"You come so near--then you draw back; like offering a thirsty man a cup of water he must not drink. Give me only a little time--a little chance----"

She shook her head. "Please believe me. I'm _not_ the wavering kind. I'm keen to go on being friends--because of Roy. But, truthfully, it's no use hoping for anything more--ever."

Her patent sincerity, the sweet seriousness of her face, carried conviction. And conviction turned his ardour to bitterness.

"Why no use--_ever_?" he flung out, maddened by her emphasis on the word.

"I suppose--because I know my own mind."

"No. Because--_I_ am Indian." His voice was changed and harsh. "We are all British subjects--oh yes--when convenient! But the door is opened only--so far. If we make bold to ask for the best, it is slammed in our faces."

"Dyan Singh, if I have hurt you, it was quite unintentional. You know that. But now, _with_ intention, you are hurting me." Her dignity and gentleness, the justice of her reproof, smote him silent; and she went on: "You forget, it is the same among your own people. Aunt Lila was cast out--for always. With an English girl that could never be."

Too distraught for argument, he harked back to the personal issue. "With _you_ there would be no need. I would live altogether like an Englishman----"

"Oh, _stop_!" she broke out desperately. "Don't start all over again----"

"Look alive, you two slackers," shouted Roy, from the far corner of the road. "I'm responsible for keeping the team together."

"Coming!" called Tara, and turned on Dyan a final glance of appeal. "I'm _sorry_ from the bottom of my heart. I can't say more."--And setting the pace, she hurried forward.

For the fraction of a second, he hesitated. An overmastering impulse seized him to walk off in the opposite direction. His eager love for them all had suddenly turned to gall. But pride forbade. He would not for the world have them guess at his rebuff--not even Aruna....

He slept little that night; and it was not Dyan Singh of New College who awoke next morning. It was Dyan Singh, Rajput, Descendant of the Sun.

Yet the foolish round of life must go on as if no vital change had come to pa.s.s.

That afternoon, he was going with Roy to a select drawing-room meeting.

A certain Mr Ramji Lal had been asked to read a paper on the revival of Indian arts and crafts. Dyan had been looking forward to it keenly; but now, sore and miserable as he was--all sense of purpose and direction gone--he felt out of tune with the whole thing.

He would have been thankful to cry off. Roy, however, must not suspect the truth--Roy, who himself might be the stumbling-block. The suspicion stung like a scorpion; though it soothed a little his hurt pride of race.

Embittered and antagonistic, he listened only with half his mind to his own countryman's impa.s.sioned appeal for renewal of the true Swadeshi[1]

spirit in India; renewal of her own innate artistic culture, her faith in the creative power of thought and ideas. That spirit--said the speaker--has no war-cries, no shoutings in the market-place. It is a way of looking at life. Its true genesis and inspiration is in the home.

Like flame, newly-lit, it needs cherishing. Instead, it is in danger of being stamped out by false Swadeshi--an imitation product of the West; noisy and political, crying out for more factories, more councils; caring nothing for true Indian traditions of art and life. It will not buy goods from Birmingham and Manchester; but it will create Birmingham and Manchester in India. In effect, it is the age-old argument whether the greatness of a nation comes from the dominion of men or machinery....

For all this, Dyan had cared intensely twenty-four hours ago. Now it seemed little better than a rhapsody of fine phrases--'sounding bra.s.s and tinkling cymbals.'

Could the mere word of a woman so swiftly and violently transform the mind of a man? His innate masculinity resented the idea. It succ.u.mbed, nevertheless. He was too deeply hurt in his pride and his pa.s.sionate heart to think or feel sanely while the wound was still so fresh. He was scarcely stirred even by the allusion to Rajputana in Mr Ramji Lal's peroration.

"I ask you to consider, in conclusion--my dear and honoured English friends--the words of a veteran lover of India, who is also a son of England. It was his conviction--it is also mine--that 'the still living art of India, the still living chivalry of Rajputana, the still living religion of the Hindus, are the only three points on which there is any possibility of regenerating the national life of India--the India of the Hindus....'"

Very fine; doubtless very true; but what use--after all--their eternal talk? By blowing volumes of air from their lungs, did they shift the mountains of difficulty one single inch?

More talk followed; tea and attentions that would have flattered him yesterday. To-day it all pa.s.sed clean over his head. They were ready enough to pamper him, like a lap-dog, these good ladies; forgetting he was a man, with a man's heart and brain, making demand for something more than carefully chosen sugar-plums.

He had never been so thankful to get away from that hospitable house, where he had imagined himself so happy....

They were out in the street again, striding back to New College: Roy--not yet alive to the change in him--full of it all; talking nineteen to the dozen. But Dyan's urgent heart spoke louder than his cousin's voice. And all the while he kept wondering consumedly--_Was_ it Roy?

He could not bring himself to ask outright. The answer would madden him either way. And Goodness--or Badness--knew he was miserable enough: hurt, angry with Fate, with England, even with Tara--lovely and unattainable! She had spoilt everything: his relation with her, with her people, with Roy. She had quenched his zeal for their joint crusade. All the same, he would hold Roy to the India plan; since there was just a chance--and it would take him away from her. He hated himself for the thought; but jealousy, in the East, is a consuming fire....

Roy's monologue ceased abruptly. "Your innings, old chap, I think!" he said. "You're mum as a fish this afternoon. I noticed it in there--I thought you'd have lots to say to Ramji Lal."

Dyan frowned. He could not for long play at pretences with Roy.

"Those ladies did all the saying. They would not have liked it at all if I had spoken my true thought,"--he paused and added deliberately--"that we are all cracking our skulls against stone walls."

"My dear chap----!" Roy stared in frank bewilderment. "What's gone wrong? Your liver touched up? Too much salmon mayonnaise and cream?"

His light tone goaded Dyan to exasperation. "Quite likely," he retorted, a sneer lurking in his tone. "Plenty of mayonnaise and cream, for all parties. But when we make bold to ask for more satisfying things, we find 'No Indians need apply.'"

"But--my good Dyan----!"

"Well--it's true. Suppose I wish to promote that closer union we all chatter about by marrying an English girl--what then?"

Up went Roy's eyebrows. "Are _you_ after an English wife?"

"I am submitting a case--that might easily occur." He spoke with a touch of irritation; and fearing self-betrayal, swerved from the main issue.

"Would _you_ marry an Indian girl?"

"I believe so. If I was keen. I'm not at all sure, though, if it's sound--in principle--mixing such opposite strains. And in your case--hypothetical, I suppose----?"

Dyan's grunt confessed nothing and denied nothing.

"Well--from what one hears, an English wife, out there, might make a bit of complication, if you get the 'Civil.'"

Dyan started. "I shan't go up for it. I've changed my mind."

"Good Lord! And you've been sweating all this time."

Dyan's smile was tinged with bitterness.

"Well--one lives and learns. I can make good use of my knowledge without turning myself into an imitation Englishman. An Indian wife might make equal difficulty. So--with all my zeal--I am between two grindstones. My father joined the Civil. He was keen. He did well. But--no promotion; and little friendliness, except from very few. I believe he was never happy. I believe--it killed him. I was cherishing a hope that, now, things might be better. But I am beginning to see--I may be wrong. Safer to see it in time----"

Roy looked genuinely distressed. "Poor old Dyan. Perhaps you're right. I don't know much about British India. But it does seem hard lines--and bad policy--to choke off men like you."

"Yes. They might consider _that_ more, if they heard some of our fire-eaters. One was at me last week. He gave the British ten years to survive. Said their lot could raise a revolution to-morrow if they had money--a trifle of five millions! He was swearing the Indian princes are not loyal, in spite of talk and subscriptions; that the Army will join whichever side gives best pay. We who _are_ loyal need _some_ encouragement--some recognition. We are only human----!"

"Rather. But _you_ won't go back on our little show, old chap. Just when I'm dead keen--laying my plans for India----"

He took hold of Dyan's upper arm and gave it a friendly shake.

"No, I'll stick to that. But are you sure you can work it--with your people? If _you_ back out, I swear, by the sin of the sack of Chitor, I'll join the beastly crowd who are learning to make bombs in Berlin."

At that--the most solemn oath that can pa.s.s the lips of a Rajput--Roy looked startled. Then he laughed.

"'Commem' seems to have disagreed with you all round! But I won't be intimidated. Likewise--I won't back out. I intend opening diplomatic conversations with Jeffers to-night. Recherche dinner for two in my room. All his little weaknesses! He'd be a strong ally. Wish me luck."