"Where are you going, Hugh?"
"To get married," he replied promptly.
She pulled down her veil.
"Please be sensible," she implored. "I've arranged to go to a hotel."
"What hotel?"
"The--the Barnstable," she said. The place had come to her memory on the train. "It's very nice and--and quiet--so I've been told. And I've telegraphed for my rooms."
"I'll humour you this once," he answered, and gave the order.
She got into the carriage. It had blue cushions with the familiar smell of carriage upholstery, and the people in the street still hurried about their business as though nothing in particular were happening.
The horses started, and some forgotten key in her brain was touched as Chiltern raised her veil again.
"You'll tear it, Hugh," she said, and perforce lifted it herself. Her eyes met his--and she awoke. Not to memories or regrets, but to the future, for the recording angel had mercifully destroyed his book.
"Did you miss me?" she said.
"Miss you! My God, Honora, how can you ask? When I look back upon these last months, I don't see how I ever passed through them. And you are changed," he said. "I could not have believed it possible, but you are.
You are--you are finer."
He had chosen his word exquisitely. And then, as they trotted sedately through Madison Avenue, he strained her in his arms and kissed her.
"Oh, Hugh!" she cried, scarlet, as she disengaged, herself, "you mustn't--here!"
"You're free!" he exclaimed. "You're mine at last! I can't believe it!
Look at me, and tell me so."
She tried.
"Yes," she faltered.
"Yes--what?"
"Yes. I--I am yours."
She looked out of the window to avoid those eyes. Was this New York, or Jerusalem? Were these the streets through which she had driven and trod in her former life? Her whole soul cried out denial. No episode, no accusing reminiscences stood out--not one: the very corners were changed. Would it all change back again if he were to lessen the insistent pressure on the hand in her lap.
"Honora?"
"Yes?" she answered, with a start.
"You missed me? Look at me and tell me the truth."
"The truth!" she faltered, and shuddered. The contrast was too great--the horror of it too great for her to speak of. The pen of Dante had not been adequate. "Don't ask me, Hugh," she begged, "I can't talk about it--I never shall be able to talk about it. If I had not loved you, I should have died."
How deeply he felt and understood and sympathized she knew by the quivering pressure on her hand. Ah, if he had not! If he had failed to grasp the meaning of her purgatory.
"You are wonderful, Honora," was what he said in a voice broken by emotion.
She thanked him with one fleeting, tearful glance that was as a grant of all her priceless possessions. The carriage stopped, but it was some moments before they realized it.
"You may come up in a little while," she whispered, "and lunch with me--if you like."
"If I like!" he repeated.
But she was on the sidewalk, following the bell boy into the cool, marble-lined area of the hotel. A smiling clerk handed her a pen, and set the new universe to rocking.
"Mrs. Leffingwell, I presume? We have your telegram."
Mrs. Leffingwell! Who was that person? For an instant she stood blankly holding the pen, and then she wrote rapidly, if a trifle unsteadily: "Mrs. Leffingwell and maid." A pause. Where was her home? Then she added the words, "St. Louis."
Her rooms were above the narrow canon of the side street, looking over the roofs of the inevitable brownstone fronts opposite. While Mathilde, in the adjoining chamber, unpacked her bag, Honora stood gazing out of the sitting-room windows, trying to collect her thoughts. Her spirits had unaccountably fallen, the sense of homelessness that had pursued her all these months overtaken her once more. Never, never, she told herself, would she enter a hotel again alone; and when at last he came she clung to him with a passion that thrilled him the more because he could not understand it.
"Hugh--you will care for me?" she cried.
He kissed away her tears. He could not follow her; he only knew that what he held to him was a woman such as he had never known before.
Tender, and again strangely and fiercely tender: an instrument of such miraculous delicacy as to respond, quivering, to the lightest touch; an harmonious and perfect blending of strength and weakness, of joy and sorrow,--of all the warring elements in the world. What he felt was the supreme masculine joy of possession.
At last they sat down on either side of the white cloth the waiter had laid, for even the gods must eat. Not that our deified mortals ate much on this occasion. Vesta presided once more, and after the feast was over gently led them down the slopes until certain practical affairs began to take shape in the mind of the man. Presently he looked at his watch, and then at the woman, and made a suggestion.
"Marry you now--this of afternoon!" she cried, aghast. "Hugh, are you in your right senses?"
"Yes," he said, "I'm reasonable for the first time in my life."
She laughed, and immediately became serious. But when she sought to marshal her arguments, she found that they had fled.
"Oh, but I couldn't," she answered. "And besides, there are so many things I ought to do. I--I haven't any clothes."
But this was a plea he could not be expected to recognize. He saw no reason why she could not buy as many as she wanted after the ceremony.
"Is that all?" he demanded.
"No--that isn't all. Can't you see that--that we ought to wait, Hugh?"
"No," he exclaimed, "No I can't see it. I can only see that every moment of waiting would be a misery for us both. I can only see that the situation, as it is to-day, is an intolerable one for you."
She had not expected him to see this.
"There are others to be thought of," she said, after a moment's hesitation.
"What others?"
The answer she should have made died on her lips.
"It seems so-indecorous, Hugh."