"Yep," Hutch said affably with only the briefest glance in Kendra's direction, lavishing attention on his dog, instead.

Half an hour later, after Kendra had helped Opal clear the table and set the kitchen to rights-Hutch had taken Madison out to the barn to say h.e.l.lo to Ruffles while the cleanup was going on-the three of them were back in Hutch's truck, headed for town.

There was still plenty of light, though shadows were slowly creeping down the mountainsides to pool in the valley where Parable rested, all lit up in Christmas tree colors for the Fourth.

The man at the entrance gate to the fairgrounds flashed a black light on the backs of their hands, and Madison was thrilled to see the stamp she'd gotten that morning reappear on her skin.

"It's magic," she breathed.

Kendra loved her little girl so much in that moment that she had to restrain herself from grabbing her up and hugging her tight.

They returned to the merry-go-round-like the other rides, it was doing a brisk business because there was still at least an hour to kill before the fireworks began-though Hutch remarked that half the county was probably over at the Boot Scoot Tavern, whooping it up. After waiting in line, Madison rode the tiger, this time with Hutch standing beside her and Kendra taking pictures with her cell phone each time they went by.

It all seemed so normal, though she still had that strange sense of being two people instead of just the usual one. And those two people were definitely at odds with each other.

Are you crazy? one of them demanded from a hiding place somewhere in the back of her brain. This is the same man who broke your heart. And just a few weeks ago, he abandoned his bride on their wedding day.

But this second Kendra was having none of it. She wanted to live in the moment, to enjoy the delicious fantasy of being loved and wanted for just a little while longer.

By the time everybody gathered at the edge of the field next to the rodeo grounds to watch the long-awaited fireworks show, Madison could barely keep her eyes open.

She'd had a big day, this very little girl, and despite a nap and a good supper, she was beginning to run down.

Hutch held the child in his arms and they watched as colored light spattered the dark sky, bloomed into a swelling shape of blue or green, red or gold, and gracefully fell away. Even the sparks were beautiful, a rain of shimmering fire.

Kendra realized, with a start, that she was perfectly happy, alternately watching the breathtaking spectacle in the sky and the bright reflections it cast onto the upturned faces of the people around her.

She was, in that instant, so happy that it terrified her.

It was dangerous to open her heart and her mind and her spirit to life, to a certain man, to the singular joys of being a young, healthy woman, with needs to be satisfied. Loving Madison so completely was all the risk she could bear to take-why was she pushing her luck this way? Was she greedy to want more than motherhood, more than her career?

Long before the fireworks ended and the crowds dispersed and she and Hutch and a soundly sleeping Madison were in the truck on the way to her place, Kendra had begun the lonely and singularly painful process of drawing back into herself, like a sea creature retreating into its sh.e.l.l.

Hutch probably sensed the change, but he didn't say anything.

When they got to her house, he lifted Madison from the car seat and carried her into the house. Subdued, Kendra led the way to the little girl's room, where he laid her gently on the bed and stepped back.

He left the room without a word and Kendra found herself listening hard for the sound of the front door opening and then closing behind him as she quickly undressed Madison, put her into a soft cotton nightgown and tucked her in with a kiss.

That night, it was Kendra who prayed.

"Thank You," she whispered.

Hutch was in the kitchen when she got there, leaning idly against one of the counters with his arms folded. He'd brought the big teddy bear inside while she was looking after Madison, and set it, like a jaunty diner, in one of the chairs at the table, a gesture that touched something deep inside Kendra and left a faint bruise in its wake. Her new boots, still in their box, were there, too, filling the room with the clean scent of leather.

"Want to tell me about it?" Hutch asked quietly without preamble.

Kendra wanted to avoid his gaze, but she couldn't seem to pull hers away. "What's to tell?" she asked with a flippancy she didn't really feel. "It's been a long haul and we're both tired, and tomorrow is another day."

"If you think we're going to pretend that nothing happened up there in the meadow this afternoon," he informed her, quietly blunt, "you're dead wrong."

"We got-carried away," Kendra said, trying to smile and failing.

"We made love," Hutch said gravely. "That changes things, Kendra. At least, it does for me."

"You said it yourself," she said, careful to keep her voice down, in case Madison woke up and overheard things she couldn't be expected to understand. "We're grown-ups, not kids. We lost our heads for a little while, but now that's behind us and-"

He crossed the room in two strides, took her gently but inescapably by her upper arms, and pressed her to the wall, held her there with the intoxicatingly hard length of his body. And then he kissed her.

It was the kind of kiss that conquers a woman, lays claim to her, body and soul.

Knowing she ought to break away, Kendra kissed him back, instead. She couldn't help it, because the old hunger, the one she'd pushed down all this time, was rushing through her again, and it was stronger than ever.

She was blushing when Hutch drew back, released her, stepped away.

Moments later, he was gone, out the door.

She heard his truck start up, drive away.

Kendra crossed the room, turned the lock and sat down in a chair at the kitchen table across from the ludicrously large pink-and-white teddy bear Hutch had won for Madison at the carnival.

It seemed to be watching her and a bit smugly at that.

"Oh, shut up," she told it. Then she sprang out of her chair again, marched into the bathroom and ran herself a hot bath.

There were too many feelings welling up inside her and they were too complicated to sort out. She felt frantic.

Kendra stripped, stepped into the tub, sank into the scented water.

She closed her eyes and instantly she was back in that mountain meadow, lying in the gra.s.s, with Hutch Carmody riding her as confidently as he'd ridden the bull at the rodeo and the tiger on the merry-go-round.

Kendra's eyes popped open in alarm, and just like that, she was at home again, in her own bathtub, up to her chin in billowing bubbles.

Realistic Kendra was back on the scene, with a vengeance, while the one that had gotten her into trouble was conspicuously absent. Wasn't that a fine how-do-you-do?

She soaked for a while, even tried to read the paperback she'd left within reach on the back of the toilet, but nothing worked.

She was all a-jangle.

Her grandmother's voice echoed in her head.

Now you've done it. You're nothing but a tramp, just like your mother.

Kendra got out of the tub, dried herself with a towel and pulled a nightgown on over her head. She padded into the kitchen, flipped on the light she'd turned off earlier and brewed herself a cup of raspberry tea.

The drink soothed her a little, but total emotional and physical exhaustion were the only reasons she slept at all that night. Her dreams were full of garish carnival rides, scary clowns dressed like cowboys and her grandmother, following her around, shaking a finger at her and repeating the same words over and over again.

You're nothing but a tramp, just like your mother.

The next morning, Kendra woke with a pounding headache and Madison, wearing her boots and her cowgirl hat with her nightie, jumping up and down on the bed beside her.

"Get up, Mommy," she chanted, beaming with fresh energy. "We have to go to church and look at the new preacher!"

Kendra sighed, arranged her pillows and sat up, resting against them.

"Of course we do," she said. "And stop jumping on the bed, please."

She didn't want to look at what the soles of those little boots might have left behind on her formerly pristine white eyelet bedspread.

Madison leaped, agile as a gazelle, to the floor.

Her hat was askew and her eyes were wide beneath the brim.

"Get up!" she pleaded. "Please, Mommy!"

Kendra sighed again, tossed back the covers and got up. She padded into the bathroom, opened the door of the medicine cabinet and shook a couple of aspirin into her palm, swallowing them with a gulp of tap water.

Madison prattled nonstop the whole time, reliving the carnival, the rodeo, the purchase of her boots and hat and the bandannas for the dogs, and finally the fireworks.

The aspirin didn't kick in for a full fifteen minutes, during which Kendra listened patiently to her daughter's continuous chatter, nodded at appropriate intervals and chopped fresh strawberries to sprinkle over cold cereal.

"I'll bet Daisy misses us," Madison said, scrambling into her chair at the table and taking her spoon in hand. "Can we go get her right after church? And then can we go back to the ranch so I can ride Ruffles?"

"Whoa," Kendra pleaded, raising both hands, palms out. "Slow down. We'll go to church, stay after for Pastor Lloyd's retirement party, and then drive out to Tara's and pick up Daisy. That's pretty much a day-full, sweetheart."

"But what about Ruffles?" Madison pressed, on the verge of whining but not quite there. "She'll be lonesome."

"She won't be lonesome," Kendra replied patiently, forcing herself to eat a few bites of cereal. If she didn't, her stomach would start growling in church for sure, probably during prayers. "She has all those other horses to keep her company, not to mention Leviticus."

"But I want-"

"Madison," Kendra broke in, kindly but firmly, "we're coming home after we pick Daisy up, and that's the end of it."

Madison's lower lip jutted out, but, being a bright child, she didn't push the issue. Kendra didn't believe in spankings, but she wasn't above decreeing a time-out, and Madison hated those, because it meant sitting still and being quiet.

"You're mean," she said under her breath.

"A regular Simon LeGree," Kendra agreed. "Eat your breakfast."

THE REVEREND DOCTOR Walter G. Beaumont was a dead-ringer for Morgan Freeman, Kendra discovered when she and Madison were seated side by side in the pews later that morning, right next to Opal. He sat in a chair just behind and to the left of the main pulpit, while Pastor Lloyd delivered his farewell sermon.

It was a good message, though Kendra only heard part of it because her mind kept wandering. She hadn't really expected Hutch to show up, but her feelings about that were mixed. She was disappointed that he wasn't there, as well as relieved.

Pastor Lloyd seemed happy about his retirement, and after the services everybody gathered in the social hall adjoining the church for the party.

There was a lot of food-Opal wasn't the only member of the congregation who'd been cooking up a storm, obviously-and small gifts were presented to the outgoing pastor, who eagerly introduced his replacement and said what an honor it was to have such a learned man in their midst.

Opal barely took her eyes off the Reverend Doctor Beaumont, Kendra noticed with a lot of affection and no little amus.e.m.e.nt. The man was tall, slender and graceful, beautifully dressed in a dark tailored suit, and his voice was deep and resonant, but not too loud.

He definitely wasn't the h.e.l.lfire-and-brimstone type, Kendra concluded with relief. She did wonder, though, as Hutch had at supper the night before, what could have attracted this highly educated and obviously sophisticated man to a small, mostly rural community like Parable.

The party was winding down by the time Pastor Lloyd asked Dr. Beaumont to say a few words.

He didn't need a pulpit or a platform; his voice rolled over them like controlled thunder, quiet but forceful, even commanding.

"It's an honor to join this fine community," he said, revealing strikingly white teeth as he smiled, his gaze sweeping, warm, over the a.s.semblage. "I look forward to getting to know all of you, and I look forward to the fishing, too, which I hear is mighty good around these parts."

A twitter of laughter rippled through the friendly crowd. After church, most of the gathering would be heading back to the fairgrounds to shop in the exhibition hall and enjoy some of the carnival rides, but their affection for Pastor Lloyd, and their wish to make the new man feel welcome, kept them there.

Looking around, Kendra felt a rush of affection for these people-her people-all of them hardworking, doing their best to lead good and honest lives, glad to live in a place like Parable, where the fishing was good and the Fourth of July was a big, big deal.

This is home, Kendra thought, soothed. I was right to bring Madison here. No matter what else happens, this is where we belong.

By then, the children were getting restless-many of them had been to Sunday school and attended the main service afterward, thereby exhausting their limited supply of patience-and the crowd began to thin.

In her turn, Kendra said goodbye to Pastor Lloyd and shook hands with Dr. Beaumont, then rounded up an overexcited Madison and headed for the parking lot.

They drove out to Tara's house, chatted with her for a few minutes, collected Daisy and headed back home.

There, Madison changed out of her Sunday school dress and into shorts, sneakers and a top, and she and Daisy dashed outside to play in the yard. Kendra, still in the simple blue sundress she'd worn to church, kicked off her dressy shoes and went to sit on the porch step, watching them.

She half hoped Hutch would show up, or simply call, and half hoped he wouldn't.

She needed time and s.p.a.ce so she could get some perspective, sort through what had happened up on the mountainside the day before. At the same time, she wanted him close again.

The sound of her ringing cell phone interrupted her thoughts; she slipped into the house, retrieved it from the counter where she'd left it before church, and answered, "This is Kendra Shepherd."

"h.e.l.lo, Kendra Shepherd," said a cheerful female voice that seemed vaguely familiar. "This is Casey Elder. Walker Parrish gave me your number?"

"Yes," Kendra said, surprised to find herself a little starstruck and right on the verge of gushing. "h.e.l.lo, Ms. Elder."

"Call me Casey," was the perky response, "and I'll call you Kendra. How's that?"

Kendra smiled. "That's fine," she said, already liking the woman, sight unseen. "Walker tells me you're thinking of moving to Parable."

"That's right," Casey confirmed. She seemed to radiate energy, even over the telephone, which was pretty impressive, since Kendra knew the singer had been on tour with her band and probably performed the day before. "I don't mind telling you, he makes the place sound pretty darn good."

"It's a great town," Kendra said.

"I'd like to come and have a look," Casey replied. "Would Tuesday be all right?"

"Sure," Kendra answered, delighted. They agreed to meet at Kendra's office at ten-thirty Tuesday morning, said their goodbyes and hung up.

She still had the cell phone in her hand when she stepped outside, smiling to find Madison and Daisy both lying side by side in the gra.s.s, on their backs. Daisy's four feet were raised, bent at the joints.

"We're remembering the fireworks," Madison explained.