I have no idea of what you know about your daughter's behavior or how much you care about her future, but for her sake and mine and that of my family, I beg you to do whatever you can to make her realize how cruel and irresponsible she is being and restore my husband to the bosom of his family.

The letter was unsigned.

The bosom of his family. Strand read the line, with its biblical echo, over again. He thought of prairie churches, Sunday evening prayer meetings. He knew one thing the biology teacher didn't know-he would be jilted for Christmas as he had been jilted for Thanksgiving. Compliments of the seasons.

He opened his hand and the letter fluttered to the floor. Through sleet and snow and gloom of night, the daily bread of affliction is delivered to our door six times a week by the ever faithful United States Postal Service. Thank God for Sunday.

A biology teacher, he thought. He, himself, had been a teacher of history and Leslie had been in his class, at Caroline's age, demure and beautiful in the first row, and he had lusted after her. Was he to feel guilty? At least he had waited a decent year after she had been graduated and had called at her family's apartment with the intention of marriage. But the biology teacher, too, no doubt intended marriage.

What could be said to his daughter? And who could say it? Not her father, he thought, never her father. Leslie? He guessed what Leslie would say-"She's a big girl. Let her work out her own problems. We'll only make it worse. I'm not going to sacrifice my relations with my daughter for the sake of a randy old fool of a hick biology teacher." If he showed Leslie the letter, she probably would say anybody with a handwriting like that was bound to lose her husband.

Eleanor? Eleanor would tell her, "Do what you want to do." Eleanor had always done exactly that.

Jimmy? Possibly. He was the closest in age to Caroline, moved in the currents of the same generation, was protective of his sister. But with his thrice-married thirty-five-year-old singer, Caroline would probably laugh at him if he brought up the subject of morality. Still, Jimmy was worth a try.

Strand finished his drink. It did not help the dry rasping of his throat or the hot thrust of pain in his lungs. He stood up and went over to the phone and dialed Dr. Prinz's number in New York. Dr. Prinz said it was about time he called. He would see him at eleven Saturday morning. He would have to get the early train.

Then he called Jimmy's number in New York. For once, Jimmy was in.

"Jimmy," Strand said, "I have to be in New York Saturday morning. Can we have lunch? I have some things to talk to you about."

"Oh, Dad," Jimmy said, "I'm sorry. I have to leave for Los Angeles Saturday morning. Business. I'd love to see you. Can you come down for dinner Friday night?"

Sons by appointment only, Strand thought. "I'm through with my last class at three o'clock on Friday," he said. "I can get into New York by six o'clock. Fine. I'll have to stay over, though. I have a checkup with the doctor on Saturday morning."

"Anything wrong?" Jimmy immediately sounded anxious.

"No. It's routine." Strand felt a cough collecting in his throat and controlled it. "Can you get me into a hotel?"

"The Westbury is near me. It's on Madison Avenue, around 70th Street. I'll book you in there."

"It sounds expensive." He had once had drinks in the bar of the hotel with Leslie on an afternoon when they had been at the Whitney Museum nearby. It had been too luxurious for him. The other people at the bar were the same sort as the guests at the parties Hazen had taken them to in the Hamptons.

"No matter," Jimmy said airily. "My treat."

"I can stay at some cheaper place."

"Forget it, Pops. I'm in the chips."

Nineteen years old, Strand thought, and in the chips. When he was nineteen he had stayed at the YMCA. "Well," he said, "if it won't break you."

"I'll reserve the bridal suite."

"The bride's in Paris," Strand said. "Save your money."

Jimmy laughed. "I know she's in Paris. She sent me a postcard. The Mona Lisa, at the Louvre. I guess she wanted to remind me that she's my mother. And that not all art was produced by electric guitars. I'll pick you up at the hotel."

He sounds at least thirty years old, Strand thought as he hung up. He went into the kitchen and fixed himself another drink. If one drink was good for him, perhaps two would be twice as good.

The French restaurant Jimmy took him to was quietly elegant, gleaming with snowy tablecloths and large arrangements of cut flowers. The headwaiter fawned over Jimmy and bowed politely when Jimmy introduced Strand as his father, although Strand thought he detected a momentary flicker of disapproval in the man's eyes. Beside Jimmy, lean and immaculate in a dark suit, narrow at the waist, which looked as though it had been made in Italy, Strand was conscious of his impressed old tweed jacket, the loose fit of his collar, his baggy flannels, as the head-waiter led them to a table. When he looked at the prices on the menu he was aghast. He had been aghast, too, when he asked the room clerk at the Westbury the price of the room that had been reserved for him.

"Your son's taking care of it," the clerk had said.

"I know," Strand had said testily. The trip down to the city had been uncomfortable. The train was crowded and overheated and the only seat he could find was in the smoking car and the man next to him smoked cigarette after cigarette and only looked at Strand curiously when Strand had a coughing fit. "I know my son's taking care of it," Strand said to the clerk. "I just would like to know what it costs."

The clerk told him and Strand groaned inwardly, thinking, My son will also be the youngest bankrupt in the United States in one year.

When Jimmy appeared a half hour later, Strand hadn't chided him about his extravagance. In fact, he hadn't had the time to talk to him about anything. "We're late," Jimmy had said, after saying "Pops, you look great. Joan's expecting us for a drink. It's just around the corner. She wants to meet you."

"What for?" Strand asked sourly, annoyed at Jimmy's tardiness. He took it for granted that Joan was the name of Jimmy's thirty-five-year-old mistress or whatever she was.

"Maybe she wants to see the oak from which the acorn was dropped."

"Is the lady having dinner with us?" With her at the table he could hardly bring up the subject of Caroline and her biology teacher.

"No," Jimmy said, hurrying him out of the hotel. "Just a drink. She has to pack for the trip tomorrow."

"Trip? Where is she going?" Strand asked, although he knew.

"California," Jimmy said nonchalantly. "With me. She hates to travel alone. She can't cope."

When he was introduced to Joan Dyer in her gaudy, all-white apartment twenty-two stories high, with a view of the East River, Strand thought she looked like a lady who could cope with anything, including fire, flood, famine and finance. She was a tall, skinny woman with no breasts and enormous wild dark eyes, heavily accented with purple eye shadow. She was barefooted, with yellowish, splayed toes, and was wearing gauzy black pajamas through which Strand could see the pinkish glow of bikini underpants. She didn't shake the hand that he extended to her but said, in a deep, powerful, almost masculine voice, "Do you mind if I kiss the father?" and embraced him and kissed his cheek. He was enveloped in a wave of heavy perfume. Whatever he ate for dinner would have to be highly seasoned to compete with the fumes that clung to his clothes. He knew, too, that he would have to wipe off the purplish lipstick before he went anywhere else. This was all at the door, which Joan Dyer opened herself. When she led them into the enormous living room, Strand saw that Solomon was standing there, next to the chair from which he had risen to greet them. "Hello, Allen," Solomon said. "Jimmy." There was a cold edge to his voice when he said "Jimmy." It did not escape Strand. "Well," Solomon said, "I've had my say, Joan. You'll both regret what you're doing."

The woman waved a languid, disdainful hand at him. Her nails, long and predatory, were painted purple, too. "Herbie," she said, "you're beginning to bore me."

Solomon shrugged. His face was deeply tanned and his hair looked almost white over the deep color of his forehead. Strand would have liked to ask him where he found sun in New York in December, but the expression on his face was not conducive to idle conversation. And Jimmy's face, too, had a stubborn look to it that Strand had become accustomed to by the time Jimmy was eight.

"Allen," Solomon said, his voice gentle and friendly now, "if you're staying in town can we have lunch tomorrow?"

"I'd like that very much," Strand said.

"Sardi's," Solomon said. "One o'clock. It's right near my office. West 44th Street."

"I know where it is."

"I'll reserve a table." Solomon left without looking at Joan Dyer or Jimmy and without saying good-bye.

"Ships that pass in the night," Joan Dyer said as they heard the distant closing of the front door. She smiled a purple smile at Strand. "And now, can I give you a drink? I must warn you, though-it's carrot and celery cocktail juice. I refuse to poison my guests with alcohol and cigarettes."

"Thank you, I'm not thirsty," Strand said, somehow reassured about his son's companion, who, because of her profession, he had automatically supposed was addicted to marijuana, at the very least. A woman addicted to carrot juice could hardly be considered a danger to a young man like Jimmy.

"Do sit down," Joan Dyer said. "I want to take a good look at you. Jimmy's spoken so much about you. You've raised a marvelous son," she said as Strand sat down, sinking almost to the floor on the soft low white couch and wondering if he was going to need help to get up off it. "In our profession the young men are usually runaway children, immature, resentful of their parents, misunderstood talents. It's a breath of fresh air to see you two together. I mean it, Mr. Strand."

"Joan," Jimmy said, with authority, "why don't you cut the bullshit?"

The woman gave Jimmy a baleful stare, then smiled her dark smile at Strand and went on as though Jimmy had not interrupted. "From the look of you, Mr. Strand, Jimmy must have gotten his intelligence, his sense of personality, from you. From the moment I saw him I had a feeling of serene trust, a feeling that finally I had found the man-a child in years, perhaps, but a man, nonetheless, whom I could depend upon, whose judgment in both personal and professional matters was intuitively right. What I've just said will explain the unfortunate little scene you've just witnessed between Herbie and us. I'm sure Jimmy will fill you in on the details. And, now, if you'll forgive me, I must finish my packing. It's the crack of dawn tomorrow and to the airport, so please don't keep my dear Jimmy up too late tonight, Mr. Strand. And I do hope that you will come out and visit us in California soon with your beautiful wife, whose photograph Jimmy has shown me. What a lucky family. I was a waif, tossed around from relative to careless relative, so I can appreciate a family..."

"Damn it, Joan," Jimmy said, "your father still owns half of Kansas and your mother has a racing stable."

"I am a waif in spirit," the woman said with dignity. "It is why the audiences respond with such emotion when I sing. I sing to the loneliness of the American soul." She came over to Strand and gracefully swooped over him and kissed his forehead. "Good night, dear father," she said and flowed out of the room.

Strand struggled to get up from the couch and Jimmy came over and gave him his hand and pulled him up.

"What was all that about?" Strand asked.

"It was one of her nights," Jimmy said. "You never know which one you're going to get The waif, the grande dame, the anarchist, the little girl with a bow around her waist and a lisp, the femme fatale, Mother Earth...You name it," he said, grinning, "and it's in her repertoire. And don't take the carrot juice too seriously. She asked me if you drank and I said no, so she became a health nut for an evening. The next time you see her she's as likely to be roaring drunk as not. If that's what it takes to make her sing like an angel, which she does, the only thing is to sit back and enjoy the act. Come on, Pops, let's go to dinner. I'm starving."

The restaurant was nearby and they walked to it. As they walked, Strand asked Jimmy what was wrong with Solomon, but Jimmy had shrugged and said it was a long story, he'd tell him over dinner.

Seated at the table to which the headwaiter had led them, Jimmy ordered a martini. In some places, Strand knew, Jimmy would have had to produce his I.D. card to get a drink. Not here. Strand shook his head when Jimmy asked him if he wanted a drink. The second whiskey he had had the night of the three letters had left him with a headache and he hadn't had a drink since.

"Now," he said, after they had ordered and Jimmy was sipping at his martini, "what was all that about with Mr. Solomon?"

Jimmy drummed his fingers impatiently on the tablecloth. "It's nothing," he said. "His nose is out of joint because we're leaving him. He'll get over it."

"Who's we?"

"Joan and me. Her contract's run out and she's had a better offer. On the Coast. Her second husband has a music company out there and they're friends again. It means a lot of bread. For both of us. Twice what old man Solomon was paying me and a piece of the action and that can mean millions with a dame like Joanie girl. And she won't make a move without me. She was ready to leave Herbie anyway before I came..."

"He told me he was about to fire her. Until you came along."

"Did he?" Jimmy said carelessly. "Somehow, she fixed on me. We have the same vibes. She won't even sing do re me unless I approve. The good old second husband is young and he knows what the kids're doing and that's ninety-nine percent of the business these days. Not like old Herbie. The tide has passed old Herbie by. He's washed up on the beach, only he hates to admit it."

"He was very good to you."

"It was money in the bank for him. I don't owe him anything. Gratitude in the trade is like putting a knife in a guy's hand and giving him lessons in how to slit your throat. I like the old fart, but business is business." Jimmy ordered a second martini. "Joan and I are going to have our own imprint. So we get the credit and the name without putting up any of the dough. And I'm my own boss. No running around like a messenger boy if old Herbie decides he wants a report on a new country singer down in Nashville or out in Peoria. You and Mom can come out to Beverly Hills and swim in my pool."

Strand looked soberly at his son. "Jimmy," he said, "I find all this thoroughly distasteful. I never thought I'd say these words, but I'm ashamed of you."

"Pops," Jimmy said, without anger, "not everybody can be a Knight of the Round Table like you. Camelot is kaput, even if the news hasn't reached Dunberry yet. Now, on the phone you said you had something you wanted to talk to me about. What is it?"

"Nothing," Strand said shortly. "I've changed my mind. I wanted you to do something for me. For the family. Now I believe I made the wrong choice." He stood up.

"Where're you going?"

"I'm leaving."

"Your dinner's going to be here in a minute. Sit down."

"I'm not hungry."

"Don't you even want my address in California?" There was a wailing tone in Jimmy's voice that reminded Strand of when Jimmy was small and had fallen and skinned his knees and come running home to be comforted.

"No, Jimmy, I don't want your address. Good night." Strand walked across the restaurant toward the checkroom. He got his coat and while he was putting it on, he looked back and saw that Jimmy was ordering a third martini. He went out and walked a few blocks along the cold streets to the Westbury and took the elevator to his room and lay down in the darkness. The telephone rang twice before he fell asleep, but he didn't answer it. Among the things he regretted about the evening was that he would have to allow Jimmy to pay for the room because he didn't have enough cash with him to pay for it himself.

7.

DR. PRINZ DIDN'T LOOK any graver than usual as he sat behind the desk after the cardiogram, the blood pressure examination, the stress test, the X rays. Strand took that as a good sign. "Well, Doc?" he said.

"Everything is pretty good," Prinz said, "as far as we can tell. The blood pressure's still a little high, but not scary. But..." He stopped.

"But what?"

"I don't like the way you look. Your complexion, something about your eyes. If I hadn't seen you, if I was one of those great specialists who never see a patient and just have X rays and the results of the tests to go by, I'd say that for a man your age who has had a bad heart attack, you're in surprisingly good shape. But I'm not a great specialist. I'm a poor old G.P. and you're my friend and I've seen you in better days."

Strand laughed. "I've seen you in better days, too," he said.

"You bet you have. But I'm not your job and you're mine. It doesn't show in the tests, but I'd guess you've been sleeping poorly..."

"It's a good guess," Strand said.

"And that you're under some sort of nervous strain..." Dr. Prinz looked at him sharply, as though to surprise him into a confession.

"A bit," Strand admitted.

"I don't like to sound like one of those quacks who prescribe sedatives every time a society lady goes into a tizzy because she's not been invited to a party," Prinz said, "but I think a mild dose of Librium two or three times a day might do you good. A year off on a beach would do you more good, but I don't suppose you're likely to have one."

"Not likely," Strand said dryly.

Prinz scribbled on a prescription pad and pushed the scrap of paper over the desk. "Have it filled and see if it helps. I have the impression of fatigue. It may be mental, it may be something else. Maybe the next time you come in we'll make some thyroid tests. Between the thyroid gland and the cerebellum there's sometimes a curious conspiracy. Well..." he sighed. "No miracles this Saturday."

"One more thing," Strand said, feeling embarrassed. "Sex...?"

Prinz looked at him sidelong, the first real glint of sympathy, mixed perhaps with amusement, behind his glasses. "No prescriptions," he said. "It might kill you and it might make you feel like a twenty-year-old fullback. Tell Leslie I miss the string trios."

"Thanks for everything." Strand stood up and Prinz stood, too, and walked with him to the door of the office. "By the way," he said, "how is your friend Hazen?"

"Friendly." Dr. Prinz must have had too busy a month to read The New York Times. "Running the country as usual."

Prinz nodded. "I'd hate to have him as a regular patient. He's one of those fellers, if I told him he had a disease, by the next time I saw him he'd have read all the literature on the subject and would lecture me on why he had it or didn't have it and why my treatment was fifty years behind the times. And he'd have me call in twelve specialists from Johns Hopkins and California and Texas for consultations. Still"-he laughed-"the rich do live longer than we do. Take care of yourself, Allen." He opened the office door for Strand. "And moderation in all things. The Prinz recipe for a long and moderately happy life."

He walked downtown along Central Park West carrying his small overnight bag, because he had checked out of the hotel. It was a mild day, the pale sunlight making the naked trees in the park trace patterns of lacy shadows on the brown grass. He felt an unaccustomed lift of freedom. He had no duties to concern him except that of living until his first class on Monday and he was strolling through his native and beloved city in tolerant weather, amidst children liberated from schoolrooms, aging bicyclists in bright clothes heading for the park, comfortable couples with placid weekend faces advancing unhurriedly toward lunch. He had been presented with a clean bill of health, or at least a conditional one. It might be called a draw between him and death. There would be a rematch later on, but noonday New York beside the great park in the sunlight was too pleasant a time and place to think of that now. A troop of children, very serious on horseback, for whom he had to halt to allow them to cross the avenue to the bridle paths beyond, added to his pleasure.

He passed the street where Judith Quinlan lived and wondered if she were in her studio at that moment and speculated on what she might be doing. Washing her hair, listening to music, preparing to go to a matinee? He had finally read the letter she had sent him when he had come out of the hospital. "Please get well," she had written. "And if there's anything you need, if there're books you want or gossip of the school or a friend to read to you, please let me know."

He had not answered the letter and now he felt a twinge of guilt. For a moment he almost stopped, to turn down her street and ring her bell. But if he was going to walk all the way to Sardi's and get there by one o'clock to meet Solomon, there would be no time for Judith Quinlan. Thinking of her, he realized that he missed her trotting to keep up with him after school and the cups of coffee they had shared in the shops along their route home and he came as near as he ever could to blushing when he remembered the one time he had gone up to her apartment and she had served him a drink and opened his shirt and put her hand on his chest. The tingling sensation made him smile and a young woman walking in the opposite direction smiled sweetly in return. Gallantly, he tipped his hat. Her smile broadened at the gesture and he continued walking with a fresh lilt to his steps, although as he approached the restaurant where he would meet Solomon he was sorry he had made the date. He did not feel like discussing his son that day.

During lunch, Solomon did not mention Jimmy. He asked about Leslie and Caroline and Eleanor and her husband and inquired solicitously about Strand's health and told him about a friend of his, aged sixty, who had had an even worse attack than Strand and now played three sets of tennis daily. In answer to Strand's question about his tan, he said that he'd just come back from California, where he'd spent a week lying in the sun by the pool at the Beverly Hills Hotel, waiting for a rock singer to make up his mind on a deal. The deal had finally fallen through, but the tan had made the trip worthwhile. When he talked seriously, it was about Hazen. Solomon no doubt was as busy as Dr. Prinz, but he found time to read the papers. He had called Hazen to find out if there was anything he could do-he, too, knew many people in Washington-but Hazen had assured him that it was all blowing over and there was nothing to worry about. "I'm not so sure," Solomon said to Strand. "A friend of mine works for the UPI Washington bureau and he tells me that something is cooking, but he doesn't know just what as yet. I'm concerned about Russell. They're hitting him in his most vulnerable spot and the one thing that he's proudest of-his reputation. With all that he's seen and done he's never had to fight for it in his whole life and he may blunder into a trap. I tried to suggest that he go to a lawyer who's helped me and some of my friends out of shadowy cases-cases like his-plagiarism suits, doubtful breach of contract, slander and libel, payroll padding, unrealistic income tax returns, imaginative bookkeeping, blackmail, bribing union officials-the necessary underside of the law, as it were, that keeps the wheels of business turning. But when I mentioned the man's name, he just snorted and said he wouldn't soil his hands with a shyster like that." Solomon shook his head sadly. "He may wake up one morning and find that he's a broken man, if not in court, then on the front page of the New York Post, even if he's done nothing that's really against the law."

"Do you think he has done something against the law?" Strand asked.