None of your business.

It is my business when I have to cover for you after school each day. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath. I closed my eyes, took a deep breath. Are you selling drugs? Are you selling drugs?

No! At the mention of drugs, Finn looked like he was about to burst into tears. At the mention of drugs, Finn looked like he was about to burst into tears. It's from the poker games. It's from the poker games.

I'd have been less surprised if he'd told me he was growing a b.u.mper crop of marijuana in his bedroom. True, Dad used to play poker with us all the time when we were younger. It was something he could do with me that didn't involve speaking or or signing, plus he liked winning. But when I switched to chess he bailed, saying a chess game was too great a time commitment. I'd figured that was the end of the Vaughan family's poker playing days. signing, plus he liked winning. But when I switched to chess he bailed, saying a chess game was too great a time commitment. I'd figured that was the end of the Vaughan family's poker playing days.

Or not.

When do you play poker?

Lunchtime, replied Finn, content to sign as long as it kept his secret under wraps. replied Finn, content to sign as long as it kept his secret under wraps. And we started playing after school too, because you made me wait while you rehea.r.s.ed. Except Friday, when you made me go to the rehearsal. In a way, the whole thing is your fault. And we started playing after school too, because you made me wait while you rehea.r.s.ed. Except Friday, when you made me go to the rehearsal. In a way, the whole thing is your fault.

I laughed, but inside I was utterly freaked out. You've really won a thousand dollars playing poker? You've really won a thousand dollars playing poker?

He clearly misread my surprise as admiration. Almost. I'm a lot better than everyone else. Almost. I'm a lot better than everyone else.

And how does everyone else have hundreds of dollars to lose?

I don't know. He laughed suddenly. He laughed suddenly. Probably selling drugs. Probably selling drugs.

I didn't laugh. You've got to stop. You could get expelled. You've got to stop. You could get expelled.

"The thought had occurred to me," he said out loud.

I sighed, "And that doesn't bother you?"

"Why would it? All the teachers hate me."

"They wouldn't if you'd try harder."

"Yes, they would. Because no matter how hard I try, I'm not you. But we share a last name, so they're all waiting for me to become cla.s.s superstar. For as long as I'm there, they'll compare me to you. And I'll always fall short."

"Do you want me to talk to them?"

"G.o.d, no! I just want you to admit I don't fit in."

"You were fitting in fine during lunch break today."

Finn looked down, blushed. "What do you mean?"

"You, Kallie, Tash. Quite a cozy threesome."

"We were just going over some stuff. That's all."

I smiled sweetly to irritate him. "But you're still not really interested in Kallie, right?"

Finn's shoulders slumped. "For the last time, no. I'm not interested."

"Isn't she hot enough for you?"

"I'm not talking about it anymore."

Finn leaped up and hurried across the bas.e.m.e.nt. But as he ran up the stairs, I caught him smiling too.

CHAPTER 32.

Josh was last to arrive for Friday's after-school rehearsal, sauntering in almost ten minutes late as though prearranged times were optional for G.o.dlike lead singers.

"Glad you decided to join us," I quipped, not bothering to hide my annoyance.

"I'm sure you are. You missed me, I get it," he said, the famous Josh smile intact.

I almost rose to the bait, but managed to keep control. "I have news," I said with forced enthusiasm. "Good news of the paying variety."

Everyone looked up. Apparently, I had uttered the magic word that got their attention.

"The producer of Seattle Today Seattle Today wants us to appear on the show next Tuesday," I explained. "We play one song, then do a brief interview." wants us to appear on the show next Tuesday," I explained. "We play one song, then do a brief interview."

Will flicked away the curtains of hair obscuring his eyes and leaned forward in his chair. "Seattle Today is just a bunch of old women," he droned, seemingly without engaging his face. "They'll want something really boring." is just a bunch of old women," he droned, seemingly without engaging his face. "They'll want something really boring."

I was taken aback that Will was the one to complain. "Sure, they'd prefer prefer a tame song," I admitted. "And yes, it's mostly old women. But right now, that's your main audience." a tame song," I admitted. "And yes, it's mostly old women. But right now, that's your main audience."

"That sucks."

"Maybe so. But they're paying . . . three hundred dollars, for one song and an interview."

I let the figure hang in the air, allowed myself to enjoy the stunned silence that signified the band's complete approval.

Will shook his head. "Not worth it."

Tash was up in a second. "Speak for yourself. That's fifty dollars each-sounds like plenty of good reasons to play."

Kallie raised her hand. "I agree with Tash."

"Musically, it makes no sense," moped Will. Then he allowed his curtains of hair to fall back across his face, like a turtle retreating into its sh.e.l.l.

Josh stepped forward, placed an arm on his brother's shoulder while his eyes remained fixed on Kallie. "Kallie's right, Will. It's worth it for an hour."

Kallie nodded appreciatively, and a moment later Josh's arm had been transferred to her shoulder instead. She didn't pull away, but her body tensed, as though his constant physical attention was as welcome as a root ca.n.a.l. Josh noticed it too, and his smile faltered, but he didn't remove his arm, and the awkwardness of the interaction grew steadily for several seconds.

"We need to practice," murmured Kallie, her eyes closed.

Josh finally took the cue and withdrew his arm reluctantly. "Yeah, you do." He ambled to his place at the front of the band. "By the way, Tash, nice costume, but Halloween was yesterday."

"Go screw yourself, Josh."

"Natasha, Natasha," tutted Josh. "Just as rude as ever. After all the time you and Kallie have spent hanging out this week, I figured some of her prim and proper behavior would've rubbed off on you."

"Let it go," she warned.

"Okay, then," I interjected, anxious to get things back on track. "The majority opinion seems to be that we'll accept the gig." (It didn't seem prudent to mention that the majority opinion was irrelevant, since I'd already accepted and mailed back the Seattle Today Seattle Today contract; I'd even convinced Mom to glance through it first.) "However, Will has a point. We can't go on selling ourselves as a soft rock band for overprotective parents. It was a means to an end, that's all, but it's not who you are, and it's not who you want to be. I meant what I said last week. You're hard rock, for real. And you're going to stay that way from now on." contract; I'd even convinced Mom to glance through it first.) "However, Will has a point. We can't go on selling ourselves as a soft rock band for overprotective parents. It was a means to an end, that's all, but it's not who you are, and it's not who you want to be. I meant what I said last week. You're hard rock, for real. And you're going to stay that way from now on."

Tash shook her head. "They'll never let us play our real stuff on Seattle Today Seattle Today."

"Not if we tell them ahead of time, no. But it's a live show, which gives them a choice: Stop the show or let you finish. And from what I've read about the host, there's no way she'll pull the plug." Even Tash seemed satisfied with that argument. "And let's be honest-there's nothing like live TV to send a message. By the time you're done, I'm betting our new target audience will have heard you loud and clear."

I'd never thought of myself as the pep-talk-giving type, although the band seemed to be hanging so intently on my every word that I had to remind them we had gathered for a rehearsal. In particular, Will's mouth had stretched into the uncharacteristic shape of a smile. He was a boy of few words, but I understood that look just fine.

Without another word, Ed and Finn took over, and Dumb did their finest impersonation of a well-oiled machine. From time to time, I even glanced up from my laptop to watch the Boy Wonders at work, marveling at their confidence, the way they isolated mistakes and corrected them without ever making the perpetrator seem nervous. Even Kallie seemed energized by Finn's words of advice, laying into her guitar strings with uncharacteristic vigor before remembering that she was the band's resident wallflower.

By the time Dumb nailed "Look What the Cat Dragged In," I had downloaded more photos and links to our website, taken the bold step of sending MP3s of Dumb's performances to local concert venues, and written to Baz to say we'd like to use the studio again on Sunday. I'd even had time to check our Mys.p.a.ce page, which is how I found a new message from ZARKINFIB: ur a quick study, but don't forget to enjoy the ride. let hendrix help you at 2010 s jackson ur a quick study, but don't forget to enjoy the ride. let hendrix help you at 2010 s jackson As before, I was shocked to discover the message, but this time it was balanced by irresistible curiosity. I guessed whom "Hendrix" referred to, and with time to kill I opened YouTube and pulled up some footage of him performing.

Jimi Hendrix was younger-looking and hotter than I'd imagined. When the camera showed a close-up of his hands, his fingers looked slender and strong. The way he closed his eyes and swayed his head made me wonder if he was channeling spirits or had indulged in narcotics, but either way, it was difficult to take my eyes off him.

With the image of Jimi playing on one side of the screen, I pulled up his biography in a new window on the other. As with Kurt Cobain, it made for uncomfortable reading, and I wondered how he'd survived being raised in a home so profoundly broken. By the time I looked up again, six pairs of eyes were locked on me, and Ed was heading toward me, his face tinged with concern.

"Are you okay?" he asked.

"Yeah, I . . . I just got a message from my secret admirer."

Ed nodded. "So where are we off to this time?"

"No, Ed. We'll go some other time. I need to call it a day."

"Uh-uh. I sense the second voyage of the Magical Mystery Tour is about to set sail. Anyone else ready to get educated?"

Kallie nodded enthusiastically, while Tash looked confused.

"What are you talking about?" she asked.

"Nothing," I insisted. "I mean, someone's sending me on a tour of Seattle's dead rock stars, that's all. Apparently, Hendrix is next."

"Then count me in," said Tash. "You coming, Will?" she added, masking her hopefulness with an air of indifference.

Will shook his head, his indifference all too genuine. Josh tried to suppress a smirk as they left the room together. Maybe seeing Tash's advances rebuffed took some of the sting out of his own rejection.

"Come on. Let's go," sighed Ed.

I glanced at my watch. "I really shouldn't. My mom got annoyed last time."

Finn waved my cell phone in the air. "Dad says it's okay. Mom's got some dinner thing at work."

I looked in my bag, wondering when Finn had managed to filch my cell phone. I wanted to ask for more details too, but by then he was heading out the door with the others.

Eventually only Tash remained. She stood by the window, staring into s.p.a.ce. I knew what was bothering her, but I wasn't sure what to say, so I figured it was probably best to leave her alone.

Just then, Kallie returned. She padded over to Tash and placed a hand on her arm. I was sure that Tash would pull away, but she didn't. Instead she sighed, just once, then followed as Kallie led her from the room.

CHAPTER 33.

USS Immovable Immovable labored up Capitol Hill. In the rearview mirror, I saw three women in matching Lycra tops powering s.p.a.ce-age bicycles, matching us step for step. They were grimacing, and I think it was because we were holding them up, rather than from exertion. I floored the gas and labored up Capitol Hill. In the rearview mirror, I saw three women in matching Lycra tops powering s.p.a.ce-age bicycles, matching us step for step. They were grimacing, and I think it was because we were holding them up, rather than from exertion. I floored the gas and Immovable Immovable wheezed angrily, but our speed didn't change. I patted the wooden dash encouragingly and prayed that we'd make it all the way to the top. wheezed angrily, but our speed didn't change. I patted the wooden dash encouragingly and prayed that we'd make it all the way to the top.

Finn waved from the backseat, where he'd a.s.sumed his now-customary position sandwiched between Tash and Kallie. Should we get out and push? Should we get out and push? he signed. he signed.

I stuck my tongue out and he smiled, although it probably had more to do with the aforementioned sandwich than anything I had done.

With a Seattle city map in his hands and a GPS system seemingly hardwired into his brain, Ed directed me straight to the 2000 block of South Jackson Street. It was only a couple miles from Kurt Cobain's house, I realized, but the addresses belonged to different worlds. Instead of mansions designed to maximize views of the lake and mountains, Jackson Street was home to apartment buildings and a mishmash of nondescript warehouses and stores. Instead of the serenity of Cobain's intensely private community, several people loitered on street corners. But the most obvious shift, as subtle as a slap on the face, was that almost everyone was African American. I didn't feel weird about being there, but I had to admit that I couldn't recall having pa.s.sed through the neighborhood before.

Ed pointed to the side of the road and I pulled over. He prodded the map so sharply I thought his finger might pierce it. "2010 should be here," he groaned.

I looked through his window, but there was only a low wall fronting an overgrown plot of land with a large FOR SALE sign.

"Well, let's find it," I said encouragingly, but everyone took their time getting out of the car.

Tash sloped toward the wall. "Welcome to Jimi Hendrix's invisible house," she deadpanned.

We walked up and down the block, but it was clear that this was where the house misleadingly known as 2010 S Jackson should have been.

Finn waved to get my attention. I'm going to ask someone what's going on, I'm going to ask someone what's going on, he signed. he signed.

While I was waiting, I jumped over the wall and onto the plot, which was engulfed by tall weeds. If a building had ever been there, it had disappeared years ago. I kicked at the ground in frustration, but then something caught my eye.

I knelt beside a bush at the edge of the plot. It looked like someone had dumped trash under the branches, but I knew it wasn't trash. The cardboard boxes had been flattened and covered with moth-eaten blankets, torn wrappers from a Happy Meal licked clean and stashed to one side. Everything was sodden from rain, but someone had lived there for a while, in the cold and wet, on ground that Jimi Hendrix may or may not have ever known.

Ed touched my arm, startling me. "I hope they've found somewhere warmer now," he said.

I nodded as I touched the thin blanket. I couldn't imagine it provided enough warmth to get someone through summer nights, let alone fall.

"Seems symbolic, doesn't it?" I sighed.

Ed crouched down beside me, touched the blanket too. "How so?"

"Jimi Hendrix grew up in poverty," I explained, reciting what I'd learned just an hour earlier. "His mom left when he was young. He often had to scrounge food from his neighbors. I guess it's possible there were days he slept outdoors like this. Same with Kurt Cobain. He got thrown out of so many houses he ended up sleeping in a cardboard box."

Suddenly I could picture them both with painful clarity: two cold, malnourished boys desperately seeking escape from the harsh reality of their lives, whether through music or drugs. Until a month ago I'd never given either of them any thought, and even if I had, I'd have seen only the fame and wealth, never suspecting that fame and wealth were just a veneer-Band-Aids over gaping psychological wounds.