"You'll look beautiful no matter what you wear," he said in a shy way. And for a few moments we sat there, his car motor idling, with the wind blowing the last of the dead fall leaves into the shrubbery.

It was twelve o'clock. Very seldom did any of the "after hours" school parties last past eleven. It almost seemed the girls of Winterhaven feared midnight and the "witching hour" as they called it. "I have to go now," I said, opening the door and putting one leg outside. "Would it be all right if I called you once in a while?"

His hesitation lasted so long, I hurriedly left his car. "Forgive me for presuming again."

"I'll see you Friday," he said, without committing himself to anything more. "Have fun at the dance."

His low, dark car sped away, leaving me standing in the wind that pressed my long, heavy blue robe close to my body, and I had a huge garment bag to handle this time when I stole as quietly as possible inside the main building of Winterhaven. The wind behind me took the heavy door and blew it inward. All the little crystal prisms on the wall sconces tinkled, and down the front hall a heavy fern toppled over and made a terrible crash! On the first floor the faculty had their private rooms, and I saw a yellow line appear beneath one closed door. Quickly I picked up my little book, grabbed my garment bags with a more secure grip, and then I ran silently up the stairs, with only my huge bags making sc.r.a.ping noises on the railings. How eerie the dim halls were at night, with only small sconces burning. How quiet and hushed the atmosphere, making me glance often over my shoulder as I crept on tiptoes to the safety of my own room. But as I closed and locked the door behind me, I had the uneasy feeling that my little nighttime adventure had been witnessed by someone.

There were a hundred things I had to do to make that dance work out as I wanted it to, with me as the belle of the ball! And to do that I had to find out what the other girls were going to wear. During the day all the dorm rooms had to be left unlocked so they could be inspected to see if the beds were made and clothes were hung up, and each blind at the windows was pulled to the standard level so that Winterhaven would look symmetrical from the outside.

Long before the wake-up bells in their high towers began their loud morning tolling, I was up and in the huge bathroom, enjoying a shower before any other girls entered. So far, my early-to-bed-and-earlytorise habit had given me the privacy I wanted. However, this day, I was only partially dressed when three or four sleepy-eyed girls drifted in, all in various styles of sleep attire. If their daytime outfits were dowdy and sloppy, what they wore at night must have come straight from Frederick's of Hollywood. They saw me in my brief bikinis and they froze, as if stunned to have caught me, at last.

"She doesn't wear long johns," whispered Pru Carraway to her best friend, Faith Morgantile.

"I was sure she'd wear red ones," Faith whispered back.

They were giggling now, struck by something vulnerable they saw on my face, or hidden in my eyes, for once upon a time in the w.i.l.l.i.e.s I'd wanted white or red long johns just as much as I wanted a new coat, or new shoes, or anything that would keep me warm. And as other girls swarmed into the bathroom, each with at least one friend, I stood like an island with the sea eddying around me, so miserable and unhappy, the w.i.l.l.i.e.s didn't seem such a terrible place to be after all. At least there I'd been with my own kind. And then, almost crying, I pulled on the remainder of my clothes and left that lavatory full of steam and odors of toothpaste and soap. Behind me their laughter continued on, on, on.

Midway back to my room, I hesitated. Was I going to let them get the best of me? What about my plan? They were all bathing, showering, fiddling with hair and makeup. Now was the best time to dash into three rooms, each shared by two girls. It wasn't something I exactly liked to do, but I was driven to do it, and without any difficulty at all, I found my two stolen jackets, and I also found out just what kind of party dresses the girls of Winterhaven wore to their hospitality dances.

Wearing a skirt, blouse, and one of the jackets I'd just recovered', under a heavy coat, with high boots, I strolled through the softly falling snow toward Beecham Hall. The school campus gave the impression of being a tiny village, charming and quaint, and for me it would have been paradise realized if only I could fit in, and begin to enjoy myself.

In cla.s.s the girls saw the jacket I'd taken from Pru Carraway's closet, and from the way they eyed me up and down, they considered me more than brazen to confront them. "I could have you dismissed for sneaking uninvited into my room--" began Pru Carraway.

"And stealing my own jacket?" I asked. "Don't threaten me, Prudence, just use prudence before you plan your next destructive trick. Now that I know the way into your closets, and know where you hide your goodies, just make sure you hide them very well in a new place." Lazily I pulled from my coat pocket a candy bar. Her eyes bulged as I bit into the chocolate. Perhaps she was remembering her box of expensive candy bars had been hidden under her stacks of books with t.i.tles such as: Fraught with Pa.s.sion, The Priest and His Undoing, The Virgin and the Sinner.

That Thursday night I dressed with more care than ever before. Behind me in my closet hung the four dresses that Troy had brought, still sealed in a long garment bag that was impossible to open without a key. It could have been cut open, but apparently the girls of Winterhaven were not prepared with a knife strong enough to cut through such heavy material. From what I'd seen in the closets of three rooms, the Winterhaven girls were very fond of strapless gowns that fitted tightly, and the more glitter and sparkle the better. My own four dresses, which Tony had chosen, were c.o.c.ktail length; one was bright blue (the one I'd worn to the Farthinggale Manor dinner), the second was bright crimson, the third white, and the fourth, an odd kind of floral print dress that made me wonder why Tony had chosen it. It had seemed to me when I was growing up that all the housewives in the hills and in the valley had worn print dresses to church. A pa.s.sion for print dresses, as if they feared solid colors revealed what food had been carelessly dropped. And because of this I had developed a distaste for any print, even beautiful watercolor ones such as the dress Tony had chosen. Blue, green, violet, and rose were intermingled on that long, fluttering gown with its full bell sleeves bound with green velvet ribbons. But the more I looked at it hanging there, the more like springtime it seemed--and it wasn't spring. It was now November.

Downstairs the decorating committee had removed most of the tables from the large dining room. The rugs had been rolled and put aside. Colorful streamers and festive paper decorations had been hung from the ceiling, and spinning where a more sedate chandelier had once hung was a large, mirrored ball. I had never guessed that this room, which was sunny and bright by day, since it faced east and south, could be converted into a very pa.s.sable ballroom.

Amy Luckett saw me as I headed for the dance, and she stopped to stare, her small hands rising to cover her short cry of admiration. "Oh, oh," she gasped, "I didn't know you could look like that . . . Heaven."

"Thank you," I said, recognizing an obscure compliment from the look in her eyes. "I thought you were on the guest list."

Again her hands covered her mouth. Her eyes grew huge. "I wouldn't go if I were you . . " she mumbled from behind those hands.

But I went.

Nothing was going to stop me from going, not now, not when I had on that crimson dress that hung like a clinging sheath from a wide, sparkling cuff that crossed over my bust and went around to the back, and the entire dress was held up by two glittering red shoestring straps. Upstairs was a small crimson jacket meant to cover the skin the dress revealed, but I was out to prove something to the boys, to the girls, to myself, and that modest jacket was left behind. It was a slender dress, revealing to advantage my figure. The saleslady in the shop had been surprised when Tony had wanted me to try it on. "A bit too old, Mr. Tatterton, don't you think?"

"Yes, indeed, much too mature. But dresses like this aren't easy to find, and I love this shade of red. This will never go out of style. My ward can wear it ten years from now. When the right woman wears this, she'll seem to be made of liquid fire."

That's what I felt like too as I approached the improvised ballroom where music blared forth. I was a bit late on purpose, wanting to make my impression by coming in last . . . and oh, I did make an impression.

The girls of Winterhaven stood in a line to the left of the door, and the boys were across the room, also lined up. Every single face turned to stare at me when I appeared in the archway. And only then did I see what Amy Luckett had meant. Not one single girl had on a fancy dress, not one!

They were wearing, more or less, what I wore every day, skirts with blouses or sweaters. Nice skirts, new blouses, and expensive sweaters, with nylons and small-heeled pumps. I wanted to go through the floor, I felt so wrong in my long, slinky red dress that suddenly made me feel like a tramp--oh why had Tony chosen something like this for me, why?

And all the boys were staring at me, beginning to show toothy, knowing grins. For a flashing moment I considered spinning about and running and leaving Winterhaven for good. Then, as if unable to turn, or run, I braced myself and tried to saunter nonchalantly into the room as if all my life I'd known how to overdress, and how to carry it off with panache. And they came at me, fast, those boys who suddenly changed their minds about other dance partners. For the first time in my entire life, it was I and not f.a.n.n.y who had boys crowded around her--all pleading for the first dance, and if not that, the second or third. Before I knew what was happening I was swept off in the arms of some gangling, red-haired fellow who kind of reminded me of Tom.

"Wow! Wow!" he breathed, trying to pull me embarra.s.singly close. "We all hate these sissy exchange dances, but when you showed up, honey, it wasn't boring anymore."

It was the red dress, of course, not me. This was exactly the kind of dress that f.a.n.n.y would scream and fight for. Red, the color medieval aristocracy had a.s.signed to the street harlots. Red, still the color a.s.sociated most with women of loose virtue. Red, the color of pa.s.sion and l.u.s.t and violence and blood. And here I was having to fight off strong, male bodies seeking cheap thrills from rubbing against me. Whirled around as I was, pulled from the arms of one boy by another, I caught but brief glimpses of the other girls. My hair, which I'd piled high on my head, was caught by sparkling barrettes; soon I felt it beginning to slip. My hair fell and the curls bounced on my shoulders. I grew tired, angry that my partners wouldn't let me sit between dances and take a breather.

"Let me go!" I finally yelled above the loud music. I saw the teachers and others in the room hazily as I pulled away and tried to seat myself on one of the pretty settees taken from one of the formal parlors and put in here for dance night. Dainty cups of punch were shoved at me, plates with tiny sandwiches and pretty canapes, and male fingers several times successfully managed to feed me. The tea and fruit punch had been spiked. Two cups to slake my thirst had me feeling giddy. Two tiny sandwiches I nibbled before my treats were taken from my hands, and I was pulled back onto the dance floor. The twenty girls of Winterhaven with enough merits to attend this dance watched my every movement with peculiar intensity. Why did their eyes glow so expectantly?

I was having a good time, or so I had to believe when all the boys were lavishing on me such flattering attention. A good time at the expense of all the other girls who were neglected. Why were they watching me without envy? Even when other couples danced, it was I who drew all eyes. It made me uneasy the way everyone watched only me. What was I doing wrong, or doing right? Even the members of the faculty stood off to one side with dainty cups in their hands and kept their eyes riveted on me. Their curious interest added to my nervousness, when before I'd been terrified I'd have none.

"You sure are beautiful," said the boy whirling me around. "And I love your dress. Are you trying to tell us something by wearing red?"

"I don't understand why the other girls aren't wearing their party dresses," I whispered to this boy, who seemed less bold and insensitive than the others. "I thought we were supposed to dress up."

He said something about wild and crazy Winterhaven girls who were never predictable, but I only half heard him. A cramp, sharp and dreadful, shot across my abdomen! It wasn't my time of the month, and even then my cramps were never really severe. The dance ended, and before I could recover my breath, my next partner was heading my way, a devilish grin on his face. "I would like to sit the next one out," I said, heading for a settee.

"You can't! You are the belle of this ball, and you are going to dance every dance."

Again one of those hideous pains in my belly almost doubled me over. My eyes went unfocused. The faces of the girls watching me smeared into distorted images such as seen in fun-house mirrors. A short, plump, nice-looking boy was tugging on my hands. "Please, you haven't danced with me. n.o.body ever dances with me." And before I could protest again he'd tugged me to my feet and I was out on the dance floor, this time moving to a different kind of music. Today's kind of music that had a strong beat. All my life I'd dreamed of being so popular every dance was taken, and I'd never have to sit as a wallflower.

Now all I wanted to do was escape. Something dreadful was going on in my abdomen. The bathroom! I needed the bathroom!

Even as I broke away from one boy, another seized me and began his grinding motions, but this was hands-off music, and I turned to run, Suddenly, the music stopped, a new record was put on--a slow waltz, the cheek-to-cheek kind, the kind I needed least of all at this particular moment, and yet someone had me, trying to hold me too close, and the pains, the horrible pains were coming faster, closer together!

Violently I shoved him away and took off on the run. I thought I heard laughter behind me-- vicious, spiteful laughter.

The first floor lavatory had been a.s.signed to our guests, so it was the stairs I raced toward, running as fast as I could for the bathroom. The door was locked!

Oh, my G.o.d! I raced for another in a distant wing, feeling panic that it was so far away. I'd never make it in time! And when I reached there, it too was locked!

I was sobbing by this time, unable to understand what was happening to me, but happening it was.

Back to my rooms I sped, doubled over and groaning, gasping, my breath coming hard and fast. When I reached there I slammed and locked the door behind me. There was no commode in my room, but I hadn't lived fourteen years in the w.i.l.l.i.e.s and dreaded going to that distant outhouse without learning how to improvise. And when it was over, I still sat on, feeling any second another attack would begin.

For a solid hour my bowels rampaged, until I was quivering and weak, and a film of moisture clung to my skin, and by this time the dance downstairs had ended and the girls were returning to their rooms, laughing, whispering, quite excited about something.

Rap-rap-rap on my bedroom door. No one ever knocked on my door! "Heaven, are you in there? You certainly were the queen of the night! Why did you disappear so quickly, like Cinderella?"

"Yes, Heaven," called another voice. "We just loved your dress. It was so right!"

Very carefully I removed a frail plastic garment bag from my wastebasket. When I had it out, I quickly put it into a second bag, then tightly twisted the thin, plastic-covered wire. I had solved my dilemma, and saved my clothes in the nick of time, but now I was left with a bag full of filth I didn't know how to dispose of. The dirty linen chutes in the bathroom were one solution; nothing in the soiled linen baskets below would be ruined unless the plastic broke.

With the bag hidden beneath a robe I carried over my arms, I headed for the bath. I entered quietly, though I needn't have. All twenty of the girls who had attended the dance were in the lounge section, where several hair dryers were set up, and there were small vanities with lights for putting on makeup. In there they were laughing almost hysterically.

"Did you see her face? She went dead white! I almost felt sorry for her. Pru, how much of that stuff did you drop in her punch?"

"Enough to give her a blast--a real blast!"

"And weren't the boys wonderful, how they cooperated?" asked another girl whose voice I didn't recognize. "I wonder if she made it to a bathroom in time?"

"How could she, when we had all the bathroom doors locked?"

Their hilarity could have generated enough electricity to light up New York. And I was feeling sick enough without adding to it. Even in the w.i.l.l.i.e.s people hadn't been so cruel. Even the worst village boys in Winnerrow had respected some things. I dropped my plastic bag into the largest towel shoot, thinking it wouldn't break open when all those wet and damp towels down there would cushion its fall. And then I set about taking my shower and shampooing my hair. I used the one stall with a door that could be locked from the inside. After ten minutes of lathering and sudsing and using conditioner, I toweled dry, pulled on my white terry-cloth robe, and stepped out. All the girls who'd been in the lounge had gathered to watch what happened next. Forbidden cigarettes dangled from slack lips and fingers.

"You look so clean, Heaven," merrily chirped Pru Carraway, out of her college-girl clothes and into her transparent baby dolls. "Did you feel a special need for staying so long in the shower?"

"Just the same old need I have every night since I came to Winterhaven--to wash the atmosphere from my skin and hair."

"The atmosphere is dirty here? Dirtier than where you came from?"

"There are coal mines and cotton gins where I come from, and the coal soot is carried on the wind to dirty clean clothes on the line, and curtains have to be washed once a week. And the airborne cotton lint invades the lungs of the millworkers, and even the lungs of people who live downwind. But since I came to Winterhaven I have experienced nothing but clean, wholesome, American fun. I cannot wait to write my thesis about my experiences at Winterhaven. It should be very enlightening to those who don't know what goes on in private schools like this."

Suddenly Pru Carraway was smiling, smiling broadly. "Oh, come now, Heaven, are you any the worse for wear? We always play that joke on a new girl. It's fun to mislead them and let them dress incorrectly. It's all part of our initiation. Now, if you complete the last ritual, you can become one of us, and pull the same tricks on the next new girl."

"No thanks," I said coldly, the memory of those awful cramps that had left me weak still very much with me. "I don't care to become a member of your club."

"Of course you do! Everyone always does! We have oodles of fun, and food and drinks stashed away that you wouldn't believe. And the next step will complete our requirements; we don't like girls who chicken out." She smiled at me winningly, with more charm than I had previously suspected she possessed. "All you have to do is slide down the dirty linen chute, then find your way out of the cellar, which is always kept locked. There is a way out, but you'll have to find it."

The pregnant pause stretched and stretched as I thought this over. "But how do I know the chute isn't dangerous?"

"Why we've all done it, Heaven, every last one of us, and none of us were harmed!" Pru smiled at me again. "C'mon, be a good sport . . . besides we want to visit you this Christmas."

An anger difficult to describe was building within me. There were all kinds of petty tricks they could have played that wouldn't have been so physically violent. And down there on top of all the dirty linen was a double bag of filth just waiting . . .

"If someone would prove to me that the chute is safe, and there truly is a way out of the locked bas.e.m.e.nt, maybe . . ." I said. "I wouldn't want to be caught down there in the morning by one of the washwomen, who would immediately report me for being off limits--then maybe . . ."

"We've all done it!" flared Pru, as if she considered my caution utterly overdone. "It's only a swift downhill ride and you end up on damp towels. No big deal."

"But I want to make sure I can find my way out of the bas.e.m.e.nt," I insisted.

"All right!" shouted Pru. "I'll do it first myself to prove it can be done! And when you see me again, you'll realize I'm the only truly brave person here, for someone other than the president of the club should have volunteered."

Destiny was at hand. Whatever happened next was none of my doing, I thought, as I watched Pru Carraway preen and praise herself, then prance toward the very largest of the clothes chutes where I'd dropped my plastic bag. With a great show of bravery, and a flourish of her hand, waving farewell as she called "See you later," she crawled through the round opening while the strong, heavy door was held open by one of her friends.

With Pru out of sight, the door was released, and with a loud bang it slammed shut. Beyond and out of sight Pru was telling the world in a loud, shrilling yell that the ride down was fun, fun, fun!

I held my breath. Maybe the double plastic bags would hold, maybe.

Then, quicker than I antic.i.p.ated, came a different kind of scream. Horrified! Disgusted! Anguished!

"Doesn't she always overdo it?" said some girl I didn't turn to identify.

Amy Luckett leaned to whisper. "Forgive us, Heaven, for what we did. But all of us have to endure some ordeal, and I overheard your guardian tell Mrs. Mallory not to give you any help or protection from what the other girls did. It seems he wants to 'test your mettle' and see what you're made of."

I didn't know what to think. Far away Pru was still screaming and sobbing. Her wails began to drift away, becoming fainter and fainter. And with each pa.s.sing second the nineteen girls who surrounded me became louder and louder with their comments, wondering why it was taking Pru so long to return.

Finally Pru Carraway showed up. She was pale, shaken, and so darn clean. Even her hair had been freshly shampooed. Her skin had been scrubbed with such force it looked shiny and raw. Her pale and stony gaze riveted on me. The girls around me grew very quiet. "Okay, I've proven it can be done. It's your turn now."

"I don't really care to belong to your club," I p.r.o.nounced in a cold and haughty manner that rivaled her own. "Fun is fun, but anything that is dangerous and insulting and embarra.s.sing physically goes beyond good taste, and good sense. I will go my way, and the rest of you can go yours."

Every one of those girls stared at me with absolute shock in her eyes, but in the glittery eyes of Pru Carraway glowed something else--relief that I hadn't exposed her shame, and resentment and hostility because, while she was gone, I had somehow managed to make a few friends.

Nine Logan .

I NEVER BECAME ONE OF THE SELECT IN WINTERHAVEN, but at least the majority of the girls accepted me for what I was, different and independent in a shy and uncertain way.

Subconsciously I had found the same old shield that I had used in the w.i.l.l.i.e.s and Winnerrow; indifferent, that's what I'd pretend to be. Let them throw slings and arrows, what did I care? I was here, where I wanted to be, and that was enough.

When Troy called the day after the dance to see how it had gone, I told him someone had played a terrible trick on me, but I was much too embarra.s.sed to tell him what the trick had been. "You weren't harmed were you?" he asked, seemingly very worried. "I've heard those Winterhaven girls can be quite nasty to new girls, especially those they haven't grown up with."

"Oh," I answered in a new, nonchalant way, "I think this time the trick was also on them."

The very next Friday evening, sooner than expected, Jillian and Tony came back from California, full of holiday spirits. They gave me gifts of clothes and jewelry, and Troy in his small cottage was a constant, dependable comfort, just knowing he was there, every weekend, my secret friend. I more than suspected he didn't really want me there, distracting him from his ch.o.r.es, and if he hadn't been so polite and sensitive to my needs he would have sent me away.

"How do you entertain yourselves on Sat.u.r.days?" Tony asked one day, when he saw me scurrying from the library with an armful of books.

"Studying, that's how," I said with a little laugh. "There's so much I thought I knew but I don't. So if Jillian and you don't mind, I'm going to lock myself up in my bedroom and cram."

I heard his heavy sigh. "Jillian usually has her hair done on Sat.u.r.days, then she goes to a movie afterward with a few of her friends. I was hoping you and I could make a day of it in the city, doing some Christmas shopping."

"Oh, ask me again, Tony, please do, for there's nothing in this world that I would rather do than visit the main store of Tatterton Toys."

For a moment he appeared startled. Then a slow grin spread on his handsome face. "You mean you really want to go there? How wonderful. Jillian has never shown any interest in it whatsoever! And your mother, knowing we quarreled about that often, took her mother's side and said she was too old to be bothered with silly toys that didn't make the world go around, and didn't improve social or political conditions--so what good were they?"

"My mother said that?" I asked, totally astonished. "She was echoing your grandmother, who wants a playmate, not a businessman. For a short time, when she made exquisite doll clothes, I had hopes one day she'd really become a part of Tatterton Toys."

Soon I'd slipped away to Troy's stone cottage, where I wanted to be more than anyplace else. Just to be with him gave me excitement. Why had Logan never made my pulse beat so hard?

While I lay on the thick carpeting in front of Troy's hot fire, I wrote to Tom, pleading for him to give me some advice on how to approach Logan again in a way that wouldn't seem too aggressive.

Finally, just when I believed Tom was never going to answer my last letter, one showed up in my post office box.

I don't understand all your fears. I'm sure Logan will be thrilled if you give him a call, and arrange to meet some place. By the way, in my last letter, did I forget to tell you that Pa's new wife is expecting a baby? I have not heard from f.a.n.n.y directly, but I still have some old friends in Winnerrow who keep in touch. It seems the good reverend's wife has gone home to stay with her parents until her first child is born. What about you, have you heard from f.a.n.n.y, or from the people who have Our Jane and Keith?

No, I hadn't heard one word. And here was Pa, blithely making more babies, when he should never want to see another! Not after what he'd done! It hurt to feel that Pa could do evil and never be punished, at least not enough! That little brother and sister I used to feel so necessary in my life were growing fainter and fainter in my memory, and that scared me. My heart was no longer feeling the sharp anguish of losing them, and I couldn't allow that to happen. Troy told me he had contacted his law firm in Chicago and they would begin their investigation soon. I had to keep my flame of anger alive, keep it new and raw, and never allow the pa.s.sing of time to salve the wounds Pa had delivered. Together again, all five Casteel children all under one roof. That was my goal.

Just as I'd feared, when finally I had the nerve to dial Logan's number, his voice didn't show the warmth and approval that had been there when he loved me. "I'm glad you called, Heaven," he said in a chilly, detached way. "I'd be happy to meet with you this Sat.u.r.day, but our meeting will have to be short. I have a big paper due next week."

Oh, d.a.m.n him! Double d.a.m.n him! I was stung by the cold tone in his voice, the same that his mother had used whenever she was so unfortunate as to find me with hi one and only beloved son. Loretta Stonewall hated me and had made little pretense to hide her disapproval of her son's devotion to hillbilly trash. And her husband had followed her lead, though he had looked embarra.s.sed a few times by his wife's obvious hostility. But I was going to go and meet Logan this afternoon, no matter how cold he sounded. I spent two hours getting ready--I was determined to look my very best.

"Well, what a pretty picture you make, Heaven," Tony sang out when he saw me. "I love that color dress you're wearing. It is very becoming, though I don't remember selecting that one." He frowned a little as he reflected, while my breath caught and held, for it was a dress that Jillian had given me, one Tony had given her, and she had never worn it because she didn't like the style, the color, or the fact that her husband considered his taste better than hers. "On a day like this, dear girl, you need more than just an ordinary coat," he said, reaching into a closet and pulling out a heavy, dark sable coat. He held the fur for my arms to slide into the sleeves. "This fur is three years old, and Jillian has many others, so keep it if you want. Now, where are you going? You know you have to tell me in advance of your plans, and have my approval."

How could I tell him I was planning to meet a boy from my past? He wouldn't know that Logan was different, out of place in Winnerrow. He'd presume he was just any young man in a mountain valley village he'd never seen: uncouth, uncultured, and uncivilized.

"Some of the friendlier girls at Winterhaven have asked me to one of their luncheons in town. And Miles doesn't have to drive me. Nor do you. I've already called a cab."

My heart beat faster, louder, as I told my lie that should have been the truth. Something Tony detected in my expression or tone made his eyes narrow as he weighed my words. Shrewd, sophisticated eyes that seemed to know all the wicked and tricky ways of the world. Long seconds pa.s.sed as those observant eyes took in my forced calmness, my feigned a.s.surance that struggled to show only innocence, and perhaps I convinced him, for he smiled. "I'm very pleased you have made friends at Winterhaven," he said with pleasure. "I've heard all kinds of tales about what those Winterhaven girls do to newcomers, and perhaps I should have warned you. But I wanted you to learn from experience how to handle every kind of difficult circ.u.mstance."

He smiled at me in such an approving way, somehow I just knew, absolutely knew, he'd heard every embarra.s.sing detail of what happened to me the night of the dance. He chucked me under the chin. "I'm glad you have spirit and fire, and know how to handle things yourself. You have their approval now, even if you think you don't need it. Now that you've been accepted, you can go your own way, with my approval. Be tough. Refuse to be bullied. And be confident with the girls--but when it comes to boys, you come to me first. Before you date I'll have your escort and his family checked out. I can't have you running around with trash."