I swallowed. "Yes, I was going to marry Wyatt. Don't insult the life I wanted. He broke my heart."

Jack crossed his arms. His muscles flexed, but the only bulge I studied was the one between his legs. "You didn't love him."

"Excuse me?"

"I don't think you loved him."

He was right, but I'd never admit it. "You think you know me that well?"

"Love is overrated. You need pa.s.sion and excitement and a night where you're free to get into trouble. He never gave that to you."

"No, but I never asked for it. I chose stability. Responsibility. A plan and a routine. There's absolutely nothing wrong with that."

"It's boring." Jack teased me with a smile. "You need more, Kiss. It's time to take that step. So what if your plan is accomplished out of order?"

"What-"

"With me, you get a baby. You get to advance that career. h.e.l.l, you can even travel...at least to a couple different stadium cities." He extended his arms. "So? What do you say?"

I braved a chance to face him again. I marched before his broad chest and tried to reason with a man who memorialized his every mistake with a tattoo inked into his flesh.

"Jack, you're talking about having a baby."

"You wanted a baby."

"Not like this." I stared at him, wondering why he still looked so calm, so dedicated to such a crazy proposition. "Just stop. We already have one crisis with this article coming out tomorrow. I...I'll go back to the office. See if I can't organize an interview or something for you to refute the allegations."

"I'll give you a million dollars."

My heart stopped.

I turned, staring at him, my mouth dry.

He wasn't serious. Was he?

"You'll...pay me?"

"To have my baby. Yes."

"Jack, are you-"

"Kiss, I can't think of anyone better for it. You're smart. You're talented. You're f.u.c.king beautiful. We have a good relationship. Why couldn't we have a kid together?"

"We aren't in love."

"So? We could handle it."

Was he that nave? I didn't speak, just took my steps backward and hoped I wouldn't crash into anything while I rushed to the door.

Jack knew he made a mistake, but he called to me again.

"I know you want to be a partner in Jolene's firm," he said. "Screw her. Leave the agency, and I'll follow. I'll be your primary client, and I'll get a couple of the guys on the team to sign on too."

"Don't do this."

"Why struggle to become a partner when you can get your own agency? I'll give it to you." His voice lowered. "How's that plan looking now? Your own company and your baby all at the same time. That's some good multi-tasking."

This wasn't happening. This wasn't how I planned anything.

And it was nothing I should have considered while my core still heated from his touch.

I backed away. "Jack, we can't do this."

"Think about it."

"I don't have to."

"Think about it anyway."

"I should go."

I didn't let him walk me out. I escaped, grabbing my belongings before I suffered another mistake within Jack Carson's hands.

No way.

I wasn't even going to consider the insanity he proposed.

He got me in trouble when he lied about us dating. Before we started the fake relationship, it was hard to keep him out of the news. Now that I had to artificially insert him into stories, dropping hints about our life and relationship, I couldn't get him in enough articles. No one wanted that news.

Jack had a bad habit of taking the sack when he should have thrown the ball away. He dug in, and now I faced the blitz with him.

I couldn't.

A million dollars?

My own PR company?

G.o.d, he was buying a child from me. What was more insensitive-wanting a baby from me or insinuating that love was irrelevant to the beginning of a family? Sure, people had kids all the time without being married, but that wasn't me.

...Was it?

Hadn't I already got the paperwork? Considered finding a donor?

Was my life so structured I'd break down into desperation if even one aspect fell out of place?

I didn't like those thoughts.

I raced to the office and chose to bury myself in work. The article defaming Jack was running in a major sport magazine with high visibility for the critique of the wholesome, family atmosphere he tarnished by remaining in the league. The entire story was just a hit piece, meant to make him look bad.

Granted, Jack was bad, but he wasn't malicious, he only wanted to have fun.

He was fun.

And now I was defending him.

Jolene's light was on in her office. I rapped on her door. She hadn't even gone home yet. The clock on her shelf chimed-eight PM. She warmed a Styrofoam cup of soup in the microwave and juggled two phones and a laptop between two different conversations. One call ended, but she didn't have the free hands to hang up.

I rushed to help as a stack of folders, newspapers, and paper coffee cups fell. She yelled at whoever was on the other end of her cell, ended the call, and lost the phone somewhere in the disaster of her desk.

"Everything okay?" I asked.

"Bryon Washington has three s.e.xual hara.s.sment suits against him. His agent is about to drop him, and he wants me to smooth this over." Jolene sipped her soup, burned her lip, and pitched the whole cup in the garbage. "This will be a long night."

"Did Frank Bennett get involved?"

Jolene frowned. "Bennett's crusade is with your Trouble-Maker, not Bryon."

"But...Bryon's actually been arrested."

"Doesn't matter. A quarterback is an easier target than a running back. Do me a favor. I need you to call the airlines and cancel my ticket."

My heart broke for her. "But you've been planning the Hawaii trip all year."

She stretched to reach a discarded highlighter. "Maybe Bryon will take me to the game if he makes the All-Star team this year. I might get a seat next to you."

"What?"

Jolene smirked. "You and Jack. Jack will probably be voted as an MVP. It'd be good for the two of you to take that vacation when the season ends."

The air got stuck somewhere between my mouth and lungs. I coughed it out. "Why?"

Jolene extended her arms over the mess that was her desk, her office, her undone braid, and the soup spilling in her garbage can.

"One day, all this will be yours. I haven't had a vacation in five years, and it doesn't look like I'll get one this year either. You wanted to travel, right?"

"I...yes."

"Do it while you're young, Leah. Before you get too entrenched in this career and then the kids."

"Kids?"

"Yes, kids. You said you wanted three. Leah, what's wrong with you? You're acting strange."

"You haven't had a vacation in five years?"

"I go for the occasional mani-pedi day, but running a business is 24/7." She winked. "I take back everything I said about you and Jack. I'm glad you're sowing some oats now. I haven't been on a date since..." She grimaced. "Well, before that last vacation."

Oh, no no no.

This wasn't what I wanted to hear.

I knew Jolene was busy, but I thought she liked being that way. I had no idea she was this frazzled-canceling vacations that cost her thousands of dollars, losing her chance to date and see the world...

But it didn't make sense to equate her life with mine. We were different people. We wanted different things.

Right?

I retreated to my office and called the airline for her. The ticket was un-refundable-as was the deposit on her hotel-and it wasn't the news she wanted to hear.

"Let this be a lesson to you." Jolene gathered two bags and a laptop. "This career is tough, but it's good that you know exactly what you want. Hold onto that. As the years pa.s.s, you'll lose that young, wide-eyed innocence about the world. Don't let it turn you bitter." She shoved most of her work into her bags to take home. "Hit the lights when you leave."

I didn't answer. I returned to my desk, staring at the papers and folders that cluttered the top corner. I should have filed them before I left for Jack's, but I had been...

Too busy.

I opened the bottom drawer and pulled out the information from the fertility clinic-notes on the procedure, costs, and donors. My chest tightened, but I tossed it right in the garbage.

It wasn't happening to me.

My life goal was already ruined because of Wyatt's infidelity. I couldn't waste another second hoping to get my ideal life without working for it. It was time to regain that stability I lost when I handed him my engagement ring.

But the only way I'd succeed was if I ended the charade with Jack so I could find that right man for a perfect life.

Except, I had no idea where to find that man.

Worse, I feared my body wouldn't warm for anyone like it did for Jack.

But that sort of physical, feral pa.s.sion hadn't mattered to me before. I couldn't let it influence my relationships now. My decision was final. In the morning, I'd arrange news of an amiable breakup and we'd go our separate ways.

But I didn't sleep well. I wished it was the humbling revelation about the job and its demands, but it wasn't that. I woke, took a shower, and tried to ignore the parts of Jack's plan that no longer sounded so crazy.

In fact...they sounded good.

My own company? A baby? These were the things I had always wanted. I never thought l.u.s.t was important until I writhed in fierce desire. I couldn't remember a time Wyatt ever gave me an o.r.g.a.s.m with his mouth. Or even when he last tried.

And Jack dove at me twice. Wanted to pleasure me. To watch me come. To have me.

All the more reason to get away from him before the rest of my structured, orderly life tumbled down.

I pulled into the facility before the Rivets' scheduled practice began. A school bus parked out front, and a news crew broadcasted for the league sponsored charity event.

I didn't know what I planned to say to Jack, or if he would even listen. Fortunately, I had time to think before I could flag him down.

Two dozen kids screamed, laughed, and bolted around the field, dodging players and smuggling footb.a.l.l.s and generally tumbling all over themselves. Their excitement was too cute, especially as they b.u.mbled the instructions given from players tasked with trying to teach them the game. Coach Thompson struggled to keep their attention. Even my teddy-bear, Caleb, lost his cool and sought refuge with the linebackers laughing at their plight.

Only one player successfully wrangled the kids. He tussled with them on the field and pretended to fall in a crazed tackle as a pile of little boys leapt over him.

Jack.