their way home. They must be able to tell when they are getting close. They must feel a pounding in their hearts. Why shouldn't he, navigating time, feel the same?

Most of the houses had long drives, but one had a front door on the street. He wondered if he dared look through the letter box, see if the silk runner was rumpled, see if the utility phone was winking on the hall table. But there were old newspapers stuffed into the letter box. Looking up, he saw that a number of the windows were broken. The disuse of this house suited him better than the subdued occupancy of the others. In the disuse he might reconnect to a line of used-up Cohens past. He closed his eyes. If you could hear the sea in a washed-up shell why shouldn't he hear the past in this dereliction? You didn't begin and end with yourself. If his family had been here he would surely know it in whatever part of himself such things are known a at his fingertips, on his tongue, in his throat, in the throbbing of his temples. Ghosts? Of course there were ghosts. What was culture but ghosts? What was memory? What was self? But he knew the danger of indulging this. Yes, he could persuade himself that the tang of happy days, alternating with frightful event, came back to him a kisses and losses, embraces and altercations, love, heartbreak, shouting, incest . . . whatever his father and mother had concealed from him, whatever they had warned him would dismay and disappoint him were he to recover any trace of it.

His temples throbbed all right. And since he was not given to migraines they must have throbbed with something else. Recollection? The anticipation of recollection? But it was so much folly. He was no less able to imagine fondness or taste bitter loss while sitting on his bench in Port Reuben. So Cohens had lived here once. And been happy and unhappy as other families had been. So what!

And anyway, anyway for Christ's sake! a it came as a shock to him to remember a Cohen was as much a given name as Kevern. He didn't know what his family name had really been when Cohens who were really Cohens roamed Cohentown. Cadwallader, maybe. Or Chygwidden. What was he doing chasing a past associated with a name that wasn't even his?

But then that precisely was the point, wasn't it. No one was meant to know who was, or who had been, who. No one was meant to track himself or his antecedents down. Call me Ishmael. Life had begun again.

Ailinn had come out of the cab and was watching him. 'Are you all right, my love?' she asked.

His relief knew no bounds. She'd called him 'my love'. Which must have meant the wretched taxi incident had been forgiven. He wanted to kiss her in the street. He took her hand instead and squeezed it.

He nodded. 'There's a strange atmosphere of squatting here,' he said, noticing a mother coming out to check on her children, and maybe on him too. He was struck by how softly she padded, as though not to wake the dead. 'They have the air of living lives on someone else's grave.'

'That's a quick judgement to leap to,' Ailinn laughed. 'You've been here all of five minutes!'

'It's not a judgement. I'm just trying to describe what I feel. Don't you think there's a queer apprehensive silence out here?'

'Well if there is, it might be caused by the way you're staring at everyone. I'd be apprehensive if I had you outside my door, trying to describe what you feel. Let's go now.'

'I don't know what it is,' he continued. 'It's as though the place is not possessed by its inhabitants.'

This annoyed Ranajay. 'These people live here quite legally,' he said. 'And have done for long, long times.'

'Don't worry,' Kevern said, 'I'm not claiming anything back.'

'It was never yours,' Ranajay said. 'Not possible.'

Never yours, like yesterday's taxi. Like Ailinn's honour in the cafe. Did ownership of everything have to be fought for in this city?

Ailinn feared that if Kevern didn't back off, their driver would leave them here. And then let Kevern see how unpossessed by its inhabitants it was. She lightly touched Ranajay's arm. 'I don't think he means to imply it was his,' she said.

Kevern suddenly felt faint. 'Let's get your phone fixed and then go back to the hotel,' he said. 'I've had enough of here.'

He climbed back into the taxi, not waiting for her to get in first.

He had heard his mother's voice. 'Kevern,' she called. Just that. 'Key-vern' a coming from a long way away, not in pain or terror, but as though through a pain of glass. Then he thought he heard the glass shatter. Could she have broken it with her voice?

It made no sense that she should be calling him. She hadn't been a Cohen except by marriage to his father, unless . . . but he wasn't thinking along those lines today, so why should he hear her calling to him in Cohentown?

Calling him in, or warning him to turn away? Away, he thought. He could even feel her hands on his chest. Go! Leave it, your father is right, it will dismay and disappoint you.

Such a strange locution: dismay and disappoint. Like everything else they'd ever told him a distant and non-committal. As though they were discussing a life that didn't belong to them to a son who didn't belong to them either.

It had always been that way. Even as they sat on the train going east, looking out at the snow, there was no intimacy. When the train finally pulls into the little station other families will be counted, sent this way and that way, and where necessary ripped from one another's arms. How does a mother say goodbye to her child for the last time? What's the kindest thing a to hang on until you are prised apart by bayonet, or to turn on your heels and go without once looking back? What are the rules of heartbreak? What is the etiquette?

Kevern wonders which course his parents will decide on when the time comes and the soldiers subject them to their hellish calculus. Then, as though prodded by a bayonet himself, he suffers an abrupt revulsion, like a revulsion from sex or the recollection of shame, from the ghoulishness of memories that are not his to possess.

Appalled, Kevern hauls himself back from the stale monotony of dreams. Always the same places, the same faces, the same fears. Each leaking into the other as though his brain has slipped a cog. Dementia must be like this, nothing in the right place or plane, but isn't he a bit young for that? So he climbs, so he climbed, so he will go on climbing, back into the taxi taking him away, feeling fraudulent and faint.

Now it was Ranajay's turn to wonder if he'd caused offence. 'I'm only meaning this for your husband's sake,' he said to Ailinn, starting the vehicle up again. 'He could not ever have lived here. There is no one now existing who lived here.'

He looked as though he was going to cry.

'It's all right,' she said, putting an arm around Kevern who seemed to have snapped into a sleep. He hadn't fainted. Just gone from waking to sleeping as if at a hypnotist's command.

Ranajay was beside himself with distress. 'My fault, my fault. I shouldn't have brought you to this part,' he said.

'There is no reason why you shouldn't have brought us here,' Ailinn assured him. She felt she had spent the entire day making life easier for men. 'We asked you to.'

He inclined his head. 'Thank you,' he said. 'I am sure your husband is mistaken. There is no one left from here. They went away a long time ago. Before memory.'

Shut up, she wanted to scream. Shut up now!

But it pleased her that he had called Kevern her husband. Husband a she liked the ring of it. Husband, I come. Who was it who said that? How she would have felt to hear herself called Kevern's wife she wasn't sure. But OK, she thought, no matter that he had been half-crazed the entire time they'd been away. Yes, on the whole, OK. There were worse men out there.

They never did get her phone fixed. It would take three to five working days for the parts to arrive. And they weren't intending to stay around that long. She'd buy another.

They drove home to Port Reuben later that afternoon in careful, contemplative silence, neither wanting to discomfort the other with so much as a word or a thought. Every subject seemed fraught. They were both greatly on edge, but were still unprepared for what they found on their return. Someone had been inside the cottage.

'I knew it,' Kevern said before he had even turned the key in the door. 'I have known it the whole time we were away.'

'Are you absolutely certain?' Ailinn asked.

It was late and they were tired. The moon was full and a full moon plays tricks with people's senses. He could have been mistaken.

They had to shout over the roaring of the blowhole. No, he wasn't mistaken. He had looked through his letter box and what he had seen he had seen.

His silk runner had been interfered with.

How did he know that?

It was straight.

BOOK TWO.

All that most maddens and torments; all that stirs up the lees of things; all truth with malice in it; all that cracks the sinews and cakes the brain; all the subtle demonism of life and thought; all evil, to crazy Ahab were visibly personified and made practically assailable in Moby Dick.

Herman Melville

ONE.