He went limp, hoa.r.s.e sobs shuddering out of him, racking his whole body, and Tom closed his eyes and held him tighter.

"Why do you still love me?" Charlie choked out, and the words cracked Tom's heart.

"I don't know," Tom whispered, kissing the boy's hair. "I just do. I always will."

"He doesn't want me," Charlie said with a sob, and Tom's heart broke entirely.

"It's his loss." G.o.d, he wished he could do better, find the words that would heal this boy's heart. "I'm so sorry, Charlie, but I'm more sorry for him."

The boy cried and cried, and Tom didn't dare move, for fear that Charlie would lock himself in his room, or run away and never be found. He held him tight and shushed him and wished he could think of something more to do. But eventually, the sobbing tapered off.

"Don't you hate my mother?" Charlie asked, his face still hidden against Tom's shoulder. "She left you for someone else, and you got stuck with the kid she didn't want."

Tom pulled back to look at Charlie's face. The kid looked heartbreakingly young. "I think she really did love your dad, Charlie. She wanted to work things out so the three of you could be a proper family. I don't hate her. I loved her. And yeah, she hurt me and the whole bit, but that's life, mate."

"She was so stupid, texting when she was crossing the street. She didn't have to die."

"I know. But she didn't leave you, Charlie. She left me."

"She did, though. She and my father went off without me."

"For a weekend. She never would have left you for good. You were her best thing."

"Do you know that, or are you just saying that to make me feel better?"

"I know it." He looked into Charlie's eyes, ringed with smeared eyeliner. "I think the reason she stayed with me for as long as she did was because she thought I might be good for you."

Something flickered through Charlie's eyes. "Were you really gonna marry Honor so you could stay near me?"

"Who told you that?"

"She did."

Something squeezed his chest. "Yes."

Charlie mulled that over, then used his sleeve to wipe his eyes (and nose; honestly, boys were disgusting...he'd been the same way).

The boy was quiet for a long minute before he spoke again. "Tom?"

"Yes, mate?"

Charlie rubbed his eyes. "You know how you call me your stepson?"

"Yeah."

"I hate that."

"Right. I just don't know what else to call you. I won't do it anymore."

"Maybe you could just..." Charlie's voice broke. "Maybe you could drop the step."

Tom bent his head, the feeling so overwhelming it would've brought him to his knees if he hadn't already been there. He pulled Charlie into a hug, and the boy let him, and if it wasn't completely returned, it would be. Someday in the not-too-distant future, it would be, and Tom could wait.

From the floor, Melissa's face smiled up at him from its broken frame.

All this time, Tom realized in the ruins of the room, he thought he was staying so he could save Charlie.

It was the other way around. Charlie had given him a family, a purpose, a place.

In fact, it was Charlie who had saved him.

CHAPTER THIRTY.

ON A BEAUTIFUL spring day, in front of the old maple tree where the swing still hung, Dad and Mrs. Johnson got married, and Mrs. J. became Mrs. H.

Jack was Honor's date for the event. "That makes me feel really gross," Jack said. "Like I'm Connor O'Rourke or something."

"I know. And we're not even twins, so we have no excuse," Honor said.

The reception was right there in the yard, as neither bride nor groom had wanted a fuss. Goggy wept loudly through the whole thing and repeated again and again that Mrs. Johnson was like a daughter to her (despite their two-decade rivalry over who made the better turkey on Thanksgiving, but it was a nice thought). Pops forgot about the wedding and had to be fetched from where he was crooning to the grapes. Faith twined some flowers in Mrs. J.'s hair, and Abby played the wedding march on her saxophone.

The ceremony was brief and beautiful.

As they sat down to the picnic lunch, Pru, as eldest, made the toast. "Dad, Mrs. J.- Hey, what should we call you, by the way? Anyway, I hope you're happy and have a great time discovering each other, you know what I'm saying, and, oh, gosh, I don't know, I guess we can't hope for more siblings, because that would be gross, and how old are you, anyway, Mrs. J.? It doesn't matter. Long life, happy times and great s.e.x, you two."

"Wow, Mom," Abby said, pointing to her eyes. "Tears."

"So? Not everyone is great at public speaking," Prudence said, chugging some wine.

"Are you saying you're not great?" Ned asked.

"Honor, say something nicer than I did," Pru ordered. "These panty hose are riding where no man has gone before, can I say that?"

"Dear G.o.d," Levi murmured as Faith wheezed with laughter.

"Just fifteen months till I go to college," Abby said. "But who's counting?"

Honor stood and looked at her father, who was quite dapper in his suit, and Mrs. Johnson in her beautiful, elegant dress. "You two," she began, feeling a smile start in her heart. "Look at you. All these years, Mrs. Johnson, you've taken care of us. Cleaned for us, cooked for us, yelled at us. I can't remember a school concert or graduation you missed. And all these years, you watched Dad by himself, doing his best to be happy. But some people just aren't whole unless they have someone to love, and I think Dad's one of them." Dad wiped his eyes and kissed Mrs. J. "And, Dad, what a brave guy you are, daring to kiss Mrs. J. that first time when it must've seemed like she was going to bean you with a pot!"

"I was brave," Dad said. "Thanks for noticing."

Honor grinned. "So thank you, Dad, for picking such a great woman, and thank you, Mrs. J., for loving our father, and for being our second mother all these years."

"Hear, hear," said Jack, and Mrs. Johnson bustled over and gave Honor a watery kiss. Then Abby put on her iPod, and Etta James's voice came over the speaker. "At Last." Indeed.

Cars drove by and honked their horns, as news of the wedding had been broadcast. Dad and Mrs. J. started dancing. Faith and Levi, Pru and Carl, Ned and Abby, Goggy and Pops, joined in, and when Jack sighed and stood up, extending his hand to Honor, she took it.

"I hate weddings," he said, stepping on her foot.

"Ouch. Are you sad because you can't be Mrs. Johnson's favorite anymore?"

"Why wouldn't I be her favorite anymore?"

"Um, because Dad is?"

"Oh, please. Mrs. J., am I still your favorite?" he called.

"Of course, Jackie, my darling boy!"

"See?" he said smugly, going to cut in on Dad.

Dad stepped in to dance with Honor. "How's my girl?" he said, putting his cheek next to hers, humming.

For a second, she remembered what it was like to be little, when her father would come home from the fields and pick her up to dance, how high she'd felt, how small her hand had seemed against his neck. How adored and safe she always felt. "I love you, Daddy."

"I love you, too, Petunia. My beautiful girl." He leaned back to look at her, his blue eyes kind. "How are you really?"

As in Are you sobbing inside?

"I'm fine," she said.

"I loved your toast," he murmured. "You might take your own advice, of course. Half of a whole and all that."

"I just ordered a husband on eBay," she said.

"I saw Tom the other day. I was under the impression he'd moved."

"Not that I know of."

"Any chance you might get back together?"

She stumbled a little. "Sorry. I don't know. I don't think so."

I don't love you.

"Whatever happens," Dad said, almost reading her thoughts, "you're the heart of this family, Honor."

The words were a gift, and Honor's eyes filled. She leaned her cheek against her father's shoulder and hugged him tight.

LATER, WHEN DAD and Mrs. J. had left for a night in the city before they'd go on to Jamaica for their honeymoon, when everyone else had gone home and the yard was tidied and the dishes were all done, Honor went to bed, and while she'd expected to be tormented with thoughts of Tom, she surprised herself by falling fast asleep.

She woke up abruptly. Glancing at the clock, she saw it was 2:41 a.m. But it seemed more like six, because the sun was rising in an orange glow. Maybe the power had flickered and the clock was wrong.

But then she heard it. A low roar, and before her brain had processed the sound, she was on her feet and at the window.

Three hundred yards away, the Old House was on fire.

Jeans. A heavy sweatshirt, shoes, a blanket. She'd already dialed 9-1-1 before she was conscious of reaching for her phone. "A house fire," she told the dispatcher as she ran down the stairs. "The Hollands' on Lake View Road."

Every stride, every footfall, was so clear. The sound of her breath rushing in and out of her lungs as she ran, the wool blanket wadded up under one arm like a football. The cool spring air.

The fire was a living creature, roaring, cracking, keening. The old saltbox, built in 1781, was a tinderbox, how many times had they said that? Why had Honor allowed her grandparents to stay there? This was bound to happen.

Pops was in the side yard, twenty feet from the kitchen door, on his knees, coughing, rocking back and forth as he tried to suck in air. Smoke inhalation, but he was alive. "Pops! Where's Goggy?" she said.

He pointed, tears streaming down his face, unable to speak.

She looked. a.s.sessed. You're the heart of this family.

She could do it. She was calm, cool and collected, wasn't she? She got things done.

"Stay here. The fire department is on its way. I'll get her, Pops. I promise." She tossed him her phone, then ran, ignoring his choked cry for her to stop.

There were four entrances to the Old House: the kitchen door, most used and now engulfed in flame; the front door, which Pops had nailed shut last winter; the cellar door bulkhead; and the side door into the dining room. She headed for that last one, mentally calculating what she'd do.

Ladders? No. Jack had them up at his place; she saw them there just two nights ago when they were watching Dermatological Nightmares. Ladders were not an option.

She turned on the spigot for the hose, check. Remember that intern who st.i.tched up Tom? her brain mused. She said check, too. Oh, look, the tulips are blooming. Despite the thoughts that were tumbling through her head, she felt completely efficient and oddly calm. She doused the blanket with water and wrapped it around herself.

She looked up to the window and saw movement.

Her grandmother was still alive. And she was not going to die in a fire.

Not on Honor's watch.

In the distance, she could hear the sirens of the Manningsport Fire Department. Because they were a volunteer department, they'd have to go to the firehouse first to get to the trucks. Sure, some guys would come in their pickups, but they wouldn't have a hose or ladders. She'd seen it a bunch of times, the guys in their turnout gear, waiting for the engines.

Levi would be on his way as chief of police. Ned, too. Jessica Dunn, Kelly Matthews. Gerard Chartier, the big guy, would be the optimal person to save Goggy, a paramedic and firefighter with years of experience. But even as these thoughts were coming to her in laserlike clarity, Honor was inside the narrow side door.

She couldn't afford to wait.

She'd never been in a burning building before. Pausing for a microsecond, she looked at it. The fire, beautiful and terrifying, devoured the kitchen walls, thick smoke making the room seem far away. The sound was shocking, the whooshing roar of the fire's hunger, the cracks and pops.

Hurry, Honor.

It was her mother's voice.

Through the dining room toward the front hall, where hopefully the fire hadn't reached the stairs. The taste of smoke was acrid and oily. So much to fuel the fire-Pops's wine magazines, Goggy's boxes of patterns, Great-Gran's sideboard. Into the living room, and her clothes were hot, G.o.d, it really was like an oven, just like people always said. The smoke was thick, cutting visibility to almost nothing, and Honor crashed into the side of the couch, coughing, then hit the wall. The photo of Dad and Mom's wedding. The six-year-old calendar of the Greek Isles, too beautiful to take down, Goggy said.

The fire roared, and Honor couldn't help feeling awed.