I didn't mean to stay! Desperation made him bold.You're always interfering.He felt a flash of amus.e.m.e.nt.

Then do it for her. Or you'll destroy us. He recoiled under the lash of the G.o.d's displeasure. The Trickster's voice was gentle now, as it had been when he spoke to his father. The Trickster's voice was gentle now, as it had been when he spoke to his father. What choice did he have? If the Trickster wouldn't free him, he would have to protect his father-and himself. And the next and the next and all the endless days and nights that stretched ahead of him. Nay, that was an invitation to madness. The Trickster was right. He must survive from moment to moment. He must maintain his vigilance, no matter the cost to him. And when his father was safe, he must find a way to free himself and end the suffering he was causing them both.Fellgair shooed the fair-haired slave girl-Hircha, he'd called her-out of the chamber, but he allowed Hakkon to remain. Together, they washed him and dressed him in his spare clothes. When one of Fellgair's attendants reached for his breeches, Darak s.n.a.t.c.hed them back. That was Keirith's blood splashed on the doeskin, the only tangible part of his son's body he still possessed.Fellgair refused to allow him to return to the temple of Zhe. Nor would he send one of his attendants to bring Keirith's body here. Darak might have challenged him, but Hakkon and the girl had risked much to protect him and he could not repay their courage by bringing the Zherosi down on them. He would never be able to kiss his son good-bye or cut a lock of hair in remembrance. He could only sit here, well-fed, well-clothed, and well-tended, and picture the Zherosi desecrating his son's body as Urkiat had mutilated the raider.When he wasn't imagining that gruesome scene, he was seeing Keirith sprawled across the altar-the dagger's hilt between his ribs, the blood pulsing out of his chest. He'd watched the life fade from those blue eyes and thought only of preserving him. Now that the first shock had worn off, he wondered if it would have been kinder to let his spirit fly to the Forever Isles.Fear is the enemy. Control the fear. Control yourself.Those were the words he must live by in the coming days if he was to spare Keirith the tumult of his emotions. But his determination failed him when Fellgair opened the gateway again. When his spirit collided with Keirith's, he panicked and fled. Each successive encounter, however, proved a little easier. Although Keirith's barrier was far weaker than Fellgair's, it was strong enough to dilute the impact of his thoughts and emotions. It was like sleeping on the beach, hearing the constant ebb and flow of the surf. When the strain of maintaining the barrier grew too great, Keirith's presence crashed in upon him. Then his son retreated and Darak had to fight the urge to follow.If the effort of controlling his thoughts and emotions tired him, it was exhausting Keirith. Each time they came together, it was harder for his son to shield himself. Finally, he asked Fellgair to keep the barrier closed so Keirith could sleep.That was when the girl stormed back into the chamber to plead with Fellgair to allow them to leave the city. When Fellgair demurred, she announced that she would go alone. In a few short sentences, Fellgair explained what had happened. The small amount of color in her face leached away."When Darak and Keirith are able to exist in the same body, they will leave," Fellgair announced. "Until then, you will all remain here. Rest. Eat. Chat. Hakkon and I will have to forgo the chat, he for obvious reasons, and I to attend to other matters.""It's on your head, then," she called as Fellgair left the chamber. "If the Zheron discovers him here-""He's still alive?" Darak reached up to grab her wrist. Ignoring her wince of pain, he dragged her down beside him."Aye. I think so. I saw him running away."He was alive. The man who had ordered him to fight Urkiat. The man who had planned to sacrifice him. The man who had murdered his son. He was alive.The killing l.u.s.t sang, hot and hungry. He wasn't aware that he'd released Hircha or gotten to his feet until he saw her backing away. Hakkon gripped his shoulder, pleading silently for calm. He banked the hunger until it sang with the icy fire of frostbite."Let him come.""Do you think he'll come alone?" Hircha demanded. "He'll bring guards. If you touch him, they'll cut you down. And then Keirith will die, too."Darak swallowed down his disappointment and tasted blood; in his eagerness for the kill, he must have bitten his lip. The taste lingered in his mouth, sour and stale.Denied the pleasure of contemplating the Zheron's death, he sought information. The soft venom in Hircha's voice told him she'd be happy to see the Zheron die. Prying information from her about Keirith was more difficult, getting her to talk about herself nearly impossible. Although she possessed Griane's boldness and strength, he found little evidence of a warm heart. It was hard to tell whether she was simply hiding her feelings or whether her years of captivity had hardened her. When he pressed her too hard, she turned sullen and silent. He had to be content with her version of the events that had led up to Keirith's astonishing display of power.He wished he possessed some way to reach Tinnean. Of all men in the world, his brother understood how two spirits could survive within the same body; he had dwelled with the spirit of the Oak for more than a moon. The experience had changed him, certainly, but the essence of his brother remained intact-the quiet strength, the flashes of humor, and the wonder. Perhaps it was different when you dwelled with a G.o.d; he scarcely noticed Fellgair's presence now.The thought prompted a resurgence of the familiar power. I didn't mean that and you know it. Where are you? We can't stay here much longer. When will you open the gateway again? I know. I just . . .He wanted Fellgair to be in the chamber with him. To his astonishment, he found the G.o.d's physical presence comforting. Since he walked in moments later, he was probably lurking in the outer chamber."I never lurk. I appear. Creating wonder and amazement. Are you ready?"Both Hakkon and Hircha looked startled, then uneasy. Darak quelled the inevitable flutter of panic and nodded. Braced for the impact of their joining, he felt only the gentle brush of Keirith's spirit against his. He must be utterly exhausted if the opening of the gateway failed to rouse him. Fellgair's presence vanished. They were on their own now.Darak closed his eyes; one of the most difficult parts of this enforced union was the inundation of sensations from without as well as within. He saw a younger Conn-perhaps eleven or twelve-down on all fours, pretending to munch gra.s.s. Conn raised his head, shook it in apparent resignation, and baaed. Amus.e.m.e.nt rippled through Keirith, followed by a bark.Keirith was dreaming, Darak realized, and he was seeing the dream through his son's eyes. Conn looked far too old for this sort of game, yet he could feel the boys' shared delight and rejoiced in it; in his dreams, at least, Keirith could find happiness.Conn winked and crawled toward a rock. Keirith's gaze swung away to follow an eagle soaring overhead. Dejection mingled with awe, as if Keirith was observing his dream as well as experiencing it.Something growled and his gaze swung back to the rock. Callie was perched upon it. He couldn't be more than three summers. His snarl turned into a fit of giggles as Conn crawled around in circles, bleating madly. He was still giggling when Keirith raced toward him, barking.Up he went, high in the air, his laughing face looking down into Keirith's. Conn interrupted his bleating. "The dog's supposed to chase the wolf off, not pick him up.""He's not a wolf anymore," Keirith said. "He's an eagle.""Fly, Keiry, fly!"Keirith raced across the hillside, Callie's legs b.u.mping against his chest. Their happiness tumbled over Darak, fresh and pure as a stream. As soon as Keirith set him down, Callie poked him. "You be the wolf. I'll be the dog.""Why am I always stuck being the sheep?" Conn asked plaintively."Because you're so baaed at barking."A clump of gra.s.s. .h.i.t Keirith in the belly. He picked it up and hurled it back. Soon, they were tussling with each other, with Callie shouting encouragement. Conn demanded that Keirith play the sheep, but he refused. The playfulness of the dream-Keirith warred with a growing anxiety from the dreamer.Keirith's power surged as he pushed Conn away. Although it was just an echo of what he had experienced, the memory made Darak recoil. Revulsion tore at Keirith as his dream-self directed the power at his tormentor.Conn cried out and collapsed. To Darak's horror, Keirith turned toward Callie. His little boy's scream tore through him. Like the wood pigeon, he thought, then realized the thought had come from Keirith.Keirith's dream-self went down on his knees, shock and guilt radiating from him. Then he looked up. It took Darak a moment to recognize himself. G.o.ds, was this how Keirith saw him, this stern-faced, accusing stranger? He was as helpless to stem his shock and denial as Keirith was to keep his self-loathing from battering them both.It's only a dream, son. You would never hurt Conn or Callie.Voices from the outer chamber pulled his awareness away. He opened his eyes to find Hakkon staring at the doorway and Hircha with her back against a wall. Only Fellgair's expression remained placid.Darak heard a deep chuckle. It came from Keirith's dream. When he shut out the external distractions, he found only darkness and a fear so pervasive it made his heart race. Sensations flooded him from within and without: whispers in the dark; shouts from the outer chamber; the grittiness of the cloth shoved in his mouth; the tramp of booted feet, growing louder by the moment.Darak opened his eyes and found Fellgair watching him. "It seems you'll have that confrontation, after all."Palms and knees sc.r.a.ped against wood. A hand yanked back the draperies across the doorway of Fellgair's chamber. Soft doeskin brushed his back. Armed men marched toward him."Stop. It's too much."Cruel fingers dug into his b.u.t.tocks."Nay. Oh, G.o.ds. Keirith!"A man shouted something in Zherosi.Keirith jolted awake. Terror, pain, and humiliation crashed into Darak's unprotected spirit. He tried to rise and fell to his knees, reeling from the horror of Keirith's violation and the desperate need to conceal it lest he wound his son further.Someone seized his groping hand. Amid the babble of voices, he heard Fellgair's, calm and commanding. He concentrated on that, only that, and felt a new wave of shock emanate from Keirith as he became aware of what was happening.The contending voices fell silent. The dusty hem of a red robe appeared before him. Darak raised his head and stared up into the smiling face of his son's murderer.Chapter 44.STUNNED BY XEVHAN'S arrival and the horrifying certainty that his father knew about the rape, the violent surge of hatred nearly overwhelmed Keirith. He felt the muscles in his father's legs tense.Nay, Fa! The guards will kill you.He felt reluctant acquiescence, but beneath it, the bloodl.u.s.t simmered.Once his father backed down, Xevhan's smile returned. Despite his obvious elation, he looked ill. Perspiration beaded his forehead. His fingers trembled as they smoothed his robe. His eyes were bloodshot and heavy-lidded.Fellgair seemed unsurprised by Xevhan's arrival. But why should he be? He had betrayed them. Keirith couldn't understand why his father trusted the Trickster, but the onslaught of shared emotions and thoughts made it difficult to think clearly. His father's effort at control helped. At least Keirith was able to concentrate on what Xevhan was saying. Fellgair finally interrupted the torrent of invective to ask, "Are you well, Zheron?""Yes, Supplicant. Very well. Now that I've found the man who murdered our Pajhit." As Fellgair gasped, Keirith translated quickly. It was hard to see anything of the fox-faced G.o.d his father had described in the tall, graceful priestess. The moan of distress was so heartfelt that the closest guard thrust out his hand, clearly fearing the Supplicant might faint. Fellgair clung to the proffered hand and favored the guard with a smile that made his expression glaze over in slack-jawed adoration."I am grieved to learn of our beloved Pajhit's death. This is a sorrowful day for our people.""Yes. Terrible. But his murder will be avenged and his killer brought to justice.""I am certain of it." Fellgair's smile caressed Xevhan, but the dark eyes glittered.Keirith was still translating-and trying to understand the Trickster's game-when shouts from the outer chamber interrupted him. As if ten guards weren't sufficient, Xevhan had sent for more; he was taking no chances on an escape.Khonsel do Havi strode into the chamber. Even with a bloodstained bandage around his head, he retained his air of authority. When he saw Geriv, Keirith wondered if his shadow had witnessed Malaq's murder after all. Nay, he'd been nowhere near the altar. But the Khonsel would surely remember his vision. If only he could talk with him, convince him of the truth. There had to be a way."Stop! G.o.ds, I can't stand it!"He'd been too caught up in his own excitement to pay attention to his father's growing agitation. The outburst made the Khonsel break off his greeting to Fellgair."What's wrong with him?""He's been subject to these fits since he was brought here.""Who brought him?""The girl and the man beside him.""You-what's your name?""He cannot speak," Fellgair replied. "The girl claims his name is Hakkon.""This is the man!" Xevhan exclaimed. "The one I spoke of in the council meeting.""The mute?""The cripple! The father of the false prophet. The one called the Spirit-Hunter. The one who murdered our Pajhit." Keirith translated Xevhan's meandering account of what had happened at the temple. The Khonsel seemed taken aback by Xevhan's growing frenzy and eyed him narrowly."Zheron. You are not yourself.""Forgive me." Xevhan managed a weak smile. "It's the qiij. And the strain of helping the queen.""She's still alive?""One of her ladies offered her body for The Shedding. But it was . . . difficult. Coming so soon after the first Shedding. The healers are with her. They a.s.sured me she was out of danger.""Thank the G.o.ds. If we had lost them both . . ."No wonder Xevhan seemed on the verge of collapse. Eliaxa and Malaq had always performed the rite. And if the queen was badly injured, the strain must have been enormous.Fellgair intoned a prayer for the spirit of the dead king. Keirith felt more grief for the ordinary folk who must have awakened in terror to find the walls and roofs of their houses caving in on them. Ordinary folk who might have been saved if he had confided his suspicions to the Qepo. It's hard not to.