Seeing, not wanting to see, the look of surprise, chagrin and disapproval in the corporal's face.

Even this face that was scarred, and stitched. Even this face with but one good eye in a ruin of a socket.

And his friends were there. His hateful friends.

Somehow it happened, she was sitting with Brett. Maybe he'd taken pity on her, or felt responsible for her-tugging at her wrist, embarrassed, saying sit here, Cressida. OK, Cressida.

Want a beer, Cressida?

Her head was ringing. It was very difficult to hear, in this clamorous place.

To speak, you had to shout. Had to lean to your companion, to shout in his ear.

She'd never anticipated this! Such noise, confusion . . .

Juliet who never complained of her fiance had complained of these high school friends of Brett's, who "took advantage" of him-who "weren't worthy" of him. How Cressida feared them, disliked them-couldn't recall their names, out of repugnance-as they stared at her in genuine surprise. And then, their leering smiles.

Jesus! Juliet's sister-what's-her-name.

Some weird name-Cassie? Cressie?

And soon she'd swallowed several mouthfuls of beer sharp and sour and vile-tasting and yet-how delicious it tasted, how thrilling, in this place with Corporal Brett Kincaid.

And no one knew where she was. No one at home.

Yet the Roebuck Inn was so loud, you couldn't hear your own voice. To be heard by another you had to lean close to him, raise your voice, half-shouting, hoarse in his ear.

In her dream of Brett Kincaid, it had not been like this. In her dream Brett Kincaid and Cressida Mayfield had been together in a place of solitude and beauty and they had not needed to say much to each other.

In silence, they'd understood each other.

For it was so-obviously. They were soul mates.

Brett would understand. Brett had always known. Juliet had been a distraction to him, a detour. But now.

But now, Cressida heard her voice weakly faltering, plunging: "Brett? Maybe I could help you? The way Juliet did? Drive you to the hospital?-'rehab'? Please? I'm serious. I want to help. Or if you needed-I don't know-some kind of medical help-blood transfusion, kidney-bone marrow transplant"-these bizarre words tumbling from Cressida's mouth though she'd never considered such remarks before-"or if you plan on going to college, somebody was saying maybe Plattsburgh?-I could drive you there, I mean like to visit the campus, or to register-it isn't so far from St. Lawrence where I-I'm-" (In his disfigured face an expression of shock, and of insult beyond shock so she'd wanted to plead Why don't you help me? Why won't you smile at me? You know me-Cressida.) Later, she was making her way-unsteady on her feet, swaying-to the women's room.

She was sick in the women's room. Or maybe-almost sick.

Splattering with water the front of the little striped-white cotton sweater, with tiny pearl buttons, that had once belonged to Juliet.

Then later. Wishing that his friends-Rod, Stump, Jimmy-would go away.

Telling Brett she was OK, she was fine. He didn't have to worry about her getting home.

And Brett told her they were leaving now. He was driving her home.

In the parking lot. Amid a deafening din of motorcycles.

Men's voices, shouts and raw ribald laughter.

Telling him she didn't need him, thank you. As he was escorting her to the Jeep Wrangler.

Telling him no. God damn she didn't want his charity.

Don't be ridiculous, he said.

She would go with-someone else. Get a ride back to Carthage with someone else.

No, he said. You will not.

It wasn't a quarrel. Yet possibly the two were observed by witnesses in the parking lot of the Roebuck Inn, sometime past midnight.

Corporal Kincaid in black T-shirt, khakis speaking earnestly with the younger Mayfield sister. Helping her up into the cab of his Jeep. The girl had seemed just slightly resistant. Her knees were weak, she'd seemed to lose balance and so had to clutch at his arm to keep from falling.

Her voice was slurred as she tried to explain to him-exactly what she could not have said.

DON'T WANT YOU get away you disgust me.

These words he'd uttered. These terrible words, she would never forget.

She would think Like napalm. Sticking to flesh.

In the Preserve. Somehow this had happened.

Along the unpaved road north of the river. High overhead a faint, fading moon.

Somehow, they'd come here. It was clear that Brett had driven them here of his own volition.

Things they had to talk about, in private. The broken engagement, and Juliet.

And yet she'd said again-she'd pleaded-how alike they were-soul mates. And how rare this was in life, and how precious.

He'd seemed to understand. He'd seemed to be listening to her.

Then, he'd recoiled.

No. This is crazy. Get away.

Hadn't meant to hurt her. In surprise and revulsion pushing her from him.

And she struck at him as a child might strike.

Striking at an adult in all confidence that the blow won't be returned. But Brett pushed her away angrily, irritably-struck her head against the windshield, bloodying her nose.

So quickly this happened! So quickly, and irrevocably.

Calm-seeming and then in an instant out of control. For he wasn't well-this wasn't the corporal's right mind.

Knew better, Christ he had to know better. Mixing alcohol with his meds.

Drinking, and psychoactive drugs, and driving a vehicle-the Jeep Wrangler, Brett Kincaid was no longer licensed to drive.

He knew this. And he knew, the girl had to be protected, driven home-safely home.

Though they'd expelled him from their family yet the Mayfields were his family, still. For he had no other family.

Except, the weird sensations in his brain were making him crazy. Hallucinatory faces darting and dissolving. Had to defend himself-(but where was his rifle?)-since they would kill him otherwise.

Loyalty. Duty. Respect.

Service. Honor. Integrity.

Personal Courage.

She was one of them, a menacing shape. Or-the one he'd hurt badly, smashed and bloodied her face.

Yet-it had not been him.

Corporal Kincaid hadn't been one of the guys. Except if they lied, to incriminate him.

Out of spite, and hatred of him.

It was puzzling to him, why this girl-why so furious at him. Spiteful and crazy and her nails clawing his face.

He'd had to protect himself. He'd gripped her skinny shoulders, and shoved her.

But now, she was free of him. She'd squirmed free of him. The little cotton sweater, one of the sleeves ripped and a little pearl button torn off.

She'd fallen onto the ground clumsy and desperate. She was crying, she was screaming at him. Hate hate hate you I hate you as a child would scream not knowing what she said.

Did she believe that he would hurt her? Kill her? Or, did she believe that he detested her so much, he wished he could be rid of her forever; and now she'd thrown herself out of the cab of the Jeep and onto the rocky ground and her hands and knees were bleeding.

He was calling to her. He was leaning out the opened door of the Jeep calling to her. Now frightened, repentant. In his confusion thinking that the Jeep had been in motion and that the girl had thrown herself out of the speeding vehicle to injure herself and to spite him who could not love her as she wished to be loved.

Calling to her, Cressida! Come back!

But she was gone. He saw only the underbrush, the glittering river. Trying to follow her. Meant to follow her. His bad leg clumsy as a wooden leg and his head pounding with pain and what strength he had drained from him leaving him helpless.

Wracked with pain, and shame.

Inside his brain a coin-sized hole opened. And then it opened farther like a well fascinating to see for it was the antithesis of visible-it was no-color, purely black.

Sucked the corporal inside.

She saw: in the river her body rushed downstream. Her clothes were torn from her.

Naked female body fish-pale turning in the frothy current amid sharp-glistening rocks.

Never the one loved. Never the one adored.

Better, then. Better to be carried away in the river like trash, and gone.

AND SO THE SURPRISE of waking, being wakened. Not in the riverbed but in a roadside ditch where she'd stumbled out of the Preserve on the ruins of an old asphalt road.

Mosquitoes whining in her face, through the long night. Bites, swellings on all the surfaces of her body.

Her limbs were knotted together. Her mouth and her nose had been bloodied. Her face looked as if it had been ground into the dirt. The tall woman crouched over her astonished. Who did this to you?

She could not speak. Her eyes were part-shut. She was trembling convulsively. She was very cold. The long-limbed woman touched her, hesitantly.

The swollen mouth, grotesque. The bloodied nose.

Can't talk? Hey.

Maybe take her to-where? ER?

Like hell. Like fuckin hell no fuckin ER.

Looks like they dumped her. Like out of a car . . .

Face looks broke. Lemme wash that blood away.

Should call 911?

Fuckin sheriff like fuckin hell! Deliverin her to the enemy!

Well-if she's hurt bad . . . If she needs like an X-ray-could be her skull is fractured?

Like hell I'm gonna deliver this girl to the hands of the enemy! No fuckin way.

Seems like she can't talk? Maybe she is deaf, too.

A plastic water-bottle held to her mouth. But most of the water ran down her chin, she couldn't swallow.

Try to drink, see? Could be you are de-hy-drate-ed.

And so she'd tried. But another time most of the lukewarm water ran down her chin.

In a voice of cold quavering fury saying to her where she lay curled upon herself in the wet grasses, Whoever hurt you like this will hurt you again. I know those fuckers. I know their kind. You can't go back. You can't press charges-bear witness-against them. I've seen other girls like you. Fuckin sheriff says get a fuckin injunction-nobody gives a fuck what happens to you. He will hurt you again, he will murder you. Don't be afraid, girl-I will protect you.

The long-limbed woman spoke vehemently. The other woman, whom she was never to see, made no reply but deferred to her companion who was leaning over Cressida now, grunting as she wrapped shivering Cressida in her arms.

Smelling of something minty, astringent-toothpaste, chewing gum.

IN THIS WAY, she was rescued.

Borne out of the Nautauga Preserve and out of Carthage and all of Beechum County though it would be a long time before so coherent a thought would fuse itself together in her hurt brain I have been rescued, by a miracle.