She'd left the city she so hated, her rented house filled-(so it had been reported in the media)-with trash of all kinds including raw garbage and decaying rodent-carcasses, the woman's final gesture of outrage. No one had been informed where Ethel had gone though there were reports initially that she'd moved to the village of Dannemora to live near her incarcerated son.

This turned out to be unfounded. Ethel Kincaid was not living in Dannemora but with relatives in Tonawanda, a suburb of Buffalo. She had broken off all relations with Carthage. She had even ceased giving angry interviews-or rather, it may have been that the tabloid media had tired of the vet's grieving mother.

Staring at the abandoned and derelict house Zeno recalled the anxious hope with which he'd hurried to the door, on that morning in July 2005.

Already then, his daughter had vanished. His daughter was no more.

And yet, as he'd knocked on Ethel Kincaid's door he had not known that melancholy fact. His brain had been in such a tumult of hope, almost now he could envy that old, lost father-Zeno, imagining that, through bravado and belligerence of his own, he might find his missing Cressida.

Asking the astonished Ethel Kincaid to let him into her house. To let him into Brett Kincaid's room. The wild thought like a fragile rope he was pulling to save his life that his daughter might be there, with Brett Kincaid: the most unlikely of lovers.

And Ethel had sent him away jeering.

And Ethel had sent him away with a curse flung at the head of all the Mayfields of the world, those who dwell on Cumberland Avenue and not on steep-shabby Potsdam Street My son hates all of you.

The woman had come into his life to drink with him.

To shore him up, to listen to his rants and laugh at his jokes. To love him.

"Zeno? Maybe you could come for dinner sometime? I'd love to make us dinner."

He'd hesitated. What was this? The first stumbling step of his new life? His life-after-Arlette? Or was this the first, stumbling step of a sequence of blunders?

Her name was Genevieve. He hadn't heard the last name clearly.

They'd met at a gathering in Carthage, in January 2012. He'd known her husband-hadn't he?-but couldn't inquire for he failed to recall the husband's name.

He'd smiled. He'd hesitated. He'd had a drink in hand, one of those fragile plastic cups his big fingers were at risk for cracking.

Told her thank you! Gentlemanly regret: See honey, I'm a burnt-out case. Run for your life.

Yet, she'd prevailed. Smiling woman waiting for Zeno by the coat room.

No choice but he'd had to invite her across the street for a drink at least. A drink to erase the sour taste of the cheap white wine at the reception.

It was flattering-unless it was disturbing, sad-that, at the reception in Carnegie House, in celebration of the retirement of the director of the Carnegie Arts Foundation, Zeno Mayfield had been one of the centers of conversation, as in the old, lost days. For everyone in Carthage who was likely to be invited to this social event knew Zeno Mayfield: wanted to warm themselves with his good humor, laughter, sagacity and audacity, affability. Possibly Zeno was drinking too much lately, possibly since the departure of his wife from their marriage he was indeed becoming a burnt-out case, but amid the cheering din of voices and laughter who could tell? Who could care?

"Genevieve-is that your name? To be frank I don't think it's a good idea."

He'd been apologetic, stumbling. He had left his eloquence back at the brightly-lit reception.

She'd looked no more than thirty-five years old. He'd looked older than his age which was-never mind.

"Just dinner? What can be such a risk, a simple dinner? You know we live in the same building, don't you? You're on the penthouse floor, I'm on the fifth."

He'd heard: something had gone terribly wrong in this woman's life. The husband, a teenaged son. He wouldn't inquire. He didn't want to provoke tears. He didn't want to provoke sympathy. Like hemorrhaging it was, this sort of sympathy. He saw that there were several rings on her attractive hands but no wedding band, a danger signal.

Zeno's wedding band had grown into his fatty finger, most likely. A Celtic design, silver. Arlette's fingers had grown too thin, she'd had to remove all her rings.

The smiling woman was saying, "We each have losses. I understand. Yours may be deeper and more tragic than mine, but . . ."

Zeno resisted the impulse to touch her hand. Take her hand. He would not. Instead, lifted his glass.

Better a wineglass than the damned cheap plastic cups.

He saw her lips move. Earnestly she was speaking. Better this dim-lit interior than the over-bright Carnegie House.

"I've 'lost' my son though he's still-he's living. He's twenty-four years old and I haven't seen him in almost two years. I think that people who have similar losses can understand and help each other though I don't mean-I don't mean dwelling upon the past . . . I mean-I think I mean-trying to live now." Suddenly she laughed with unexpected gaiety, lifting her glass to touch Zeno's.

Much better wine in the Mercer Street Lounge, than at the crowded reception across the street.

"Well. I'll drink to that."

"I'll drink to that."

They laughed. They drank, and laughed.

What more precious than the opportunity to drink, laugh and drink.

Telling Genevieve how furious he was with his wife for being so God-damned brave and God-damned good. God-damned stoic about her health making him feel like a quivering asshole, he'd been so scared for her.

But mostly couldn't forgive her for "forgiving" their daughter's murderer.

"Oh! Oh, Zeno."

Arlette had gone to visit him in prison. She had not ever told Zeno about the visits but-he knew. He'd found out.

God damn her, her precious Christian soul. She had forgiven the unforgiveable, he hated her.

Now, it was uttered. He'd sworn he would not ever talk in this way with any stranger nor even with well-intentioned relatives urging him to talk in this way yet now, he heard, shocked he heard his voice careening on like a runaway wheel down a steep incline.

And for "forgiving" God-he hated her for that, too.

"God damn fucking God."

Spoke so vehemently, customers at other tables glanced in their direction. Genevieve laughed.

A sensible woman would have fled. Genevieve poured more wine into both their glasses and laughed.

And how good it felt, laughed-at instead of cringed-at.

"I've thought that too, Zeno. Many times. God damn fucking God."

He told her of the ancient Greeks. Blood-passion. Aeschylus, Oresteia. Some spring seemed to have been tripped in his brain like desiccated suet liquefied by heat. He'd always been an eloquent drunk but hadn't had the opportunity lately.

Saying how laws had been invented to stem the primitive passion for revenge but the feeling of outrage, the wish to exact blood-revenge, is not easily quelled.

Told the woman listening so intently to him, flatteringly-intently, about a documentary he'd seen on television the previous night, honor killings in Muslim families in the United States, some of the families solidly middle-class, even educated. Fathers in police custody weeping because they'd killed their "disobedient" daughters who'd "defiled" the family name. The grief in the face of one of the Muslim men, so like Zeno Mayfield they might have been brothers, though the act had been insane.

The unbearable fact was, his daughter had been murdered-but he'd been too weak to take revenge.

Of course: too civilized.

"Officer of the court."

And now, he didn't feel that he had any honor remaining. His soul had dried up, a husk.

Now it had been years. More than six years. He carried it inside him like malignant marrow in his bones. In even the semi-dark you could see the malignancy inside him, luminous, lethal.

The woman had said, "I can risk that."

Phone rang. Caller ID wasn't Trachtman which was Genevieve's name but Stedman which was Juliet's married name.

"Daddy? I had an upsetting call today."

What was today? Bleary-eyed seeing it had to be mid-March. On the calendar above his desk was March with a half-dozen dates feebly X'd out. But that was last week.

Juliet was telling him of a "young-sounding voice" she'd heard that morning. A stranger-she thought-calling her claiming to be Cressida.

Zeno gripped the receiver tighter not certain he'd heard correctly.

"I mean-of course-it has to be a stranger-but"-Juliet paused; Zeno could imagine her quick confused smile-"it didn't-she didn't-sound anything like Cressida at all. I'm sure."

"Honey, wait. Someone called you?"

"She said-I'm not sure what she said. I didn't think for an instant that it was Cressida of course but only some kind of cruel prank. Then, the person called back and left a message and somehow, it got erased."

"The message is erased?"

"I was upset, I guess-somehow, I erased it."

Calmly Zeno asked if Juliet had any record of the phone number.

"On my cell phone, yes. Just the number, not the message. But there's no answer-the number at the other end doesn't seem to exist."

Zeno, seated at his desk, was sitting forward now elbows on the desk and eyes shut in concentration.

"Julie. Why would anyone make such a call, as a prank?"

"Daddy, I don't know! Maybe from the Internet. There's still information online about Cressida. I never look at it, any of it, but I know it's there because people tell me. There's some sort of 'mystery' about Cressida, for some people-where she is. What happened to her body. And people do cruel things for no reason."

Still calmly Zeno said, "This call you received. This caller. Did she say where she was calling from?"

"No." Juliet thought. "Yes. I think-Florida."

Juliet thought again. "She said she was 'coming home.' I think."

"She said she was 'coming home'?"

Gripping the receiver so tightly now he feared he would break it.

"I didn't call Mom. I didn't want to upset her. She's made her peace with what happened, I think-it's a way Mom has dealt with losing Cressida. To get her hopes up would be cruel."

"Yes. You're right. I'm grateful that you called me, sweetie, and not your mother. And I'm sure that this is what you say it is-a cruel prank."

Carefully Juliet said: "Brett did confess. And they found the-you know-the sweater."

Zeno didn't reply. So many times they'd spoken these words or similar words it was like entering a tunnel-you could not bear it another time.

Though sometimes, discussing this matter, Juliet would say My sweater.

As if she hadn't known what she was saying. My sweater.

Zeno said, "This caller-who didn't sound like Cressida-what else did she say?"

"In the message, what I remember of the message, she said she was calling from Florida-some place in Florida, I think. But I couldn't hear clearly. The connection was poor. Or her voice was muffled. She said something strange-'I am not a sick person.' And I think she said-'I did not think that any of you loved me much . . .' "

"And what else, honey? Did she say anything else?"

"No. I don't think so."

"But-what did you say to her?"

"I don't think I said anything. I think-I think I hung up."

In the background, at Juliet's house, was the high-pitched chattering of a child.

Distractedly Zeno asked Juliet about the kids, and about her husband. The very word "kids"-so relaxed, colloquial, ordinary-was a balm to him, in this bizarre moment.

Juliet spoke in her usual animated way about her family. If there were problems in Juliet's new family, if ever there were health or medical issues, it would be a long time before Juliet's bright soothing manner would acknowledge these problems.

Politely too Juliet asked her father about his woman-friend Gwendolyn.

Zeno answered briefly, distractedly. Not troubling to correct his daughter.

More animatedly he said, to fill in the stiff stunned silence between them: "A dozen times a day I remind myself-how God-damned happy I am to have grandchildren."

"Oh, Daddy. Yes! I feel the same way-about my children."

Juliet had married a man very different from Brett Kincaid. He was nineteen years older than Juliet and of another generation. The Mayfield name was unknown to him, with its political resonances in Beechum County. He'd been a lobbyist for the public school teachers' union and he was now a high-ranking official with the New York State Department of Education whose office remained fundamentally unchanged through changes of state government-governor, legislature. He'd published articles in The Chronicle of Higher Education, The New York Times Education Issue. He was from an old Albany family, a great-grandfather had been an aide of Governor Thomas Dewey. He'd served in the Peace Corps in Ghana, just out of Williams College. He'd been married before and the marriage had ended in an "amicable" divorce, no children.

The Stedmans had made a fortune in railroads in the 1890s and retained some portion of that fortune into the twenty-first century. Why Zeno resented his middle-aged son-in-law he could not have said for truly he was grateful for David D. Stedman in his daughter's life.

In fact, David Stedman was a man of integrity, dignity. He was taciturn, but kindly. He'd learned to manipulate strangers in the precise way in which Zeno Mayfield had learned to manipulate them, in the snarls of the political machinery of public life. So Zeno respected the man even if he couldn't feel warmth for him.

All that Zeno cared about waking in the middle of the night anxious and clammy-skinned in terror of the future was that David D. Stedman loved his daughter, and wished to protect her.

It seemed crucial too, Stedman had never met Cressida. His sympathy, pity, outrage were abstract and not particularized.