I guess it realised that my dreams are gonna crash and that now I have to stop dreaming and accept the reality!

It was midnight...I ran away from my home...I kept running into the darkness..those voices behind me, trying to stop me, I could hear them but I didn't want to hear them so I kept ignoring them and kept running! Running away from truth!

My legs gave way and I found myself engulfed with darkness but you know what in that darkness I found solace!

I couldn't see anything and I was contented cause now I don't have to see my reality!

You know what hurts the most?

-When you give your all to please that person and in return you only get betrayal!

-When you showered him with all your love and he acted along!

-When you were so busy making place in his heart that you lost your real self!

-When you cried and spent those long dreadful nights without his shoulder!

-When you needed him the most and he would be there for everyone, but you!

-When you realised you wanna get out of this darkness but this darkness is engraved in your heart and you can't ever come out!

Cause I realised only this darkness will be always with me! I don't want any ray of light who'll come and go...

I'll find my nyctophilia!

I'm Irana. I'm 21 and I'm single and happy. I live alone in Busan, Korea. I'm half Korean and half j.a.panese. My mom is from Tokyo. My family lives in Toyama. I'm living in Busan since past three years and I'm doing my majors in Psychology. I'm an atheist and I'm also Philophobic. So basically I don't believe in G.o.d neither do I in love. I was always distant with my parents since I was a child. I come from a wealthy family and I do believe that my looks are enough to make any normal guy fall for me. I know my limits. I also know my potentials very well but I never tried to go beyond my limits. I never worked hard to strive anything. I was a good student and I believe if I would have worked a little more than my potential I would have topped my High School but I never tried that hard. I made my life as simple as possible. I never wanted any thrill or adventures. I just wanted to live a simple life. My parents were also happy with my good performance so they never pestered me. Though one thing that I really enjoyed doing was watching K-dramas and loving BTS. Yes, I'm half Korean of course I'll have to love K-pop and BTS!

I did my High Schooling from Tokyo itself and I studied in an all- girls school. Till I was 17 I really never cared about my life. I was fine with my simple, peaceful life until the day that person appeared...