Chapter 99.2

99 Part 2

Hearing this made Song Yiming ache at heart. So his actions beforehand were really bothering his lover after all? He shouldve thought of a way to suppress his dark side, even though it seemed impossible.

Im happy, not because you suppressed your temper and didnt sabotage this effort, Su Yu stared deep into Song Yimings eyes without blinking, Im happy because I feel like you finally trust me completely.

His heart speeding up, Song Yimings voice was trembling. Ive always trusted you. I trust you completely.

I know you think so, but you didnt. Su Yus fingers drew circles on Song Yimings back, not in an attempt to seduce him. He saw how tense his lovers body was and couldnt help but feel bad for him. You dont want me to know about your dark side because youre afraid of hurting me, even though its part of you. But sometimes you cant control your emotions, right?

Wanting to open his mouth and deny it, Song Yiming couldnt speak a single word. Instead he pressed his lips together hard. He was panicking, the suppressed part inside his heart telling him over and over again that he might lose the most important part of his life.

Just like each time his lover spoke to others, smiled at others, Song Yiming felt like they would steal away his one and only treasure. So he had to lock down his lover, never allowing those people to have their way.

He kept telling himself that these thoughts were wrong, that they would hurt Su Yu, but it didnt work. Those dark thoughts kept emerging, leaving him no place to hide.

Messy thoughts congregated in his head, his heart bitter and sore. He reached for Su Yus arm instinctively, his voice low and dry. Are you going to leave me?

Su Yu sighed internally. Of course he could tell what kind of struggle and helplessness his lover was going through. His original plan was to just wait for a while and let time heal these things. But what he discovered was that with his lovers personality if he let things develop naturally it wouldnt lead to the most perfect happy ending (of course, it would still be better than it wouldve without him there).

Some things are imprinted in your bones, in your blood. You know those thoughts are too dark to see the light, but its impossible to control or erase them. The more you want to suppress them, the more they emerge.

If it were anyone else, Su Yu would probably have kicked them into the stratosphere by now. He didnt have anything against people harboring dark emotions, but it was no excuse to hurt others.

But dealing with Song Yiming, his lover, he couldnt exert that part of his personality. He couldn't bear to.

So the violence he wouldve retaliated with in the first place became what was binding him, holding him back. Of course not. Im saying that I was happy because you trust me enough to transform, to hold back.

Staring at Su Yu without blinking, Song Yiming seemed like he was trying to engrave his lover into his bones, but also afraid he would suddenly disappear.

But after I was happy, I actually felt sad, Su Yu leaned his head against his lovers shoulder, murmuring, I was thinking, if you dont want me to speak to others Ill only look at you in the future. That way youll no longer struggle or feel sad? To me, the whole world is nothing compared to a glance from you. As long as youre happy, I can do anything for you.

In that moment, Song Yimings heart leapt into his throat. That intense beating almost overtook him. Soon after, however, he experienced sadness after that short joy.

He was the one in the wrong, the one who should change. No matter what angle you took, Shuo was the victim in this scenario, who should feel outraged, impatient, perhaps even want to abandon him. But now he saidthe whole world was nothing compared to a glance from him?

For the first time, Song Yiming experienced a sore feeling in his eyes. He should feel surprised, excited, satisfied, and he did. But within all that satisfaction was written a deep bitterness.

Swapping his lovers well-deserved freedom for his own mistaken obsessiveness? What kind of exchange was that?

Of course it isnt an exchange, I just love and completely trust you so any sacrifice is okay and even makes me happy. Yeah right. If it wasnt to break through his lovers defense line and reconstruct an intimate connection between the two, he would never say something so sentimental and submissive. Su Yu thought this to himself, but remained genuine on the surface. No matter what you want me to do, Ill do it.

The moment Su Yu finished his sentence, he heard a snort from the distance. Glancing over, he saw the ball flas.h.i.+ng with red light, emitting a light signal for emergency.

Su Yus lips twitched. So the ball, who was a high intelligence ent.i.ty, could spit things out like that. Even though it looked quitesuggestive, it was still funny.

No! Voice trembling, Song Yiming interrupted Su Yus stray thoughts. Not just his voice, his whole body was shaking slightly, so tense it seemed like he would snap. I would never treat you like that!