Part of me wanted to keep it locked up, but another part thought that maybe the old man could shed some light. "He told me to let it go."

"Meaning what?"

"Don't dig. He's worried that I'll look for the truth of what really happened. For whatever reason, he doesn't want me to do that."

My father turned from me and took three steps to the edge of the shelter. One more step and the rain would swallow him whole. I straightened and waited for him to look at me; I needed to see his reaction. Thunder clawed the air as I spoke, and I raised my voice. "I saw his face when we found Danny's body. He didn't do it." The thunder abated. "He's protecting someone," I said.

Nothing else made sense.

My father spoke over his shoulder, and the words he cast at me may as well have been stones. "He's dying, son." He showed me his face. "He's eaten up with cancer."

I could barely process the words. I thought of what Dolf had told me about his bout with prostate cancer. "That was years ago," I said.

"That was just the start. It's all in him now. Lungs. Bones. Spleen. He won't make it another six months."

Pain struck so hard it felt physical. "He should be in treatment."

"For what? To win another month? It's incurable, Adam. Every doctor says the same thing. When I told him that he should fight, he said that there was no need to make a stink of it. Death with dignity, as G.o.d intends. That's what he wants."

"Oh, my G.o.d. Does Grace know?"

He shook his head. "I don't think so."

I took the emotion and shoved it down deep. I needed a clear head, but it was hard. Then it hit me. "You knew," I said. "As soon as I told you that he'd confessed, you knew why he was doing it."

"No, son. I knew only what you knew; that Dolf Shepherd could never kill anyone. I have no idea who he's protecting; but I do know this. Whoever it is, it's someone he loves." He paused, and I prompted him.

"So?"

He stepped closer. "So, maybe you should do what he asks. Maybe you should let it go."

"Dying in jail is not death with dignity," I said.

"It could be. Depends on why he's doing it."

"I can't leave him there."

"It's not your place to tell a man how to spend his final days-"

"I won't let him die in that hole!"

He looked torn.

"It's not just Dolf," I said. "There's more."

"More what?"

"Danny called me."

He was vague in the gloom, dark hands at the end of long, pale sleeves. "I don't understand," he said.

"Danny tracked me down in New York. He called three weeks ago."

"He died three weeks ago."

"It was a strange thing, okay. The call came out of nowhere, middle of the night. He was hopped-up, excited about something. He said that he'd figured out how to fix his life. He said that it was something big, but that he needed my help. He wanted me to come home. We argued."

"Needed your help with what?"

"He refused to say, said he wanted to ask me face-to-face."

"But-"

"I told him that I would never come home. I told him that this place was lost to me."

"That's not true," my father said.

"Isn't it?"

He hung his head.

"He asked for my help and I refused him."

"Don't go there, son."

"I refused him and he died."

"Things are not always that simple," my father said, but I would not be swayed.

"If I'd done what he wanted, if I'd come home to help him, then he might not have been murdered. I owe him." I paused. "I owe Dolf."

"What are you going to do?"

I looked at the rain, reached out my hand as if I could pull truth from the void.

"I'm going to turn over some f.u.c.king rocks."

CHAPTER 21.

We rode back to the farm, and I listened to the hard slap of wipers on the old truck. He killed the engine and we sat in the drive. Rain beat itself to mist on the roof. "Are you sure about this, son?"

I didn't answer the question; I was thinking of Danny. Not only had I refused his request, but I'd doubted him, too. It was the ring found with Grace. It made everything so clear. He'd changed, gone dark for the money. His father wanted mine to sell and Danny had played along. d.a.m.n! I was so ready to believe it. I forgot the times that he'd stood up for me, forgot the man I knew him to be. In all of the ways that mattered, that was the greatest injustice I had done to him. But he was dead. I had to think of the living.

"This is going to kill Grace," I said.

"She's strong."

"n.o.body's that strong. You should call the hospital. It'll hit the papers. Maybe they can keep it from her, at least for a day or two. She should hear about this from us."

He seemed uncertain. "Maybe until she's better." He nodded. "A day or two."

"I've got to go," I said, but my father stopped me with a hand on my arm. My door was open and water cascaded into the cab of the truck. He didn't care.

"Dolf is my best friend, Adam. He's been that for longer than you've been alive; since before I met your mother, since we were kids. Don't think that this is easy for me."

"Then you should feel like I do. We need to get him out."

"Friendship is also about trust."

I waited for a long second. "So is family," I finally said.

"Adam..."

I climbed out, leaned in as water thrummed on my back. "Do you think I killed Gray Wilson? Right here, right now... do you think I did it?"

He leaned forward and the dome light struck his face. "No, son. I don't think you did it."

Something snapped in my chest, a strap loosened. "Saying that doesn't mean that I forgive you. We have a long way to go, you and me."

"Yes, we do."

I didn't plan to say what came next; it just welled out of me. "I want to come home," I said. "That's the real reason I'm back." His eyes widened, but I wasn't ready to talk further. I slammed the door, splashed through puddles, and slipped into my car. My father climbed onto his porch and turned to face me. His clothes hung wetly from his frame. Water ran down his face. He raised a hand above shadow-filled eyes, and kept it up until I pulled away.

I went to Dolf's house; it was empty and dark. I stripped off wet clothes and flung myself down onto his couch. Thoughts churned through my mind; speculation, theories, despair. Fifteen miles away Dolf would be lying on a hard, narrow bunk. Probably awake. Probably afraid. The cancer would be chewing through him, looking for that last vital bit. How long until it took him? Six months? Two months? One? I had no idea. But when my mother died, and my father, for years, had been lost to me in mourning, it was Dolf Shepherd who made the difference. I could still feel the strength of that heavy hand on my shoulder. Long years. Hard years. And it was Dolf Shepherd who got me through.

If he was going to die, it should be with sunlight on his face.

I thought of the postcard in my glove compartment. If I was right, and Dolf had not killed Danny, then the card could possibly set him free. But who might it implicate? Someone with a reason to want Danny dead. Someone strong enough to conceal his body in the crack at the top of the k.n.o.b. Maybe it was time to give it to Robin. But Dad was right about one thing: Dolf must have his reasons, and we had no idea what they might be. I closed my eyes and tried to not think of what Parks had said. Maybe he wanted the body found. And then Dolf's voice, again: Sinners usually pay for their sins. Dark thoughts came with the sound of thunder. If Dolf killed Danny, he would have needed a d.a.m.n good reason. But could he have? Was it even possible? I'd been gone for a long time. What things had changed in five years? What people?

I chewed on that thought until I fell asleep, and for once, I did not dream of my mother or of blood. Instead, I dreamt of teeth, of the cancer that was eating a good man down.

I woke before six, feeling as if I had not slept at all. Coffee was in the cupboard, so I set it to brew and walked outside to watery, gray light. It was thirty minutes before dawn, silent, still. Leaves drooped under dark beads and the gra.s.s was beaten flat. Puddles shone on the drive, as black and smooth as poured oil.

It was a perfect, quiet morning; and then I heard it, the mult.i.throated wail of dogs on the hunt. The ululation of the pack. It was a primal sound that made my skin p.r.i.c.kle. It rose above the hills and then faded. Rose and fell, like crazy men speaking in tongues. Then shots crashed out in quick succession, and I knew that my father, too, was restless.

I listened for a minute more but the dog sounds faded away, and no more shots were fired. So I went inside.

I stopped in Grace's door on the way to take a shower. Nothing had changed and I pulled the door closed. Down the hall, I turned on the water. I washed in swift, economical movements and toweled dry. Steam followed me back to the living room, where I found Robin sitting where I had slept, her fingers splayed on the pillow. She stood, looking small and pale and more like my lover than a cop. "I always seem to find you in the shower," she said.

"Next time, join me." I smiled, but the day was too dark for levity. I opened my arms, felt the cool press of her face against my chest. "We need to talk," she said.

"Let me get dressed."

She had coffee poured by the time I returned. We sat at the kitchen table as mist moved out of the forest and the sun stretched sharp fingers between the trees. "I heard about Dolf's confession," she said.

"It's bulls.h.i.t." The words came more strongly than I'd intended.

"How can you be certain?"

"I know the man."

"That's not enough, Adam-"

My control slipped. "I've known him my whole life! He all but raised me!"

Robin kept her calm. "You didn't let me finish. That's not enough if we're going to help him. We need a crack in the story, some place to start chipping."

I studied her face. There was no reticence in her. "I'm sorry," I said.

"Let's talk about what we can do."

She wanted to help, but I was in possession of material evidence, a crime, maybe the first of many. "Not we, Robin. Just me."

"What are you saying?"

"I'll do whatever it takes to get Dolf out of there. Do you understand what I'm saying? Anything. If you help me, your career might not survive. Other things might not survive. I'll do what I have to do." I paused so she could think about what I was saying. Obeying the law was not one of my priorities. "Do you understand?"

She swallowed. "I don't care."

"You chose me, not Dolf. I don't want you getting hurt. You owe Dolf nothing."

"Your problem is my problem."

"How about this? You help me in ways that don't put you at risk."

She thought about it. "Like what?"

"Information."

"I'm off the case, remember. I don't have much."

"How about motive? Grantham must have some theory on that. Have you heard anything?"

She lifted her shoulders. "Just chatter. Dolf didn't give a motive in his interview. They tried to pin him down, but he was vague. There are two theories. The first is simple. Dolf and Danny worked together. They had a falling-out, an argument that went too far. Happens all the time. The second comes down to money."

"What do you mean?"

"Maybe Dolf was the one killing cattle and torching outbuildings. Maybe Danny caught him doing it and got killed for his trouble. It's thin, but a jury will listen."

I shook my head. "Dolf has nothing to gain one way or another."

Puzzlement twisted Robin's features. "Of course he does. Same as your father. Same as Zebulon Faith."