"You hunt?"

"No."

"I was going to say if you started-"

"I don't hunt. I don't even eat meat. I work for FERAL."

He nodded. "Oh, yeah, I've heard of FERAL. You're the folks who hate dairy farmers, right?"

"We don't hate dairy farmers. Why would you think such a thing?"

"My nephew's in college, and one year he and his roommate had this poster on their wall. It said something like 'You don't have to milk barley and hops.' It was a picture of a giant hop, and it had all these suction tubes and-"

"I know the poster. The point wasn't to say that anyone hates dairy farmers-"

"And wasn't there some farmer in a leather mask? One of those creepy executioner's S-and-M hoods you see in...well, you know, you see some places?"

"No!"

"Oh."

"There was one very stylized photograph of some natural barley being treated like a dairy cow," Spencer told him, struggling to keep his voice even. He remembered well the fallout from the "Milk Is Cruel Food" disaster. It had kicked off late summer, almost two years ago now, and its purpose was to educate college students-huge milk drinkers-about the inhumanity of the corporate dairy industry. The vacuum pumps that were attached to the cows' udders, the male calves that were sent away to be slaughtered. The shadowy growth hormones that increased production.

"Because you wanted the college kids to drink beer instead of milk, right?" the nursery's owner asked.

"The point was simply to educate them that cows are mistreated, and when they drink milk-which is actually so bad for you that if I had my way my own daughter wouldn't drink it-they're supporting animal torture," he answered. The result of the campaign had been angry letters from practically every mother and father who had ever lost a son or daughter to a drunk college-aged driver, as well as mountains-no, mountain ranges ranges-of bad publicity for FERAL. Spencer had wound up on Nightline, Nightline, enduring a withering battery of statistics from a representative from MADD about the numbers of people in this country who were killed or maimed every year by drunk drivers. On one syndicated radio talk show a woman had called him the Antichrist, and (her voice breaking) informed him that her beautiful vegan, non-milk-drinking FERAL member daughter had drowned diving amid the coral reefs of Grand Cayman when the girl's boyfriend (drunk on beer) had improperly attached her regulator to her oxygen tank. enduring a withering battery of statistics from a representative from MADD about the numbers of people in this country who were killed or maimed every year by drunk drivers. On one syndicated radio talk show a woman had called him the Antichrist, and (her voice breaking) informed him that her beautiful vegan, non-milk-drinking FERAL member daughter had drowned diving amid the coral reefs of Grand Cayman when the girl's boyfriend (drunk on beer) had improperly attached her regulator to her oxygen tank.

"Anyway," Spencer continued now, drawing a long breath, "I'm not about to shoot a deer."

"Or have much of a garden, I just guess." The owner was grinning mischievously when he spoke, and Spencer could see that the moment he had told the man he worked for FERAL, the fellow had written him off as a fanatic. This happened all the time, and it drove him crazy. He was an activist, he believed, but he wasn't an extremist. And if anyone wanted to talk about killing animals, the reality was that for better or worse he had finished off a great many more animals than most people you met on the street. One December evening when he was driving home from college with a friend for the winter break, he had tried to calculate in his mind the number of lobsters he had cleavered the previous summer by multiplying the average figure he killed in a night by the number of nights he had been the second chef at the Steer by the Sh.o.r.e. The bus tours, he understood, were what made him a statistical killing machine, and he guessed there were two of those each week. Those evenings he might have baked and stuffed as many as seventy lobsters. The other nights he presumed he killed about five an hour, and maybe twenty all told.

Still, he was able to come up with a figure that he supposed was a pretty good ballpark: 2,200.

That same car ride he had also calculated the pounds of ground beef he had consumed as a freshman, since he had eaten two cheeseburgers a day for lunch seven days a week and at least another six or seven either at dinner or at the snack bar when he was tired of the library late at night. At the time he didn't know exactly how much a cow weighed, but he guessed at a quarter pound per burger he'd eaten all the meat off at least one steer that school year.

As he sped from the garden center's parking lot, it didn't seem fair that it was actually animals that were keeping him from his vegetables. It was as if the deer had known the exact day he was coming and descended on the garden literally hours before he arrived. He was quite sure that his family-John and Sara and his mother-in-law, perhaps even Catherine-was secretly laughing at him.

He decided the first thing he would do when he got to the club was grab a swim with his daughter. Spend some time with Charlotte and Willow, the two people who would be least likely to see any humor in the way a couple of deer had undone his big plans. He knew he wouldn't dare say a word to Catherine, because although she had absolutely nothing to do with this debacle, he would be unable to speak of his experience at the nursery just now without sounding as if he were furious with her. Taking his disappointment out on her. Which, obviously, he wasn't. But, still, Catherine would get defensive. And he would grow sarcastic. And either they would stew separately or they would squabble together. He didn't want that, not here.

Maybe when he'd calmed down he would see if John wanted to play nine holes of golf.

Then, when he was more serene at the end of the day, perhaps he could get in a game of doubles with Catherine and Sara and John. He'd be so tired by nightfall that he wouldn't care-or, at least, he wouldn't care quite so much-that the greens he would eat this coming week wouldn't come from the seeds he had planted back in May.

As he drove past Gerta's Edelweiss Garden (the Steer by the Sh.o.r.e was long gone, replaced by a store that sold home medical equipment), he decided that what he actually found most disturbing was the notion that even a guy with tattoos of flowers on his arms thought he was a kook because he didn't want to bring down a couple of deer-in season or out-with an a.s.sault rifle.

Nine

Walter Durnip's funeral was worse than Nan Seton had expected. At least a dozen people with absolutely no background in public speaking had felt compelled to share stories, most of which were so pointless and dull that not even a seasoned orator could have brought them to life. The man's princ.i.p.al legacies were the meaningless facts that he loathed golf carts but enjoyed his tractor; that he disapproved of modern antilock brakes on automobiles and remained till the day he died a firm proponent of pumping ("No one could drive on snow like Walter," said Lida Barnum with great solemnity); and that for the last half century of his life he had used the putter that had been given to him by Phillip Cole Jr., the president of the Contour Club from 1947 to 1963 and the son of one of the revered inst.i.tution's founders.

When she and John reached their car, when she was safely settled in the pa.s.senger seat and her son was behind the wheel, she turned to him and said, "In the name of G.o.d, John, no funeral for me. At least no unscripted recollections. If you have any respect for your mother's memory at all, you will not allow those people to babble over my dead body."

"You really don't like these things, do you?"

"No. They remind me of how little we do with our lives."

"I thought some of the stories were rather nice. Revealing."

"Yes. They revealed just how boring Walter Durnip really was. Now, drive, please. I want to go by the Grangers' and get some string beans and early zucchini. And then I can't wait to get to the club and go for a swim. If I thought you had your suit-"

"I do, Mother. It's in the trunk."

"Oh, good. In that case, let's go to Echo Lake before the club. A brisk swim will clear our heads."

She looked over the couch into the backseat of her car to make sure she had an extra beach towel back there and was relieved to see that she did. She was impressed that her son had remembered his bathing suit, but she knew there wasn't a prayer in the world that he would have remembered to grab a towel, too.

"How cold is Echo Lake this summer?" he asked her.

"It's warm as toast. Sixty-three degrees the other day. I'm sure it's up to sixty-five by now."

"Sara calls Echo Lake a big frozen slushie."

"Are you tattling?"

"No, I agree with her. I think it's funny."

"And to think she grew up in Vermont," Nan said with a sigh. Sometimes she couldn't believe how soft this next generation was. "Really, now, John: It's lovely. Invigorating."

Though the two-lane road to the highway was little wider than a cow path and filled with the sorts of switchbacks that made her granddaughters nauseous (Nan honestly didn't believe it was her driving that was the cause, because she reasoned then she would be nauseous, too), a beaten-up sports car appeared out of nowhere behind them and-ignoring the double yellow line-pa.s.sed them. Its engine roared like a jet, and she noted inside the vehicle the mangy young men with their sleeveless muscle shirts and cigarettes dangling from their mouths.

"If we were in Vermont, I would guess they were your clients," she said.

He smiled. "If we were in Vermont-in Chittenden County, anyway-they probably would be."

She wasn't sure how to show it (and so she never did), but she was proud of her son. When he had chosen to leave that tony law firm in Burlington to become a public defender, he had demonstrated to her that he understood the importance of service. A responsibility he shouldered for no other reason than the simple reality that his family had advantages. Nan didn't focus much attention on the nuances of Democratic or Republican policy toward the urban poor she saw in Manhattan or the rural poor she saw here in the country, but she did have the sense that policy in both cases revolved largely around throwing money at the problem: In the case of the Democrats it was tax money and in the case of the Republicans it was tax-deductible contributions. But it was never, in Nan's opinion, about time. It was never about giving what she deemed a human being's most precious commodity: the hours and days one had on this planet. It was especially important to be generous with your life if you had one as cushy as she had, which was why she had volunteered for years and years to help children learn to read at public schools in Harlem and Chinatown and the South Bronx. When her privileged son had realized he had certain responsibilities in his early thirties and moved his career in a different direction, she had been pleased.

"Have you had a busy summer?" she asked John. "At the office?"

"No worse than usual. But it seems more out of control since Patrick was born. Everything does. These days I'm constantly treading water and still getting waves and waves up my nose."

"Do you ever regret leaving private practice?" she asked him-a reflex she couldn't restrain.

He turned briefly from the road to her: Clearly he was as shocked as she that she had asked such a personal question, one so rife with the possibility for honesty and confession and delicate revelation. Then his eyes went back to the road and he answered, "Not a bit. These people need me. Sometimes they have no one else in the world looking out for them."

She found herself smiling because her son was happy and doing good work, but also because he hadn't allowed their conversation to grow intimate with the sort of disclosure that just might have made them both uncomfortable.

LATE THAT AFTERNOON, Willow listened as the grown-ups sat on the porch at the house on the hill sipping iced tea and talking about the deer and Walter Durnip's funeral, or teasing Aunt Catherine for playing tennis with a hunky teenage lifeguard half her age. She listened as they talked about golf and tennis and swimming in Echo Lake and as they made jokes at her and her cousin's expense about how tough the Seton New England Boot Camp really was-and how difficult it must be for them to keep up with their grandmother. And while Charlotte defended herself with enthusiasm, Willow was content to sit on the outdoor rug on the wood beside Patrick, painting her toenails and watching the baby loll on his back and pedal his small feet in the air. She was happy because soon they would be going back to the club, where she would be only briefly on parade for Grandmother's friends. Then she and Charlotte would be allowed to join the older kids-teenagers, really-at their own barbecue and bonfire at the edge of the golf course. She was still nervous, but in the course of the day she had also grown excited. Willow listened as the grown-ups sat on the porch at the house on the hill sipping iced tea and talking about the deer and Walter Durnip's funeral, or teasing Aunt Catherine for playing tennis with a hunky teenage lifeguard half her age. She listened as they talked about golf and tennis and swimming in Echo Lake and as they made jokes at her and her cousin's expense about how tough the Seton New England Boot Camp really was-and how difficult it must be for them to keep up with their grandmother. And while Charlotte defended herself with enthusiasm, Willow was content to sit on the outdoor rug on the wood beside Patrick, painting her toenails and watching the baby loll on his back and pedal his small feet in the air. She was happy because soon they would be going back to the club, where she would be only briefly on parade for Grandmother's friends. Then she and Charlotte would be allowed to join the older kids-teenagers, really-at their own barbecue and bonfire at the edge of the golf course. She was still nervous, but in the course of the day she had also grown excited.

She thought her uncle's rant about his visit to the garden center was unintentionally funny, especially the way he would seethe when he would bring up the nursery owner's suggestion that he hunt the deer down. She didn't know if the owner meant now or during deer season, but the whole idea of her uncle even holding a rifle was laughable.

"There must be something you can do-something we can do," Charlotte said at one point, and Willow was touched by her cousin's uncharacteristic solicitude-her desire to help her father with his cause. Charlotte rarely volunteered to help anyone with anything, and Willow attributed the girl's longing to be of a.s.sistance to the reality that before yesterday she hadn't seen her parents in almost two weeks.

"Sure there is," John Seton told his niece. "Replant the garden and turn the property into a petting zoo. If you can't beat 'em, feed 'em."

Willow knew it was a family secret that her father had taken up hunting. When he'd started to speak, for a brief second Willow had presumed with no small amount of astonishment that he was about to admit to the McCulloughs that he owned a gun and bullets and those water-repellent army fatigues. The whole deal. She had never told Charlotte about her father's new hobby, and a couple of times when deer had come up in the last twenty-four hours, her mother had looked at her with raised eyebrows, a gentle reminder that Uncle Spencer and his family did not need to know that Dad now owned a gun.

"Anyway, I think we should all have dinner tomorrow night at Gerta's," her father was saying. "See if the busboys are still wearing lederhosen and the waitresses still have to wear those bib things with the push-up bras. You just loved that costume, didn't you, Sis?"

"We did not wear push-up bras," her aunt Catherine said.

Grandmother looked up from the biography as thick as a brick in her lap and said, "When Marguerite had dinner there two weeks ago, she said that one of the busboys started playing the piano after the kitchen had stopped serving."

"They have a piano there?" Aunt Catherine asked.

"They do now. And the busboy started playing and three of the young waitresses started singing. And they sang the most lovely songs from The Sound of Music. The Sound of Music."

"'Edelweiss,' I suppose," her father said.

"Yes, absolutely. Marguerite said it was beautiful, and they all looked adorable in their little outfits."

"As I recall, Mother, when I worked there you weren't wild about my little outfit. You thought it showed too much cleavage."

"You're my daughter."

"If we're going to go out to dinner, let's go to Polly's instead and have pancakes," Charlotte said, referring to a nearby pancake parlor. She glanced over at Willow and added, "After all, most of us can eat pancakes. We went to Gerta's last summer, and everything was meat."

Uncle Spencer smiled sardonically. "Ah, yes. Remember the Alpine Meat Tray? A lazy Susan with a bit of cow, a little pig. Some chicken."

"There was something else," her father said. "I swear there were four kinds of meat."

"Werewolf?"

"You're thinking too eastern European, Spencer. Too Romanian. Austria was never known for werewolves," Grandmother said.

"Well, there's a huge salad bar, so if we want to go to Gerta's, it's fine with me. I could live on spaetzle and a salad bar."

"Spaetzle has eggs, Spencer. It's loaded with eggs." It was her aunt Catherine telling her uncle this, and Willow thought she sounded a bit like she was talking to a toddler.

Uncle Spencer turned to her and said-speaking so slowly it was as if every single word were a ch.o.r.e-"Fine, then. I will stick to the lettuce and the carrots and whatever soy protein they have at the salad bar."

"There is no need to get huffy," Aunt Catherine said. "I was only pointing out for you-"

"Correcting me, you mean."

"No. I wasn't sure if you knew-"

"I was simply trying to make all of your lives easier. I was trying to be agreeable. Truth is, I really don't give a-" He paused for the briefest of seconds before finishing his thought. "I really don't care where we eat."

"Why don't we all see how we feel tomorrow," her mother said suddenly, her voice a tad louder than usual, and she got up from her chair and lifted young Patrick into her arms. When she sat back down, she discreetly opened a few b.u.t.tons on her blouse and started to nurse. Normally Willow didn't feel strongly about her mother nursing in public, but because she knew it made Grandmother uncomfortable she found herself looking away. She concentrated on her toes, dabbing polish on the tiny squares of her nails. Once she looked up and stared for a moment at the white plastic spikes in the ground that marked the outer edges of the badminton court and at the gra.s.s in the yard, so verdantly green this time of the day that it shimmered. She noticed that Charlotte was glancing back and forth between her parents, a hint of nervousness in her eyes, and she wondered if Uncle Spencer and Aunt Catherine fought often.

As she resumed her work on her feet, she wished there were fewer silences in the grown-ups' conversation so everyone would not have to hear Patrick savoring his early dinner with the gluttonous abandon of a baby.

BY DESIGN, the Contour Club-the name an homage to the contour of the Old Man of the Mountain, the ma.s.sive rock profile that once jutted out from a granite cliff a mere three miles to the south-was not physically impressive. Its founders, including patriarch James MacGregor Seton himself, wanted to be sure that the establishment had a rustic flavor to it. Consequently, the clubhouse, though s.p.a.cious to the point that it sprawled, was only a single floor. It was shaped roughly like a croissant, with thin white clapboards that were repainted at least every other year and reflected the sun like fresh snow. The inner arc looked out on the first hole of the golf course and the practice green, and the outer walls faced the Presidential Range and Mount Lafayette. The tables in the dining room belonged in a hunting lodge-the pine had been stained the brown of old acorns, and the legs were stocky and straight-and the oak chairs with their ma.s.sive cushions appeared capable of swallowing small children whole. The bar had the heads of deer and moose and black bears on two walls (though the animals without exception had been killed by generations long gone), and a series of shelves with the taxidermal remains of a fox, a mink, and a bobcat (again, all brought to the club years and years earlier). Another wall had the plaques with the names of the annual champions in golf and tennis and bridge, and twice there appeared Catherine's name: Her one summer after college when she was still Catherine Seton, she won the women's singles championship handily; then, after she was married, as Catherine Seton-McCullough, she and Eleanor Morrison had taken the women's doubles cup. the Contour Club-the name an homage to the contour of the Old Man of the Mountain, the ma.s.sive rock profile that once jutted out from a granite cliff a mere three miles to the south-was not physically impressive. Its founders, including patriarch James MacGregor Seton himself, wanted to be sure that the establishment had a rustic flavor to it. Consequently, the clubhouse, though s.p.a.cious to the point that it sprawled, was only a single floor. It was shaped roughly like a croissant, with thin white clapboards that were repainted at least every other year and reflected the sun like fresh snow. The inner arc looked out on the first hole of the golf course and the practice green, and the outer walls faced the Presidential Range and Mount Lafayette. The tables in the dining room belonged in a hunting lodge-the pine had been stained the brown of old acorns, and the legs were stocky and straight-and the oak chairs with their ma.s.sive cushions appeared capable of swallowing small children whole. The bar had the heads of deer and moose and black bears on two walls (though the animals without exception had been killed by generations long gone), and a series of shelves with the taxidermal remains of a fox, a mink, and a bobcat (again, all brought to the club years and years earlier). Another wall had the plaques with the names of the annual champions in golf and tennis and bridge, and twice there appeared Catherine's name: Her one summer after college when she was still Catherine Seton, she won the women's singles championship handily; then, after she was married, as Catherine Seton-McCullough, she and Eleanor Morrison had taken the women's doubles cup.

Most of the Contour Club members were families like the Setons: Either they lived in Manhattan or Boston (or the suburbs of Manhattan or Boston) and only spent small parts of the year in the White Mountains at their second homes, or they had retired to the area after successful careers in New York or Ma.s.sachusetts. Certainly there were some members who were actually born in New Hampshire: lawyers and doctors and accountants, and some of the developers and builders of the nearby ski resorts. But they were outnumbered and most felt vaguely second cla.s.s because they had never worked in the Prudential Center or ridden subways twice daily to and from Wall Street.

The bonfire for the teenagers was lit around eight thirty, when there was still a purple gauze to the west and-if the girls had been back at their grandmother's house now-just enough light for a few more minutes of badminton. But the mountains to the east were almost invisible now, just one more part of the distant night sky. Occasionally a gang of moths, hobolike, would approach the blaze before disappearing either into the night or the flames, and the girls saw fireflies that looked like stars.

For the past hour, since the teens had started to congregate with their cans of soda (and, so far, no one was drinking anything stronger than soda), Willow and Charlotte had been looked after largely by Gwen-the lifeguard who was teaching them how to dive. It had crossed Willow's mind that either her parents or her aunt and uncle had probably asked the young woman to keep an eye on the two of them, but she wasn't sure. It might just have been that Gwen had taken pity on them: Charlotte was at least two years younger than everyone else, and Willow was four. Gwen wasn't with them every moment, but periodically she would wander by to see how they were and hand them some marshmallows or point an open bag of popcorn in their direction. A couple of times other teenagers had come with her, but they always seemed to view Willow and Charlotte as small, pleasant animals that could be stroked briefly and abstractedly and then left once more to their own devices.

As the evening progressed it seemed to Willow that Charlotte's biggest disappointment wasn't that she was younger than the rest of the crowd. After all, she had expected this. Rather, it was that Gary, the lifeguard on whom it was obvious to anyone who cared to notice such things she had a serious crush, was actually hanging around with the grown-ups back at the clubhouse. Here Charlotte was with the teenagers at the bonfire, and the teenager she was most interested in had chosen to be with the adults. Worse, when they had first started down the hill with Gwen to the site of the great mound of long dead limbs and dying tree branches, Gary had been chatting with Aunt Catherine. The two of them were on the terrace with those old-fashioned highball gla.s.ses in their hands, and they were talking like they were old friends.

Charlotte had been furious. Furious and confused. Why would Gary want to be with the adults when he could be with normal people his own age? she had asked Willow and Gwen rhetorically as they wandered across the fairway. Where was her father? she had wondered, as if there was something inappropriate about her mother chatting with the lifeguard.

Willow had expected that her own parents would leave early with Patrick and Grandmother, but they hadn't. Patrick had fallen asleep a little after seven in a corner of the clubhouse in his canvas baby seat, and her mom had decided it was best to let him rest. Normally her mom didn't seem to like the crowd at the Contour Club-at least not the way her dad and her aunt and uncle did-but she seemed to be having a pretty good time tonight.

Someone had brought a portable CD player to the bonfire, and a few of the older girls were trying to convince a couple of the boys to dance. When Charlotte realized that Gwen was leaving them once again-when she saw the girl put an arm casually around Connor Fitzhugh's shoulders and then start to move him around like an immensely supple marionette-she sat down in the gra.s.s and pulled Willow down with her. Connor, though younger than Gwen, was handsome and athletic and the very same lad whom Charlotte had implied at breakfast had suggested that the two girls come to the bonfire in the first place. So far he hadn't said a word to either of them.

"In my school in New York, by now someone would have gotten the party going with a little beer," Charlotte murmured, and her voice was dripping with condescension.

"The party seems to be going just fine...if you're fifteen," she answered, and immediately she regretted what she had said. It had sounded clever to her in her mind, but when she saw Charlotte look down at the gra.s.s between her legs and start ripping at the small strands as if they were weeds in the vegetable garden, she realized it had only been hurtful.

She wondered briefly why Charlotte hated being twelve so much, why she desired so madly to be older. "You know," she went on, "we don't have to stay."

"You can go any time you want," Charlotte said.

"I know."

Connor was moving a bit on his own now, and sometimes he was holding Gwen's hands as they danced and sometimes there was a wide corridor of air between them. Gwen was wearing a sweatshirt and baggy shorts, and she didn't look nearly as heavy as she did in only a bathing suit.

Behind them they heard a small group of boys arriving, three of them with baseball caps on backward, and they were laughing a little too loudly. When the boys got closer to the circle Willow saw why: They were holding open bottles of beer in their hands, and two of them had cases of beer under their arms. They put the cases down on the gra.s.s-one of the boys nearly dropped his, which caused everyone around them to laugh even more boisterously since those beers would now erupt like geysers when they were opened-and the teenagers descended on the cartons as if they were burlap sacks of grain at a refugee camp. A moment later the crowd dispersed and the music began to seem strident and angry to Willow.

Beside her Charlotte stood. She watched her cousin brush the gra.s.s off the back of her shorts and then stroll casually over to the ransacked cardboard cartons. There she bent over, pawed briefly among the bent and torn flaps-and among something near the cartons as well, a bag or a large purse of some kind-and then seemed to find amid the pillaged boxes what she was searching for: two bottles of beer that had been overlooked when the hordes had started seizing the alcohol. She glanced briefly, nervously, around to see if any of the teenagers cared that she was procuring a little beer, but no one was taking any interest in her.