Chapter 150 - Ricdorian's Heart

At this moment, I didnt know if I should be grateful or embarrassed for the bright light.

At the same time I realized I remember this man more clearly than I thought.

I hate her.

The face of the man who murmured hatred turned red, reminiscent of a day in the prison.

A fun and peaceful time.

I see.

I struggled to open my mouth. To be honest, I didnt really want to answer that.

This was Ianas answer, not as a stranger in a maid outfit. And I had no intention of bringing out the buried story again.

Its better to forget the lines you didnt catch and the roads you didnt take. Because it only calls for regret and pity. So I adapted well and lived.

His words rocked my indifference and caused a stir.

But now I couldnt help but reply to the man who was staring at me.

If it were me because you asked me to think its me so Ill answer.

Yes, I would like you to listen to me thinking that it was Iana at the time wearing a maids mask. I think I had a lot to talk about when I wanted to visit you.

Sorry. Ive forgotten a lot in three years.

I am selfish.

I raised my head.

And shameless.

The blue eyes fluttered in the light.

If I didnt keep my promise I shouldve felt sorry? Just being selfish and brazen doesnt mean you dont feel sorry.

I felt Puddings temperature in my arms, I touched Puddings soft feet and let it go. It was fortunate that there was Pudding at this moment.

But over time, Id have forgotten. I had no choice but to say that.

I laughed a little.

What if theres a situation, that person wouldnt know. As that person, I would have been a shameless and mean person who didnt keep my promises. I guess so.

That day I didnt leave you, I thought so. Youre going to think of me now as shameless and mean.

Over time, I thought. Id rather you just keep hating me. Then it will remain as a memory.

The only way to find out the truth was to dust the memories.

Despite my advice, Ricdorian eventually hated Chaser who killed his father.

Then maybe I forgot.

Forgetting, happiness umm. I dont know about happiness but I may have lived in peace.

Grab. I glanced sideways at the sensation of being hit in my arm. Suddenly, Ricdorian grabbed my forearm.

It didnt hurt. I just looked at the white hand that grabbed my clothes and thought for a moment.

The beast version of him caught me so well, I would say. While whining kiing, kiing.

Forgot?

Right.

with a face like this now.

I mean, if it would have been me, Grand Duke.

I didnt panic. Instead, I smiled softly. Pretending not to know whether hes scouring my face or not.

Did you have your answer?

As I spoke while looking at his hands, his fingertips seemed to tremble once.

Then, without hesitation, he let go.

.yes.

When he raised his head, I saw a look of disapproval on his face. He covered his trembling eyes with the back of his hand for a moment.

The intensity of the light pouring down from behind has weakened. It looked like someone had turned off a light.

Deep blue eyes appeared between his fingers.

Its answered.

He spit as if biting his lips.

Very much.

His voice was painful and cold as frost stinging.

I dont mean to believe it.

I didnt know that the temperature of the murmuring voice would change. I blinked at his words.

Its just a reference opinionyes. Thats right.

Ricdorian mumbled so softly, and then slowly tilted his head.

If you forgot, its okay if you dont let it be forgotten.

The small voice that entered his mouth became less audible as he moved back. I only heard If you forgot.

The confused expression on his face gradually disappeared. He asked with a calm face.

Thats the answer. So what do you want?

He went straight to the point.

It wasnt unusual because we had originally agreed to give and receive one by one.

I felt strange at this reaction. But whats good is good.

I took a small sigh and took a step back. And I stretched out my arm as far as the step back.

Didnt I ask the Grand Duke if he likes cats?

There was no time. I also had no intention of hiding the main point any more.

I wish the Grand Duke would raise this cat.

Ricdorian made a strange expression. It was an incomprehensible face.

its not difficult, but why?

It was a face like do you wish for this. I smiled inside.

Its not that I wont listen to it. Its just a silly thing to say.

Yes, I felt it too.

I glossed it over with laughter.

I know its a rude and strange offer, but its urgent.

Although Pudding was suddenly lifted, it did not cry and was quiet. It didnt even talk to me.

It has been in this state since I faced Ricdorian yesterday. I think it was shocked, but I thought it would get better with time.

With affection, he stroked it with his thumb.

Its a cat that I love very much, but due to circumstances, I cant keep it anymore.

Anyway, I also knew that there were some nonsensical parts of what I was saying. One, it didnt matter.

I have to leave soon I cant find a place to live.

After tonight, I wont see you anymore. What if I look like a weird person in his head?

I literally started talking without filtering it.

If I can get someone to raise it for me, its possible that I want them to have a lot of money and I like good-looking people. My cat loves to be in luxury.

Ricdorian opened his mouth with a frown on his face.

Did you say you were my follower?

Yes, it is.

Its a word I just said out of the blue because I dont have a word to replace fan club, but the tone is a bit strange.

I accept the offer.

Ricdorian pondered it, then continued.

Then why dont you come and raise it in my mansion?

What?

After dropping the bomb, he looked nonchalant.

Raise it yourself.

.Yes?

If its a cat you love so much, shouldnt it go with you?

No If it was a real pet, I might be. No no. Wait a minute. Its not that I dont like Pudding Isnt this a bit too extreme a proposition?

As you said, Ill raise it. So Ill take a look. But I cant spend all my time.

He was suddenly logical. He logically explained every side of it.

I dont know where youre going, but it looks like youre going to another family or another area? Ill offer you better conditions than there.

Why would you, holding on to a maid whom you didnt know before a while ago?

Why are you suddenly saying something reasonable?

I also need someone to take care of this cat. You do that.

If I was actually going to take care of the cat, it was a very welcome offer. Yes, if its simply because the environment makes it impossible to raise it

If it wasnt for me being tied down. I couldnt hide my awkward smile.

Thank you for your words, but

Why are you rejecting me?

Ricdorian tilted his head.

Chaser Louve Domulit would have offered the same thing.

I paused.

Uh. I thought hed heard it, but I didnt think hed mention this. I already knew that his physical abilities were unusual.

Of course, the dukes intentions must have been different from mine.

He even spoke out about Chaser. Very blatantly.

I dont make dirty offers.

I have no time to answer. Because his head was tilted toward me.

Or Have you already accepted Domulits offer?

As he got closer, he was immersed in the shadow. His face seemed to be engulfed in darkness for an instant.

No!

Startled, I shook my head. Why would I take that bastards proposal?

If I had accepted it, I wouldnt have been here with the Duke right now.

Having said this up to this point, even Ricdorian seemed to agree.

Anyway, I hope you will accept it. Since it is an animal you cherish so much, wouldnt it be better to raise it yourself?

Apparently, this person was suggesting it as a favor. It didnt feel like the words were twisted like Chasers.

Thank you so much for your consideration.

I was about to say no once again, but suddenly Ricdorians pulled out one hand that was holding Pudding and brought it to his lips.

His lips brushed as if they were about to touch the back of my hand. No contact though. My back spread straight.

The ascetic and pure kiss evoked a rather strange imagination.

Because I already knew well what he did while holding my hand.

I want you to accept it.

He whispered softly. The clear voice in my memory was very low.

As if declaring that time has passed.

Because Im grateful to you.

The way he greeted a maid like he would to a noble seemed to be a form of gratitude as he said. It was meant to be respectful.

Anyway, Im very grateful for this kindness.

How to refuse. It was around the time that I went crazy thinking about escaping, which was less feasible, whether I would just throw Pudding in his arms and run away.

And I dont like animals very much, but I try to give them affection

Ricdorian suddenly reached out and touched Puddings head. Then he hardened his face.

Startle.

I felt Puddings body tense up. As if the tension was contagious, I brought Pudding into my arms.

Ricdorian took a step back and was staring at me.

You, what are you?