I arched a brow. "And that means?"

"That he sent them off to do something else because he wants to talk to you without them around," Barrons said.

I stiffened, dropping my leg from the arm of the chair where I'd tossed myself in a fairly relaxed position. Sat up straight and folded my arms. Ryodan wanting to talk to me in semiprivate is never a good thing. Private would worry the hell out of me.

"We need to talk about the Sinsar Dubh, Mac," said Ryodan.

I blew out a gusty sigh. Recent sex aside, this was not turning out to be a banner day in Dublin. "What about it?" I was irritable all over again.

"Dancer has a theory. He thinks the Hoar Frost King inadvertently deposited the components of a Song of Destruction. He thinks the only thing that will stop the black holes from taking over this world entirely is a Song of Making."

That made two of us. I said nothing.

"The Sinsar Dubh allegedly contains parts of that song."

"Allegedly," I underscored. "The truth is, none of us know a damn thing about the Book. It's all legend and myth and supposition."

"Which is precisely why we need you to tell us what's actually in it. Unless you'd rather we try Cruce," Ryodan said evenly.

Surely not even Ryodan was arrogant enough to try to interrogate Cruce in his prison. "You think you could question a psychopathic Book?"

"I suspect that's not what he is."

"What do you mean?"

"In the past, the Book possessed whoever touched it. That's not what happened with him. He knew the First Language and was able to read it. The spells traveled up his arms, into his body. Did you ever see that happen before when someone handled it?"

I shook my head. It had always seized control of the person, taken them over completely. Never had the Book itself been destroyed.

Yet only a thin pile of gold dust and a handful of red, winking gemstones had remained of the Sinsar Dubh on the slab.

"The sentient Book crumbled once he was finished. Legend holds there are two parts to the Sinsar Dubh. A Book of words, spells on a page. And a second facet, the thing that evolved into a living, intelligent, hate-obsessed being with far more power than the words it contained. It appeared the sentient Sinsar Dubh was destroyed that night, and Cruce merely absorbed the knowledge."

"Oh, God," I breathed. "You could be right." That prick. Had he gotten all the power without any of the price? That would make him pretty much...well, nearly the Unseelie king. I narrowed my eyes. "We don't know that for certain."

"But if it's true, we wonder if you could do the same."

"Can you tell us anything, Ms. Lane?" Barrons said.

I swiveled my head to look at him. I'd been "Mac" mere minutes ago. "Why do you do that?"

His eyes said, Do you really want to call me Jericho?

I thought about it a minute and was rather startled to realize I didn't. Jericho was...intimate. Jericho and Mac were a completely different entity than Ms. Lane and Barrons. They existed in a different place. A freer environ, a sacred one. And I liked that difference. I nodded, smiling faintly. His dark eyes gleamed with something appreciative, and I practically preened.

You continue to evolve, his eyes said. Keep fucking me instead of worrying.

"Tell me about the Book," Ryodan said. "I want to understand how it's in you."

I sighed and tried to figure out how to explain it. "I've got this place inside me. I don't know how to say quite where, I think it must be in my head. It's a deep, glassy black lake but it's more than that, too. There are caverns and pebbled shores. Who knows, maybe I've got a whole bloody country inside me. I think the lake is my sidhe-seer place. But it was altered by something else inside me and now it's...different. If there were boundaries, I can't tell where they are anymore."

"The Book," Ryodan said.

I looked at Barrons. I don't know why. Maybe just to make sure he was there, as he'd been there the single time I dived to the bottom of my dark glassy lake and beheld the Sinsar Dubh in all its shining, tempting glory. Just in case talking about it made it do something evil, I wanted to know he was nearby.

"It's there," I said peevishly. "At the bottom of the lake. But I have to swim all the way down to get to it. It's in a black cavern, on a pedestal. Closed." I glared at him. "For good reason." I'd closed it that afternoon, months ago with Barrons. Whumped it firmly shut.

"Have you gone inside your head and looked at it recently," said Ryodan.

"Nope." Not about to either. Knowing my luck, it would be open to an extremely useful spell that I'd begin to think I might want, or need, or possibly not be able to live without.

"I want you to," Ryodan said.

"Are you on board with this?" I fired at Barrons.

His dark eyes flashed. We all have our inner beasts.

And you think you can manage mine? I shot back.

I think I do a damn fine job. Images of what we'd just done surfaced in his eyes.

That's different.

We control ours. It took time.

How much time?

We made mistakes, was all he said.

You want me to look.

I want this world. I want you. It may be the only way. I see no other alternatives at present. If there's a way inside you to stop the black holes from destroying Earth, we need it.

I want you. Those three simple words. They undo me. Melt me. Forge me into steel stronger than I am. Barrons's belief in me is pure titanium.

Over millennia, searching for the spell to free my son, I never once caught wind of anything reputed to contain part of the Song of Making aside from the Book I hunted.

Millennia, he'd said. Barrons had lived for thousands of years. It was one thing to suspect it, another to hear him admit it. My lover was thousands of years old. I was twenty-three. No wonder we had issues.

I frowned, recalling something else I knew about that might be of use to us now. A thing I'd seen in the White Mansion when I was hunting with Darroc for the Silver back to Dublin.

But I'd been stoically refusing to think about it ever since I realized what I had inside me, unwilling to let my inner beast catch wind of it, if it hadn't already.

I sighed. "I'll take a look. But if I go batshit crazy down there, don't say I didn't warn you."

"Go?" Ryodan said, his inflection clearly implying he thought I was already there.

I wrinkled my nose at him. "If I'm going to do this, I need a drink first."

"I'll have one sent up," Ryodan said. "Name your poison."

"I want to get it myself," I said coolly, aware I was only trying to stave off the inevitable. But I wanted to walk somewhere of my own volition, feel alive and free for a few more minutes before I risked body and soul.

"We'll all get one," he said, pushing up from behind his desk.

When I walked down the chrome and glass stairs with Barrons on my left, Ryodan on my right, I could have been slain by the daggers of envy shot my way, from every subclub below.

If only they knew.

- I would have opted for the Sinatra club but Ryodan saw Christian looming darkly at the bar and steered us away.

To the kiddie subclub where Jo worked, wearing a short, kicky plaid skirt, white blouse, and baby doll heels, looking pretty, her short dark hair highlighted with gold and blond. She came to wait on us with a wary look when Ryodan gestured, but he only ordered three glasses of Macallan, Rare Cask, with the blandest of expressions. As she hurried away to fill the order, I sensed a stir in the crowd on the dance floor.

I looked around, trying to decide what was causing it, and realized the crowd was parting for some reason, allowing someone or something's passage.

Jo deposited two fingers of rare cask scotch in front of me. I picked it up, swirled it and sipped appreciatively. I watched, waiting, and finally a woman came into view, heads turning as she passed.

Jada.

Abso-frigging-lutely stunning in a red dress and heels. Bare-legged, hair scraped back high from that beautiful face, ponytail nearly brushing her ass as she walked. Her skin was smooth and creamy, her face smoother, her eyes flashing banked heat. I could make out Dancer's head behind her, taller than her, even with her wearing heels. Unlike one of the Nine, he wasn't shadowing her every move, using his body to lead and block. He merely walked with her.

Dani was all grown up, wearing a dress that fit her like a second skin. And that walk! Graceful, long-legged power and heat. Awareness that she was gorgeous.

Dani didn't swagger anymore.

She strutted. She prowled. She stalked, owning the ground she walked on.

And she was setting the men on fire as she passed. Humans and Fae alike watched her go, coveting, lusting. She shined. Even though she wasn't our Dani anymore, there was something utterly brilliant about her, almost luminous. Oh, there was still fire within. I'd bet my sanity on it. Well, wait, that wasn't necessarily a solid bet. I'd bet my right arm.

She wasn't oblivious to the attention. She simply didn't care.

I glanced at Ryodan. I don't know why. I guess I'm always mining for gold where there is none. His face was as smooth as Jada's.

But those eyes, those cool silver eyes, were flashing with a similar banked heat. He looked up. Down. Up again. Lingered. Then sharply away.

I thought for a moment Jada and Dancer were coming to see us but they detoured and went right instead of straight.

"Odd way to dress for an investigation," Barrons murmured.

"She's not Dani anymore," Ryodan clipped.

"Would you rather she had on jeans and sneakers?" I said.

"I'd rather she had on a fucking suit of armor," Ryodan said coolly.

And a chastity belt, if I could read the look in a man's eyes. And I could. "She's a woman, Ryodan," I said softly. "Get used to it. Dancer was right. We need to accept her."

"Don't tell me what to get used to, Mac. I'm the one that breaks all the rules, remember."

I stared at him.

"This morning, with Christian at the abbey, you were thinking about when you watched us down in the dungeon. You were in my office, watching my monitors."

"Stay the hell out of my head!" I barked. Or had there been a roach or three, lurking beneath his desk, reporting back?

"Don't give it away so easily. You saw the forbidden."

"You did the forbidden," I said flatly. "And believe me, I keep quiet about a lot of things I see."

He looked at Barrons. "She knows about the Highlander."

Barrons said, "Yet said nothing and could have."

"Did you skim it from my head, too?" I asked Barrons sourly.

"I accord you greater respect. And henceforth, Ryodan will, too." It was a warning.

Ryodan said to me, "If you turn invisible again, I'll ward you from my club. Permanently." To Barrons, he said, "I'll break as many rules as you do, brother."

I supposed he also knew somehow that I was aware they were brothers, since he was no longer hiding it from me.

None of us said anything then. I sipped my drink and glanced back at Jada, but she was gone. "Speaking of the Highlander," I couldn't help but meddle, "you should tell Christian. He may be able to help." I should have left it there, because the only thing that would motivate Ryodan was if there was something in it for him, but I couldn't help adding, "Besides, it's his family. He deserves to know."

"Be wise, Mac. Never mention to me that you know again."

"Fine," I said irritably. Then, "Shit!" The Alina-thing was on the dance floor, turning in a circle, standing tall as if to peer over the sea of heads. Looking for someone. Looking as distraught and worried as she had the first time I'd seen her. Looking as if she'd been crying her eyes out. Looking so achingly like my sister that I wanted to burst into tears myself.

Beside me, Barrons tensed. I glanced at him. He was staring where I'd been staring.

"That woman looks like she could be your sister, Ms. Lane."

He could see the Alina-thing, too?

I was so flabbergasted for a moment that I couldn't draw breath to speak. "Wait, how do you know what my sister looks like?"

"Your albums. The photo you put in your parents' mailbox, Darroc later hung on my door."

Ah, I'd forgotten about that.

"Perhaps a Fae throwing a glamour?" he said, assessing me.

I hadn't thought of that. If he could see her, too...well, I'd positively cotton to the idea if I hadn't opened an empty casket in Ashford earlier today.

But...maybe it was a Fae and the same Fae had stolen her body just to play some kind of sick trick on me. Both Seelie and Unseelie could cast flawless glamour. And so long as I had Unseelie flesh in me, I couldn't use my sidhe-seer senses to see past it.

Well, damn. That was a darned plausible explanation.

Except, I realized glumly, the first night I'd seen the illusion had been before I'd partaken of forbidden fruit.