"Then no."

"Okay." I heard the boys' Harleys rolling out of the forecourt when I reminded him, "Tabby and I are shopping tomorrow."

We were and I was looking forward to it.

Rush and I were forming a bond.

Tabby, on the other hand, was melding herself to me.

I didn't question it and I didn't mind it. Her relationship with her mother was strained (to say the least), something it wasn't hard to notice at first because it was so out there, it was in your face. But since then I'd discovered it was more. From what I could tell, Naomi loved Rush and showed it. Her daughter, not so much. Why, I didn't know. But it was happening.

Therefore Tabby had latched onto me as the woman in her life. I liked it because I liked kids so I just liked it but also because Tabby was sweet, charming and funny. I enjoyed her company immensely and we had a good time together. It helped that I was giving her that. It felt good. A good woman in a teenage girl's life was important and it was cool as all heck she chose me.

Tabby was shopping for school clothes. I was still on my mission to dress like Brandi from Storage Wars, a show that Rush now taped for me so I didn't miss it and caught up on episodes when I was at Tack's. So I needed Brandi clothes. They were probably going to be one size bigger than what I normally wore but... whatever.

"Gotcha," Tack replied.

"I'll call her and tell her to come down the mountain and meet me at my place at ten."

"Make it noon."

"Malls open at ten, Tack."

"And my woman'll hit them after I have plenty of time to hit her."

Oh.

Well then.

"Right," I said into the phone through a smile. "Noon then."

"Right. Noon," he confirmed and I could hear his smile. "And do me a favor. Top drawer, back, in the dresser in my room in the Compound is an envelope. Go in, grab it and bring it home. I'll need it tomorrow."

A mysterious envelope.

Hmm.

"Got it," I replied. "Top drawer, back."

"Right, darlin'. You leavin' soon?"

I looked at the bottom right corner of my computer screen to see it was ten after five. Part of being Tack's woman, him being my boss and living the biker life with a biker, my eight to five workdays became nebulous. Weeks ago, Tack told me my responsibility was to get the work done, how I saw about doing that was up to me. It didn't matter what the office hours said on the door, I went in when I went in, I left when I left and as long as the work got done, he didn't care. If I didn't happen to be there to take a call, customers would have to deal and I found they did. They knew they were dealing with bikers.

Bikers didn't do office hours.

This I liked a lot. I didn't take this freedom and fuck over Tack, Ride and thus Chaos. I got the job done and these days that meant actually getting it done without fucking up, finding or calling Tack to ask how I'd fucked up and then redoing it properly. Sometimes Tack rolled in with me on the back of his bike at seven, seven thirty in the morning and I'd get started then. Other times, or, say, after energetic mornings it was closer to nine (or even ten). Sometimes, we swung out of the forecourt close to six at night. I worked until I didn't need to anymore and if Tack wasn't ready to go or he wasn't around and I didn't have my car, one of the boys took me home or I hung in the store, in the office, in the Compound common area or outside it with the boys.

Life was, except for the upcoming rivers of Russian mob blood, entirely stress free.

And thus life was, except for the Russian mob, entirely good.

"Yeah," I answered Tack. "Closing up shop now."

"I'll call Tug, find out where he is and either he or I'll call you back and give you his ETA."

"Thanks, honey."

"Later, babe."

"Later, Tack."

He disconnected. I flipped my phone closed and then I shut down the office. I grabbed my phone and my purse, headed out, locked up and clicked on my high heels to the Compound.

As I moved over the tarmac of the forecourt, I noticed there was only one bike outside the Compound. This I found surprising. It didn't take a master strategist to figure out that Dog's text and Tack's call stating he would be late meant Tack had given them the order to be on some mission. Their missions didn't always require every member in attendance, this was true. But if it didn't, there were always at least two or more bikes outside the Compound.

I'd never seen only one.

Well, whatever. It wasn't as if I had the comings and goings of the members of the Chaos MC down pat.

I walked into the deserted common area of the Compound, an area that looked a lot like a seedy bar except seedier. Tatty or chipped mismatched furniture including chairs, tables, couches and armchairs. A pool table. A long, curved bar that started almost at the front door and curved around toward the side wall. A door at the back wall beyond which held the boys' rooms. There were neon beer signs on the walls but not many of them. Most of the adornment were pictures of boys in the Club, past and present, all candid. There were not a few but several framed Chaos emblems. One of them was a large, white flag tacked to the back wall that had the Chaos emblem in the middle with the words "Fire" and "Wind" on one side and "Ride and "Free" on the other. This same flag, incidentally, was flying from a flagpole on the top of Ride underneath an American flag. And last, there were a number of Harley Davidson insignias here and there, framed, tacked and some were stickers randomly stuck to the wood-panelled walls.

It wasn't clean. It was, as I mentioned, seedy. Still, for some reason, I thought it was cool.

I headed across the room, my heels clicking on the wood floors and made it into the back hall. I turned right and moved down it toward the end where Tack's room was.

My timing was bad for many reasons. Me just being there was one. Me hitting the hall opposite an open door when the noise came out was another. And what the noise meant had happened at that exact moment was the last.

The noise made me stop in shock, my head turned and in the open door, for anyone walking by to see, was the brunette I saw Tack kissing that morning I started my first day at Ride. She was naked astride a naked man who I saw beyond her, his shoulders and most of his back up on the headboard, his muscled, tattooed arms spread wide and holding on, was Hopper. And the noise I heard was Hop groaning through an orgasm.

For some reason, instead of riding Hop facing him, she was riding Hop facing his feet.

And the door.

And, when her eyes hit mine while she was still bouncing on top of Hop, me.

Three things hit me, they hit me hard and they hit me all at once.

First, I didn't like seeing her again and the reasons why didn't need to be explained.

Second, I didn't like seeing what I was seeing at all and it wouldn't matter who the participants were. But it was exponentially worse that she was one of them.

And last, I didn't like seeing her riding Hop because Hop had an old lady who I knew had been in his bed for years. Her name was Mitzi. She wasn't exactly the warmest, fuzziest woman on the planet but our paths had crossed more than once at the store or the Compound. We'd partied together the Friday before. And although she was a little hard and definitely tough, she was also kind of nice, could be funny and it was clear she loved Hop.

I was frozen to the spot even though I really, really wanted my feet to move or, preferably, my whole body to go up in a puff of smoke and rematerialize in the forecourt, back in time one minute before where I would have remembered I needed to go back to the office for something, anything. Instead I stood there, staring into her eyes.

And when I did, slowly, she smiled. It was catty. It was knowing. It communicated something I did not get but I did get that I didn't like it one bit.

Luckily, it also made me come unstuck and I hurried down the hall to Tack's room. The door was closed, I opened it, entered then I closed it. Once in his room, I stood still. But inside I was shaken.

I tried to remember if anyone had told me how long Mitzi and Hop had been together and I couldn't. Though I did know it was a long time. I also knew they weren't married but they lived together and had two kids together. This I knew because Mitzi told me herself. And although Mitzi was a tough broad, it wasn't only clear she loved Hop, it was super clear she loved their kids. So however long they'd been together, it had been long enough to have two children.

And, door open for anyone walking by to see, he was screwing another woman.

"Okay, this isn't good," I whispered to the empty room and jumped when my phone rang in my hand.

I looked at the display and sucked in a calming breath, flipped it open and put it to my ear.

"Hey, honey," I greeted with false brightness to cover my freak out.

"What's the matter?" Tack asked immediately.

Damn. I could never pull one over on him, not even on the phone.

"Nothing," I lied then quickly moved on. "What's Tug's ETA?"

"I'll tell you when you tell me what's up."

"Nothing's up. I'm in your room about to grab the envelope. Is Tug going to be here soon?"

Silence then, softly, "What's the matter, Red?"

"Nothing, Tack," I lied again. "I talked with you maybe ten minutes ago. How could something be the matter in ten minutes?"

"The how is that you're you. Something could be the matter in ten seconds."

He wasn't wrong about that. Our run was going well, it was fun, it was stress-free, we had easy but that didn't mean I wasn't me and Tack wasn't Tack so the banter had not died.

But this wasn't about him being a bossy biker, me being sassy and us trading slightly heated words that were mostly lighthearted.

This was something else. I just didn't know what and I wasn't going to explain what until I knew why I was feeling the edgy I was feeling.

So I hid behind a veil of sass and snapped, "Well something isn't the matter now but it will be if you don't quit asking me what's the matter."

This brought more silence that Tack didn't break.

"Kane," I called then prompted, "Tug?"

To which he said quietly, "Hop."

Oh hell.

I supposed, being the president of a motorcycle club, having your finger on the pulse of absolutely everything and being able to read people and figure them out was a good thing.

Being that man's woman and him having all that sometimes was not. And one of those times was now.

"Yes, Hop," I confirmed because if I didn't, he wouldn't let it go which was something else I decided in that moment I wasn't all fired up about. "Or, more precisely Hop, who has an old lady and two kids. Added to that is Hopper's old lady, Mitzi, who isn't my bestest bud but she is in the sisterhood, considering she has a vagina. So, clearly, seeing Hop doing what Hop was just doing, something I'm guessing you knew he was in the middle of doing and that's why he's not on his way to you, didn't make me want to do cartwheels since we sisters need to band together no matter if we're not best buds. And, incidentally, seeing what I saw at all wasn't much fun. Hop has his own brand of hot but I don't want to see a brunette riding it. And last and mostly what's the matter is that brunette was your brunette."

"She's not mine, baby," Tack replied quickly and gently.

"No, apparently she belongs to Chaos. What? Do you pass her around?" I clipped back.

"We don't but she does."

Ohmigod!

I might need to learn the ways of the biker world but that, that was something I didn't need to know. At least not now, alone, in the Compound, two doors down from a skank and a cheater and nowhere near a bottle of wine or, better yet, one of tequila.

He might know all, see all and figure it all out but he also had to learn when to shut up and let it go.

"Okay, handsome, before I didn't want to talk about this. Now I really don't want to talk about this," I warned.

"This is another way of our world, Red, and if you keep control on that attitude long enough, when I have time, I'll explain it to you," Tack replied.

I'd heard that before.

Way, way, way too often.

And just then, with that brunette's catty, knowing smile burned on my brain, I'd had enough.

"Would that time be later?" I asked sarcastically.

"Uh... yeah."

"Seems you're going to explain a lot of things later and it seems you avoiding doing that, that means those things are like that brunette. Shit you aren't explaining because you don't actually want me to know."

"Tyra a"

"Ignorance is not bliss, Tack."

"Red a"

"Sometimes it's lies in the form of keeping something from someone with bullshit promises of 'later'," I kept ranting.

"Darlin' a"

"And in the end, any lie is a hurt that burns and sometimes that burn can kill."

Tack was silent.

I was not.

"Call Tug. Tell him I'm getting a taxi. And as for you, you need to send someone else to get that envelope. I'm thinking I need a little time so I'd prefer to wake up alone tomorrow. When I'm ready to talk, I'll call you. But you need to know, whenever I'm ready, it'll be later."

"Goddamn it, Tyra a" I heard him ground out but I flipped my phone closed.

This time we would talk my later.

I yanked open the door and stomped down the hall. I didn't look into Hop's room and I avoided it so studiously, I didn't even know if the door was open.