"That's right," I said. "And that's what I shall propose as the cause of the Innsmouth syndrome. Sometimes, as with Gideon, it can happen very early in life, even before birth. In other instances it's delayed until maturity, perhaps because the incipient mutations are suppressed by the immune system, until the time when ageing sets in and the system begins to weaken."

I had to wait a little while for her next question, though I knew what it would be.

"Where do the dreams fit in?" she asked.

"They don't," I told her. "Not into the biology. I never really thought they did. They're a psychological thing. There's no psychotropic protein involved here. What we're talking about is a slight failure of the switching mechanism that determines physical structure. Ann, the nightmares come from the same place as the Esoteric Order of Dagon and Zadok Allen's fantasies-they're a response to fear, anxiety and shame. They're infectious in exactly the same way that rumors are infectious-people hear them, and reproduce them. People who have the look know that the dreams come with it, and knowing it is sufficient to make sure that they do. That's why they can't describe them properly. Even people who don't have the look, but fear that they might develop it, or feel that for some eccentric reason they ought to have it, can give themselves nightmares."

She read the criticism in my words, which said that I had always been right and she had always been wrong, and that she had had no good cause for rejecting my proposal. "You're saying that my dreams are purely imaginary?" she said, resentfully. People always are resentful about such things, even when the news is good, and despite the fact that it isn't their fault at all.

"You don't have the inversion, Ann. That's quite certain now that I've found the genes and checked out all the sample traces. You're not even heterozygous. There's no possibility of your ever developing the look, and there's no reason at all why you have to avoid getting married."

She looked me in the eye, as disconcertingly as Gideon Sargent ever had, though her eyes were perfectly normal, and as grey as the sea.

"You've never seen a shoggoth," she said, in a tone profound with despair. "I have-even though I don't have the words to describe it."

She didn't ask me whether I was renewing my proposal- maybe because she already knew the answer, or maybe because she hadn't changed her own mind at all. We walked on for a bit, beside that dull and sluggish river, looking at the derelict landscape. It was like the set for some schlocky horror movie.

"Ann," I said, eventually, "you do believe me, don't you? There really isn't a psychotropic element in the Innsmouth syndrome."

"Yes," she said. "I believe you."

"Because," I went on, "I don't like to see you wasting your life away in a place like this. I don't like to think of you, lonely in selfimposed exile, like those poor lookers who shut themselves away because they couldn't face the world-or who were locked up by mothers and fathers or brothers and sisters or sons and daughters who couldn't understand what was wrong, and whose heads were filled with stories of Obed Marsh's dealings with the devil and the mysteries of Dagon.

"That's the real nightmare, don't you see-not the horrid dreams and the daft rites conducted in the old Masonic Hall, but all the lives that have been ruined by superst.i.tion and terror and shame. Don't be part of that nightmare, Ann; whatever you do, don't give in to that. Gideon Sargent didn't give in-and he told me once, although I didn't quite understand what he meant at the time, that it was up to me to make sure that you wouldn't, either."

"But they got him in the end, didn't they?" she said. "The Deep Ones got him in the end."

"He was killed in an accident at sea," I told her, sternly. "You know that. Please don't melodramatize, when you know you don't believe it. You must understand, Ann-the real horrors aren't in your dreams, they're in what you might let your dreams do to you."

"I know," she said, softly. "I do understand."

I understood too, after a fashion. Her original letter to me had been a cry for help, although neither of us knew it at the time-but in the end, she'd been unable to accept the help that was offered, or trust the scientific interpretation that had been found. At the cognitive level, she understood-but the dreams, self-inflicted or not, were simply too powerful to be dismissed by knowledge.

And that, I thought, was yet another real horror: that the truth, even when discovered and revealed, might not be enough to save us from our vilest superst.i.tions.

I didn't have any occasion to go back to Innsmouth for some time, and several months slipped past before I had a reason sufficient to make me phone. The desk-clerk at the hotel was surprised that I hadn't heard-as if what was known to Innsmouthers ought automatically to be known to everyone else on earth.

Ann was dead.

She had drowned in the deep water off Devil Reef. Her body had never been recovered.

I didn't get any sort of prize for the Innsmouth project; in spite of its interesting theoretical implications, it wasn't quite the reputation-maker I'd hoped it would be. As things turned out, it was only worth a paper after all.

THE DOOM THAT CAME TO INNSMOUTH.

by Brain McNaughton.

We need not dust off the history of our nation's dealings with the Indians to find examples of genocide, nor even go so far from our doorsteps as Montgomery, Alabama, to see instances of racism. Right here in our own state of Ma.s.sachusetts, in February of 1928, agents of the U.S. Treasury and Justice Departments perpetrated crimes worthy of n.a.z.i Germany against a powerless minority of our citizens....When the dust of this jack-booted invasion had settled, no citizens [of Innsmouth, Ma.s.sachusetts] were found guilty of any crime but the desire to live their peaceful lives in privacy and raise their children in the faith of their fathers. The ma.s.s internments and confiscations have never been plausibly explained or legally justified, nor has compensation ever been so much as attempted to the innocent victims of this official hooliganism.

-Sen John F. Kennedy.

Commencement Address to the Cla.s.s of 1959 at Miskatonic University, Arkham, Ma.s.s.

Grandma had been a bootlegger, according to a family joke that we didn't share with her when we visited the nursing-home.

I did...once. "Is it true that you got busted by Eliot Ness, Grandma?" I asked, wise-a.s.s kid that I was. She started carrying on about "Loch Ness," and getting very worked up, because that place was important to her religion.

"You got a golden crown waiting for you there, Joe, a crown that outshines the sun," she croaked in her liquid way, a way that n.o.body but me understood half the time. Even when I got the words, I wasn't always sure what they meant.

My name isn't "Joe," by the way, it's Bob, Bob Smith, but she always got me confused with her brother that she adored, Joe Sargent, long ago pa.s.sed over. Ignored or even mocked by the b.i.t.c.hy attendants who kept her strapped in her bed, she clung to a pathetic sc.r.a.p of pride that her brother-or I-used to drive a d.i.n.ky bus in Ma.s.sachusetts that connected the Back of Beyond with the Middle of Nowhere.

She thought it was a big deal that he had been allowed to hobn.o.b with "outside folk." Her religion had been dead set against contact with non-believers, and only a few special people were allowed to "swim beyond the school," as she called any travel outside of Innsmouth. She bitterly regretted that she had been forced to swim way beyond the school and, what with one thing and another, never swam back.

Her life was pretty dismal. She was brought up in the strict cult that owned her hometown, not much of a town at its best, but she'd loved it. She never recovered from the shock when the Feds invaded and trashed her birthplace. Mom theorized that it was a Prohibition raid that got out of hand when some deputies recruited from nearby towns grabbed the chance to express their prejudice against Innsmouth people. They roughed them up a lot, I guess, but to hear Grandma tell it, they herded people into cellars and set fire to the houses, then opened up with tommy-guns on anyone who tried to escape. But this was the United States of America, after all, and I was sure she had confused real events with movies about n.a.z.is.

They sent her to a camp in Oklahoma, where she said a lot of people died of "separation from the Great Mother," which meant they missed the ocean. Swimming was a sacrament to these people.

Franklin D. Roosevelt inherited the mess when he came into office in 1932 and was reportedly horrified, although he had bigger problems on his mind at the time. Even though a U.S. Senator from Ma.s.sachusetts, Marcus Allen Coolidge, tried to prevent or delay their release, the president just closed the camp with as little fuss as possible, leaving the inmates to find their own way home. I guess having a few hundred more b.u.ms on the road during the Great Depression seemed preferable to letting J. Edgar Hoover run a concentration camp.

Funny thing about that: Grandma insisted that Hoover had Innsmouth blood, that he had "the look," and that he persecuted his own people because they reminded him of a heritage he rejected. But she was always claiming famous people as "really one of us," Gloria Swanson and Edward G. Robinson, for instance. The only famous person she claimed to be certain about was Albert Fish, a cannibal and serial child-killer who went to the electric-chair in 1936.

She tried to make her way back east by hopping freight-trains, a pretty rough way for a woman to get around, though not all that uncommon in those days. It was not the most direct way to get anywhere, and with stops at jails and hobo-jungles, with detours that took her from Louisiana to Minnesota, she finally gave up when she got to Seattle. It was the wrong side of the continent, she said, but it was near an ocean.

There she met a fisherman named Newman, a b.a.s.t.a.r.d who married Grandma for no other reason than the universal superst.i.tion that her people had a way with fish. You can say "Innsmouth" to a trawlerman from Norway or j.a.pan and, if he's old enough, you'll get a startled look of recognition, even though he usually doesn't want to talk about it. Newman used to take her along on his boat as a good-luck charm. When he didn't catch anything, he would beat her.

Grandma started to go round the bend after Mom was born, but it was fifteen years before Newman put her away. Mom left home not long after, and I was twelve years old before she made an effort to locate her mother and visit her.

I nagged her into doing it, because I have always been intensely curious about my roots. As far back as I can remember, I felt different from other people. I used to daydream about the magnificent welcome I would get when my real parents-the King and Queen of Mars, maybe-tracked me down. I had night-time dreams of flying, or maybe swimming, through the stupendous galleries of a twilight city like nothing I had even heard about on earth. I believe I had those dreams even before I was exposed to some of Grandma's wilder ravings.

For Mom, the reunion was shattering. "G.o.d, she's ugly! And she's crazy as a bedbug." Mom shivered with loathing. "And she smells." She cried all the way home on the bus. Later I would sometimes catch her looking at me in a strange way, as if trying to decide whether I was starting to take after Grandma.

She wanted nothing more to do with her mother. I believed she would have forbidden me to visit her if I asked, so I never asked. Knowing I was different, I learned early to protect my secrets and wriggle around the rules made for other people. In case you think I'm bragging, n.o.body even suspected me when I finally helped her escape, to say nothing of other things I've managed to get away with. But in those days I got to see Grandma once or twice a month by making up stories or skipping school to walk and hitchhike my way to the nursing-home, which was way out near Issaquah.

I didn't think she was ugly, I thought she was beautiful, so sleek and graceful in her old-fashioned way. Her huge eyes would transfigure her face when she talked about her home and her beliefs and seemed actually to be gazing on the vasty deep. I didn't think she was completely crazy, either, not when her stories raised echoes from my own dreams. As for smelling bad, that was the fault of the attendants, but I would raise h.e.l.l whenever I went there until they cleaned her up and tended the sores from her restraints. Even when I was a kid, people knew I meant business when I looked at them in a certain way.

Since I was so different from other people, it stood to reason that my religion must be different from theirs, so I embraced Grandma's. I only wish I'd listened harder and understood more, and that Grandma's ordeal hadn't left her so confused. The story about the beautiful princess sleeping under the sea, waiting for me to wake her with the stones and the baptism, fueled my teen-age masturbation fantasies. I hated to consider the possibility that this was all wrong, that Grandma had mixed up her religion with the story of Sleeping Beauty.

Even though I searched every library and old bookshop in Washington and Oregon, even though I wrote dozens of letters to professors and churchmen, I never found any solid information about the beliefs and practices of the Esoteric Order of Dagon. Maybe there just weren't any more Dagonites.

Maybe I was the last one.

"My Grandma's brother used to drive this bus."

The driver glanced at me with annoyance.

"Not this bus, I mean, one that traveled the same route between Newburyport and Innsmouth in the old days, before-"

"See that sign? Don't talk to the driver," he said in the flat, Yankee way that reminds me of ducks quacking.

"You still don't much take kindly to Innsmouth folks around here, do you?"

"Sure, we do." At last I got a sort of smile out of him in the rear-view mirror as he added, "Because there ain't any."

I believed him. It was hard to imagine a romantically ruined town and its otherworldly cultists in this wasteland of strip-malls and Dairy Queens, where summer shacks had been converted into year-round homes for people who couldn't afford trailers. In this clutter that had been dumped w.i.l.l.y-nilly onto a strangled marshland, you knew you were nearing the sea only when the junked automobiles in the yards gave way to junked boats, when the handwritten, cardboard signs in the windows said Live Bait instead of Beauty Salon.

The last of the other pa.s.sengers had got off at a mall with a K-Mart a few miles back. I had studied them all guardedly for any resemblance to Grandma, or maybe to myself, but they were nothing but long-chinned, quacking Yankees in John Deere hats or pastel hair-rollers. n.o.body but me was going all the way to Innsmouth. I would have liked to ask the bus driver if he thought I had "the look," but maybe his att.i.tude said it all.

My own look is pretty d.a.m.ned odd, ever since alopecia hit me like a truck last year. Some people with the disease can brazen it out: Yeah, I got no hair, no eyebrows, no eyelashes, this is how I look, so f.u.c.k you, Jack. I admire such people, I even like their clean, smooth appearance, but I have spent my lifetime trying to blend in, so that's not my way. Besides, I couldn't have done that even if I'd wanted to, not after the onset of psoriasis a few months later. A perfectly bald head might go unremarked, but a perfectly bald, peeling head draws jeers in the street from children.

One alternative is to use false hair, and that might pa.s.s muster if you are rich enough to afford a very good rug and have the skill and patience of a makeup-artist. I wasn't rich. Pop had called himself an entrepreneur, which meant he would start doomed businesses and run them, or get me to run them-like the famous Ice Kween Ice Kreem Co.-until he got bored or they failed. After he died and I sorted out his disastrous affairs, I was left with a second-hand record shop in one of Seattle's more blighted areas, which I hung onto because I thought it would be a good way to find girls. I hadn't realized that it's mostly guys who buy old records. Correction: mostly guys who shoplift them.

A second alternative is to look for miracle cures. The first doctor I consulted had told me the brutal truth, that my hairlessness was hereditary and incurable, tough luck. He was more hopeful but no more helpful about the rash, which he said I would have until it went away. That didn't stop me from going around in my cheap wig, often-crooked eyebrows and ruddled face to every charlatan in the phone book.

None of them helped, but a Dr. Errol, who went to the trouble of asking for my medical and personal history, had heard about Innsmouth. He was up on all the angles of squeezing money out of patients, insurance companies and the government, and he urged me to apply for a.s.sistance under the Kennedy-Keaton Act. I didn't imagine it would be as simple as filling out a form and cashing a check, but I was floored by what I did get by registered mail within two days: Pursuant to provisions of the Federal Reparations Act of 1962, as amended in 1994, which offers compensation to residents of Innsmouth, MA, or their legal heirs or a.s.signs for actions by agents of the U.S. Government on or about February 14, 1928, et seq., you are required to present yourself to the Field Office of the U.S. Public Health Service, 291 N. Eliot St., Innsmouth, MA 01939-1750, in order to duly process your claim. Failure to appear is punishable by a fine of not more than ten thousand dollars ($10,000) and/or imprisonment for up to five (5) years.

Food, lodging and appropriate clothing will be provided for approximately ten (10) days while you undergo such tests and interviews as are required by law. Additionally, you are permitted to bring any personal effects which may be carried in a case no larger than 40x30x7.62 cm. and weighing no more than 2.3 kg. The importation of photographic equipment, audio or video recording devices, firearms or other weapons, alcohol, tobacco, combustible materials or controlled substances into the Facility is prohibited by law and punishable by a fine of not more than ten thousand dollars ($10,000) and/or imprisonment for up to five (5) years.

At the time of your induction into the Facility, you will be required to present your birth certificate, Social Security card and photographic ID (Pa.s.sport, state driver's license, or Other deemed acceptable by the Examiner), current bank and credit-card statements, along with any doc.u.mentation in the form of personal letters, diaries, family photographs, etc., that may relevate to your claim. Additionally, it is required that you complete the enclosed Questionnaire, Medical Release Forms and Waiver of Liability and return them, duly signed and notarized, to the above address, postmarked no later than five (5) business days from receipt of this communication.

Failure to comply with this notice or any of its provisions, or with any rules, regulations or provisions not explicitized herein, is punishable by a fine of not more than ten thousand dollars ($10,000.00) and/or imprisonment for a period of up to five (5) years.

(signed) I. M. Saltonstall, M.D.

Field Director Innsmouth Facility U.S. Public Health Service.

Because I am the way I am, my first thought when I got this horrifying letter was to change my name and make a run for the Fiji Islands. Not only did I vividly recall Grandma's stories about tommy-guns and concentration-camps, I had my own reasons for avoiding government scrutiny. No amount of money was worth this kind of grief.

But....I had always wanted to visit Innsmouth. I had been held back by the fear of barging in where outsiders were mistrusted. This summons gave me a legitimate reason to visit my ancestral home and question people who might have answers. My clerk could run the record-shop at least as well as I could in my absence, and the government promised in fine print to pay my travel expenses.

I had misgivings about the tone of the summons, but I told myself that was how bureaucrats did things, and I still believed that I wasn't living in the People's Republic of China. I filled out all the forms as honestly as I dared and sent them off. I actually began looking forward to my trip. I would go by bus and see the country. It would be the first real vacation I ever had, and it would be free.

Was it too much to hope that I might at last meet the torpid beauty beneath the sea, Mother Hydra, the Ice Kween who would be woken by my kisses and the special stones?

The jolting of the bus roused me from a half-doze. The road had become narrow and pot-holed, and on either side the marshland rea.s.serted itself. Black little creeks ran through it, with here and there a boat forlornly anch.o.r.ed. I wondered how the owners could get to and from them in the trackless swamp without using other boats, and I laughed silently at the picture of confusion this evoked.

I was shocked to discover the bus-driver studying me sourly in the mirror. I wiped the smile from my face and tried to check my wig and eyebrows without seeming to.

My embarra.s.sment vanished when I realized that the ocean shimmered before me through the windshield. The sight has always stirred profound emotions within me, the nameless but powerful feelings evoked in others by great music or poetry, and this, the Atlantic, the very ocean of my dreams, stirred me as I never had been before. I sat up straighter and wriggled for a better look, wishing the driver were the sort of person who would have let me run forward to gaze out beside him.

Then, in the foreground, I saw the town.

I had a.s.sumed it would be not much different from other depressed towns I had glimpsed on the way. Despite hard times and a genuine disaster in the past, the indomitable Yankees would have put a bold face on things and got on with their G.o.d-given mission to make money. Seaside real estate was worth something, wherever it might be, and I had half-expected to be affronted by a welter of marinas and condos, with maybe a theme-park, a water-slide and a gauntlet of shack-up motels. In my worst imaginings, the weird charm of the town would have been buried under a Sea-Tac Strip East that stretched all the way to Boston, complete with hookers who quacked like ducks.

I was wrong. The Feds had killed it seventy years ago, and it was still dead. Toward the beach, where you might have expected some rebuilding, the devastation was complete. The burnt-out sh.e.l.ls of industrial buildings remained, but the sites of former houses were marked only by free-standing chimneys and clogged cellar-holes.

Just before we reached the bottom of a hill and the oceanfront dropped out of view, I noticed a metallic glimmer st.i.tching the rubble. It looked like a fence topped with razor-wire, separating the seaward ruins from the rest of Innsmouth. Oddly, it looked shiny and new.

After contemptuously scrawling the receipt I required and ignoring my sarcastically cheerful promise to see him in a week or so, the driver dropped me at the Gilman House in Town Square, a once-gracious building in the Georgian mode whose upper windows, like most of the shops in the square, had been boarded up.

The clerk looked like a forlorn refugee from Woodstock who took his style from David Crosby, his tie knotted loosely as if worn under protest. As a further comment on his job and perhaps the town itself, his tie bore a reproduction of Edvard Munch's The Scream. He asked suspiciously, "Will you be checking in, Sir?"

"No, I have to stay at the Facility on Eliot Street, but can I check this bag here?"

"That Public Health thing?" His desire to peer closely at me struggled painfully with one to retreat beyond the range of contagion.

"You see many people going that way?"

"None at all until lately. Then a couple weeks ago, four or five turned up. And there was a girl last week, Ms. Gilman, just like the hotel, she asked for directions." He added, as if to distinguish her from me and the others, "She was nice."

He put a receipt on the counter beside my ten-dollar bill, which he hadn't picked up.

"Hey, if you see Mr. Marsh out there, ask him what he wants done with his suitcase. We can't hang onto it forever, and I ain't heard a word from him since he left it."

Marsh, Gilman: these were both names from the old days. I was unprepared for a stirring of what you might call nostalgia-by-proxy. I looked away for a moment, and the seedy lobby was dimmed by tears. At last, I would actually get to meet some of my people!

"What's chances of getting in a swim before I go?"

"We got no pool. You'd have to go to the Ramada out on 1-A-"

"No, no, I meant in the ocean. Is there anyplace by the beach to change?"

"You don't want to swim in the ocean here. Well, maybe you do, but you can't. Everything east of the Old Square has been off limits since I been here, and that's twenty years come September."

"Off limits?" I'd seen the fence, but still the authoritarian phrase surprised me.

"Didn't you see that burnt-out area? An Air Force plane crashed. Back in the nineteen-fifties, I think it was, a terrible tragedy, wrecked half the town, and it was carrying a bomb they never found. I ain't caught myself glowing in the dark yet, so I guess it's safe enough here, but you don't want to go swimming in nookie-leer waste. That's why you're here for that Public Health thing, ain't you? Children of people who got zapped?"

"I guess," I said, hiding my amus.e.m.e.nt. "Are any people still living here from the old days? People named Marsh, or Gilman, or Sargent?"

"Some, I think, but you really want to ask Old Lady Waite, she's our local expert. Most of the people in town now are Portuguese, they came here to fish, only they have to go to Marblehead to do it on account of the pollution. But they live here because houses are really cheap."

"Where would I find her?"

"You want to go down Bank Street, that's the second left as you leave the hotel, and you can't miss her house, it's the only one on the river side of the street. Past her house, you hang a left on Adams, and that'll take you into Eliot. But the Facility is a long walk, it's halfway back to Ipswich, and Larry, that's our only cab-driver, he took a fare to Boston this morning and ain't come back yet."

"I don't mind the walk. I'd like to do some sight-seeing."