But an Unseelie-flesh high was fully aware unquenchable lust-with an unbreakable body. If we fucked too hard, so what? My skin would heal even as we were doing it, letting me have more and more. We could do that thing I loved to do so much, that drove Barrons absolutely bugfuck crazy, with no repercussions.

I shivered with lust, suddenly understanding the See-you-in-Faery girls more than I wanted to.

Our eyes locked and I jerked.

Fucking river of blood in my House.

I actually saw the capital H in his eyes and knew Barrons's House was whatever he'd claimed as his own, and nobody, but nobody, shit in it. There would be hell to pay, and I wasn't certain I wouldn't steer him in Brody's direction before the night was through. I've learned a thing or two during my time in Dublin: when you let the bad guy walk, he comes back. Until you don't let him walk.

Paint, I corrected. But his primal senses had told him that before he'd even walked in the front door. The man could smell if I was having my period. Or even just close to starting it.

Barrons snarled, black fangs flashing, and I realized walking through the bookstore in its current condition must have awakened a memory from another time when he'd stalked a battlefield of blood, wondering what he would find. Most likely discovering everyone he knew-with the exception of his immortal companions-dead. I wondered how long he'd had to live before he quit letting himself have one ounce of interest in a human. How it must have felt to lose everyone around him like I'd lost Alina. Oh, yes, easier not to care. To ultimately let oneself revile.

Barrons's beast is always close to the surface. I sometimes wonder if one day he won't simply change, lope away, and never walk as a man again. Go be pure in the form that makes the most sense to him, on some other world, in a skin that's much harder to kill and, for him, much easier to live in.

His dark eyes flashed. Fuck. Didn't know what I'd find. There are still some things that can kill you. Hate that.

Ah, so he'd considered the possibility Dani had come after me with my own spear. Fuck. Didn't know if you'd come back. To me, I was quick to chew off. Hate that.

He smiled but it vanished quickly. His lips tightened, his mouth reshaped in a way I knew well. He was thinking about what he'd like to be doing to me with it. And it wasn't talking. Barrons doesn't waste time on the mundane. Another man might have said, "Gee, how are you visible again?" Or, "What the hell happened to my bookstore?" Or, "Who did this and are you okay?"

Not him. He scanned me, made sure I was in one piece, and got down to what really mattered.

Me. Naked.

He stripped.

Muscles rippled in his shoulders as he yanked off his shirt. When he kicked off his boots, jerked his belt from his pants and let them fall, I swallowed hard. Barrons is a commando man. I love his dick. I love what he does to me with it. I adore his balls. They're smooth and silky and there's this seam down the center that I love to lick before I close my mouth over his dick, and just when I know he's lost in the sleek warmth of my tongue moving slow and easy, swirling, sucking him in with thinking it's going to be sweet, I lock my mouth down hard, cup his balls in my hand and jerk harder than I should, and it undoes him every damn time. I'm obsessed with his body and the way it responds to my touch. He's my mountain of man I get to play on, experiment with, and see how high I can make him fly.

Not a single tattoo marred his recently reborn skin. He was dark, muscled, sleek perfection. I was halfway to orgasm just from watching him strip. Well, that, my hand between my legs, and his intense gaze fixed on the movement. Pri-ya, I'd done this a lot, and while I'd sprawled on the bed, he'd sat in a chair next to it, watching me with heavy-lidded lust and fascination and often a flicker of something that looked a lot like jealousy. Then he'd knock my hand away, stretch himself over me, and drive home hard. You need me for this his eyes would say. If for nothing else, at least this.

He was right. There was masturbation.

There was sex with Barrons.

And there was abso-frigging-lutely no comparison between the two.

I pushed up from the floor, bullets dropping forgotten from the cradle of my hip. My spine fluid, my body strong, I pulsed with desire that rode the razor edge of violence. I don't understand why that happens to me with him. It never happened before with any other guy. With Barrons, I get turned on and I get hostile. I want to have violent sex, I want to smash and break things. I want to push him, I want to force myself into his head. I want to see how much he can take. I want to see how much I can get.

Got something you want to say, Rainbow Girl?

I knew what he wanted. What he always wants from me: to know that I'm aware and I'm choosing and I'm one hundred percent committed, to him, to life, to myself, to the moment, which doesn't sound like so much but it's a damn tall order. And he wants his name in that sentence somewhere.

I tossed my head and shot him a savage look. Fuck me, Jericho Barrons. You're my world, I didn't add. At least I hope I didn't. I let my lids flutter at the end, half closed, shielding my heart.

Then he was on me and I was crushed back against the wall, my bare feet dangling above the floor and he was sliding me up it, big hands splayed on my hips. His physical strength is surreal, an indisputable bonus when it comes to sex.

When he buried his face in my thighs, I wrapped my legs around his head, arched my back to push against his mouth, and fisted my hands in his thick, dark hair. When a fang grazed my clitoris, I pulled his hair-hard-and he laughed because, like me, when we're having sex, drugged or not, there's no such thing as pain. We did everything possible when I was Pri-ya. I became conditioned to him in that state. It's all sensation. And it's all good.

I let my head fall back against the wall, lost myself in the bliss of his hot mouth on me, his tongue moving inside me.

I arched my neck and roared when I came. Damn the man, he touches me and I explode and just keep moving in a red-hot haze of lust from one orgasm to the next until at last he stops touching me. He knows exactly how to work my body. It's incredible. It's frightening.

In desire, in lust, Barrons and I are perfect together. In everyday life, we're porcupines who must navigate the circumference of each other's existence carefully because one poke and either of us might bare our teeth and scuttle off. Not because the needles hurt but because we're both...volatile. Temperamental. Proud. Obtuse as hell. It makes for difficult days and incredible nights. I can't change. He won't. It is what it is.

Here, now, in lust, we unite, bond in a way that makes the days work fine. I realize as I explode again and hear him make that low, raw sound in the back of his throat that makes me crazy, vibrates into my pelvic core, spreads in a rumbling purr through my body, enhancing my orgasm to exquisite proportions, that this is essential to us, to our ability to stay together.

I don't dare not fuck this man frequently because this is the glue that holds us, the tie that binds, the only tether, collar, leash either of us can permit, the place where everything else falls away and we become something more than we are alone. I get now why he fucks with the single-minded devotion of a dying man hunting God. Sex with him is the closest thing to holy I've ever known. Barrons is my church. Every caress, each kiss, a hallelujah.

Burn me in Hell if you have a problem with that.

He'll be there with me.

We won't care.

As the orgasm ebbed, flashed red-hot then ebbed again, he leaned back and slid me down the front of his body, eyes glittering crimson, face half transformed into beast. He was two full feet taller than he had been before, shoulders massively wider, skin darkened to burnished mahogany. I could feel talons on my skin. Low humps of horns were sprouting on his skull.

I was shaking with aftershock, and still, fresh lust blazed through me, sanctifying my blood, opening a floodgate I'd not even realized I'd closed. I was breathless for a moment, stunned by the sudden unsought awareness that I'd once again been repressing all emotion for months. Every single bit of it. Just like I did after I believed I'd killed him on a cliff with Ryodan. Skimming the surface, a flat stone skipping across a bottomless loch, grateful to be a dispassionate observer, the invisible narrator of everyone else's life. I'd hungered to be unseen. I'd wanted to disappear long before it happened. I have a critical fault line of a defect and it's not the Book inside me. And it's not something I can fix. At least not any way I've been able to figure out. The relentless, unsolvable clusterfuck in my own head made me choose to deaden myself rather than contend with the uncontendable.

Yet one carnal touch from Barrons and I was alive again. Awake and so very damned alive. And my problem that couldn't be fixed would be as ever present and unmanageable as always when we were done. May as well savor the now.

He dropped his dark, misshapen head forward and long matted hair brushed my back. "I taste Unseelie in you," he murmured thickly into the hollow of my neck around teeth much too large for a human mouth. I felt his tongue trace my jugular. Felt my heartbeat in my neck, pulsing against his fangs. His next words were guttural, violent, barely human, "Just how hard do you want to play?" He shook me a little then, like a dog with a rabbit in its teeth.

"How hard can you take it?" I purred into his chest.

He raised his head and looked down at me and laughed like I've never heard him laugh as a man. Oh, yes, Barrons prefers the beast. There's something so sure and uncomplicated in that form. As if there, a prehensile creature, he's free in a way I can't begin to understand. I want to explore what he feels wearing that primal ebon skin, how life tastes to him on those killing fangs, cozy up to the basest he has to offer, meet it in kind.

I slammed my palms into his chest, knocking him backward. He crashed into the wall of the bathroom so hard his head went down, and when it whipped back, his smile was feral, exultant. "You want to fight or fuck, Mac?"

I bounced from foot to foot, wired with fury and sexual energy. I may never understand why I always feel them together around him but I sure as hell can enjoy it. "Both."

"Think you can take me?"

"Going to damn well try."

"Think you'll survive it?"

I stabbed a finger in his chest and smiled up at him. "I think I'm gonna own it. Jericho."

He growled low in his chest. "Bring it the fuck on, Mac."

I brought it.

7.

"I'm gonna walk before they make me run..."

I stretched, supremely satisfied, rolled over on my side, and looked at Barrons. He was in human form again, flat on his back, chest not moving, and I knew if I lay my ear against his skin, I'd hear no heartbeat thudding behind his breastbone.

Barrons doesn't sleep. He drifts and was in what I'd learned to recognize as a deep meditative state. It wouldn't be long before he disappeared into the night to do whatever he does that makes his body electric and his heart pound again.

I raked a hand through my hair, trying to push the wild mess out of my face, and succeeded only in getting my fingers tangled in knots matted with spray paint. I gave up and shoved it to one side. We were both smeared with oil-based lacquer and if I wasn't...enhanced, and he wasn't...whatever he was, I'd worry about all those nasty chemicals on our skin. We'd slipped and slid all over the store, thrown each other around in the wreckage, painted our skin crimson, not all of it paint, some of it blood.

We were currently wedged between half a shot-up broken chesterfield and a shattered bookcase, I had hard-cornered books digging into my ass, was using a crushed lamp shade as a pillow, and one of the many baubles in the store was gouging the small of my back.

I felt incredible. Released. Open. I made a mental note to jump on him the next time I found myself feeling uncertain or shutting down. Barrons is antitoxin for the venom poisoning me.

I tipped my head back and looked around the room.

If the bookstore hadn't been completely decimated before, it certainly was now. Something bizarre had happened to us while we were fighting and fucking, taking out everything we felt on each other's bodies because words don't work for either of us anymore. As if possessed by a unified prime directive, we'd abruptly stopped having sex and devoted our focus to finishing what the men had started. We smashed, slashed, and crushed.

Those few things the Guardians had left unbroken we'd destroyed ourselves. My iPod had actually still been working in the sound dock. It wasn't now, ground to smithereens beneath a heel. The rugs shredded by Barrons's talons. Bookcases that had been standing were now on the floor, contents dumped across the garishly stained floors.

I understood on an intuitive level. Someone else had desecrated our home. By participating in its destruction, we'd said goodbye to its current incarnation. We'd given the bookstore a proper burial. We'd grieved in fury. We'd torn down the Phoenix to ash so it could rise again.

We would start over. Barrons and I would always start over. Longevity requires it.

As I lay there, considering how I would redecorate-and yes, I still love decorating, as a brilliant, half-mad king likes to say more often than I like to hear it: can't eviscerate essential self-my eye was caught by the piece of paper I'd been stooping to collect outside the bookstore when I'd been shot. It had traipsed in stuck to someone's boot, evidenced by a large red heel print and was stuck by yet more paint to the broken arm of the chesterfield.

I reached over Barrons to snag it. Smoothed it out and turned it over.

Between splatters of paint, my name screamed from the page.

I began to read. Stopped. Cursed. Read and cursed some more.

The Dublin Daily August 2 AWC EMERGENCY ALERT!.

BREAKING NEWS GOOD PEOPLE OF NEW DUBLIN!.

MACKAYLA LANE.

is under control of the deadly Book of black magic known as the Sinsar Dubh and is on a rampage in New Dublin! She's been committing HORRIFIC MURDERS of INNOCENTS and will DESTROY OUR CITY if she isn't KILLED immediately! Her latest victim was a good man who worked for the New Guardians in a tireless effort to PROTECT us! Mick O'Leary was ripped to pieces by the SAVAGE ANIMAL MACKAYLA LANE.

See photo of Lane below! She usually has blond hair but may color it, don't be deceived by one of her SLEAZY disguises!

If you see her, DO NOT approach! She's a KILLER, PSYCHOTIC, and EXTREMELY DANGEROUS!!!

Notify WeCare with any news of her location!

She used to reside at BARRONS BOOKS & BAUBLES but hasn't been spotted there for some time.

It's rumored the Book can make her INVISIBLE, exponentially increasing the DANGER she presents!

Help us PROTECT New Dublin!

Join WeCare today!

Sleazy. I scowled, offended. There was nothing sleazy about me. Well, recent activity aside and that wasn't sleazy. That was freedom.

I smiled grimly. "Jada" hadn't needed to raise a finger against me. All she'd had to do was rat out my Sinsar Dubhcompromised state, my invisibility, and location to WeCare to place me squarely in the crosshairs of every vigilante, Fae, and nut job in Dublin. Thanks to Dani's past papers, in which she'd kept the city informed of every detail of the threats she deemed important, including the Sinsar Dubh, the world was fully aware of the astronomical power it contained. Some would hunt me to kill me, others with the futile hope of controlling the iconic, deadly Book. Rather than telling WeCare I was the Book, she'd made them think I had a copy, which made hunting me all the more desirable for those who wanted to possess its power.

I wasn't psychotic and she knew it. I was holding my own pretty damned well. I'd only killed a single person. By accident. And I regretted the hell out of it. Would give a great deal to be able to undo it.

I was fuming again, all that lovely hostility I'd managed to vent on Barrons's body flooding right back into my veins like someone had turned on the mother lode of spigots inside me.

This was bullshit. I'd been betrayed to the entire city and I was visible. There would be no more sneaking through the streets to get where I wanted to go. No more evading the searching ghouls in tonight's sky. It struck me as incalculably odd they'd been hunting for me on the precise night I'd become visible again. Could they sense me so easily?

Not that I wanted to be invisible again, I appended mentally, hastily. If the Sinsar Dubh was listening, and I was sure it was, I was not making wishes. No wishes. Not a single one. "You hear that?" I muttered. "This is me, Mac. Not wishing."

There was no answer but apparently we were on the outs, the Book and I. Or it was merely intensely occupied doing something nefarious, underhanded, and evil that was requiring all its attention, the results of which would soon bite me in the ass with vicious little teeth. I may as well enjoy the silence and lack of teeth in my ass. Occupy my time with something much nicer in it.

I glanced hungrily at Barrons. Sex on an Unseelie-flesh high was every bit as phenomenal as I'd thought it would be. Eating Fae makes a normal human existence seem a shadow of what life really should be. It enhances all your senses, taste, touch, sound, smell. Sex had been even more mind-blowing than usual with Barrons, each nerve exquisitely sensitive. My orgasms had gone on and on, one barely sputtering out before the next had set me on fire. Oh, yeah, eating Unseelie twice in eight days was probably a really bad idea.

I resolved to think about that in a few days when my high wore off.

Barrons's eyes opened slowly, heavy-lidded. Lust in those ancient eyes always sparks mine, goads my inner savage. I trailed my fingers up his body, from his stomach to his jaw, savoring each ripple, each hollow. I get off on touching this barbarian, seeing him gentled before he retreats into his hard, controlled, distant shell.

He cupped my chin and brushed his thumb across my lower lip. "Jayne shot at you," he said, executioner-soft, and I knew he could smell the inspector in the ruined store and that Jayne would be a dead man before dawn.

"Jayne stopped the men who were shooting at me," I corrected. "A Guardian named Brody instigated it. Red hair. Probably around thirty-five, a little over six foot." I gave him ample description to find him, should he choose to. He would choose to. "The others were following his lead. He's the only one I consider a liability among them. He wanted to burn my store," I said. "The rest will obey Jayne once Brody is gone."

He smiled faintly at how calmly I spoke of a human's pending demise. "Good to see you back." In more ways than one, his eyes added.

I handed him the Dublin Daily. "'Jada' outed me."

He scanned it then rose and stalked naked to the shattered counter upon which my lovely antique register used to sit, silver bell tinkling as I rang up orders. Whatever he was looking for wasn't where he'd left it. He rummaged beneath wreckage then returned with another piece of stained, crumpled paper.

I smoothed it out.

The Dublin Daily August 3 AWC EMERGENCY ALERT!.

NEW DUBLINERS BE ON GUARD!.

We've just received confirmation that there are TWO deadly copies of the PSYCHOPATHIC, EVIL Sinsar Dubh in Ireland!

One has possessed MACKAYLA LANE. The other has possessed DANI O'MALLEY who now calls herself JADA. See photos below.