¹Jollibee - A famous fast food in the Philippines where the mascot is a red and yellow bee named Jollibee. Day 080

11:11pm

Rico: Do you trust me now?

Jhing: Huh?

Rico: Because you're going to open up your life to me.

Jhing: Who says?

Rico: O_O

Rico: UNFAIR!

11:12pm

Jhing: Haha! :p

Jhing: But I’m an open book. I don't really care if I tell my stories to others.

Rico: Even so.

Rico: I'm happy.

11:13pm

Jhing: I don't want you to be happy.

Rico: Okay, fine. I'm sad.

Rico: Tell me your story.

Jhing: Ok, go. Ask the right questions to know the right answers.

11:14pm

Rico: Who is the "him" from your diary?

Jhing: Someone you don't know.

Rico: Ows?

Jhing: He’s a guy from my school. Years ago.

11:15pm

Rico: Another guy?

Jhing: Why? Who did you think it was?

Rico: Me.

Rico: I thought you had HD to me and finally want to confess.

Rico: You gave me false hope.

Rico: o(；△；)o

Seen 11:16pm

Jhing: So conceited ah!

Jhing: Not everything in this world is about you, Jesus Crux.

Rico: Hahahahaha

Rico: It's fine. You always give me false hope anyway.

Jhing: Jerk.

11:17pm

Rico: What's his name?

Jhing: Do you need to know?

Rico: So I'll know what to write on my death note.

Jhing: Death note?

Rico: The notebook from an anime where the name written on the note will die of a heart attack.

Rico: You can also change how the person dies, the time, and the place.

Rico: Let's beat him up. He dares hurt you ah?

11:18pm

Jhing: Haha! He didn’t hurt me. I hurt myself.

Rico: Ha?

Jhing: It was a fairytale that never happened. An ending without a happily ever after because of not having a once upon a time.

Rico: In short?

Jhing: There's no "us."

Rico: Ow.

11:19pm

Rico: You sent me a long answer where it only means "there's no us"?!

Jhing: f.u.c.k you. It was dramatic, ah.

Rico: Hahahaha sorry. I won't do it again. Let's get serious now. Tell me about it from the start. Where did you meet? How?

Jhing: I don’t know why I’m telling you this but wtf.

Jhing: We were cla.s.smates in college. At first, I had a crush on this guy who's so good-looking.

11:20pm

Rico: YOU LOVE HANDSOME MEN! That's just a physical attraction!

Jhing: I’m a girl. Deal with it.

Rico: Me too. :”>

Jhing: f.u.c.k.

Rico: Hahahahahahahahaha just kidding!

Rico: I'm a man.

Rico: ᕙ( ͡° ͜ʖ ͡°)ᕗ

11:21pm

Jhing: (－‸ლ)

Rico: Just continue on with your story.

Jhing: So yeah, he was handsome. I know that he's high maintenance so I diverted my attention to someone else. That's when I met that guy.

Jhing: He’s not that handsome compared to the other one, but he has his own charm that will make you smile.

Rico: It's not making ME smile. 

Jhing: 

Rico: Continue.

11:22pm

Jhing: He's also jolly. He loves to smile and laugh.

Rico: I'M ALSO JOLLY! I can even replace Jollibee¹ because of being too jolly ah!

Jhing: What's wrong with you?!

Rico: 

Rico: Continue.

Jhing: If you don't want me to tell you the story, then I'll stop!

Rico: Go, tell me.

11:23pm

Rico: Even though it really hurts me.

Rico: p(‘⌒｀｡q)

Jhing:

Rico: Go ahead po.

Jhing: Ok.

Jhing: So there. I didn’t tell anyone that I had a crush on that guy because my friend also liked him. I kept it a secret because I know that my feelings will eventually fade away. But second year college came, everything changed. (8: When the Fire Nation attack.)

11:24pm

Jhing: We were in the same group during this one cla.s.s so we ended up being buddies. At first, I felt happy but as time pa.s.ses by, I noticed the changes in my feelings for him.

Jhing: I thought it was just a mere crush but then, as I looked into his eyes when he smiled, my heart told me I’m already in love. He’s my first love.

11:27pm

Jhing: Hey?

11:29pm

Jhing: Jesus Crux?

Rico: Why?

Jhing: Are you still reading?

Rico: Kinda.

Jhing: Huh?

Rico: Go on.

Jhing: Are you sure?

Rico: Yes.

Jhing: Ok.

11:30pm

Jhing: When I started feeling the feelings I shouldn’t have felt, I started to run away.

Rico: You literally ran?

Jhing:

Rico: Hahahahaha joke.

Jhing: I started ignoring him. Because I know that we will never be together, I stayed away from him. I always cut off the topic whenever he tries to talk to me. If I see him walking close to me, I will quickly avoid him.

11:31pm

Jhing: I was scared of investing more feelings. I was scared of getting hurt.  I was scared of loving him knowing he can’t do the same.

Jhing: I was hurt without even trying.

Rico: How can you say that he will never love you back?

Rico: Is he gay? O_O

11:32pm

Jhing: Bwisit.

Rico: I'll stop! I was just asking properly okay. D:

Jhing: At the day of our graduation, I saw a girl kiss him on the lips. He finally got his "yes" from the girl he was pursuing.

Rico: Ow.

Jhing: I was silly for crying hard that night. But I know that it's also my fault because I was the one who ran away first. And now I’m thinking of the what ifs. What if I tried? What if I didn’t shoo the feelings away?

Jhing: But what if it fails? What if I already have a lot of feelings for him then everything gets wrong? I might turn insane.

Rico: You’re afraid to fall in love?

Jhing: I’m afraid to get hurt.

11:33pm

Rico: But you already got hurt. And when you love someone, one way or another, the pain will always be there.

Rico: Hashtag WhereDidThoseWordsComeFrom.

Jhing: I know, right? I’m confusing as f.u.c.k. Even I, myself, can’t deal with ownself.

Rico: I can deal with you.

11:34pm

Jhing: Lol.

Rico: After that?

Rico: What happened?

11:36pm

Jhing: After how many years, he’s still with her. They’re still together. And yeah, they’re already engaged.

Rico: Oh.

Jhing: Haha yeah.

Jhing: “Oh.”

11:39pm

Jhing: They’re having their fairy tale because they had their once upon a time. And they lived happily ever after.

Jhing: With a sequel of a happy and contented family.

11:40pm

Jhing: And a book 3 for the next generation: a happy story of their kids.

Jhing: Pitiful that the closure I asked was this. I know there was no "us," but I needed an a.s.surance of my what ifs. Then suddenly, they’re going to marry. So yeah, that’s the closure I received. It's a confirmation that we were not destined for each other.

Jhing: I need to go to bed. Headache. Goodnight.

11:42pm

Rico: Okay, goodnight.

11:46pm

Rico: Jhing. . .

Rico is typing. . .

12:02am

Rico: If you want to have a happily ever after, I’m willing to start the once upon a time with you.

2:01am

Jhing: Haha!

2:03am

Jhing: And oh, October 17. Happy birthday M Jesus Crux.