"By the way, Mr. Dunn, what are they doing in Parliament about us? Is there not something contemplated by which we can insist upon separate maintenance, or having a suitable settlement, or--"
"Separation--divorce," said Lady Grace, solemnly.
"No, my Lady, the law is only repairing an old road, not making a new one. The want of the age is cheapness,--cheap literature, cheap postage, and cheap travelling, and why not cheap divorce? Legislation now professes as its great aim to extend to the poor all the comforts of the rich; and as this is supposed to be one of them--"
"Have you any reason to doubt it, sir?" asked Lady Grace.
"Luxuries cease to be luxuries when they become common. Cheap divorce will be as unfashionable as cheap pine-apple when a coal-heaver can have it," said Lady Lackington.
"You mistake, it seems to me, what constitutes the luxury," interposed Lady Grace. "Every day of the year sees men liberated from prison, yet no one will pretend that the sense of freedom is less dear to every creature thus delivered."
"Your figure is but too like," said Dunn. "The divorced wife will be to the world only too much a resemblance of the liberated prisoner. Dark or fair, guilty or innocent, she will carry with her the opprobrium of a public trial, a discussion, and a verdict. Now, how few of us would go through an operation in public for the cure of a malady! Would we not rather hug our sorrows and our sufferings in secrecy than accept health on such conditions?"
"Not when the disease was consuming your very vitals,--not when a perpetual fever racked your brain and boiled in your blood. You'd take little heed of what is called exposure then. The cry of your heart would be, 'Save me! save me!'" As she spoke, her voice grew louder and wilder, till it became almost a shriek, and, as she ended, she lay back, flushed and panting, in her chair.
"You have made her quite nervous, Mr. Dunn," said Lady Lackington, as she arose and fanned her.
"Oh, no. It's nothing. Just let me have a little fresh air,--on the terrace. Will you give me your arm?" said Lady Grace, faintly. And Dunn assisted her as she arose and walked out. "How very delicious this is!"
said she, as she leaned over the balcony, and gazed down upon the placid water, streaked with long lines of starlight. "I conclude," said she, after a little pause, "that scenes like this--moments as peacefully tranquil--are as dear to you, hard-worked men of the world, as they are to the wearied hearts of us poor women, all whose ambitions are so humble in comparison."
"We are all of us striving for the same goal, I believe," said he,--"this same search after happiness, the source of so much misery!"
"You are not married, I believe?" said she, in an accent whose very softness had a tone of friendship.
"No; I am as much alone in the world as one well can be," rejoined he, sorrowfully.
"And have you gone through life without ever meeting one with whom you would have been content to make partnership,--taking her, as those solemn words say, 'for better, for worse'?"
"They are solemn words," said he, evading her question; "for they pledge that for which it is so hard to promise,--the changeful moods which time and years bring over us. Which of us at twenty can say what he will be at thirty,--still less at fifty? The world makes us many things we never meant to be."
[Illustration: 137]
"So, then, you are not happy?" said she, in the same low voice.
"I have not said so much," said he, smiling sadly; "are you?"
"Can you ask me? Is not the very confidence wherewith I treat you--strangers as we were an hour back to each other--the best evidence that it is from the very depth of my misery I appeal to you?"
"Make no rash confidences, Lady Grace," said he, seriously. "They who tell of their heart's sorrows to the world are like those who count their gold before robbers. I have seen a great deal of life, and the best philosophy I have learned from it is to 'bear.' Bear everything that can be borne. You will be surprised what a load you will carry by mere practice of endurance."
"It is so easy to say to one in pain, 'Have patience,'" said she, bitterly.
"I have practised what I teach for many a year. Be assured of one thing,--the Battle of Life is waged by all. The most favored by fortune--the luckiest, as the world calls them--have their contest and their struggle. It is not for existence, but it is often for what makes existence valuable."
She sighed deeply, and, after a pause, he went on,--
"We pity the poor, weary, heart-sick litigant, wearing out life in the dreary prosecution of a Chancery suit, dreaming at night of that fortune he is never to see, and waking every day to the same dull round of pursuit. As hope flickers in his heart, suffering grows a habit; his whole nature imbibes the conflicting character of his cause; he doubts and hesitates and hopes and fears and wishes, till his life is one long fever. But infinitely more painful is the struggle of the heart whose affections have been misplaced. These are the suits over which no hope ever throws a ray. It is a long, dreary path, without a halting-place or a goal."
As he spoke, she covered her face with her handkerchief; but he could perceive that she was weeping.
"I am speaking of what I know," said he. "I remember once coming closely into relations with a young nobleman whose station, fortune, and personal advantages combined to realize all that one could fancy of worldly blessings. He was just one of those types a novelist would take to represent the most favored class of the most favored land of Europe.
He had an ancient name, illustrious in various ways, a splendid fortune, was singularly endowed with abilities, highly accomplished, and handsome, and, more than all, he was gifted with that mysterious power of fascination by which some men contrive to make themselves so appreciated by others that their influence is a sort of magic. Give him an incident to relate,--let him have a passing event to tell, wherein some emotion of pity, some sentiment of devotion played a part,--and without the slightest touch of artifice, without the veriest shade of ingenuity, he could make you listen breathlessly, and hang in rapture on his words. Well, this man--of whom, if I suffer myself to speak, I shall grow wearisome in the praise--this man was heart-broken. Before he succeeded to his title, he was very poor, a subaltern in the army, with little beyond his pay. He fell in love with a very beautiful girl--I never heard her name, but I know that she was a daughter of one of the first houses in England. She returned his affection, and there was one of those thousand cases wherein love has to combat all the odds, and devotion subdue every thought that appeals to worldly pride and vanity.
"She accepted the contest nobly; she was satisfied to brave humble fortune, obscurity, exile,--everything for him--at least she said so, and I believe she thought she could keep her word. When the engagement took place--which was a secret to their families--the London season had just begun.
"It is not for me to tell you what a period of intoxicating pleasure and excitement that is, nor how in that wondrous conflict of wealth, splendor, beauty, and talent, all the fascination of gambling is imparted to a scene where, of necessity, gain and loss are alternating.
It demands no common power of head and heart to resist these temptations. Apparently she had not this self-control. The gorgeous festivities about her, the splendor of wealth, and more than even that, the esteem in which it was held, struck her forcibly. She saw that the virtues of humble station met no more recognition than the false lustre of mock gems,--that ordinary gifts, illustrated by riches, became actual graces. She could not shut out the contrast between her lover, poor, unnoticed, and unregarded, and the crowd of fashionable and distinguished youths whose princely fortunes gave them place and pre-eminence. In fact, as he himself told me,--for Allington excused her--Good Heavens! are you ill?" cried be, as with a low, faint cry she sank to the ground.
"Is she dying? Good God! is she dead?" cried Lady Lackington, as she lifted the powerless arm, and held the cold hands within her own.
Lanfranchi was speedily sent for, and saw that it was merely a fainting fit.
"She was quite well previously, was she not?" asked he of Dunn.
"Perfectly so. We were chatting of indifferent matters,--of London, and the season,--when she was seized," said he. "Is there anything in the air here that disposes to these attacks?"
Lanfranchi looked at him without reply. Possibly they understood each other, for they parted without further colloquy.
CHAPTER XI. "A CONSULTATION."
It was late in the night as Lord Lackington and his friends reached the villa, a good deal wearied, very jaded, and, if the confession may be made, a little sick of each other; they parted pretty much as the members of such day-long excursions are wont to do,--not at all sorry to have reached home again, and brought their trip of pleasure to an end.
Twining, of course, was the same happy-natured, gay, volatile creature that he set out in the morning. Everything went well with him, the world had but one aspect, which was a pleasant one, and he laughed and muttered, "What fun!" as in half-dogged silence the party wended their way through the garden towards the house.
"I hope these little girls may not have caught cold," said the Viscount, as he stood with Twining on the terrace, after saying "Good-night!"
"I hope so, with all my heart. Charming girls--most fascinating--father so amiable."
"Isn't that Dunn's apartment we see the light in?" asked the other, half impatiently. "I 'll go and make him a visit."
"Overjoyed to see you, greatly flattered by the attention," chimed in Twining; and while he rubbed his hands over the enchanting prospect, Lord Lackington walked away.
Not waiting for any announcement, and turning the handle of the door immediately after he had knocked at it, the Viscount entered. Whether Dunn had heard him or not, he never stirred from the table where he was writing, but continued engrossed by his occupation till his Lordship accosted him.
"I have come to disturb you, I fear, Dunn?"
"Oh! Lord Lackington, your most obedient. Too happy to be honored by your presence at any time. Just returned, I conclude?"
"Yes, only this moment," said the Viscount, sighing weariedly. "These picnics are stupid inventions; they fatigue and they exhaust. They give little pleasure at the time, and none whatever to look back upon."
"Your Lordship's picture is rather a dreary one," said Dunn, smiling.
"Perfectly correct, I assure you; I went simply to oblige some country folks of yours. The O'Reillys,--nice little girls,--very natural, very pretty creatures; but the thing is a bore. I never knew any one who enjoyed it except the gentleman who gets tipsy, and _he_ has an awful retribution in the next day's headache,--the terrible headache of iced rum punch."
Dunn laughed, because he saw that his Lordship expected as much; and the Viscount resumed,--
"I am vexed, besides, at the loss of time; I wanted to have my morning with _you_ here."