"You weren't around any other kids? Ever?"

"No. I wasn't allowed."

He scratched his neck. "Jesus. You're supposed to start college this fall?"

"Yes."

"I want you to call me if you get in any kind of trouble."

"Why?"

He shrugged. "I guess I'm your big brother now."

I scowled at him.

He touched the back of my neck lightly with his fingers. It turned into a caress.

"I wish we weren't."

I stood up. "I should go back to the dance floor. I'll be missed."

"Wouldn't want that, would we? You go, I'll wait a bit. Wouldn't want Daddy Dearest to think we were making out in the bathroom."

I was a mess, but it was dark out there. People were milling around more than dancing. I thought it would be over soon. I hoped so.

Chapter Ten.

Evelyn Moving day.

I didn't take all my things. I packed two large suitcases, two small ones, a bag of toiletries and few odds and ends, like bed linens for a twin mattress. Karen went with us. Victor did not. The topic was never raised and I never asked what he was doing at the time. The Firebird was gone from the garage on the day I moved. The servants carried my things out to the car. Father purchased a new one not long after the wedding, a BMW sedan. I rode in the back seat, while Karen sat next to Father. I didn't want to sit next to him. I kept my face a mask, but the whole world felt itchy. I was giddy and terrified at the same time. I was going to be free. I was going to get away from him. I had no plans to do anything radically different, but it would be a relief not to watch every word I spoke, every gesture, every movement for fear he'd see some wrong in it and punish me. He didn't even go through my bags, so my books were coming with me. Karen even let me take a few from the library.

So far, this was my second trip to the college. There was a tour in July. I went, with Father, and saw the dorm where I would be living, but I hadn't been assigned a room yet. I was on the second floor, in an all-girls dormitory. When we arrived I had to check in first. Father blessedly let me handle that, walking around a row of tables in a conference room. It was a small institution- a single large X-shaped complex of four halls and a College Center in the middle, four dormitory buildings and one detached hall of classrooms. Registration took place in the main building, near a little store that sold snacks. I was terrified the entire time, staring at my feet. I'd never been with so many people my own age. We arrived early. Check-in began at eight in the morning and I walked in at seven fifty-three. I had my official identification card by eight thirty. Then we walked to the dormitory, to get my key and start moving in.

"This is a lovely campus," Karen said. "Nice town, too. I think you'll have a wonderful time here, Eve."

I was growing closer to my stepmother than I anticipated. She spent most of her day doing things, in a way I never really experienced before. She had a dozen hobbies, all sorts of interests, and she read and had a sharp mind. I understood why Victor's father married her.

I thought I was starting to understand why my father married her, too. It unnerved me. He'd bought a whole new wardrobe, new watches, the new car. I wasn't stupid. I knew he was spending her money. I didn't have an idea about their finances. My understanding was that Victor was the heir to the family fortune, but I didn't ask about it. I wasn't interested. I just wanted out.

My key was in a small envelope in a box with my name on it. The Resident Director gave me papers to sign. I promised to attend a Freshman Mixer, whatever that would turn out to be.

The room was small, barely eight feet wide, but almost fifteen feet long. A bunk bed sat in the corner, opposite from that two desks sitting next to each other, and two armoires- there was no closet built into the wall. We all carried my things in. It took all of ten minutes.

Father put his hand on my shoulder and I flinched.

"Alright, Eve. We're going to go now, so you can get settled in."

Karen looked at me.

"Can I have a minute alone with her?"

Father nodded, and stepped outside. I heard his shoes on the hallway floor.

Karen threw her arms around me.

"You call me if you need anything, or you just want to talk. Alright, hon?"

"Yes, Karen," I said.

My chest tightened and my eyes burned. I was supposed to be happy? Why was I starting to cry?

"This is going to be a big shock for you. I mean it. Call me for help if you need it," she reached into her purse and handed me a slip of paper. "Or call Victor. He's closer."

I took the paper.

"He likes you."

My eyes snapped up to meet hers.

"My son has always been difficult," she sighed, lowering her voice. "He has quite a reputation, and with good reason. When he grew older, without his father around, I had a lot of trouble controlling him. There were fights. There were a lot of girls. I never saw him look at any of them the way he looks at you."

"We can't, he's..."

"He's my son. You're not my daughter."

I wilted, looking at the floor.

She rested her hand on my shoulder and squeezed. "I didn't mean it that way. I wish you were."

Tell her, I screamed at myself. He's a monster, you married a monster. He wants something from you, or else he'd never touch you. He hits me, he hurt me. Say something!

I didn't. She hugged me again and I hugged her back, no matter how awkward I felt. I wondered what it would be like to have my own mother here, holding me. Then I walked out of the building with her, and waved goodbye as they drove off.

When I got back to the room there was a stranger in it. She startled me.

For a brief moment, I thought she was a man. It was the height. She was six feet tall, even in flat tennis shoes, and simply towered over me, but there was nothing else manly about her. Her clothes were as baggy and unflattering as mine, and she didn't appear to be wearing any makeup, but she was pretty anyway, in a natural way. The most striking thing about her was her hair, wound in a long braid that hung almost to her waist, a rich auburn that shone like beaten copper when the sun hit it. She looked as started as I was, and for a moment she just stood there and stared at me. Then she thrust out her hand and took it.

"Hi. I'm Jennifer."

We'd emailed, but there wasn't much to say. She moved gracefully around the room, left and came back with a suitcase.

"Don't you have anyone to help you?"

She shook her head.

"I will," I said.

She had a car, a battered little Toyota. It was stuffed with suitcases and boxes and bags, like she'd packed all her worldly goods into the back and the seats. It took us an hour to unload it all. I started moving my things to the top bunk when we finished, and she stopped me.

"You got here first."

"That's not really fair."

She shrugged. "Maybe we could flip for it?"

"Well, you're bigger, you should be on the bottom."

She blinked a few times. Her lip trembled.

"I don't mean bigger like fat," I said, quickly. "You're taller than me, that's all."

This was getting off to a first class start.

"I'll take the top," she insisted.

After she made up her bed, I was shocked by how easily she got up there, with a fluid grace I wasn't expecting from someone of her height.

"Are you going to that mixer thing?" she asked, leaning over the side.

I was still making up my bed. I had to put hospital corners on my sheets. "Of course. I signed a paper promising I would."

"I don't think they really care," she said.

"Are you going?"

"I don't want to," she shrugged, and leaned back onto her bed. "I hate parties."

"I've never been to a party."

She let out a long sigh. "Consider yourself fortunate," she said.

That was a rather odd thing to say, but I didn't want to pry.

I really, truly was not planning to go, but I signed a form. They would know if I didn't. It was scheduled for six o'clock, in daylight, so there were no worries there. Around five thirty I got up from reading on my bed.

"I'm going to go to the thing," I said.

"It's across the street. You'll be very early."

I shrugged. "On time is late."

She rolled over and looked at me. She had gray eyes too, I noticed.

"You haven't ever been to a party, have you?"

I shook my head. "You weren't allowed to go?"

"Never invited."

"Oh."

"There was no one to invite me. I was home schooled. Tutors."

I shifted uncomfortably on my feet and rubbed my arms. Jennifer sat up, and slid to the floor with the same languid grace with which she'd climbed up. She spun her desk chair around and sat on it facing backwards, leaning on the back.

"We're supposed to talk," she said.

I sat down on the bed.

"What should we talk about?"

"Thank you for helping me carry my things. I appreciate it."

"You have a lot of stuff."

She shrugged. "It's everything I own. I'm not going back. I already signed the papers to stay here over the winter break. I'm going to be in the room a lot. I hope you don't mind."

"Okay."

"Um," she said, her face turning red. "I don't like undressing around people. Have you been to the showers?"

"Yes, it's not like a movie. There's stalls with curtains."

She shuddered. "I'll make do. I might ask you to step out of the room now and then."

"I can do that." I shrugged.

"I'll be in here a lot. I don't go out much. I don't have a boyfriend or anything."

"Neither do I."

"Oh." She sounded surprised.

"Um," I said, searching for something else to talk about. I would be leaving soon if I wanted to be on time. "What are you majoring?"

"English. I want to teach. You?"

"Business," I sighed.

"You don't sound excited about it."

"I'm not. I should be going now. Are you coming?"