*Would you shut up?' Hank growled. He picked up the remote control, turned up the volume on the television.

*Whatcha watching?' Jake trotted back into the living room, the cookie still hanging from his mouth, a cup full of coffee granules in his hand. *Rear Window? I love this movie. Hitchcock is a genius. This movie is about cinema in its purest form.'

*And nosy neighbours,' Hank huffed.

*That's right Hank-voyeurism,' Jake replied, undeterred. He sat down on the sofa, put the cup on the table and chewed noisily.

*That's my seat, Jake,' I said.

*I mean, the interest Jimmy Stewart has in his neighbours' lives,' Jake continued, *the morbid curiosity he takes in their day-to-day existence. All those skeletons in their closets. I mean, this film could be about us!'

Jake laughed, cookie crumbs spilling onto his lap. I could see Hank glaring at him. I perched myself on the side of the sofa between them.

*I'm not hidin' nothin'!' Hank said.

*Oh come on Hank, everyone's hiding something. That's what makes people so damn interesting.'

Hank shifted nervously in his seat, crossed his arms and kept his eyes on the television. Grace Kelly moved across the screen like a spectre, serene in a floor-length ball gown, her face coming into focus slowly, like an angel.

Jake took a cigarette and tapped it on the back of his hand. *Why do people do that?' I asked.

*To tell you the truth, I don't really know. Something about moving all the tobacco towards the filter. Bogart did it in the movies.'

*No smoking in here!' Hank burst out. I rolled my eyes at Jake to let him know I had no idea what had Hank so riled up. Jake just smirked. I assumed Hank was cranky because Jake was interrupting his enjoyment of Rear Window, a film he must have seen at least a dozen times.

*If everyone is hiding something, what are you hiding, Jake?' I asked.

*My genius. I am yet to unleash my creative brilliance on the world.'

*I'm about to unleash my foot up your ass!' Hank roared, picking up a walking cane that had been sitting by his chair since his return from the hospital. As he swung it towards Jake I realised this was the first time I'd seen him use it.

*Hey, careful,' Jake said, leaning back out of the way and laughing. *You'll take an eye out with that thing.'

*I don't know who the hell you are, or what you want,' Hank roared. *Are you spying on me? Is that it? Are you a reporter?'

*Hank,' I started to say, stepping in between the two of them as they stood nose to nose, Hank's hand gripped over the cane, ready to swing.

*I don't like this kid,' he growled, still looking Jake dead in the eye. Jake didn't flinch.

*Come on Hank, you and I are friends,' Jake said calmly. *We're just having a friendly conversation.'

*I don't trust you.'

*Hank, this is Jake,' I said, thinking he had gone mad. *He lives downstairs, remember?'

*I know who he is, damn it. Don't condescend to me!'

Hank moved fast, faster than I would have expected at his age, and threw the cane up into the air, levelling it across Jake's throat. I gasped, threw my hands to my mouth, but Jake just stood there, a grin inching across his face.

*Come on Hank, we're all friends here,' he said. Hank stepped forward, pushing his face into Jake's, and Jake winced as if he couldn't stand the smell of Hank's breath on his cheek.

*Don't think I don't know what you're doing down there,' he said. *I see you peering around corners and putting your face where it doesn't belong. Waiting for her.'

Hank nodded in my direction, a small line of spit forming across his lips.

*Hank, what has gotten into you?' I said. *Jake came to the hospital with you, and kept the cops away when you were tearing the place up. He bought you groceries, tidied up around the place. He's been nothing but a good neighbour to you.'

*I don't need a good neighbour,' he snarled. *I need to be left in peace. Don't be fooled Hilda. There are no do-gooders in this world.'

At this Jake actually laughed. *That's right old man,' he said, pushing the cane away from his throat. *Everyone has an agenda, an angle to play. But I'm clean, good buddy. You don't have to worry about me.'

*Oh? You wanna tell me then exactly what it is you're workin' on down there?'

*He writes about sex,' I chimed in. It was only after I'd said it that I realised how ridiculous it sounded. *I mean, sex scenes, for movies. Scenes that other people have written that have to be better. He fixes them.'

*Hilda, thank you for your support, but I've got this,' Jake said.

*Have you?'

Hank turned to me, must have seen the look of distress on my face, because when he saw me he slowly started to lower the cane, until it was almost by his side. On the TV Jimmy Stewart grappled with the movie's hulking villain from his wheelchair, as uneven a match as the one I was seeing right in front of me. Hank's sudden anger confused me but so did Jake's cool, aloof detachment. It was as if he was actually enjoying himself.

*You ask a lot of questions,' Hank snarled. *Too many.'

*Listen Hank, there's nothing but goodwill here,' Jake said, and put his hands on Hank's shoulders as if to embrace him. Hank was a statue.

*Now,' Jake continued, *how about we sit down and watch the rest of the film?'

*I've already seen it,' Hank mumbled, depleted.

*So then you know how it ends?'

*Yeah, I know how it ends. The guy learns to keep his nose out of his neighbours' business.'

*Maybe you should go, Jake,' I said. *Hank's really tired. I'll walk you out.'

Jake leant down and picked up the cup of coffee granules from the table. *Don't want to forget these,' he said, and walked out the door without offering Hank a second glance.

*So I'll see you soon Hank?' he called over his shoulder. Hank sat back in his seat, exhausted, and I closed the screen door behind Jake and me. Outside the night air was refreshing. I released my breath as if I'd been holding it for years.

*Jake, I'm so sorry,' I said. *I have no idea what that was about. You know what he's been like. He's all over the place.'

*He's just being protective,' Jake said, lighting a cigarette, *and territorial. Doesn't want another man pissing in his corners. It's a guy thing.'

*But all those things he said, he doesn't mean them.'

*Like I said, he's just protecting his property,' Jake said, expelling smoke from the corner of his mouth. I didn't like the sound of that. Was Jake jealous?

*That's not a very nice thing to say,' I said.

*Sorry, that was out of line. I'm just having a shitty day, having trouble with work, and now this. Hank's a hard guy to get close to. I thought I'd made some kind of connection with him, but now, I don't know.'

*I don't know what's wrong with him. I feel like he's getting worse. Like everything's getting worse.'

*Everything?'

I thought of Mrs Connor, her arms stretched out to me, eyes pleading like a mother on a World Vision pamphlet. Help my boy.

*I feel like everything's sliding out of control. Do you ever feel like that? Like everything is wound so tight, that something's gotta give?'

*I like chaos,' he replied, stepping onto the balcony ledge and leaning over as if it were a set of monkey bars. *Chaos is underrated.'

*Careful. That railing doesn't look strong.'

*Are you concerned about me, Hilda?' He let go of the railing and lifted his arms in the air like he was on the prow of the Titanic. *Look at me! I'm flying, Hilda! I'm flying!'

*Ssssh, quiet!' I grabbed his arm and pulled him back.

*Seriously Hilda, Hank's just getting old. He's probably got a touch of dementia, you know. You get to that age you start saying all sorts of crazy things. I can't wait 'til I'm that old. Even if I've got all my faculties I'm still gonna call everyone an asshole, 'cause I know I'll get away with it. I'm gonna push in line wherever I like and eat candy 'til I puke.'

*I'm glad you can see the light side of it. Doesn't seem like much fun to me.'

*What other choice you got? Go out in a blaze of glory like James Dean?'

*It'd be better than what's going on in there,' I said, gesturing towards Hank's apartment. Jake caught my drift, moved closer and put his arm around me.

*He'll be fine. He's got you.'

*He thinks you ask too many questions,' I said, trying my best to ignore his arm around my shoulder, and the heat rising in my cheeks. *What do you ask him?'

Jake let go. *Just stuff. Like what kind of groceries do you need today? You got enough toilet paper? Stuff like that.'

*Is that all?'

*No. I asked him if he was the second gunman on the grassy knoll. Christ Hilda, it's hard enough dealing with him, I don't need you going crazy on me as well.'

*Sorry. It's just strange that he would say that.'

*As opposed to all the other stuff that comes out of his mouth?'

He had a point. But still, there was so much I didn't know about his relationship with Hank. It was as if Jake had appeared from nowhere, and Hank didn't seem to like him very much. It was strange that someone who had done so much for Hank would be so distrusted by him. There had to be more to it.

*You know, I was thinking of taking the day off tomorrow,' Jake said, *letting my head reboot. You interested in hanging out?'

*Sure,' I said. I'd decided that I wanted to show him there was more to me than my death obsession. *How about we do something normal, like go to a movie? We could see the new Adam Sandler film.'

*I never see a movie in its opening weekend. You know why? There is no way I'm buying into the commercial interests of the studios, that's why. I am not giving any studio the satisfaction of taking my money in those first few crucial days. This whole industry is all about the first few days of a movie's opening. Not the lasting appeal of the story, or the reviews even. It's all about the dollar. And I'm not gonna play ball.'

*Okay. No movie.'

*How about a picnic?' he said, looking at his sneakers intently, like they might suddenly wander off without him.

*A picnic?'

*You know, a picnic. With a rug and food and all that crap.'

My eyes lit up. *I know just the place.'

*So can I pick you up?'

*Sure. Eleven?'

He pointed his finger at me like a gun, clicked his tongue as if pulling the trigger. *I will be there.'

I shivered, reminded of the gun in Benji's glove compartment.

*Is that necessary? I asked tersely.

*What? So, I'm doing Shooter McGavin from Happy Gilmore?'

*Sorry, I guess I'm a little jumpy,' I said.

Or scared. Since Benji had appeared uninvited on my porch and dragged me to the Coroner's Office, I was startled by shadows. I saw violence in everything.

Jake gave me a weird look. *So I'll see you tomorrow?' he asked.

I nodded quickly. *Of course. See you tomorrow,' I said, and went back inside before he could ask any more questions. I didn't want anyone to think I was losing it, too. Like Benji.

As Jake bounded down the stairs to his apartment, I closed the door behind me. Hank was sitting in his chair, staring at me. I busied myself with tidying the dinner dishes away. Rear Window had long finished and the television was turned to the news. A helicopter hovered high above a vanload of Mexicans who were pouring out the back doors and scurrying for the hills.

*You trust people too goddamn easily,' Hank said, his voice grave. I slammed the dishes down in the sink, chipping a plate.

*For God's sake Hank, just stop!' I cried. Hank's eyes widened. I was a little stunned myself. It was as if the hot, seemingly endless weeks of enduring his fits of paranoia and melancholy had suddenly broken me.

*I mean, just listen to yourself. Listen to what you're saying,' he continued nevertheless. *The young are so easily taken advantage of. You, Hilda, are susceptible to the evils of the world. You open your heart because you want it filled, but not like that. Don't fill your heart with his kind.'

*And who is my kind Hank? You? I'm seventeen and my best friend is a senior citizen. And it's not charming like a Woody Allen movie. I'm not Mariel fucking Hemingway, you know! Shit, now I sound like the crazy one. Listen, not everyone is out to get you, Hank. What can I say to make you feel better about Jake? He's done nothing at all to deserve this.'

*Why do you care so much what I think?'

*Because he lives right below you and we all have to see each other, so we might as well get along.'

I turned on the tap, started fiercely rubbing the plates with a cloth. I wasn't being totally honest with Hank. I wanted him to approve of Jake the same way I would have wanted my father to. I wanted his blessing. But if he was slowly going mad, what did it matter? That was, however, the problem. I didn't believe he was going mad. I didn't believe it for a second.

*Have I ever told you the story of Lenore Shoshan?' he asked.

*No, you haven't told me the story of Lenore Shoshan,' I replied, impatient. I scrubbed the dishes a little harder. *Was she some starlet you banged in the fifties?'

*She was a girl I knew when I was very young, when I was a boy. She was in the camp with me.'