And yet there were signs that someone had been at work. There were pieces of pipe and wire and wood in a toolbox at the corner of the room, and I noticed that the water heater, which GrosJean had always been about to repair, had been replaced by a copper-bellied contraption connected to a bottle of butane. Loose wiring had been tucked neatly behind a panel; repairs had been made to the fireplace and the chimney, which always used to smoke. These signs of activity contrasted with the dereliction of the rest of the house, as if GrosJean had been so absorbed in his other work that he had had no time for dusting or washing clothes.

I dropped the letters onto the kitchen table. To my annoyance I found I was shaking. I looked through the mail-there must have been six months' or a year's worth of it-and found my last letter to him in the pile, unopened. I looked at it for a long time, seeing the Paris address on the reverse, remembering. I'd carried it around for weeks before finally mailing it, feeling dazed and strangely free. My friend Luc from the cafe had asked me what I was waiting for. "Where's the problem? You want to see him, don't you? You want to help?"

It wasn't that easy. In ten years, GrosJean had not written to me. I had sent him drawings, photographs, school reports, letters, without ever receiving a reply. And yet I had continued to send them, year after year. Of course I never told Mother. I know exactly what she would have said.

I put down the letter, my hand trembling a little. Then I put in into my pocket. Perhaps, after all, it was better this way. It gave me time to think again. To consider the options.

As I had first thought, there was no one home. I tried not to feel like a trespa.s.ser as I opened the door into my old room, then into Adrienne's. Little had been moved. Our things were still there; my model boats, my sister's film posters. Beyond them was my parents' room.

I pushed the door into semidarkness; the shutters were drawn. The smell of neglect closed around me. The bed was unmade, showing striped ticking under a crumpled sheet. There was an overflowing ashtray to one side; dirty clothes were piled on the floor. A niche by the side of the door with a plaster statue of Sainte-Marine; a cardboard box containing oddments. Inside this box I spotted a photograph-I recognized it at once, although it had lost its frame. My mother had taken it on my seventh birthday, and it had shown the three of us-GrosJean, Adrienne, and myself-grinning at a big cake shaped like a fish.

Now, my face had been cut out of the picture-clumsily, with scissors-so that only GrosJean and Adrienne remained; she with her arm resting lightly on his. My father was smiling at her over the s.p.a.ce where I had been.

Suddenly I heard a sound outside the house. I crumpled the picture quickly into my pocket and stopped to listen, my throat tightening. Someone pa.s.sed softly under the bedroom window, so lightly that I almost missed it against the pounding of my heart; someone barefoot, or wearing espadrilles.

Wasting no time I ran into the kitchen. Nervously I pushed back my hair, wondering what he would say-what I would say-whether he would even recognize me. In ten years I had changed; my puppy fat vanished; my short hair grown to shoulder length. I'm not the beauty my mother was, although some people used to say we looked alike. I'm too tall, without her grace of movement, and my hair is an unremarkable brown. But my eyes are hers, heavy-browed and of the curious, chilly shade of gray-green which some people find ugly. Suddenly I wished that I had made more of an effort with my appearance. I could at least have worn a dress.

The door opened. Someone was standing on the threshold, wearing a heavy fisherman's jacket and carrying a paper sack in his arms. I knew him at once, even with a knitted cap hiding his hair; his quick, precise movements were nothing like my father's bearlike shamble. He was past me and into the room almost before I knew it, closing the door behind him.

The Englishman. Rouget. Flynn.

"I thought you might need some bits and pieces," he said as he dropped the paper bag on the kitchen table. Then, seeing my expression: "Anything wrong?"

"I wasn't expecting you." I managed at last. "You took me by surprise." My heart was still lurching. I clutched at the photograph in my pocket, feeling hot and cold, not knowing how much of it he could read in my face.

"Nervous, aren't you?" Flynn opened the bag on the table and began to take out the contents. "There's bread, milk, cheese, eggs, coffee, breakfast stuff. Don't worry about paying me back; it's all on his account." He put the loaf in the linen bread bag hanging from the back of the door.

"Thanks." I couldn't help noticing how very much at home he seemed in my father's house, opening cupboards without hesitation, putting the groceries away. "I hope it wasn't too much trouble."

"No trouble." He grinned. "I live two minutes away, in the old blockhaus blockhaus. I sometimes drop by."

The blockhaus blockhaus stood on the dunes above La Goulue. Like the strip of land upon which it stood, it belonged officially to my father. I remembered it, a German bunker left over from the war, an ugly square of rusty concrete half swallowed by the sand. For years I'd believed it was haunted. stood on the dunes above La Goulue. Like the strip of land upon which it stood, it belonged officially to my father. I remembered it, a German bunker left over from the war, an ugly square of rusty concrete half swallowed by the sand. For years I'd believed it was haunted.

"I wouldn't have thought anyone could live in that place," I said.

"I fixed it up," said Flynn cheerily, putting the milk away in the fridge. "The worst part was getting rid of all the sand. Of course, it isn't finished yet; I need to dig a well, and put in some proper plumbing, but it's comfortable, it's solid, and it didn't cost me anything but time and the price of a few things I couldn't find or make for myself."

I thought of GrosJean, with his perpetual works in progress. No wonder he liked this man. Some kind of a builder, Capucine had said. I understood now who had carried out the repairs to my father's house. I felt a sudden pang in my heart.

"You know, you probably won't see him tonight," Flynn told me. "He's been restless these past few days. Hardly anyone's seen him."

"Thanks." I turned away to avoid meeting his eyes. "I know my father."

That much was true; after the procession on the night of the Sainte-Marine, GrosJean would always vanish in the direction of La Bouche, burning candles beside P't.i.tJean's grave. The yearly ritual was sacrosanct. Nothing disturbed it.

"He won't even know you're back yet," continued Flynn. "When he finds out, he'll think the Saint answered all his prayers at once."

"That's nice of you," I said coolly. "But GrosJean never kissed the Saint for anyone."

5.

The festival of Sainte-Marine-de-la-Mer occurs once a year, on the night of August's full moon. That night, the Saint is carried from her place in the village to the ruins of her church at Pointe Griznoz. It is a difficult task-the Saint is three feet tall, and heavy, for she is made of solid basalt-and it takes four men to carry her on a plinth to the water's edge. There, the villagers file past her one by one; some stop to kiss her head in the old ritual gesture, in the hope that something lost-or more likely someone-may return. Children decorate her with flowers. Little offerings-food, flowers, packets of rock salt tied with ribbon-even money-are thrown to the rising tide. Cedar and pinewood chips are burned in braziers on either side. Sometimes there are fireworks, bursting defiantly over the indifferent sea.

I waited until after dark before I left the house. The wind, always strongest on this part of the island, had veered southward, and rattled its danse macabre danse macabre at the doors and windows. As I set off, my coat wrapped tightly around me, I could already see the glow from the braziers on the edge of the Pointe. A church once stood here, though it has been ruined and unused for almost a hundred years. Since then the sea has taken it, bite by bite, until now only a single piece stands-a piece of the north wall. The niche where once Sainte-Marine had her place is still visible against the weathered stones. In the little tower above the niche, a bell once hung-La Marinette, Sainte-Marine's own bell-but that has long since disappeared. One legend says it fell into the sea; others tell the story of how La Marinette was stolen and melted down for sc.r.a.p by an unscrupulous Houssin, who was cursed by Sainte-Marine and driven mad by its ghostly ringing. It still rings sometimes; always on windy nights, always a herald of disaster. Cynics attribute the booming sound to the rush of the south wind through the rocks and crevices of Pointe Griznoz, but the Salannais know better; it is La Marinette, still ringing out her warnings, still watching Les Salants from below. at the doors and windows. As I set off, my coat wrapped tightly around me, I could already see the glow from the braziers on the edge of the Pointe. A church once stood here, though it has been ruined and unused for almost a hundred years. Since then the sea has taken it, bite by bite, until now only a single piece stands-a piece of the north wall. The niche where once Sainte-Marine had her place is still visible against the weathered stones. In the little tower above the niche, a bell once hung-La Marinette, Sainte-Marine's own bell-but that has long since disappeared. One legend says it fell into the sea; others tell the story of how La Marinette was stolen and melted down for sc.r.a.p by an unscrupulous Houssin, who was cursed by Sainte-Marine and driven mad by its ghostly ringing. It still rings sometimes; always on windy nights, always a herald of disaster. Cynics attribute the booming sound to the rush of the south wind through the rocks and crevices of Pointe Griznoz, but the Salannais know better; it is La Marinette, still ringing out her warnings, still watching Les Salants from below.

As I approached the Pointe I could see figures silhouetted against the firelit wall of the old church. Many of them, thirty at least, more than half the village. Pere Alban, the island priest, was standing by the water, his chalice and staff in his hands. Looking gray and drawn in the firelight, he greeted me briefly and without surprise as I pa.s.sed. I noticed he smelled vaguely of fish, his soutane tucked neatly into his fishing waders.

The old ceremony is a strangely moving sight, although the villagers of Les Salants are quite unaware that they are picturesque. They are a different race from myself and my mother-short and stocky for the most part, small featured, Celtic; black haired, blue eyed. These striking looks fade quickly, however, and they become gargoyles in old age, wearing the black of their ancestors and-for the women-the white quichenotte quichenotte. At any time, three-quarters of the population appears to be over sixty-five.

I scanned the faces rapidly, hopefully. Old women in perpetual mourning, long-haired old men in fishing gaiters and black cloth coats or vareuses vareuses and boots, a couple of young men, the fisherman's gear brightened by the addition of a garish shirt. My father was not among them. and boots, a couple of young men, the fisherman's gear brightened by the addition of a garish shirt. My father was not among them.

The celebratory atmosphere I remembered from childhood seemed to be missing this year; there were fewer flowers around the shrine, and little sign of the usual offerings. Instead I thought the villagers had a grim look, like people under siege, although perhaps this was merely the difference between a child's perception and that of the adult I had become.

Finally it came; a glow of lamplight from the dunes beyond Pointe Griznoz and the wailing sound of biniou biniou players as Sainte-Marine's procession began. The players as Sainte-Marine's procession began. The biniou biniou is a traditional instrument; played well, it sounds a little like bagpipes. In this case there was something feline in the sound, a keening note that cut across the drone of the wind. is a traditional instrument; played well, it sounds a little like bagpipes. In this case there was something feline in the sound, a keening note that cut across the drone of the wind.

I could see the plinth with the Saint perched on it; four men, one at each corner, struggled to carry it across the rough ground. As the procession came closer I could pick out details: the mound of red and white flowers below Sainte-Marine's ceremonial skirts, the paper lanterns, the fresh gilding on the old stone. Here too were the Salannais children, faces scubbed pink by the wind, voices shrill with exhaustion and nerves. I recognized Capucine's grandson, the round-faced Lolo, and his friend Damien, both carrying paper lanterns-one green, one red-running easily across the sand.

The procession rounded the last dune. As it did, the wind caught one of the lanterns and it burst into flames; and in the sudden brightness I recognized my father.

He was one of the bearers, and for a moment I was able to see him clearly without being observed. The firelight was kind; in its glow his face seemed scarcely to have changed, and it gave his features an uncharacteristic, animated look. He was heavier than I remembered; thickened by age; his big arms straining to hold the plinth level. There was a terrible concentration in his face. The Saint's other bearers were all younger men; I noticed Alain Guenole and his son Ghislain, both fishermen, used to heavy work. As the procession came to rest in front of the group of expectant villagers, I was surprised to see that the last bearer was Flynn.

"Santa Marina." A woman from the crowd in front of me stepped forward and pressed her lips briefly to the feet of the Saint. I recognized her; it was Charlotte Prossage, who ran the grocery, a plump and birdlike woman with a look of perpetual anxiety. The others kept a respectful distance away, some fingering amulets or photographs.

"Santa Marina. Bring back our business. The winter tides always flood the fields. It took me three months to clear them last time. You're our Saint. Take care of us." Her voice managed to sound both humble and slightly resentful. Her eyes flicked restlessly here and there.

The moment Charlotte's prayer was over, others took her place. Her husband, Omer, nicknamed La Patate for his comic, shapeless face; Hilaire, the Salannais vet, with his bald head and round gla.s.ses. Fishermen, widows, a teenage girl with restless eyes, all speaking in the same rapid and slightly accusing mutter. I could not push through without giving offense; GrosJean's face was obscured once more behind the tide of bobbing heads.

"Marine-de-la-Mer. Keep the sea from my door. Bring the mackerel to my nets. Keep that poacher Guenole from my oyster beds."

"Sainte-Marine, bring us good fishing. Keep my son safe when he goes out to sea."

"Sainte-Marine, I want a red bikini and some Ray-Ban sungla.s.ses." The girl glanced briefly at me as she stepped away from the Saint. I recognized her now; it was Mercedes, daughter of Charlotte and Omer, who had been seven or eight when I left the island, now tall and leggy, with loose hair and a sullen, pretty mouth. Our eyes met; I smiled, but the girl merely shot me a look of dislike and pushed past me into the crowd. Someone else took her place; an old woman in a head scarf, her face bent pleadingly over a battered photograph.

The procession was on the move again; down toward the sea, where the Saint's feet would be lowered into the water to be blessed. I reached the far side of the crowd just as GrosJean was turning away; I saw his profile, now beaded with sweat, glimpsed the flash of a pendant around his neck, and failed once more to catch his eye. A moment longer and it was too late; now the bearers were struggling down the rocky incline toward the water's edge, Pere Alban holding out a hand to keep the Saint from toppling. The biniou biniou wailed forlornly; a second lantern caught fire, then a third, scattering black b.u.t.terflies across the wind. wailed forlornly; a second lantern caught fire, then a third, scattering black b.u.t.terflies across the wind.

They reached the sea at last; Pere Alban stood aside and the four bearers carried Sainte-Marine into the water. There is no sand at the Pointe, only stones underfoot, and the going was bright and treacherous in the light that ricocheted from the water. The tide was almost high. Behind the squeal of the biniou biniou, I thought I could hear the first sounds of the wind through the crevices, the hollow drone of the south wind, which would soon amplify to a booming almost like that of a drowned bell....

"La Marinette!" It was the old woman in the head scarf, Desiree Bastonnet; her eyes dark with dread. Her thin, nervous hands still played on the photograph, from which the smiling face of a boy reflected the lamplight.

"No it isn't." That was Aristide, her husband, head of the fishing clan of the same name; an old man of seventy or more, with a big chieftain's mustache and long gray hair under his flat island hat. He lost a leg years before I was born, in the same fishing accident that had killed his eldest son. He gave me a sharp look as I pa.s.sed him. "No more of that bad-luck talk, Desiree," he told his wife in a low voice. "And put that thing away."

Desiree averted her eyes and folded her fingers over the picture. Behind her, a young man of nineteen or twenty glanced at me with shy curiosity from behind small wire-framed gla.s.ses. He seemed about to say something, but at that moment Aristide turned around and the young man hurried to join him, his bare feet making no sound on the rocks.

The bearers were standing chest-deep now, facing the sh.o.r.e and holding the Saint with her feet in the water. Waves splashed against the base of the plinth, washing the flowers into the current. Alain and Ghislain Guenole had taken the front position; Flynn and my father the back, bracing themselves against the swell. Even in August it must have been cold work; the chill from the flying spray numbed my face, and the wind cut through my woollen coat so that I shivered. And I at least was dry.

When all the villagers had taken their places, Pere Alban lifted his staff for the final blessing. At that second GrosJean raised his head in the direction of the priest, and our eyes met.

For a moment my father and I existed inside a pocket of silence. He stared at me from between the feet of the Saint, mouth slightly open, a line of concentration between his eyes. The pendant around his neck burned red.

There was something in my throat, some kind of obstacle, which made it difficult for me to breathe. My hands felt as if they belonged to someone else.

Next to my father, I thought I saw Flynn make some gesture. Then a wave broke sharply behind them, and GrosJean, still looking at me, stumbled in its swell, lost his footing, held out a hand to steady himself ... and dropped Sainte-Marine from the plinth into the deep water of Pointe Griznoz.

For a frozen second she seemed to float, miraculously, in the fiery sea; the silk skirt belling crimson around her. Then she was gone.

GrosJean stood helplessly, staring at nothing. Pere Alban made a futile grab for the fallen Saint. Aristide gave a crack of surprised laughter. Behind him, the bespectacled young man took a step toward the water, then stopped. For a moment, no one moved. Then a moan came up from the Salannais, joining the moan of the wind. My father stood there for a second longer, the lantern lights absurdly festive on features that had lost all other animation. Then he fled, hauling himself out of the sea, slipping on the rocks, forcing himself upright once again, struggling in his heavy, waterlogged clothing.

"Father-" I called as he reached me, but he had already gone without a backward glance. As he reached the head of Pointe Griznoz I thought I heard him make a sound; a long, torn, moaning noise, but that might have been the wind.

6.

Traditionally, after the cliff-top ceremony everyone goes to Angelo's bar for a drink on the Saint. This year less than half the worshipers did; Pere Alban went straight home to La Houssiniere without so much as blessing the wine; the children-and most of their mothers-went to bed, and the usual exuberance was noticeably lacking.

Of course, the loss of Sainte-Marine was the princ.i.p.al reason. Without her, their prayers would go unanswered; the tide unchecked. My father's distress was clearly secondary to their superst.i.tious fears, and I was annoyed at the ease with which his flight had been dismissed. Omer La Patate had suggested an immediate search for the missing Saint, but the tide was too high and the rocks too uneven for safety, and the operation was delayed until the morning.

For myself, I went straight to the house and waited for GrosJean to come home. He did not come. Finally, at about midnight, I went back to Angelo's, where I found Capucine restoring her nerves over coffee and devinnoiseries devinnoiseries.

She stood up when she saw me, concern in her face.

"He's not there," I said, sitting next to her. "He hasn't come home."

"He won't. Not now," said Capucine.

People were looking at me; I sensed curiosity, and a coolness that made me feel stiff and strange. Capucine lit a cigarette and blew smoke through her nostrils and spoke matter-of-factly, though not without sympathy: "You always were stubborn. Never could take the easy way, could you? Always rushing at things head-on." She gave me a tired smile. "Give your father some s.p.a.ce, Mado. Give him a chance."

"A chance?" It was Aristide Bastonnet, with Desiree on his arm. "After tonight, after what happened at the Pointe, what chance do we have?"

I looked up. The old man was standing behind us, leaning heavily on his stick, his eyes like flints. The young man with the gla.s.ses stood slightly to one side, his hair falling over his eyes, looking embarra.s.sed. Now I knew him; it was Xavier, Aristide's grandson; he'd been a solitary boy in the old days, preferring books to games. Only a few years apart in age, we had rarely spoken.

Aristide was still glaring at me. "What did you come back for, heh?" he demanded. "There's nothing here anymore."

"Don't answer," said Capucine. "He's drunk."

Aristide showed no sign of having heard her. "You're all the same, you young people!" he said. "You only come back when you want something!"

"Grandfather-" protested Xavier, putting his hand on the old man's shoulder. But Aristide shook him aside. Though the old man was a head shorter, his rage made a giant of him, his eyes burning like a prophet's.

Beside him, his wife looked at me nervously. "I'm sorry," she said in a low voice. "Sainte Marine-our son-"

"Be quiet!" snapped Aristide, turning so sharply on his stick that, if Desiree had not been standing so close, he might have fallen. "Do you think she she cares about that, heh?" cares about that, heh?"

He left without a backward glance, his people in his wake, his wooden leg dragging on the concrete floor. Silence followed them.

Capucine shrugged. "Don't mind him, Mado. He's just had a devinnoise devinnoise too many." too many."

"I don't understand."

"Nothing to understand," said Matthias Guenole. "He's a Bastonnet. Head full of rocks." This was less encouraging than it might have seemed; the Guenoles have hated the Bastonnets for generations.

"Poor Aristide. There always has to be some conspiracy." I turned and saw a tiny old woman in widow's black perched on the stool beside me. Toinette Prossage, Omer's mother and the village's oldest resident. "As far as Aristide's concerned people are always trying to get him put away, people after his savings-heh!" She gave a crow of laughter. "As if everyone didn't know he's spent so much on his house-Bonne Marine! Even if his boy came back after all these years, there'd be nothing left for him but an old boat and a strip of waterlogged land that even Brismand wouldn't take off his hands." Even if his boy came back after all these years, there'd be nothing left for him but an old boat and a strip of waterlogged land that even Brismand wouldn't take off his hands."

I fingered the letter, which was still in my pocket. "Brismand?"

"Of course," said Toinette. "Who else could afford to develop this place?"

According to Toinette, Brismand had plans for Les Salants. Plans that were as sinister as they were unclear. I recognized the Salannais' traditional dislike of a successful Houssin.

"He could do the job on Les Salants-pfft! Just like that," said the old woman, with an expressive gesture. "He's got the money and the machines. Drain out the marshes, raise some defenses at La Goulue-he could have it done in six months. No more floods. Heh! All for a price, mind you. He's not made his money doing favors." Just like that," said the old woman, with an expressive gesture. "He's got the money and the machines. Drain out the marshes, raise some defenses at La Goulue-he could have it done in six months. No more floods. Heh! All for a price, mind you. He's not made his money doing favors."

"Maybe you should see what he has to suggest."

Matthias Guenole looked at me sourly. "What, sell out to an Houssin?"

"Leave her alone," said Capucine. "The girl means well."

"Yes, but if he could stop the flooding-"

Matthias shook his head with finality. "You can't control the sea," he said. "It does as it likes. If the Saint wants to drown us, she will."

It had been a succession of bad years, I learned. Despite Sainte-Marine's protection, the tides had risen higher every winter. This year, even the Rue de l'Ocean had been flooded, for the first time since the war. Summer too had been unusually troubled. The creek had swollen and sunk half the village under three feet of seawater, damage that had not yet been entirely repaired.

"We'll end up like the old village, at this rate," said Matthias. "Everything drowned, even the church." He filled his pipe and tamped down the tobacco with a grimy thumb. "I mean. A church. If the Saint can't help, who can?"

"Now that that was a Black Year," declared Toinette Prossage. "1908 it was. My sister Marie-Laure died that year, of the influenza, the winter I was born." She stabbed the air with a crooked finger. "That was me, a Black Year baby; never expected to survive. But I did! And if we want to survive this one, we should do something more than snap at each other like gannets." She peered sternly at Matthias. was a Black Year," declared Toinette Prossage. "1908 it was. My sister Marie-Laure died that year, of the influenza, the winter I was born." She stabbed the air with a crooked finger. "That was me, a Black Year baby; never expected to survive. But I did! And if we want to survive this one, we should do something more than snap at each other like gannets." She peered sternly at Matthias.

"Easy to say, Toinette, but if the Saint isn't behind us-"

"That's not what I meant, Matthias Guenole, and you know it."

Matthias shrugged. "It wasn't me who started that business," he said. "If Aristide Bastonnet would just admit, for once, that he was wrong-"