Genocide Online

Chapter 219 Umemiya Kakos Hard Work

(Kakos PoV (Blossoms actual name, she is a friend of Komari (Reinas step sister)))

For this question Umemiya Kako, can you answer it? The math teacher suddenly called my name out.

This was bad I did know the answer, but But it was so scary. Everyones gazes fell upon me. I was trembling. It was hard to breath

Umemiya? The teacher asked again.

I had no choice, but to get up from my seat. I put my hands on my chest and looked down Was I creepy? Were people disgusted at me?

I could vaguely see from the corner of my eye that the teacher was hoping Id be able to answer, since he knows that I am good at math, but The impatient look on my colleagues eyes, their mocking smiles And the worried expression on Komaris and Seigis face They were all so terrifying.

I tried making a reply, I I ca Can Cannot. but I couldnt stop trembling, never mind speaking in front of the whole class Even though I did know the answer. It was something we had already seen a few times before, it wasnt hard, but I just couldnt.

It was frustrating.

I see Then, can someone else answer it? The teachers disappointment was visible, but There was just no way. What if I made a mistake? Some people were already giggling at me right now, how bad would it be if I messed up on this easy problem? I just cant do it Its too much

Then, the bell rang. Before anyone could answer the question, the class was over, so the teacher dismissed us after giving some homework Well, at least I wont have to worry about my classmates gaze anymore.

Kako! Lets go home together! Komari came closer to me and said that.

Both her and Seigi kept on talking to me even though I was so miserable I was really thankful to them. I would still be that bullied girl that stays the whole time in the corner of the library otherwise.

And exactly because of that, Ah, sorry, I I have something Something to do today. I told them that.

I see Alright, next time then! Komari exclaimed that cheerfully, but I could see that she was worried for me.

See you next time. Seigi too was visibly worried.

I was feeling guilty as they moved away, but It was alright. This time, I was not trying to push them away because they were too dazzling to be next to me This time, I will help them.

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(Kakos PoV)

Hey, do you know that girl? A boy asked his friend.

I dont really know any middle schooler His friend answered.

I was hoping I wouldnt be noticed, or that people at least wouldnt pay attention to me right now, but I guess there is no way I wouldnt call attention while wearing a middle schoolers uniform After all, Im standing in front of the gates of a high school

Will things be alright? They wont try bullying me here, will they? Were out in the open, so I should be okay, right?

Hey, which middle school are you from? One of the boys asked me.

Do you have an older brother here? The other one asked.

I couldnt answer Cant you please just go away? Please dont cause me trouble

Am I scaring her? One of the boys muttered.

Kenji, youre good at talking to girls, why do you think shes troubled? Another one of the boys said.

I bet shes scared of Masakis face! The boy that is probably Kenji exclaimed.

Eh!? Why is it my fault!? The one that is probably Masaki exclaimed.

I started trembling and took a step back No, I shouldnt be backing off here I hate my offline self. Why cant I be like Blossom here?

I just cant do anything. If someone likes me tries to show discontentment against a bully, theyll just make things worse and blame it on my bad luck Why do things have to be like this? Why cant I stand up for myself and shine brightly like I always do online?

See? Shes getting scared because you shouted. The Kenji boy said.

Ugh B-but thats just The Masaki boy muttered.

I tried to avoid making eye contact with them, and searched for my target She wouldnt have gone home already, would she?

I mean, its possible Even though I ran here, the times their classes end shouldnt be that different from when mine end, so Maybe shes already home. Should I give up? Should I just go home?

Oh, Masaki, what are you doing here? That womans voice

Oh, Ichijouji The Masaki person replied.

Yeah, my target was here. Her appearance was slightly different from the game, but it was still definitely the same person. She didnt customize her avatar much.

She has no need to hide herself, she just stands up with her own feet I really hate this woman.

Somehow though I mustered the strength to walk. I stood in front of Rena Of the Genocider. Today, Ill talk to her. Ill tell her what I need to, without having Komari and Seigi nearby.

Ah Uhn E To Why is this so terrifying? Why am I trembling so much? Why cant I look her in the eyes?

I dont get what Im thinking. Why am I scared of this expressionless disgusting woman?

The three men that had been talking to me seem to be acquainted with her, so they were just staring at the conversation from the sidelines Are they there to protect her in case of an emergency? Will they hurt me if I say too much?

The woman said nothing I need to tell her something, Ah Uhn Why cant I speak?

I hate this woman so much I envy her so much.

She has the charisma I dont have, the freedom I dont, and she also has such amazing little brother and sister And yet, even though she all that I want, that I cant get no matter how much I wish for She just throws them all away.

She can be so confident of herself. She can act without doubting her own decisions and Im just so envious of this disgusting woman.

She still didnt speak anything I tried once more, Well I

I hate how pitiful I am. Almost as much as I hate this woman who has no empathy at all, who refuses to grab the hands of her brother and sister that keep trying to reach out for her.

She has everything she could possibly want or need, and yet And yet Its so frustrating And I cant even talk to her!

Th-this! Take this! I shoved the letter I prepared in advance on her, then ran away.

I see? I could hear the woman muttering before I got too far.

In the end, I couldnt tell it to her by mouth, so I just gave her the letter and ran away Even though I pushed myself so hard, this was all that I could do Im so pathetic.

Im glad I at least put the effort into this though. That I tried doing something to help my best friends Even if I couldnt withstand the public eye Even if I couldnt speak I Is this my limit? Is this all that I can do?

Im really pathetic

Once I got home, I buried my face on my pillow and screamed to myself, Why am I so worthless!?

I really hate being like this If only I could be Blossom all the time If only I could shine brightly every day Theres no way I wouldnt have been able to talk to that disgusting woman then.

Even if I cant be Blossom while offline, I can at least be her online Lets login. Lets become Blossom.