Master Dagursson

COM 201.

Expeditionary Skills Training

MWF 36

Watcher Priti

IND.

Independent Study in Fitness

TTh 7:00

Tracer Ronan

Yasuo leaned over my shoulder. "Is that seven a.m.?"

I flinched away, feeling grumpy. "What else?"

Yasuo shrugged. "Trainees have classes after dark."

I peered hard at him over the sheet. The guys who were brought here as vampire Trainees kept much of their instruction pretty secret. Yas didn't talk about it a lot, but I got the sense that few survived the transition into full-fledged vampire.

I'd seen what could happen to Trainees who didn't. They turned into mindless flesh-hungry Draug, lurking in the shadows off campus, waiting for people stupid enough to break the rules and stray from school grounds, or for those of us punished and dropped far from school grounds-whichever came first.

Not that being an Acari was such a cakewalk. Training to become a Watcher was intense, and first-year Acari were subjected to humiliation, torture, and, oh yeah, death.

So I totally wouldn't have put it past them to schedule late-night classes.

Emma leaned around Yas to give me an encouraging smile. "Beats seven p.m., I guess."

I didn't smile back, though. Em was my bestie on the island, but she was currently sitting closer to Yasuo than she should've been. I was sure their knees were touching under the table. I didn't care how crushed out they were on each other-playing kneesies and footsies was not the brightest thing. Vampires didn't seem to hang with any relationships beyond the ones that revolved around them.

Yasuo grabbed a corner of the paper and tilted it his way. "Did you make him mad or something?"

"Who, Ronan?" I asked, knowing the answer was very complicated. I did, in fact, make Ronan mad all the time. But I got the sense it was because he cared about me.

If I angered him, chances were it was because I'd done something reckless. I'd pulled a few idiot maneuvers in my time on the island-rule breaking, back talking-and though some of it had been necessary, some of it had been just plain stupid.

But Amanda's death had sobered me. That, and my bond with Carden-I was in such a panic over our bond being discovered, I vowed to keep a low profile this term.

Really, I would.

"Ronan's gonna kick your ass," Yasuo said. "An early-morning independent? Dude will have you swimming to Iceland or something."

When I'd first arrived on the island, I hadn't known how to swim. It was Ronan who'd browbeat me into learning. He might've been the Tracer who brought me in, but his instruction and support was one of the main reasons I was still alive-I'd bet on it.

Our relationship was complicated, to say the least.

Yasuo did something under the table that made Emma giggle, and I glared. They needed to be more careful. I lost Amanda-I wouldn't lose her, too.

Emma saw my expression. Blanching, she scooted over, putting a little more space between her and Yas. He gave her a wink to make her feel better. It was a slow, owlish, and very affectionate little gesture.

I felt a stab of envy. Not that I resented my friends' relationship. And I wasn't jealous that Emma was with Yas in particular-I'd asked and answered that question myself when I'd first arrived on the island. He was cute and nice and one of my closest buddies, but that was where our relationship stopped.

No, it was more than that. I wished I could find a nice, normal guy to crush on-the place was crawling with new Trainees-but apparently it was only the bad boys, the dangerous, and the mysterious who gave me a quiver in my belly.

I frowned, spinning my empty cup around and around on the table. A red film covered the sides, tiny red ropes of vampire blood clinging to the glass. I craved the drink-couldn't imagine life without it-and I'd downed it first thing.

Only now, the desire I felt for my cold shooters of blood seemed like child's play compared to the aching need I knew for Carden.

I put my glass down, slamming it harder than I'd meant to.

Carden consumed my thoughts. Just the memory of his mouth-picturing the curve of it in my mind, remembering the feel of his breath hot on my cheek-gave me The Quiver.

I blamed the bond. My biggest problem at the moment was Carden.

But.

In the beginning, it'd been Ronan. Only Ronan.

I'd known loss in my life, but Ronan was still around. So why did a dull ache clench my chest at the thought of him?

I stared again at his name on the bottom of my course list. Independent Studies in Fitness. TTh 7:00 Tracer Ronan.

Today was M. Tomorrow T. I'd see him then. I hadn't seen him much since returning from my mission off the island. In fact, I hadn't really spent much time with him since I won the Directorate Challenge at the end of the first term.

But somehow I didn't need to see him much to know he was out there somewhere, on my side. Or so I suspected.

Between sharing swim lessons and secrets, against all odds, Ronan and I had forged a sort of friendship. We'd grown as close as two people could when one had suckered the other onto a plane bound for a deadly vampire training ground. At the time, I didn't know which had felt like more of a betrayal: that he'd brought me to this godforsaken place, or that he'd used his persuasive powers to do it.

But still, there was something about him that tugged at me. A recognition that he had a living, feeling heart in his chest-a heart that saw something good in me in return. It was nice to feel there were people around who perceived some decency inside me. Sometimes it was the only thing to remind me that I still had some humanity left.

Ronan and I had grown as close as a student and a teacher dared get. Not that he was so old and, well, teacherly. He couldn't have been so much older than me. Early twenties, max, with that head of tousled, black, just-surfed-in-the-sea hair and a pair of haunting forest green eyes.

But those eyes weren't what currently unnerved me. The problem was, Ronan really saw me. He really looked and always saw into the true me. Which meant, if anyone could sense this bond with Carden, it'd be Ronan.

Which was why TTh 7:00 Tracer Ronan was freaking me out.

It was impossible to think of Ronan without a tinge of panic. Of regret. The thing of it was, I got the sense that Ronan gave a damn. That he cared about me, and I'd never had a lot of people in my life care about me. If I were to be honest, I cared right back. I cared about him and I cared what he thought about me. That alone made me vulnerable to him. And that made him dangerous.

And, okay, I admit. Those killer green eyes were pretty dangerous, too.

"But I don't get it. Seven o'clock until when?" Emma asked, calling me back from my thoughts. "Why didn't they list an end time?"

I flopped back into my chair. "Because it never ends."

"Check it out." Yasuo fake-punched me on the arm. "Blondie made a joke."

We laughed, and I savored the feel of it. This whole friend thing was new to me, and their acceptance was powerful. Enough so that I felt it as a physical sensation, like a warm balm.

I was still riding that high when my eyes caught on my new roomie.

I flagged her over, and my friends gave me appropriately shocked looks. "Yo, Miss Congeniality," Yasuo mumbled to me. "Who put a nickel in you?"

"New roommate?" Emma guessed.

"Two points to farm girl." I scooted over to make room for Mei-Ling at the end. I wasn't about to make her sit next to the posse of statuesque Valkyrie at the head of the table.

Yas took the opportunity to snag an uneaten roll from my tray. "You gonna eat this?"

I waved it away. "Take it. And, how are you not, like, five thousand pounds?"

"Growing boy," he said, chewing over a mouthful of bread.

I greeted Mei as she sat down. Her eyes looked puffy from crying, and I asked earnestly, "How are you?"

But the tone of her reply was all business. "Fine," she said, "thank you." Her expression was unreadable as she nodded a cursory hello to my friends.

I suspected the vampires wanted me to look out for Mei-Ling, but it sure seemed like she needed more of a sense of urgency if she was going to look out for her own self.

With a shrug, I did the introductions. "This is Emma and Yasuo."

They were looking at me as if I'd grown horns, and I had to suppress a smile. There were two things on this island that I loved: eliciting emotion from Emma and catching Yasuo off guard.

"This is Mei-Ling," I said. "I'm showing her the ropes."

Yasuo finally closed his mouth. But then he quickly opened it again to ask, "Isn't that your Proctor's job?"

Our new Proctor. Shudder.

Emma and I exchanged a charged glance. Then I looked at him with a raised brow. "Have you met Kenzie?"

"She's no Amanda," Emma said.

"Nobody is," I agreed quietly.

Mei gave us a flat look. "Is that one of our instructors?"

"No," I said. "Kenzie Samuels is the Proctor on our floor. It's sort of like..."

"Like a dorm mother." Yasuo guffawed at his own joke.

I ignored him. "She keeps an eye on things. There's one assigned to each floor."

Emma leaned in. "I heard the Guidons call her Killer Kenzie."

That was the last thing Mei needed to hear, so I rambled on, explaining, "Proctors are always older girls. After Acari, you become an Initiate, and then comes Guidon-"

"If you live that long," Yas muttered, and I kicked him under the table.

"Then finally you become a Watcher. You'll meet some of those, too."

"How long will that take?" Mei-Ling asked.

Yasuo laughed at that, and I cut him off. "A few years, maybe. I've never really asked."

Mei's eyes were void of emotion. Was she registering all this, or was she about to snap?

"You'll probably have a class taught by a Watcher," Emma chimed in brightly. She might be quiet, but she didn't miss a thing and, undoubtedly, had sized up Mei and got what I was trying to do.

I gave her a grateful smile, nodding and adding, "You see them around-they have much better uniforms than we do."

"I saw some of them when I was looking for a phone," Mei said, and after a moment's hesitation, added, "There isn't one in the dorm."

"A phone?" Yasuo sounded incredulous. "No phones here, kid."