If he breaks completely, would he deserve Lila then? Haruka honestly didn't know what to do anymore . This was the reason why he never considered a proper relations.h.i.+p with her . Haruka didn't think she would one day accept his feelings, and even if she did . He was supposed to push her away . How on earth did it end up with him dating her? A deep and long sigh escaped his lips as his gaze flickered onto the girl who was panting heavily beneath him .

"Haruka," the girl's voice always sounded so s.e.xy no matter what she did . Haruka liked s.e.x; he liked the bliss and rush and the heat . He enjoyed hearing the girl's moans and begging - he liked feeling superior . But most of all, the most important thing was it made him feel whole . It made him feel wanted .

"What do you want to do?"

"Just once," Lila nodded, "One time . "

Haruka smiled, "That's not how you beg . "

Lila blushed and hit his chest with her pretty hands, but Haruka grabbed hold of them, "Beg me, babe, I like it a lot . "

"Idiot! Why are you acting so strange?"

"Who says I am . "

"Ah, geez, I won't do it," Lila's cheeks were so red at this point, "Something that embarra.s.sing . "

. . . .

Even as famous as he is now . Haruka does not forget about those days Haruka doesn't forget how everything started .

Haruka hated school; he hated most things back then . But he mainly hated that place, all the people there were worthless in his eyes . They would spend so much time talking about people behind their backs . One second they would try to curry favor with you and act kind . But the moment they find out you have no use to them, or in his case are ten times better they scorn you . It was the same for him .

At first, people thought they could take advantage of him, but the moment they realized they couldn't they stopped . Instead, they turned to bullying . People say that those who get bullied are either the poor or kind-hearted individuals . But even somebody who is rich and tough, somebody with opposite attributes can be subjected to bullying .

Like himself, those people say all sorts of things behind his back . But Haruka didn't bother with it . It isn't his fault that he didn't see the need to interact with them . All of them are fake and worthless in his eyes . Besides, all of these people only want to take advantage of his power and use it for themselves . In people's eyes, the rich are gullible individuals who can be tricked and deceived . If they encounter somebody who isn't like that, they are subjected to bullying .

Even if they didn't bully him and tried to get to know him properly, who would befriend a guy who was abandoned? He would always s.p.a.ce out whenever they talked because he wanted nothing to do with them . The topics those people spoke about were utterly useless, and he would walk fast so he could get away from the absurdity of it all . He would find a quiet spot like the rooftop and just stare into s.p.a.ce there .

There in that spot, he would think about it, freedom - and a dream he long abandoned . The dream of becoming a musician, to sing on a large stage . Even when he was working around the store, his mind would wander off . 'One day, I'll be free . '

Then he meets Atsuya, that guy stood out a great deal . So whenever Atsuya would call out to him, it would draw so many people's attention . Sometimes Haruka would overhear people's comments, and it made him feel even more bitter inside . Those people would comment that Atsuya only approached him because he wanted to improve his image as the nice guy .

Haruka would always increase his pace whenever he's walking; he didn't want to let the bitterness show on his face . Those people don't know what they are talking about; they are only trying to cause problems for him . That's what Haruka wanted to continue believing, anyway . Haruka distanced himself from Atsuya for the longest time, until that man shoved CDs in his face and gives him music-related items .

Haruka kept the CDs for a long time since he couldn't use the money those people gave him .

Then they end up becoming friends; their friends.h.i.+p is unusual, and Haruka never understood why Atsuya chose somebody like him to stand by his side . Atsuya was the complete opposite him, smart, friendly, and kind . He was well-liked by people .

If it weren't for that incidence, even now would the two of them have remained friends? It felt like their friends.h.i.+p was slowly falling apart, even before he started to make moves towards Yumeko . Would anything have changed? Wouldn't he have fallen into despair regardless of what happened with Atsuya or not? Sometimes Haruka couldn't help but wonder about it .

He spends more time with Atsuya, much to that person's irritation . At first, Haruka thought he was simply pa.s.sing the time . This friends.h.i.+p with Atsuya would end up just like the others, Haruka didn't think much about it . But before he knew it Haruka started to enjoy his time with Atsuya; talking about this and that and time seems to be an issue when it's time to go to bed, and they're in the middle of exchanging stories about school . They sit together at meals, and he learns that Ren tries to get thirds when they're serving miso soup .

They steal each other's desert and laugh, and the atmosphere is much more enjoyable . At school, they only get to talk when it's lunch break, and when the school year's coming to an end, he's kinda sad because he'll be at the high school a few blocks away so they can't talk on the way back . One day Ren shows up in his room with a guitar and strums a few chords .

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2032 Light Academy Middle School - Light Town

"Where did you get that?" Haruka asked . Quite some time had pa.s.sed since he last saw one . A guitar . While he dabbled with music a few times even after that person's death, Haruka didn't take it seriously as before . He only played music in bars from time to time to gain some extra cash .

"I found it at the warehouse . "

"Ah, you still go?"

Atsuya nodded, "Yeah, it's in pretty good condition . "

"Hmm . "

"You know, we can start a band," Atsuya said .

Haruka looked up and saw the excited look in his friends face, "I'll think about it . "

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Present

Haruka thought about it . For the longest time anyway . Just when he was about to answer, all of that happened, and before he knew it, he lost the chance forever to tell his friend .

Despite what it would seem like, his whole attention isn't completely focused on the girl named Teras.h.i.+ma Lila . Even he pays attention to the matters regarding other girls like Aizawa Mei . Haruka has longed stopped feeling so awkward around her . It's already been such a long time since he stopped feeling awkward . They got along from the very beginning . It was a real shame; however, that he would have to end up breaking his ties with her so soon . However, the girl's att.i.tude towards Lila was appalling . He didn't want to put Lila in any more danger, and thus he has to end it .

His gaze flickered onto the girl who laid fast asleep, peacefully beside him . At least that's what he thought until he found her peering at him from under the blanket, "What are you doing, babe?"

"Um, staring . "

"Aren't you going to be late?" Haruka thought she would leave right away after they finished . So when the girl stayed with him, it surprised him . Maybe, "Does your body hurt? Should I get some medicine?"

Lila laughed, "No, I'm fine . "

Is she? He's really worried about her; lately, Haruka reached over and pulled the girl into his arms, hugging her tightly . Basking in her scent and saying her name repeatedly .

"Haruka, I love you so much . "

Haruka looked at her, really looked . Lila was looking at him with such bright eyes and flushed cheeks . This girl isn't lying when she says she loves him, nor is she trying to get anything out of it . She genuinely has feelings for him .

"Me, too," Haruka murmured, "I love you so much . "

"I have a request Haruka . "