Buck shrugged. "Just helping out. You don't want me around, I'll leave, right?"

"No, stay." Kendi leveled Jeren a withering glare. "He's just-just overprotective. Let me try this."

Before anyone could say another word, Kendi closed his eyes. The falcon on his arm shifted a bit and he could feel the talons gripping his arm. A tiger? No, he decided. Better something that won't attack. Koala bear? Cute, but more likely to bite than any tiger. Kangaroo then. Kendi imagined the animal-long legs, long tail, pouch. The falcon would become a kangaroo and it would become a kangaroo now now.

A sudden heavy weight dragged his arm down and there was heavy thud thud on the ground beside him. Kendi's eyes popped open. He found himself looking at a kangaroo sprawled on the sandy soil. She quickly scrambled to her feet and looked at him with reproachful brown eyes. on the ground beside him. Kendi's eyes popped open. He found himself looking at a kangaroo sprawled on the sandy soil. She quickly scrambled to her feet and looked at him with reproachful brown eyes.

"I did it," Kendi whispered. "All life, I did it!"

A great splash ripped through the Dream. The Outback wavered, distorted like a bad hologram. Kendi staggered, almost knocked flat. The kangaroo made an angry whuffing noise.

"What the f.u.c.k?" Jeren yelped. Standing next to him was an old woman. With a flash of recognition, Kendi remembered her. He had stumbled into her flower garden by accident and she had animated the plants to drive him out.

"What are you little s.h.i.ts up to?" she demanded. Her iron-gray hair stood out like an angry dandelion. "You're sending ripples through the entire Dream. My gladiolas will never be the same."

Kendi recovered himself enough to be angry. This was his his turf, and Ara had made it very clear to him that a Silent's turf was inviolate. Appearing in the middle of Kendi's turf uninvited and unannounced was the height of rudeness. "Who the h.e.l.l do you think you are?" he snarled. turf, and Ara had made it very clear to him that a Silent's turf was inviolate. Appearing in the middle of Kendi's turf uninvited and unannounced was the height of rudeness. "Who the h.e.l.l do you think you are?" he snarled.

"The woman's whose garden you're f.u.c.king up, that's who," the woman grumbled. "And my name's Zelda. Jesus, boy-you've got to learn some control."

"And you've got to learn some manners."

"Look, boy, do you want all your neighbors mad at you or not?" Zelda said.

"I don't give a s.h.i.t what you-"

"You better give a s.h.i.t," Zelda snapped. "Otherwise you're going to have a hundred Silent in all directions pretty p.i.s.sed at you. That what you want?"

"No," Kendi said, then hated himself for agreeing with her. "Look, what do you-"

"Just learn to change that ...that thing thing-" she gestured sharply at the kangaroo "-more quietly. Jesus."

"It's not a thing," Kite said. "It's part of Kendi."

"Don't tell her that," Kendi said sharply.

"You just have to make the change a little smoother," Zelda said in a quieter voice. "Here, let me show you." She picked up a stone. Kendi felt her hands touching it as if she were touching him instead. Before he could protest, she closed her hand around it. When she opened it, she was holding a bright yellow marigold. Kendi stared. He hadn't felt the change, even though she had effectively made it in his own mind.

"Wow," Dorna whistled.

"She's good," Buck said.

"How did you do that?" Kendi asked, interested despite his earlier anger.

"Practice," she said. "And a few lessons. Here, let me show you. I'll even do it for free so you'll quit rippling my garden. Close your eyes, boy, and listen to what I say."

Ben sat on the living room floor. Four bodies lay on chairs and sofa, and a fifth stood propped on a spear in the corner. All of them were still as breathing statutes. Red dermosprays lay scattered across the floor. Ben hated this. The quiet bodies in the room underscored the fact that Ben himself would never enter the Dream.

He sighed and checked Kendi's readout. It was singularly unhelpful. Sure, it said that everything was fine with Kendi, but it didn't tell him what Kendi was doing doing. The familiar desire-need-to enter the Dream swept over Ben. Not for the first time he wondered what it was that prevented him. Every test showed he had the genes for Silence, but for some reason he had never expressed the ability. He had never heard strange whispers or voices. He had never woken up from a dream so vivid that he would have sworn it was real. He had never felt a jolt when touching a Silent. Not once. He knew it disappointed his mother, though she had never said so, or even hinted it. He knew his aunt, uncle, and cousins thought he was sub-human, because they had had said so. said so.

Since he couldn't do anything his Silent family did, Ben was therefore careful to do those activities none of them them could do. So far, he was the family expert in computers and he was the only one who lifted weights. Indeed, he had never known his family to engage in any kind of exercise whatsoever. That was fine with Ben. If he couldn't take pride in his mind, then he would d.a.m.n well take pride in his body. And the results of a year's worth of labor showed. Mom now had to buy him shirts with broader shoulders and looser sleeves. Firm muscle rippled across his abdomen, and his legs were thick and powerful. could do. So far, he was the family expert in computers and he was the only one who lifted weights. Indeed, he had never known his family to engage in any kind of exercise whatsoever. That was fine with Ben. If he couldn't take pride in his mind, then he would d.a.m.n well take pride in his body. And the results of a year's worth of labor showed. Mom now had to buy him shirts with broader shoulders and looser sleeves. Firm muscle rippled across his abdomen, and his legs were thick and powerful.

He wondered if Kendi had noticed.

Ben got up and walked over to Kendi. The young man was several centimeters taller than Ben, and thinner. His build was more whipcord, and he was d.a.m.ned handsome.

Ben stared at Kendi, uncertain. Why did he feel this way? When Kendi had hugged him, it had felt good. h.e.l.l, it had felt great great. Better than a simple, friendly hug should have made him feel. It was confusing. Did he like Kendi as more than a friend? Ben shook his head. There were lots of guys who liked-loved-other men. No big deal there. It was just that Ben had never considered himself one of them.

"G.o.d, I've had girlfriends girlfriends," he said aloud.

But, he thought, none for more than a few weeks. Some of the other guys at school talked about nothing but girls, talked as if they thought about girls constantly, or at least daily. Ben never had. This had never worried him. He hadn't even really thought about it. Not until he had met Kendi.

Kendi remained still as a statue, hands cupped over his groin, one leg propped up on the red spear. The end was sharp and Ben knew Kendi had to replace the rubber tip every so often. Ben had once asked Kendi why he didn't simply blunt the end, and Kendi had given him a blank look.

"The Real People don't do it that way," he said.

Ben put a hand in front of Kendi's face and felt Kendi's breath warm and regular on his palm. A shiver went through him. He touched Kendi's shoulder with a hesitant hand and swallowed. He wanted to grab Kendi up in a hard, crushing embrace, hold onto him for hours, or days. After a moment, Ben put both arms around him and leaned his head against Kendi's chest.

Just to see, he thought, what it feels like what it feels like.

It felt empty. Kendi wasn't hugging him back. Feeling foolish, Ben released him, careful not to knock him over, though he doubted even that would wake him. The more experienced Silent could be jerked out of the Dream through physical stimuli such as a pain or a sudden jolt, but novices usually had to concentrate so hard just to attain the necessary trance that they completely ignored outside stimuli.

A flicker of movement caught the corner of Ben's eye and he spun around. Dorna was sitting up in her chair. She cracked her knuckles. Ben's stomach twisted sickeningly. Had he seen her hugging Kendi?

"Hey, Dorna," Ben said, keeping his voice steady. "What's-"

"I have control," she said in a strangely deep voice. "Well f.u.c.k me with a banana."

Ben blinked. "What?"

"About G.o.ddam time, too." Dorna got up and looked around the room. "Well, lover-boy, you can just tell your goody-good friends that I'm keeping control. They want to do something, they're gonna have to go through me me."

"You?" Ben echoed, still confused. "I don't understand."

Dorna laughed, a harsh, male sound. "That's because you're stupid. Now this dude-" she crossed the room to where Kendi stood "-this dude's noticed some stuff. f.u.c.king p.r.i.c.k." And she backhanded him hard across the face.

"Hey!" Ben grabbed her wrist. "What the h.e.l.l are you doing?"

The stomach punch landed before Ben could react. Air rushed out of his lungs and he doubled over. Not for nothing had he been strengthening his abdominal muscles, however, and he recovered quickly. Without thinking he launched himself forward and rammed a shoulder into Dorna. She staggered back. Ben grabbed her arm and tried to spin her around so he could shove her against the wall, but she twisted away from him. Another punch came at his jaw. Ben dodged and realized too late it was a only feint. Pain exploded in his groin and lower belly as Dorna's foot snapped up. Ben collapsed to the floor, agony written hard on his face.

"You fight like a f.u.c.king girl," Dorna said, and kicked him in the stomach. Ben cried out. And then she was gone.

Ben lay there, unable to move for some time, until the pain finally subsided enough to let him get to his feet. He checked himself but didn't find anything sprained or broken. Jeren, Kite, Willa, and Kendi remained motionless. He staggered to the bathroom and swallowed a handful of painkillers. In the mirror his face appeared pale beneath disheveled flame-red hair. What should he do next? Call the Guardians? Maybe he should- "Ben?" came Kendi's voice. "Ben, where are you?"

Ben made his way back to the living room. Kendi was holding his spear in one hand. The other hand he held to his cheek. The others shifted, then opened their eyes.

"My face hurts like h.e.l.l," Kendi said. "What's going on?"

"Dorna slapped you," Ben said, "then she attacked me." Various cries of disbelief and astonishment caromed around the room and Ben had to wait for them to quiet down before he could explain. The pills he had taken started to kick in as he spoke, and some of the pain faded as he told the story.

"Now she's gone," he finished. "I don't know where she went."

"Dorna was still in the Dream when I left," Kendi said. "She couldn't have been awake here. It's impossible."

"Tell that to my crotch," Ben blurted, then flushed.

"Got you in the nuts, huh?" Jeren said. "b.i.t.c.h doesn't fight fair."

"We have to call someone," Willa declared. "Ben, try your mother again. Maybe she'll answer this time."

Ben obeyed. This time, Mom's face appeared on the wall screen. For the second time, Ben explained what had happened.

"Stay right where you are," she ordered. "I'll be there in ten minutes." The screen went blank.

"You should get some ice for your stomach," Kendi said. "And for your-your-"

"My stomach, anyway," Ben said, flushing again.

He was still holding a damp towelful to his abdomen when Ara got home. Father Ched-Hisak was right behind her. Ara's face was tight with worry and she made Ben explain the entire incident over again. She wanted to examine him, but he put his foot down.

"Everyone's looking, Mom," he muttered. "And I'm not hurt that bad."

Ched-Hisak hooted and clattered his teeth. Ben, who had grown up on Bellerophon among the Ched-Balaar, understood the words better than many adult Children, though he had no more hope of reproducing the sounds than he did of sprouting wings and flying.

"I am sure we can take him to a doctor if his pain persists," Ched-Hisak was saying firmly. "We have other matters for discussion."

To Ben's intense relief, Mom nodded. "Why don't you get hold of the dorm and see if Dorna's gone back to her room? I'll talk to the others."

Ben shook off Mom's guiding hand and took a chair on his own. She pursed her lips but didn't comment as she turned to Kendi.

"You said Dorna was in the Dream when you left it," she stated. "But Ben says she attacked him before before you woke up. That means there's an overlap. Her body was awake and moving around even though her mind was in the Dream, is that right?" you woke up. That means there's an overlap. Her body was awake and moving around even though her mind was in the Dream, is that right?"

Kendi nodded. "I guess. I thought that couldn't happen."

"It can't," Mom said shortly. "But maybe we can get a clue as to what happened. Start at the beginning, all of you, and tell me exactly what was going on. Why were you all in the Dream together? For practice?"

They all nodded in unison. Ben found himself drifting off, probably a side-effect of the painkillers. He was vaguely aware of Father Ched-Hisak rejoining the group and telling them that Dorna didn't seem to be in her room or anywhere near the dormitory and that he'd ordered a search. Ben drifted again, soothed by the Ched-Balaar's gentle presence. A startled shout from Mom brought him awake again.

"You split split yourself?"she said incredulously. "How?" yourself?"she said incredulously. "How?"

"By accident," Kendi protested. "I didn't mean to."

"A powerful thing," Ched-Hisak mused. "It will require much further study."

"Was that when Dorna woke up, then?" Mom asked.

Kendi squirmed. "Not exactly."

"Go on, then," Mom said, and Ben recognized the danger in her voice. He wanted to come to Kendi's defense, but knew from experience that such a gesture would only make her angrier, so he remained silent. So did the other students.

Kendi falteringly explained how he had decided to go back into the Dream to see if he could call up the falcon again. Mom's face got darker with every word until she finally exploded.

"What were you thinking thinking?" she shouted. "Good lord, Kendi-you haven't even been entering the Dream for a week and already you're experimenting with things no one knows anything about? Do you know how foolish foolish that is? How that is? How stupid? stupid? What if you split your mind and couldn't bring it back together? There would have been no one there to help you." What if you split your mind and couldn't bring it back together? There would have been no one there to help you."

"I'm sorry," Kendi said meekly. "It just felt so ...right that it didn't occur to me that anything could go wrong with it." that it didn't occur to me that anything could go wrong with it."

"And you you-" She rounded on Ben. "What were you you thinking? Why didn't you call me?" thinking? Why didn't you call me?"

"I tried," Ben said hotly. "But you weren't available. Neither was Father Ched-Hisak or Grandfather Melthine. We couldn't get hold of anybody at all."

"Then you should have waited," Mom snapped. "You should have-"

Ched-Hisak placed a hand on her shoulder. "Mother Ara," he clattered, "we do have other things to worry about. Perhaps many beratements can come later?"

Mom looked like she was going to say more, then apparently thought the better of it. "Right," she said.

Father Ched-Hisak turned to the students. His eyes were wise and gentle, and even though he was the size of a small horse, he somehow didn't look imposing or seem like he was filling a fair chunk of the living room. For some reason, Ben found himself wondering what it would be like to have Father Ched-Hisak as his dad. The Ched-Balaar kept his head at human level and turned his gaze on Ben.

"Would you translate for those who understand not all my words well?" he chattered. Ben nodded, and Father Ched-Hisak continued. "Did any of you notice anything so odd about Dorna? Anything she said or did to seem strange?"

Ben translated and Jeren snorted. "This is stupid," he said. "We're all Silent. We're all weird in one way or another."

"We need to think, Jeren," Willa said.

"Look, I just want to go home before it f.u.c.king rains again, okay? Why don't you ask her teacher?"

"We will do this thing, Jeren, but now we must have you think," Father Ched-Hisak said with Ben's translation coming a sentence behind. "An odd thing happened here and we need to find the bottom of it. To repeat: have any of you noticed anything so odd about Dorna?"

Jeren rolled his eyes and the others thought. "Last week," Kendi said slowly, "she said she was having trouble sleeping because she had nightmares about people dying in the Dream."

"I remember that," Ben put in, glad to contribute something more than just translation. "You also said she talked funny. And there was that weird stuff she said when she woke up and hit me."

"That's right!" Kendi snapped his fingers. "Sometimes Dorna changes the way she talks. As if she were someone ...someone ..." He trailed off.

"Yes?" Mom said.

"Something's bugging me," Kendi said. His eyes tracked over empty air. "The way Dorna talked. It reminded me of someone, but I can't quite place-" He bolted upright on the couch. "Buck. Sometimes she talks like Buck."

Ara blinked at him, puzzled. "Who's Buck?"

"A guy we met in the Dream," Kendi said. "He gave me pointers on my falcon. And then that Zelda woman showed up." He gave further detail about them.

"Kendi," Father Ched-Hisak said intently, "you said you attempted to locate Dorna but found her in a pair of places."

"Yeah. And once I tried to tag someone I thought was her but it turned out to be Zelda. Another time I thought I had her and it was Buck."