Serenity hoped she had not spoken foolishly. Letting Timothy bring her back to her feet, she started to whisper that question to him. He warned her to silence with the slightest shake of his head.

"I don't know," she murmured when, as his grandfather turned away to go into the elegant dining room she could see through the arched door, Timothy asked her how she had known about the lions. "These tantalizing bits of memory appear, but nothing that will help me know the truth about-" She clamped her lips closed as a familiar laugh sounded from just behind her.

"Good evening, Timothy, Serenity." Felix bowed his head toward each of them.

"Good evening," she replied, but glanced at the woman beside him, her hand possessively gripping his arm. She was tall and slender, with lush curls that were only a shade darker than Timothy's blond hair. Although her nose might be a bit too long for the dictates of society, she was an elegant woman in her gown of flawless white.

"Serenity," Timothy said quietly, "allow me to introduce Miss Melanda Hayes."

Before Serenity could react to the name that had brought a grimace from the housekeeper, Miss Hayes gushed, "So you are the one who captured Timothy's broken heart and put it back together. I doubted it would ever happen, but it seems you did a first-rate job."

"Broken heart?" Serenity asked, glancing at Timothy.

"'Tis nothing," he said, as he drew her arm within his again. "Grandfather does not like to let dinner wait. Shall we indulge him?"

"Of course." She knew this was not the time to ask such questions. If she and Timothy had met in London, certainly she would know all the on-dits about the man whom she had promised to wed. She hoped he would explain later. Every word that was spoken had the potential to trip her into revealing the truth.

When Serenity turned to enter the dining room, Melanda cried, "You cannot go in yet!"

"What?" Timothy looked at her as if she were quite mad.

Melanda pointed over Serenity's head. "You cannot tell me that you did not steer your betrothed under the mistletoe apurpose."

Serenity looked up, then at Timothy's shocked face. Lost as they had been in their conversation, he must have taken no more notice than she of the kissing bough hung above their heads in the doorway. Although it was made mostly of the holly that was swagged from one side of the doorway to the other, there was no mistaking the leaves of the mistletoe woven through it.

Felix chuckled. "You know Timothy well, Melanda. He never does anything without a good reason, and it seems as if he has a very good one right now."

"He does, doesn't he?" Serenity returned with a smile she hoped did not look brittle. "However, he will have to content himself with my hand." She held out her fingers to Timothy, "At least until my head has stopped aching." As he took her hand and bowed over it, she laughed. "I fear anything more would set my head to spinning even more than it does now."

Dropping her hand, unkissed, Timothy put his arm around her waist. "Do you need to sit, Serenity? Mayhap you should not have been so insistent about coming down to join us tonight."

She rested her head against his shoulder. "I think I am fine, but you are right. Sitting would be the wisest thing now."

"Nicely done," he murmured as he led her toward the dining room. "And true as well."

"True?" She tilted her head back to see his smile.

"I cannot think of anything that would make my head spin more at the moment than stealing a tender kiss from a lovely lady."

She looked hastily away as his teasing words brought forth that dangerous warmth again. Glad for the excuse of being seated in the oak-walled dining room at the table between the earl and Timothy, she let the conversation flow around her as she enjoyed the delicious vegetable soup set in front of her. The food at the inn had been plain, and the meal that the innkeeper had sent with them had been hearty, but the fragrant spices in this were as exotic as the statuary in the other room. Each course was as succulent, and she savored the flavors as Melanda talked about the party that she had attended just before leaving Town and who had been there and who had not.

"You are very quiet this evening, Serenity," said the earl as the dessert plates with the final crumbs of chocolate cake were taken away.

"I am enjoying this excellent repast," she replied. Folding her hands in her lap, she smiled. "You are lucky to have such a skilled cook, my lord."

"My lord? I shall hear nothing of the sort from you, young lady. As my grandson's future bride, you should call me Grandfather as he does." He looked past her. "Isn't that right, Timothy?"

"Y-yes."

Serenity glanced at Timothy when she heard the hint of hesitation in his voice. His smile was unchanged, but she noted how his hands clenched just beneath the table. How it must hurt him to be false with his grandfather! Wanting to put her hand over his, she could not as the earl asked her how she was feeling in the wake of the accident.

"Better with each pa.s.sing hour," she replied.

"It must have been horrible," Felix interjected.

"Yes."

Timothy's arm curved around the back of her chair. "I know you all are curious about the events around the accident, as I am, for I do not want to think of something like that happening to Serenity ever again, but speaking of it is certain to unsettle her. I beg your indulgence in speaking of another subject."

"Of course," the earl said, aiming a glare at his younger grandson. "We all will keep that in mind." As he came to his feet, he added, "We shall enjoy so many events in the coming weeks that you shall have no time to let your thoughts linger on what happened, Serenity."

"So Timothy has told me." She was glad when Timothy offered her his hand to help her to her feet. Although she had relished every bite, she had not guessed that the mere task of eating a meal would tire her so much. She wobbled, and he put his arm around her waist again. "Forgive me."

"There is nothing to forgive." Lord Brookindale motioned toward the door. "Timothy, I believe we have kept Serenity too long at our conversation. Will you see that she is settled under Mrs. Scott's care?"

"Thank you," Serenity said.

When the old man smiled, she saw a hint of the dashing rogue he must have been a half century before, when he would have been as handsome as his heir. He folded her hand between his. "Rest well, young lady. I don't want you to miss a moment of the entertainments that these young bucks have planned supposedly for me."

"Felix has been telling me all about the ball on Christmas Eve," Melanda said, clearly distressed at being left out of the conversation, for her lips were pursed in a pout. "It will be the very best of anything planned. Better than the mummeries or anything else."

Chuckling, the earl replied, "I am looking forward to the good food, but I doubt if I shall do anything as strenuous as riding into the village." He looked back at Serenity, who wondered if he guessed what a fierce scowl Melanda was wearing now. "However, from what Timothy tells me of your family's dirty acres, Serenity, I suspect you soon will be in the saddle again. He was relating about your adventures in the hunt with your father's master of the hounds. You should share the tale of that with Melanda and Felix, if Timothy has not told him already."

Serenity did not dare to falter. "My lord-Grandfather, I must own the truth. My memories are a bit unsteady in the wake of the accident. Some parts of my past seem to be gone." She sighed. "So I don't recall ever riding to the hunt."

"Did you know of this, Timothy?" the earl asked, his smile vanishing.

"Yes, Grandfather."

"Have you sent for Mr. Lockins to come and check her to be certain there is no lasting damage?"

Serenity put her hand on the earl's arm. "Unless your doctor can reach into my brain and retrieve my memories, there is little he could do. I a.s.sured Timothy of that before we left for Cheyney Park this morning. He would not have allowed me to travel if he had been uncertain of my health."

"And because of that, I must insist that Serenity retire now," Timothy said quietly.

"Of course, of course." The earl waved his hand in their direction. "I wanted to finish that book before I went to bed, so this will give me a chance."

Serenity saw the glance between Felix and Melanda, but could not guess what they were thinking because Timothy led her out of the dining room. He kept his hand on her elbow as he guided her back up the stairs.

"What is wrong?" she asked when they were walking along the upper corridor toward the wing where her bedchamber was located.

"Grandfather is acting oddly," Timothy said.

"I thought he was being most kind."

"He is. Most oddly kind. I understand that he did not give my mother permission to address him as anything but 'my lord' until the day she wed my father. Apparently it was even longer with Felix's mother."

"People grow more mellow and forgiving as they grow older and family becomes so important."

He laughed tersely. "For someone who has lost every bit of her life, you seem to have great insight into the lives of those around you."

"Mayhap it is simply because I am learning everything anew that I am aware of these things. Often one sees things most clearly the first time."

He paused by her door. "As I saw how your shawl covers the back of your gown, which is undone?"

"I did not realize that you had noticed." She was glad the dim light hid any blush that might be coloring her cheeks.

"I doubt if the others took note, but then the others did not a.s.sist you from your chair and see how your dress gapped at the back." His arm slipped around her waist and brought her to face him.

She put her hands up, intending only to keep a respectable distance between them, but her rebellious fingers stroked the front of his satin waistcoat. The firm muscles beneath it told her again that he did not lead a sedentary life. Wanting to ask what he did to forge these strong sinews that begged her hands to be even more bold, she found words impossible. She was caught between his st.u.r.dy arm and the ebony fires in his gaze.

His finger under her chin tilted her face toward his. "You are so beautiful," he whispered. "Just as I imagined Serenity would be."

"But she is only a fantasy."

"Then that makes you a fantasy come true." He drew her even closer. His fingers brushed the back of her open dress as he bent toward her.

She held her breath, knowing she should push him away. When his lips brushed her cheek, he released her with obvious reluctance. She stared at him, astonished.

"But," he said softly, "you are not a fantasy. You are real, and I am a fool."

"Timothy-"

"Good night, Serenity." He turned on his heel and continued along the pa.s.sage.

She leaned back against her bedchamber door, not moving until she heard a distant door open and close. So much she had learned about Timothy Crawford tonight-of his devotion to family, of his inability to suffer skimble-skamble comments, of his deep integrity. And she had learned something about herself as well tonight.

She had learned that a kiss on the cheek from him was not enough.

Seven.

"It will do." Madame DuLac tapped her teeth with her needle and shook her head, which was topped with curls of perfect white.

"It is lovely." In the past few days, Serenity had become accustomed to the modiste's ways. Madame must have been born beneath a gloomy cloud, for she saw disaster at every possible turn. She was never happy with anything, even the incredibly beautiful confections she and her team of four seamstresses had created for Serenity since their arrival at Cheyney Park.

"Yes, 'tis the most beautiful thing I have ever seen," Mrs. Scott murmured as Serenity looked over her shoulder into the gla.s.s to see the scarlet ribbons running down the back of the white gown. More ribbons were laced through the eyelet along the sleeve cuffs that ended at her elbows and in the ruching at the hem.

The housekeeper had come whenever she could into the room that Madame had taken over as her work area next door to Serenity's bedchamber. With sunlight reflecting off the snow and pouring through the window, it was perfect for sewing.

"It will do," the modiste announced in the same dreary voice. "Of course, we have time to make it better, because you shall not need this until the evening before Christmas, no?"

"No-I mean, yes." Serenity raised her hands compliantly as the dress was unhooked and lifted over her head. "That is, for the ball to celebrate the earl's birthday."

She was not sure if Madame heard her, because the modiste was talking to her seamstresses in a mix of French and English that Serenity guessed the Yorkshire la.s.ses did not understand completely. However, they seemed to guess what she wanted, because they bent to their work on the three other gowns that still had not been completed.

"Allow me, miss," Nan said, edging forward. The young abigail had been chided once by Madame for being in the way and since had clung to the most distant corner whenever the couturiere was in the room. "The pink one, I believe, is your choice for today."

Serenity would have been delighted with any of the rainbow of gowns that were scattered across the settees and chairs of the room. Did any one woman need so many clothes and small clothes? Mrs. Scott had a.s.sured her that, with the many events to come during the holidays and the earl's birthday celebration, this wardrobe would be barely enough. It appeared that the betrothed of the earl's heir must not be seen in the same dress twice.

In spite of her thoughts, Serenity could not keep from stroking the soft gauze flowing over her gown. It dropped from the bodice to subdue the already pale pink satin beneath it. With every step, the fabric whispered and fluttered the lazy white lace bow beneath her b.r.e.a.s.t.s. The white slippers that Madame had provided were each topped with a small piece of the same lace as her bow.

She thanked Nan, bade Madame a good afternoon, and made her escape. Standing and not daring to breathe while surrounded by dozens of pins seemed the waste of a day, although she was not sure what else she might be doing. She had not seen Timothy, save at meals, for the past two days. What he was doing to keep busy was something he had not mentioned.

Mayhap he was away from Cheyney Park on calls. That made no sense, for he would take his betrothed with him on such visits.

Unless he is calling on someone who would not welcome his fiancee.

Serenity sped along the corridor, but could not evade that thought. Had she lost her good sense as well as her memories? The thought that he might be calling upon a woman should not trouble her.

Pausing by a large window seat, she sat on it and gazed out over the moors. Her smile returned as she admired the untamed beauty. She was being witless. Timothy was so determined to prevent his grandfather from being disturbed by his falsehoods that he had agreed to this arrangement. That he preferred to spend time on other matters was his choice, although they must be seen together enough to persuade everyone-except Felix-that they were happy that they were about to be wed.

A motion in the distance caught her attention. Rising to her knees, she b.u.mped her head against the greenery that was draped along this window as it was at every window in Cheyney Park. She pushed the holly and pine aside as she watched the rider who was headed straight for Cheyney Park's gate. The glitter of sunshine off his golden hair told her that it must be Timothy.

"He rides very well," came a rumbling voice from behind her.

Serenity tried to turn to face the earl and nearly collapsed onto the cushions of the window seat. He put his hand out to steady her as he sat beside her.

"Timothy has been riding across these moors all his life," Lord Brookindale said with a smile. "Sometimes I think he has these winds in his blood. The few times I have visited him in Town, he seemed somehow less alive."

"You may be right." What else could she say? She knew nothing about what Timothy was like in London.

"But he will become as grim as a countinghouse clerk peering along his row of numbers if he continues to work as he has since he arrived at Cheyney Park."

"Work? So that is what he has been doing?"

The earl chuckled and patted her arm. "I have seen your curiosity, young lady, so I know you have wondered where he has been taking himself off to while you have been imprisoned in the care of that arrogant Frenchwoman." He sighed, and his smile fell away. "He thinks I don't know what he is up to. I know the work he does overseeing the building of my factories invigorates him nearly as much as these winds."

"You may be right about that, too." Again she was at a loss for an answer. She wished she had had a chance to learn more about this man she was supposed to be in love with. Hoping she was not choosing the wrong response, she added, "He seldom talks to me of such things."

"Really? You have an obvious intelligence, Serenity, that I have not come to a.s.sociate with the maids who set upon the Season in search of a husband. I would have guessed that he had regaled you with all the details of his work. If-" His forehead furrowed as he scowled. "Or mayhap I spoke too hastily."

Even though she was certain of so little, Serenity knew the earl was avoiding speaking of something that unsettled him. She wanted to ask what, but again feared that to ask would reveal how little she knew of Timothy.

He heaved himself to his feet. "I think I shall have a few words with my grandson about this. If you will excuse me, Serenity ..."

She replied, but doubted if he heard her as he strode along the hall, looking as hale as any man two decades younger. Although she wanted to draw her knees up and sit and ponder his words, she resisted that temptation. She needed to get answers for her questions, and only one person could give them to her.

Timothy.

Serenity pushed herself to her feet and hurried along the hall. It took her only a few steps to realize she had no idea where she was in the ma.s.sive house. While she had walked here from her rooms, she had been so lost in silly thoughts that she had paid no mind to her route. The earl was nowhere in sight, and she did not know which corridor to take to lead her back to where she should be.

Slowing, she decided the best thing to do would be to look out a window and use the outer wall to tell her where she was within the house. She had not seen the full length of the wall, so she hoped this would work.