Lilas apartment 6:00 PM

Lila woke up to find herself alone in the room, so she scanned the place and stood up .

She followed the scent she knows all too well to find him perched on the decking . Arms wrapped around his neck, Lila bends down, taking a whiff of his scent . His blood smells so sweet .

"Hungry? "

"Yes . Can I have a lot? "

"Go ahead . "

She does . She takes quite a bit, and by the end of it, Haruka's complexion seemed lighter than usual . But he didn't complain and instead places light kisses on her forehead .

"Please feel free to leave me if you ever don't need me anymore . "

Even now he's still thinking such stupid things, isn't he? Then again, she too may have similar dark thoughts . If the two of them were to disclose it to anyone, they'd think it would be stupid . They'd get mad .  After all, that's happened, it's clear where hers and Haruka's feelings stand after all . A love that is strong enough to shake up the heavens, huh? . However, to the two of them, it's only natural to have dark thoughts still . For they have never once thought they'd find happiness, let alone a love as beautiful as they have now .

"That's out of the question; I love you so much . "

"I can say the same now . I love you . But didn't all of this start because I desired your blood? "

"Back then too, any desires I had for you was because of your blood too," Lila mumbled .

He smiles softly, "I will take this as a compliment . Until the day you acknowledge that you desire me in that manner too . "

Really he's a fool . But she's always liked it, his smile and the warmth that comes from his kisses . The warmth and light that comes from her violet-colored orbs softened .

"Haruka, the truth is I read the first part of your diary when I was browsing through the shelves .  " she leaned over and brushed her fingers across his neck and brought her lips down again,

" ' Ever since I met Lila again, I can smile more . ' I'm pleased you wrote that . "

"Yeah, I did . It's great . I met you again . "

She places a kiss on the deep bite mark and shuts her eyes . "Yeah, thanks for being here for me," Lila knew she could no longer live a life without this person .

. . .

The two of them sat down on the decking area, her head resting on his shoulders . Hands enter wind against each other as they watched the continuous amounts of white snow falling — a peaceful moment . Droplets of snow keep falling these days, but " You know, I think 'G.o.d ' really exists, and it isn't just due to these powers that I have . After all, when I told G.o.d, ' I have something I can't tell . I want one wish . . . one wish to come true . "

"What did you ask?"

"I fell in love with somebody . I want to be happy, even if it means going against the destiny that had been laid out for me . ' "Lila paused, " I want to be happy . I never thought something like that would cross my mind . Since I already accepted the destiny that had been laid out for me . It was supposed to be crystal clear like gla.s.s . The lonely future and path I'd take . But once I met you that changed . "

The moment she met Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka, The gears of fate that had been taking shape, started to evolve into something different . The entire time it was happening . She already knew of it, and yet she stayed in that small world . If she remained there with another person, then these feelings wouldn't leak out . But it was impossible, after all .

"I don't know about G.o.d or whatever . But those feelings of yours - you should have informed me first . I should have been the first one to know . You know Lila, I didn't tell anyone that I was in love with you this entire time . I was rather vague about everything . "

"Ah, I thought that was because you were clumsy expressing your feelings . "

"Oi . "

" Am I wrong? "

"  .   .   . That was part of the reason .  " Yuhi admitted with a deep sigh . " But what I said just now was the main reason . I never told anyone because I wanted you to be the first person to know . That I was in love with you, and how I never considered anyone else . "

Her cheeks colored red . Oh . " Um . . . . . . "

"Embarra.s.sed? " Haruka said, caressing her cheeks gently with his hand . Even though there's nothing innocent about their relations.h.i.+p anymore . Rather at this point that they are confessing their secrets by one . The word 'desire' has always been there for the two of them . So could you really say there was anything innocent about their relations.h.i.+p? The answer is no .

"Un and a bit overwhelmed," Lila trailed off . Overwhelmed, and yet, each time he touches her and showers her with words of honesty and affection . She always feels that air of innocence .

Haruka pulled her into his arms, causing her eyes to widen . "Lila . I'm sure you have figured it out by now . What I intend to do abroad . "

"Yes . That's why I'm very worried about you," Lila mumbled . What he's going to do is something dangerous in a place that's so far away, without her by his side . The very thought of it scared her .

"I can't tell you not to worry . But I can rea.s.sure you . Do you know what you gave me when we met? This time, I'll protect you to the end . Even without memories, that desire was there from the beginning . Those were the feelings you gave me as the memories of my long and lonely past resurfaced . That was the ray of light that resurfaced and showed me the way . And I lost myself to desire plenty of times . I made many mistakes . But I couldn't stop myself . To shake off those contradictions, I imposed many unreasonable demands on you, and I took away the smile that radiated from the bottom of your heart . "

Lila shook her head, "Your wrong Haruka . Although I can't say that your actions have never hurt me before . You're the one who brought back my smile; you didn't take anything from me . You've given me so much . "

Haruka smiles softly, "If you think so, I'm not going to argue . Besides, your mine aren't you?"

"Yes . "

"You know when it was time to let you go . I thought it would be enough if I could watch over you . But you who lived as a normal girl, you who became an idol became even more of a radiant existence to me . How you desperately tried to help a stranger who was hurt . How you worked hard on your appearance, worked hard to fix all your flaws for the guy you like . Worked hard to convey your feelings to people . "

He's so stupid . She's the one who should be saying words of grat.i.tude . If she didn't meet Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka, she would still be an empty existence . It's because they met because they crossed paths . That she was able to discover the beauty of the world; the beauty Kiryu pointed out to her before, but she couldn't see it . Back then, all she could see were raging storm clouds every day . However, when she met Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka, she could finally see the light .

Lila s.h.i.+fted over, arms draped around his neck . " What is it? " she doesn't say anything and merely continues holding onto him tightly . Noticing she won't respond, Haruka merely caresses her hair .

Ever since she was younger, she found herself to be absorbed entirely in the world of knowledge . That's right long before she even met Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka; she already noticed that books that contained understanding attracted her . At first, though it was only a means of escape, escape from all the shouting .

Mother and Ren-san would often fight . Fight, makeup . Back then, Lila did not understand why . Family life wasn't exactly as peaceful as everyone thought it was . That family already long fell apart, so perhaps what happened then was atonement . Atonement for what happened before . In that sense, there is no meaningless misfortune .

When she first stumbled upon Shakespeare's works, she learned the meaning in more depth . What a true tragedy is . Her form of escape were those books . To block out the sound, she would listen to music and escaping in the world of stories . But that in itself is too much of a fantasy .

People cannot escape from a reality that is there . She found out many things . So then how is she an outsider of society supposed to fit in? The answer is simple . 'You just have to live the same as everyone else,' Lila thought . And another is that most humans won't accept something as a fact . If it is outside what they consider common sense .

When Lila realized these things, even if she did that it wouldn't change anything, it won't make her world any less darker then it already was . It won't bring out the light she's seeking which is why she . . . she didn't try it and lived life without lying .

That light she was seeking so long, appeared to her the second she met him . Not only the light but a world of vibrant colors . A world of vibrant colors, durable and st.u.r.dy . He introduced her to paintings and colors that express every emotion . Buildings, people, animals - Karas.h.i.+ma Haruka showed her how everyone is dyed in their own special color . Not just one color but several . Colors that only belong to that person alone .

"Can I make some selfish requests when were married properly Haruka?"

" Define 'selfish . ' "

She lifts her fingers to his lips, gently tracing them . " 'of a person, action, or motive) lacking consideration for other people; concerned chiefly with one's profit or pleasure . ' "

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"I want you to be more pa.s.sionate than before . "

Lila doesn't clarify what she's talking about . Nor does she even describe it . But right away, Haruka understands . "You're trying to kill me, aren't you?"

"Perhaps . But Haruka . You said you'd fall into h.e.l.l with me . Do you have any right to whine at this stage? Or maybe I fell in love with an annoying guy after all . "

"Brat . "

"It really is only with you Haruka, when I'm able to feel the most happiness . That's why when we're married properly .  I will be blessed with the fact that we never have to part from each other, th