His finger on the trigger.

Darkness like a wall behind him.

What's that in the darkness?

Andreas? Is that you, are you there?

Is that really your face floating in front of hers? In her face? In place of her face?

What are you saying?

'Anders, it's me, but so much more,' the voice says now.

'I'm the one you need to listen to. No one else.

'And I don't want you here.

'No.

'You're not done yet. The snakes will go. I promise.

'The life you'll lead might not be easy or enviable, but it will be your life.

'You can see my face now. It's me. Isn't it? So take the barrel of the rifle out of your mouth. Otherwise I'll disappear again.'

It's you, Andreas.

And you're telling me not to do it.

I'm going to listen to you. How could I do anything else?

Don't do it.

The blades of the lawnmower are finally silent, nothing chasing me any more, and one day, some day, love will come to me again, the love I sought and fled from.

So don't do it.

For my sake. For Katarina's. For everyone's sake.

Malin sees Dalstrom slowly take the barrel of the rifle out of his mouth, then with a quick jerk he throws the rifle out into the boggy ground of the meadow, then he puts his hands in the air and looks Malin right in the eye.

What can you see? Malin thinks.

Me?

Someone else?

She aims her pistol at the man in front of her.

Feels the rain running under her collar and down her back, hears the sound of steps behind her.

Then she sees two uniformed officers go over to Dalstrom, force his arms behind his back, with gentle smiles.

An arm on her shoulder.

Zeke's voice in her ear: 'You're crazy, Malin. Crazy.'

Epilogue.

Linkoping, Savsjo, November Anyone who looks and listens can hear us.

We're all here, all us boys who have been captured by time.

We're drifting around you, together.

We are everywhere and nowhere.

We have the same voice, Jerry, Andreas and Fredrik, we're a choir beyond your understanding.

The man in the prison cell down there is alone, he's about to go to court to be sentenced.

At the same time, he can never be alone, because he knows who he is, why he did what he did.

A murderer can be enviable. How odd is that?

But there's a lot that's odd.

And there are few people who look and listen.

There are few who have the nerve to believe.

Malin looks around the room. There's an institutional atmosphere to the study centre that's been turned into a treatment home for alcoholics who have crossed some sort of boundary for respectable behaviour.

Six weeks here.

Sven Sjoman was immovable.

'I'm taking you out of active service. You're on sick leave, and you're going to go to this treatment centre.'

He put the brochure on his desk, the nasty little pamphlet turned to face her.

Like an advert for an activity holiday.

Yellow-painted residential blocks around a white-plastered turn-of-the-century house. Birch trees in bloom.

Snow outside at the moment, the rain of late autumn transformed into beautiful crystals.

'I'll go.'

'You've got no choice if you want to remain a detective.'

She called Janne. Explained the situation, like Sven wanted her to, and he didn't sound surprised, maybe he and Sven had spoken to each other.

'You know you've got a problem, don't you?'

'Yes.'

'That you're an alcoholic?'

'I know I can't handle drink, yes. And that I've got to-'

'You've got to stop drinking, Malin. You can't have so much as a drop.'

Janne had let her see Tove. They met for coffee out in Tornby, then they went to H&M to get new clothes for both of them. In the cafe Malin apologised, said she's been acting completely crazy recently, told her she was going to get help, as if that was news to Tove.

'Do you have to be gone so long?'

'It could have been even worse.'

And Malin had felt like crying, and she could see Tove holding herself together. If that was what she was doing?

It was as if a grown-up were sitting opposite Malin, a familiar stranger, someone who had changed, and they were sitting in the midst of retail mayhem trying not to be sad together. Of all the things a mother and daughter could do together, they were doing this.

Tove had said: 'It'll do you good, Mum, you need help.'

Do fifteen-year-olds say things like that?

'I'll be OK, you've got to try to get better.'

Sick, in Tove's eyes. But there is something sick about a parent who abandons their child.

'I'll be home before Christmas.'

But this place.

Sitting in groups and talking about how much they want a drink.

Having individual sessions with someone who can't get her to open up.

Admit that she's an 'alcoholic'.

Missing Tove so much it's driving her mad. Feeling so ashamed she wants to turn her skin inside out. Trying to find ways to bear the shame.

Hugs outside the house in Malmslatt when she dropped Tove off. Janne behind the illuminated kitchen window.

'Be careful. Don't let anything happen to you. It would kill me.'

'Don't talk like that, Mum, don't say that. I'll be fine.'

Malin doesn't miss Janne. Not missing missing him is the best thing about being here.

Who wants to sit around talking about their destructive behaviour? Their patterns, the things that trigger the thirst. Their memories.

Leave my memories the fuck alone.

Don't want to, don't want to, don't want to know.

Dreams about a faceless boy. About secrets.

Lies. Told to your face by well-meaning people. Sleepless nights, dreams about snakes being chased by lawnmower blades through sewers full of blue-stomached rat corpses.

This all ends for the dead, but not for me. Unless perhaps it does?

The images in the dreams are black-and-white, as if filmed on an old Super 8 camera, and sometimes there's a boy in the pictures, a boy running over different grass to the lawn in the film on Anders Dalstrom's bedroom wall.

Yesterday I sat with the others. I said the words straight out: 'I'm an alcoholic.'

Dad phoned me here.

He had heard from Janne where I was, why I wasn't answering my phone at home or my mobile. He didn't sound worried, just relieved, him too.

'You weren't doing too well when we met.'

What are you hiding from me? The two of you. What is it I don't know? Are you and Mum going to carry your secret to the grave?

Are you hiding the reason I'm sitting here in a room in a treatment centre in the middle of the forest staring at a washed-out rag-rug?

Malin curls up on the bed against the wall. Pulls her legs up and thinks about Maria Murvall, how she's sitting on another bed in another room.

What does this world want with us, Maria?

I'm going to be home by Christmas. I'm going to handle not drinking. We'll have a nice, peaceful Christmas. I've got to stay calm.

The sofa in the television room is covered with green fabric.

Malin is alone there, none of the other women with the same problem as her seem to be interested in what's going on in the world.

Anders Dalstrom's trial starts today. The interviews with him, him saying it was like he had snakes inside him, and that they had somehow disappeared from him when he killed Jerry Petersson. He talked about calm. The sort of calm he wanted to experience again, and that made it easy to kill Fredrik Fgelsjo, but that the snakes refused to listen to any violence against Axel Fgelsjo.

Borje Svard's wife, Anna, died earlier in the week, finally allowed to stop breathing, and Malin called Borje but got no answer, and she hasn't tried again. But she knew he was going to keep Jerry Petersson's dog, whatever its name was.