Be to your own funeral ...

She finally had to ask-beg, really-Patty not to perform the song. She even offered to buy the rights so she could refuse them to anyone else, forever. Patty said she understood, although Rachel saw the hurt in her eyes; it was intended as a tribute, after all. Patty certainly had talent, and even the lake spirits said one day her music might change the world. But surely not "Fate Brings You Rachel."

But now, with the tattoo magically gone, the worst was over. She was close to being just plain old Rachel Matre again, head cook and bottle washer of Rachel's diner. And that should have made her very happy indeed.

But she still couldn't bring herself to call Ethan Walker.

THE MORNING AFTER Rachel's reunion with the lake spirits, Patty Patilia bounded into the diner, giggling like a little girl with a secret supply of candy. She propped her guitar case against the counter, sat on her favorite stool, and waved to Rachel and Helena. "Hi, ladies. Beautiful day, isn't it?"

When Rachel arrived with water and silverware, Patty added, "And how are you this fine morning?"

Rachel smiled as she arranged the fork, spoon, and knife. At last, this was the Patty she'd first met after the concert at Father Thyme's, bright and open and seeing only the good in the world. She smiled and said, "Not as good as you, apparently."

"That's because ... well, I can't tell you about it here. Can we go somewhere private?"

Rachel looked at Helena, who nodded. Rachel said, "Sure. Let's step outside."

Practically bouncing with eagerness, Patty followed Rachel out into the parking lot. They stood in the shade beneath one of the trees. "So what's up?" Rachel asked.

Patty sighed. "Last night I met a boy."

"Really?"

"Yes. He heard me playing my guitar and asked if we could jam. And we did." She leaned close and whispered, "In every sense. It was amazing. And-" She stopped and blushed.

Rachel grinned. Her need shall be answered, they'd promised. "What?"

"Well, he saw my ... tattoo. The one you and I both got. Did I ever tell you about why I turned it down when he first showed it to me?"

Rachel shook her head.

"It wasn't that I hated the design. I didn't. I simply couldn't afford it, and I was too ashamed to say so. So I pretended not to like it." She looked down at her shoe scuffing in the dirt.

Rachel reassuringly touched her shoulder.

"Anyway, Dewey saw it. And he said it was beautiful. That it suited me."

"Did he know how you got it?"

"He didn't mention it, but it made me think. And I've decided I'm going to keep it. And have it finished. That way, it won't feel so much like a mark of violation anymore. It'll feel ... like me."

"So when do I get to meet this Dewey?"

"Never, I'm afraid. It was his last night in town before he headed off to do charity work in Africa or something. I probably won't ever see him again. But that's okay, you know? Ever since the whole kidnapping thing, I've been ... skittish. But he showed me that I didn't have to be. Just because one man was a psychopath doesn't mean they all are. Right?"

Rachel laughed and put her arm across Patty's shoulders. "I'm very happy for you."

"I'm happy for me too. Before, it was like I was inside Tupperware looking out. Now ..." She giggled. "Somebody popped the lid."

Rachel kissed the top of Patty's head. She deserved to know.... Didn't she? Maybe not the explicit truth about her miraculous one-night stand but definitely about the spirits that brought him to her. Rachel was their avatar, but they called Patty their treasure. If anyone should know about them, it was her.

And wouldn't it be wonderful to finally have someone, a friend and a sister, to share this secret with?

She said to Patty, "Let's take a walk, okay?"

Patty shrugged and smiled. "Sure."

After alerting Helena and Clara, Rachel and Patty walked in silence down to Hudson Park. Rachel led her carefully around the effigy mound, not wanting to disrespect it, to the big gray rocks at the water's edge. They sat.

After a long moment gazing out at the sun-sparkling waters of Lake Mendota, Patty said, "That's weird."

"What?"

"The smell. That watery pond smell. I didn't notice it at the time, but that's what Dewey smelled like."

Rachel nodded and asked, "Do you know what lives in this lake, Patty?"

"Fish, I guess. Frogs, snakes. Those little lobster-looking things, what are they called-crayfish? Why?"

Rachel looked around to make sure they wouldn't be overheard. It was a hot summer day, and the lakefront houses on the opposite shore shimmered slightly in the haze. In the distance, a Jet Ski bounced along the waves. Children played out of sight in a nearby backyard, and an old man in black socks mowed the grass around his flower beds.

"What would you say," she began carefully, "if I told you there were also spirits living in the lake?"

Patty turned toward the mound behind them. "That's what those effigies are meant to represent, isn't it? Water spirits?"

Rachel nodded. "But I mean there are spirits in the lake now, as we speak. And they ..." She trailed off, suddenly afraid, worried about how the words would sound. It was one thing to tell her lover in the dark, after sexual intimacy connected them, as she had done with Ethan Walker. To tell a girl who was to all intents and purposes still a stranger seemed impossibly daunting.

For twenty years Rachel had kept her relationship with the lake spirits a careful, deep secret. Now she'd told two strangers about it. Or at least that would be true if she went ahead with this conversation.

Twenty years. Almost as long as Patty had been alive.

"And they what?" Patty prompted, all wide eyes and encouraging smiles, bringing Rachel back to the moment.

Rachel took a deep breath. "Let me tell this all the way through before you say anything or ask any questions, okay?"

"Okay."

"There are spirits in the lake. They're related to the effigy mounds, but I'm not sure how, and I'm not sure if they're ghosts or have ever been human. When I was fourteen they saved me from drowning. They also became my first ... lovers. I don't know who they are, or how it works, but when I'm underwater with them I don't need to breathe, and they treat me the way I want to be treated. As a woman, I mean. They connect with me ... sexually."

She paused. Patty's expression hadn't changed: She was still open, waiting, sincerely accepting.

Rachel plunged ahead. "The water that seeped into the basement where Korbus had us all tied up? It was lake water, and by doing what I did"-I masturbated in front of three other women, she thought, and felt herself blush-"I was able to contact the spirits, and they passed the message on to Ethan."

"Ethan was the big man with the police when they broke in?"

Rachel nodded.

They sat without speaking for a long moment. The sounds of waves, wind, and traffic enveloped them. Rachel couldn't look at the girl, and couldn't believe she'd actually told her this story. Next she might as well post it to the Lady of the Lakes blog.

At last Patty said, "It does sound a little crazy, but I believe you."

Rachel laughed. "Is that right? Why?"

"Because you used it to save my life."

"A crazy woman could still be in the right place at the right time to be a hero."

"But I already believe in spirits, and faeries, and an unseen world. I believe I have a muse, and she sings to me when I can quiet my mind. Spirits are not strangers to me, so I have no problem accepting yours as real."

Rachel smiled at the girl's sincerity. "And you'll keep this to yourself? Not tell your friends, or my friends, or anyone?"

"Of course." She made a sign of locking her lips and throwing away the key. "Magic is supposed to be secret, isn't it?"

"Yeah," Rachel agreed. "It is."

She was about to reveal her request to the spirits on Patty's behalf when the girl said, "Can I ask you something about them, though?"

"Sure."

"Have you ever felt like they meant you harm?"

"No, never. Why?"

"In all my reading about nature spirits, they all harm people. They don't always mean to, it's just that their priorities are so different from ours." She looked out at the lake, and then indicated the chemical foam that edged the shore. "We haven't treated their home very well. They have every reason not to like us."

"I've never felt any danger from them," Rachel said with certainty.

"That's good. I'd be too scared, I think, to let them do that to me."

Not if it was the only way you could have an orgasm, Rachel thought. She looked back at the water; where her eyes fell, the surface suddenly swirled, for an instant creating the illusion of a face gazing up from beneath. Then it was gone.

The moment must've been longer than she thought, because Patty said tentatively, "Is there anything else?"

Rachel smiled. "No, that's all," she said ironically. It wasn't, of course. But no one else, no one, knew that diner owner Rachel Matre, who claimed she didn't even own a computer, was secretly behind the gossipy and notorious Lady of the Lakes blog, where she passed on the secrets given to her by the lake spirits by hiding them among tidbits gleaned from conversations at the diner. And no one else ever would know.

As they walked back to the diner, Patty said, "I have some more good news. I have a gig this weekend. A paying one."

"Congratulations. Where?"

"I'm part of an all-star lineup of people you've never heard of." She giggled at her own joke.

"Is it time for the Atwood Street Festival again?"

"Nope, this is a one-off at Olbrich Park. Some kind of civic thing they want to be fun instead of boring. I'm right after the opening speaker, so I don't have to stick around all day. You want to come with me?"

"I'll have to check the schedule. Our weekends are pretty busy. But if it's at Olbrich, it may draw off a lot of our traffic. But only if you promise not to play that song about me."

Patty raised her hand and said, mock-seriously, "Musician's honor."

"Musicians have no honor," Rachel teased.

"Okay, Girl Scout's honor, then."

Rachel was about to ask if Patty had ever really been a Girl Scout but caught herself. Of course she had. That insane optimism would've made her perfect for it. "Then sure, I'll go. But I get a lifetime supply of free cookies if you're yanking my chain. Thin Mints."

"Those are the best, aren't they?" Patty agreed.

CHAPTER FOUR.

EARLY SATURDAY MORNING, before sunrise, Kyle Stillwater stripped down to his swim trunks and stepped into the water of Lake Wingra. Although he chose this place and time for its privacy, secretly he was always disappointed that no one was there to see.

He was twenty-three, in tremendously good shape, and handsome enough that women were the least of his problems. His long black hair and high cheekbones spoke of his Native American ancestry, while his blue eyes were so light that some people assumed he was blind when they met him. And yet his acting career refused to take off.

He'd been stuck in Madison for three years since graduating from college. He'd made forays to both coasts, but despite a flurry of auditions, his best-paying gig had been posing for a series of romance-novel covers. That is, prior to the one coming up later today-this gig paid more than all his other acting jobs combined.

He sliced through the water, his muscles moving with ease. An actor's body is his instrument, one teacher said, and he must keep it tuned at all times. He reached the opposite shore and crawled out into the woods to a small clearing, where he did twenty minutes of calisthenics as the sky lightened above him. He'd be on public display for today's job, so he wanted his body firm and tight. He went over his lines in his head, ensuring that he had the speech down properly. It wasn't a long one, but his employer had stressed that precise wording was key.

Then he swam back. Halfway across the lake, something brushed his bare belly from below. It felt for all the world like a hand, and it brought him up short. He stopped, treading water for a moment, then decided he'd been mistaken.

Still, he felt a tingle of uncertainty deep in his belly. Lake Wingra, smaller than either Mendota or Monona, had a reputation for strangeness. He'd never experienced anything weird here before, but now the dark forests along the shoreline seemed filled with menace. Out of the corner of his eye something moved in the water, but by the time he turned it was gone.

He struck out for the shore again. He was barely ten feet from safety, in water no deeper than up to his knees, when the watery hands grabbed him and pulled him under.

THE WEATHER WAS perfect for the ground-breaking ceremony for Garrett Bloom's new community center: sunny, a comfortable seventy-five degrees, and a nice breeze off Lake Mendota. Olbrich Park, which abutted the old Parkside Hospital grounds, had been turned into a sixties-style hippie carnival for the day. Vendors, political booths, and street performers amused the attendees, and children played among bubbles and streamers. The resemblance to the Summer of Love was not planned; it was simply the way a certain segment of the isthmus population expressed themselves.

Mayor Joe Ciarimataro, district alderman Dora Flass, and two city court judges attended in their official capacities. The local media had turned out as well, but most of the crowd came from the neighborhood the center would ultimately serve. Longtime residents were delighted to be rid of the old eyesore of a building and to have it replaced by something that might actually help the area.

A flatbed trailer served as a stage, its unsightly parts hidden by a rippling banner that proclaimed "PBN: Progress Begins Now!" Logos of various sponsoring companies competed for space along the edges. On the trailer itself stood a lectern with a microphone and a row of empty metal folding chairs, each prominently marked "reserved."

"Great googly-moogly," Rachel said. She and Patty had walked the twenty or so blocks from the diner, and now stood on the sidewalk, looking down at the park. "All this just to tear down that old heap of bricks?"

"It's not just that. It's to break ground on a new community center," Patty said. "All these people will benefit from that."