She would feel even worse, how bad would that be? 

Just the thought of it made him shudder, making him blame himself more .  

They were right, it was indeed his mistake . He had loved her for so many years, and every single time they did it, it seemed like a dream . He never remembered to take contraceptive measures and she had also forgotten, causing the tragedy today .  

When they were still in school, boys from his dorm had also had an active s.e.x life, but none of them had ended up killing a life .  

He remembered in one physical education lesson, a girl was not aware of her pregnancy and had partic.i.p.ated in a marathon . In the last round, she started bleeding heavily . Afterwards, she realized that she had miscarried .  

That was back in high school, and the incident had severely damaged the reputation of their school . In the end, the girl was forced to leave . When she left with her belongings, her eyes were red and swollen, but the guy had found another girlfriend soon after . Every time the incident was brought up, the girl would be blamed for her indecency .  

There was another time in college, the guy that was living below his bunk bed, who had a relatively good background, had managed to get together with the most popular girl from the Chinese department . She had aborted three times because of him, but he had never cared, even showing off to the others when he got drunk . After he had graduated, he had dumped her, but by then, she wasn't able to get pregnant anymore .  

At that time, he didn't pay attention to any of those gossips, but today, after Qiao Anhao had a miscarriage and had to have an abortion, the memories seemed to come flooding into his mind .  

Back then, he didn't care, he just felt that the guys were jerks and the girls were pitiful . He had even sworn that if he managed to get together with Qiao Anhao, he would never let her endure such darkness, he would give her the best that he could .

And yet he still allowed her to endure such a tragedy . . .  

If he hadn't touched her, if he had been able to control himself, if he had thought to take contraceptive measures . . . If he had thought about pregnancy nausea few days ago when he had touched her . . . if . . .  

Lu Jinnian's hands clenched into fists, his throat tight and choked up .  

Such a tragedy could have been prevented in so many ways, but he hadn't taken any .  

He had let her down .  

He had failed to give her the perfect life that he had promised .  

Lu Jinnian stayed up the entire night, guarding beside Qiao Anhao's bed .

As the doctor had mentioned, the anesthesia lasted a long time . She slept for a long time with no signs of waking . Halfway through, the doctor visited but left without saying much more than that she was in deep sleep .

The next day at 7 am, Lu Jinnian called his a.s.sistant to drive him and Qiao Anhao back to Mian Xiu Garden .  

Madam Chen was already awake . When she saw the car, she ran out to greet them . Lu Jinnian carried Qiao Anhao, who was fast asleep, upstairs, into their room .

With concern, Madam Chen asked, "Mr .  Lu, what's wrong with Mrs .  Lu?" 

She would feel even worse, how bad would that be? . . .

Just the thought of it made him shudder, making him blame himself more .  .

They were right, it was indeed his mistake . He had loved her for so many years, and every single time they did it, it seemed like a dream . He never remembered to take contraceptive measures and she had also forgotten, causing the tragedy today .  .

When they were still in school, boys from his dorm had also had an active s.e.x life, but none of them had ended up killing a life .  .

He remembered in one physical education lesson, a girl was not aware of her pregnancy and had partic.i.p.ated in a marathon . In the last round, she started bleeding heavily . Afterwards, she realized that she had miscarried .  . . .

That was back in high school, and the incident had severely damaged the reputation of their school . In the end, the girl was forced to leave . When she left with her belongings, her eyes were red and swollen, but the guy had found another girlfriend soon after . Every time the incident was brought up, the girl would be blamed for her indecency .  .

There was another time in college, the guy that was living below his bunk bed, who had a relatively good background, had managed to get together with the most popular girl from the Chinese department . She had aborted three times because of him, but he had never cared, even showing off to the others when he got drunk . After he had graduated, he had dumped her, but by then, she wasnt able to get pregnant anymore .  .

At that time, he didnt pay attention to any of those gossips, but today, after Qiao Anhao had a miscarriage and had to have an abortion, the memories seemed to come flooding into his mind .  .

Back then, he didnt care, he just felt that the guys were jerks and the girls were pitiful . He had even sworn that if he managed to get together with Qiao Anhao, he would never let her endure such darkness, he would give her the best that he could . .

And yet he still allowed her to endure such a tragedy .  .

If he hadnt touched her, if he had been able to control himself, if he had thought to take contraceptive measures . If he had thought about pregnancy nausea few days ago when he had touched her . if .  .

Lu Jinnians hands clenched into fists, his throat tight and choked up .  .

Such a tragedy could have been prevented in so many ways, but he hadnt taken any .  .

He had let her down .  .

He had failed to give her the perfect life that he had promised .  .

Lu Jinnian stayed up the entire night, guarding beside Qiao Anhaos bed

As the doctor had mentioned, the anesthesia lasted a long time . She slept for a long time with no signs of waking . Halfway through, the doctor visited but left without saying much more than that she was in deep sleep

The next day at 7 am, Lu Jinnian called his a.s.sistant to drive him and Qiao Anhao back to Mian Xiu Garden .  .

Madam Chen was already awake . When she saw the car, she ran out to greet them . Lu Jinnian carried Qiao Anhao, who was fast asleep, upstairs, into their room

With concern, Madam Chen asked, Mr .  Lu, whats wrong with Mrs .  Lu? .