"It's true," Mika agreed. "It's a bit sickening."

"Shut up," she said, chuckling.

Part of him should feel relieved. Here was the girl of his dreams, not having cheated, not having broken his heart, telling him that she was devoted to him. It was all he'd ever wanted, but all he could think of was how much this complicated things. Not to mention he was a f.u.c.king cheater. And because he'd thought she'd done it first was no excuse. How was he even going to explain this?

"What's wrong?" Heidi walked to him and took his hand in hers.

"Nothing." He managed a small smile. "I'm fine." He was anything but fine. Everything had changed in a matter of seconds. His whole world had fallen apart yesterday but he'd dealt with it. Now it was flipped upside down again. He no longer knew where he stood, what he wanted, what to do.

Her lip puckered. "Are you unhappy with me?" Self-consciously, she straightened her clothes, laughing nervously. "I don't have any make-up on. Usually I look much "

She stopped suddenly then looked at him, concern growing in her eyes. "Wait. You've never seen me..." Cautiously, she backed away a few steps. "How did you find me?"

She finally caught on that he knew she'd been lying. "I hired a professional to look into things. You don't have to worry about how you look. I know the pictures were fake. And your name."

With a sigh, she stared down at the floor. "I guess that's fair. Listen, I had reasons for everything. But it's all in the past, right? We can move on? Starting now."

Could they? He didn't have an answer. He let his mind go numb rather than trying to sort out the confusion he felt. Maybe he'd give this a go, pretend nothing was wrong.

She stepped forward and took his hands again, then smiled up at him sweetly. "I'm just so glad you're here."

Despite all the longing these last four months, he wished he was anywhere else.

Chapter 19.

Maybe entering the million dollar pay out hacking compet.i.tion was a little ambitious, but she couldn't back out now. Emerson studied the figures on the screen, trying to ignore the crowd looking over her shoulder. Having an audience was freaking her out. High pressure public hacking wasn't her thing, apparently. Too late now.

It didn't help that her focus was divided. Leaving a certain someone sleeping in her parents' bas.e.m.e.nt still nagged at her, a whole day later. Had he made it to Heidi's house? He was probably a mess right now.

She gave her head a shake. Why was he haunting her? And at the worst possible time too. Pushing Levi out of her mind, she focused back on her task. The other contestants were ahead, but she knew going in it'd be a long shot. She'd craved the challenge though. Or maybe just the distraction.

Levi's sleeping body came to mind and she snorted. Some distraction. With a frustrated grunt, she squinted her eyes and stared at the screen. Why couldn't she see the answer? She was so off her game. The crowd erupted at the monitor halfway down the row. Someone had cracked it.

She sighed and pushed away from her station. This was painfully embarra.s.sing. Her mind just wasn't here today. f.u.c.king Levi, she cursed in her head.

Yeah. That was exactly where it was. Head down, moping, she wandered away, wondering what she should do next that wouldn't embarra.s.s her.

Her text alert beeped. Strange. She thought she'd suspended text messages for the convention to avoid being hacked. She pulled her phone out of her bag. It was from her grandma. What the heck? She must not have blacklisted her number since she'd never texted before. Did she even know how?

I just wanted to say I'm thinking of you. Did I just text? I think I just texted.

She cracked a smile. The message was simple, but reminded her of something important. Emerson had people in this world. She wasn't alone.

The phone beeped again.

Grt4hhp001; Whaa? Panic hit. "s.h.i.t!" She ripped open the back of the phone, yanked out her SIM card then threw the phone on the ground and stomped on it until it broke into several pieces.

People nearby gave her funny looks but she ignored them. It was a hacker convention. It shouldn't have been that uncommon to see someone protect themselves from hackers. She couldn't be sure if her grandma's message had been an old person figuring out an iPhone for the first time, or an attempted hack. When it came to this kind of thing, Emerson didn't take risks.

She picked up the broken pieces of her phone and dumped them into the nearest garbage bin. SIM card in hand, she looked for a mobile phone kiosk. There had to be zillions of them.

A figure appeared in her path, blocking her way to the vendors.

An Asian man with gla.s.ses and closely shaved head stuck out his hand. "Emerson True?"

Ignoring his hand, she nodded hesitantly. What the h.e.l.l did this guy want?

With a chuckle, he dropped his hand. "I'm Michael Chen. I work for ALV Tech."

ALV Tech? She narrowed her eyes and looked him over. ALV Tech was one of the biggest antivirus software companies in the country. Why was he talking to her? Her first thought was scam, but the blue polo shirt with the logo looked legit, as did the lanyard and badge that declared he was a scouting agent for the company.

s.h.i.t.

"Um." She rubbed her sweaty palms on her jeans. Why had she worn jeans? G.o.d, she must look so amateur. "Nice to meet you but what do you want?"

Craaaaap. She could've kicked herself. Jonah had been right. Social graces were not her thing and now she was messing up a potential job interview.

"Sorry. I didn't mean that." Cringing, she looked at Michael's face, scared of what she'd see there.

He merely grinned at her.

When she furrowed her brow in confusion, he shrugged. "I work with a lot of hackers. I know what you're like."

She sighed in relief.

"Anyway, I was hoping to catch you today. We first heard about you from MIT then I followed some of your work online. I'd like to talk to you about working at our company. Do you have a few minutes?"

She had to think for a moment. Was she interested in a full-time job at a real company? She would be a.s.signed tasks, have to report to higher ups, be told what to do and how to do it. Steady income would be nice. It was expected at her age. Her grandmother would be proud. And positions at ALV Tech were coveted among people like her. It'd be work she found satisfying, only not on her terms. That was the big downfall. Having a boss, working within certain parameters, possibly even having to show up to an office cubicle. She grimaced. So not for her. Not only that but ALV Tech was in Texas. Never in a million years did she picture herself living in the south. She loved Boston, she loved being close to her grandma. The picture this job painted was bleak.

When she opened her mouth to turn him down, he cut her off.

"Salary for a position like yours would start at around one ten with room for growth the longer you work with us."

Her brows shot up. "A hundred and ten..."

"Thousand dollars."

Maybe she should at least hear him out.

Chapter 20.

Heidi clung to Levi's arm with both hands as they walked around the condo complex. It'd been his idea to go for a walk, but mostly because he needed air. In the small condo entryway, the walls had closed in around him, and he'd worried he'd pa.s.s out.

So here they were, two blocks away, and Levi still had no clue what to say. Heidi sighed happily as they strolled, seeming content babbling about all kinds of things. He'd lost track a while back, stuck in his own torrent of thought.

"Why are you so quiet?" She looked up at him from under thick lashes. "I don't mind, if that's how you usually are, it's just...you seem different from how you are online."

Yeah. This wasn't him at all. He'd messed things up so badly and had no idea how to fix it or where to go from here. He couldn't even get up the courage to tell her about Emerson. Though, she owed him some forgiveness, didn't she? He'd forgiven her lies. And it wasn't exactly his fault. If she had told him Mickey was staying at her place, the mix up wouldn't have happened. He wouldn't have cheated.

Something didn't feel right about that either.

Emerson.

He'd have missed kissing her, touching her, making love to her.

s.h.i.t. He gave his head a shake. Here he was on a walk with Heidi and thinking about having s.e.x with Emerson. What the h.e.l.l was wrong with him? Maybe if he confessed and got it out of his system, he'd be able to focus on Heidi better.

He loved Heidi. She was the one. His dream girl. Wasn't she?

Part of it was he'd thought he could get over the lying. That he'd see her loyalty and be able to move on in forgiveness. Even when he'd found out she hadn't cheated, the lying still nagged at him, making him second guess what he thought were good instincts.

He looked down at her.

Her forehead was all wrinkled up. "Did I do something wrong?"

"Why did you lie to me?"

She dropped her gaze to the ground and sighed. "I'm sorry. I had a bad incident right before I met you. I gave this guy too much information. It was stupid but taught me a lesson. I got paranoid. Once I started to trust you, it was too hard to come clean. I was scared."

"Yeah, but it's just me. Why would you be scared? You know me."

Finally, she looked up at him. "Look at how hot you are. And I'm..." She gestured up and down her body, frowning. "Just not. And you were so sweet and funny... I should've known you'd never go for someone average like me. You probably have a zillion girls that would like to date you."

Yet he wanted the one girl that didn't.

"I knew this time would come eventually. That this was too good to be true. I was just trying to prolong it. Can we sit?" She pointed to a bench up ahead and he nodded.

They sat down, facing each other.

"That's why I was so scared to video chat or tell you what I really look like." Her eyes watered. "I fell so hard for you. You thought I was funny and pretty. You seemed to really like me." She laughed nervously then wiped her tears. "And now I'm crying like a dork. I'm so sorry."

"Shh." He pulled her hand away from her face gently and wiped her tears with his fingers. Right now, he left the lying alone and gave first priority to comforting her. "This has nothing to do with you. You're beautiful. So much prettier than the fake blonde girl."

She snorted.

"It's true. She looked like a Barbie doll. You're much more real." He held her hand in his and smiled at her. "I like real women."

Gazing up at him, eyes all glittery, she seemed so small and vulnerable. Even though he'd memorized her face, somehow she felt like a stranger. Her mannerisms, her laugh, even her scent didn't match how he'd imagined it in his head. That was to be expected though. They just had to adjust, to get used to each other, right?

Part of him was still holding back. What else had she lied about? Reason said if she lied about one thing, she could lie about other things too. His trust in her had been shattered, more than he'd thought. He'd driven there a happy, gullible fool, thinking love would fix everything. Now that she was there, crying in his arms, he couldn't help but wonder if she was playing him. Was this a game?

Heidi leaned up against him and threaded her fingers through his. Sighing, she melted into his body. He felt stiff and awkward, and wished he was as comfortable with this as Heidi seemed to be. But this kind of intimacy was weird to share with a stranger.

Now if it were Emerson in his arms...

Oh jeez. Not again. He squeezed his eyes shut, trying to block her from his mind.

Emerson isn't yours. Focus on Heidi.

He gazed down at the girl draped across his chest. Feel something, he coached himself. Chemistry would come later, right? n.o.body felt it right away. Maybe not a zing, but he expected to feel something. He wanted this to feel right, to feel like the seeds of trust could be planted again.

He thought back on conversations they'd had, trying to remember the things he loved about her. Her sense of humor, but her laugh sounded different in his head. Had most of what he loved about her been in his head?

She was talking again. On and on and on she chattered. He couldn't even keep up with the topics.

"You're making me dizzy, sweetheart," he said, chuckling.

"Hm? Oh. Sorry. You can just tell me to shut up."

"I would never do that."

"I guess I don't talk as fast online. Having to type everything out slows me down." She laughed. "I even skipped my coffee this morning."

Coffee reminded him of Emerson. Her early morning grumpy face. Her straight forwardness. Her bold honesty. She was unapologetic about her personality, her preferences, her work, everything. If she cried, she wouldn't have apologized for that either.

Trust was never an issue when it came to Emerson. But he couldn't compare the two. It wasn't fair. Emerson wasn't even an option, so why was he thinking of her that way? This wasn't a dating show. He wasn't picking what's behind door number one versus door number two. This was real life, real women with real feelings. He had to stop messing around.

"Let's go on a date," he said suddenly, cutting Heidi off.

"A date?"

"Yeah. In four months we've been together, we've never gone on a date. I think it's about time."

She smiled up at him. "Okay. There's a great restaurant downtown. Do you like Indian food?"

"Not a bit. But I'll go, for you."

Laughing, she stood from the bench then pulled him up by the hand. "It's my favorite. I'll convince you though. You just haven't tried the right dishes is all."

He doubted that very much but it was worth going along with it to make her happy. They held hands as they walked back to her condo. Hers felt small, soft, reminding him of her femininity. Having spent the last two days with Emerson, he had to chuckle at their differences. Heidi was like a delicate princess, Emerson a moody dragon. If they'd met in real life, Emerson would chew her up and spit her out.

At the parking lot, Heidi pointed to Em's car. "Is that yours?"