My mom puts an arm around my waist and rests her head on my shoulder as we walk to our own vehicle. My grandmother and Frank are walking in front of us, each carting one of the twins on a hip. Stan trails behind.

"That was one helluva way to come out," Mom says, and I know she saw us.

"Mom!" I scold.

"Gumshoe was pretty good, but phew, that kiss was better."

"Mom!" My face warms with embarrassment.

She gives me a squeeze. "I'm so proud of you."

We're quiet for a moment as we wait for cars to pass by, and it occurs to me that maybe Mom hasn't seen Eden's drawing-maybe the picture was only in some of the programs-maybe she doesn't know that our coming out wasn't exactly our idea.

"Mason, though . . . ," Mom says. "That surprised me."

"Me too," I agree. "But these girls in our class, they seemed to know."

"Really?" she asks.

I pull my program from my shirt pocket, unfold it, and hand it to my mother.

She's confused.

"In the middle," I say.

She pulls the wrinkled pages open, squints in concentration at the drawing. Then she covers her mouth with one hand, but I can tell her lips are an O of surprise. "These girls, they did this?" she asks. But she doesn't wait for me to answer. "Oh, Jamie! Honey."

I practically catch her as she falls onto me-her arms open and eyes welling with tears. "Baby," she says, the word-fortunately-muffled by my shoulder.

"Carrie?" Frank says her name, ducking back out of the van.

"I should've had you transferred," Mom mumbles through tears. "I knew that school was trouble. Knew it all along."

Frank gives me a what's-she-talking-about? look.

"It's okay, Mom," I say. "We're okay."

She pulls away and looks up at me. "But the school, they should-They should-"

I shake my head. "School's over. It doesn't matter."

"But-"

"Mason and I are fine," I repeat for her sake, but deep down I get the feeling that I'm lying. "We're fine."

And all through dinner-my grandmother has made real food-I keep thinking about the stone-cold look on Mr. Viveros's face.

After dinner my phone buzzes in my pocket. It's Eden. I don't answer.

A text comes in: Please pick me up. I need to talk to you.

I know I need to talk to her, too. But I don't feel like it. Not now. Not in the mess I'm in. Not while I'm worried about Mason. I don't reply. I just scrape my untouched plate into the kitchen trashcan. I put it in the dishwasher, a swirl of mashed potatoes and a matching one of gravy still clinging to it.

I glance up to find my mom looking at me, a worried smile on her face. "Mason?" she asks.

I shake my head. "Eden."

"What did she want?"

"To talk." I sigh.

"That's girls for you," Mom says. "It's what we do best."

I know what she's saying, that she's here if I want to talk about it. "Thanks, but-" My phone buzzes again. I look at the screen and wish this message would be from Mason and not Eden.

Can I come over?

Mom looks at me as if she wants it to be Mason as much as I do. I shake my head, and her face falls to what I imagine is a mirror of my own expression. I feel her pity and want to shake it off. So I text Eden back.

No. I'll pick u up. For Brodie's party.

Eden bawled like a baby all the way here, saying over and over how sorry she is about the drawing. I let her, because I needed to hear it. Not the crying, just the apology. Then, when we get to the party, she disappears into Brodie's bathroom and has been there for the last twenty minutes. I guess I got what I wanted: to be alone. But I can't stand it. My stomach is a mass of writhing worry. And even though the party has barely begun and I know that Mason's probably still eating dinner at the Viverosno-phone-zone dining-room table, I text him.

Hey, can't wait to see you.

Too tacky. I hold down the delete button.

Thinking of you.

Even worse. Delete.

Hope you're hanging in there.

Is that a sexual reference? Or a kitten poster? No. Delete, delete, delete.

Finally it's Eden who saves me when she emerges from the bathroom, her eyes still ringed with red.

"How do you send a text to someone you kissed and really want to be your boyfriend but you aren't sure he feels the same way?" The words bypass my brain and tumble out of my mouth.

She takes my phone from my hand. "You don't."

"But-" I reach for it before her words sink in.

"Some things are better explained in person." She closes my phone and hands it back.

"You don't have to disappear," I tell her while we wait for Mason. "I'll explain about the drawing. You won't have to." We have a clear view of both the gate and the French doors, but we're standing away from the noise of the fire pit and barbecue.

"Thanks, Jamie," she says. "But I'm gonna pass. I think you two need time alone."

I know. But I'm not sure I'm ready.

Forget butterflies. I've got a nest of yellow jackets down there. I don't know what to do. What to say. Or how to act. What do you say after you kiss someone? What did that kiss mean?

"Stay?" I ask. "Please."

"Okay."

I spy him. He's wearing a white button-down shirt-probably from Gabe's side of the closet-as if he hasn't changed his clothes, just taken off his tie. The sleeves are rolled up, and his tan forearms are bare. He looks okay. Actually, way better than okay.

My heart melts and my palms get sweaty. I wipe them on my shorts and check my antiperspirant.

"You're fine," Eden assures me. "And you smell good."

She starts edging away, as if to start her disappearing act.

I grab her hand. Make her stay.

Mason sees me and smiles as bright as the first star on the horizon.

I hang on to Eden for balance, weaving my fingers into hers.

She tugs me toward him. "Hey, Mason," she says cheerily.

"Hey," he says. Then he sees our hands. And his eyebrows wrinkle with a question.

I untangle my fingers from Eden's.

"I was just leaving," she says.

"See you," Mason says to her. But the eyebrow question marks remain.

"I-I, uh," I stammer, trying to explain. "Um, I mean, earlier-that was, yeah. But I guess, I'm worried-I don't know, I want to, you know, but-"

"Jamie," Mason says. "You're babbling."

"I know, it's just-" I inhale. Try to make the words make sense. "Are we-are we more than friends?"

He steps closer, his brown eyes locked on mine. "That depends . . ."

I hiccup more air into my lungs, stammer more nonsense.

His voice is steady when he finishes his sentence. "If I'm still your best friend or if Eden is."

"You are," I say.

"Good." He nudges the grass with the toe of his dress shoes. "You know, because I was sorta feeling replaced."

Oh. Yeah. I reach for him and touch his arm.

He steps closer, not hugging me but resting his forehead on my shoulder, like he did that night it rained. I wrap my arms around him.

"Sorry," I say. "It's just-it was hard to be around you and in the closet. And Eden . . . Well, Eden knows everything. I could talk to her."

"I know," Mason mumbles into my collar. "I wanted to come out to you, tell you the real reason I didn't want to date in high school." He chokes on the words. "But it just got too damn complicated."

"You're right," I say. "Way too much drama."

Mason chuckles, and I feel his shoulders shake. I join in. Soon we're laughing so hard, we edge right back around to crying. My stomach muscles spasm, and I clutch my gut as another peal of laughter rocks through me. Mason claps a hand on my shoulder and I tumble into him. We totter for a moment then fall onto the grass-Mason on his back and me on my side and pressed into him. We duck our heads, embarrassed and laughing.

I peek out from under my fingers to see Kellen raising a red Solo cup as if he's giving us a toast. Brodie does the same, followed by an "I love you, man!"

I smile back and raise my empty hand as if I have a cup in it. "Love you-"

But Mason pulls my hand down. He's still laughing when he says, "You're such a flirt."

"Sorry."

"Don't be," Mason says. "Just flirt with me next time."

"I promise."

He edges up on his elbows, his face dangerously close to mine.

My stomach is knotted up from laughing, and my lungs are working overtime to catch my breath. So when he rolls towards me and kisses my lips, a million mixed up signals course through my neurons. I'm dizzy. Breathless. Speechless. Ice-cold. On fire.

I don't let him stop. I reach for his face, pull him over onto me.

Someone yells, "Get a room," but we ignore them and keep kissing.

Until we both start giggling. My face is burning.

"How many creepy stalker girls are staring at us right now?" Mason whispers.

"Um. All of them."

He takes a deep breath, as if to prepare himself for something. Then he stands and offers me a hand.

I take it and he pulls me upright. I don't let go.

Mason motions to the cluster of people around the fire pit. "Do they look a little cozy?"

I follow his gaze and find Eden and Challis, their heads bent together as if they were whispering. Oh my God. They have their arms around each other. That's new.

"I don't trust them. They're up to something," Mason says.