"Fine." He crunched a handful of crackers. "You look tired. Something wrong?"

Ara hadn't told him she was consulting with the Guardians, though she was pretty sure he'd heard about the murders. Almost everyone on Bellerophon had heard, despite the Guardians' attempt to keep things quiet. She had been reluctant to mention it to him-no point in making him worry.

"I'm a little overworked," she admitted. "I need a break."

"So what are we doing for Festival tonight?" Ben asked.

"I thought the usual," she said. "Dinner here, then down to the games and the fireworks."

Ben made a face. "Does that mean you've invited them them?"

"Attention! Attention!" said the house computer. "Incoming call for Mother Araceil Rymar."

"Put it through to the office," Ara replied as always, and left Ben to his crackers. In her office, the wall screen showed Sister Bren, one of the teachers at the monastery.

"I hate to bother you so close to Festival," Bren said, "but I wanted to talk to you about Kendi. He slipped out of cla.s.s half an hour early today, and one of the other teachers saw him climbing down from a talltree a while later. I've also noticed him daydreaming a great deal during lessons. I'm afraid he's shaping up to be a difficult one. Freed slave syndrome, I expect."

Ara puffed out her cheeks in mute agreement. "He shows a lot of the signs, doesn't he? Just this morning he climbed onto the dorm roof and broke a gutter. Considering what he went through, though, I'm surprised it's not a lot worse."

"He doesn't cause disruption in cla.s.s," Bren agreed. "But he won't pa.s.s history if he makes this a habit."

"He has a lesson with me in a few minutes. I'll talk to him then," Ara promised. "He's going to need counseling, I think, but you know how touchy suggesting it can be, especially at that age."

"Don't I just. Look, I won't write him up this time, but if he does it again, he'll end up with extra work detail."

Ara signed off with a grimace. Well, she should have been expecting it. Ex-slaves, especially young ones, tended to run in one of two directions-acting in or acting out. The ones who acted in stayed very quiet, tiptoeing around the monastery as if they were afraid of being noticed and sold back into servitude. Willa struck Ara as one of these. The ones who acted out went in the other direction, taking out suppressed rage and hidden fears on their teachers and fellow students. Jeren Drew was clearly one of these, and now Kendi seemed to be joining him. A precious few seemed to come through slavery relatively unscathed. Kite looked to fall into this category, but it was too early to know for sure. Maybe his strange speech was a symptom of a deeper issue.

In any case, Kendi was Ara's special problem, since he had been a.s.signed to Ara-at her request-for one-on-one instruction, making her a surrogate parent in many ways. Jeren, Kite, and Willa had all been matched with other teachers. Although it was certainly possible to take on more than one student at a time, the monastery frowned on the practice, especially when it came to teaching ex-slaves. It often helped a slave's damaged self-esteem to know that the current teacher was focused on him or her alone.

A now-familiar clanking issued from behind Ben's closed door. Ara knocked, then poked her head inside. Ben was pressed into a chair, shoving at a stack of weights with his legs.

"Your aunt and uncle are coming over for dinner," she said. "We'll be eating late."

"I figured," Ben grunted, face red with exertion. "Are the jerks coming too?"

Ara put her hands on her hips. "I wish you would try to get along with your cousins. You don't have any brothers or sisters, and it would be nice if-"

"The h.e.l.l it would." Clank. Clank. Clank. Clank.

"Watch your-oh, never mind." There were some battles not worth fighting. "Just wear something nice, and try to be polite. Clear?"

Ben shrugged, and Ara decided to take that for agreement.

"I have to go give a lesson," she continued. "I'll be back in time to start supper."

Clank. The weights stopped, and Ben wiped his face with his shirt, revealing a flash of pale, flat stomach. "You're not ordering out and telling everyone you made it? What happened-Maureen's go out of business?" The weights stopped, and Ben wiped his face with his shirt, revealing a flash of pale, flat stomach. "You're not ordering out and telling everyone you made it? What happened-Maureen's go out of business?"

"Ha ha. Just for that, wise guy, you can peel the shrimp for me."

Kendi Weaver made a sound of exasperation and got up from the couch. "It still doesn't work."

"Kendi, meditation and breathing exercises are very important," Mother Ara explained patiently from her chair. Their voices were deadened by the soundproofed walls of the tiny, windowless meditation cubicle. "You have to ready both mind and body. Otherwise you'll never enter the Dream."

"I'm not saying I shouldn't meditate. I'm just saying I can't do it lying down like that. It doesn't feel right. I can't concentrate."

"Well, some Silent prefer leaning back or even-"

"I made this today." Kendi reached under his couch and pulled out the short spear. He had skipped the rest of his morning cla.s.ses to sand it, and the wood was smooth and solid in his hand. After helping the custodian repair the gutter, he had wheedled some red paint and a rubber tip out of her. The rubber was to cover the spear's point.

"What is it?" Mother Ara asked.

"A meditation spear. The Real People use them to ...commune with the Dreamtime. I'm willing to bet the Dream is really the same thing."

Mother Ara c.o.c.ked her head. "Why do you-they-call themselves the Real People?"

"The Real People-Australian Aborigines-consider ourselves to be the original human race," Kendi explained. "My ancestors lived in the proper way, recognizing themselves as part of the world and universe around them, no more or less important than any other living thing. Mutants-other tribes of humans-try to separate themselves from the universe. They build houses and cars and ships. When that happens, they lose contact with each other and lose their connection with the Dreamtime. As a result, they fight and kill and enslave one another."

As Kendi spoke, he realized that he was mostly parroting a lecture he had heard Neluuketelardin give many times. Back then, he had barely listened, wanted nothing more than to get out of the hot sun and go home. But now the words took on a new meaning. Kendi had fully experienced the contrast between Real People and mutant societies. Despite the boredom and harsh weather on walkabout, everyone in the group had watched out for everyone else and built a strong sense of community. Every single person had value, every single person counted the same as every other. A far cry from mutant slave auctions.

"What's the Dreamtime, then?" Mother Ara asked.

"It's kind of hard to describe," Kendi said. "Time and place have no meaning there. It's the beginning of everything, of all things and all traditions. This world got started there and is sort of an extension of it. Lots of powerful creatures live in it, and the Real People can walk there. Or we could until the mutants destroyed our society. After a few generations, we forgot how to do it. We forgot how to do a lot of things."

"So the Real People are Silent, then," Mother Ara mused.

Kendi shrugged and sat down again, still holding the spear. "Maybe. We were around a long time before Irfan Qasad genegineered people for it. Anyway, I can't sit when I meditate. That's not how we do it."

"There are lots of ways to meditate, Kendi," Mother Ara said. "You can use any method you want as long as it works for you."

"Then I want to try this."

Mother Ara gestured at him to continue. Kendi got up. Around his wrist he wore the medical bracelet which monitored pulse rate, respiration, brainwave activity, and blood pressure. It was slaved to Mother Ara's data pad so she could keep an eye on him with it. Kendi took a deep breath. He had spent a little time practicing his balance, but he wasn't perfect yet. He bent his left knee and fitted the short spear under it like a peg-leg. The rubber tip kept the spear from skidding on the smooth floor. Then he held his hands over his groin. At first this had made him feel uncomfortable, but he had found it easier to keep his balance when his arms and hands weren't allowed to dangle loosely. He was a bit wobbly, but steady enough, and it definitely felt better than lying down.

"Hm," Mother Ara said. "Well then-let's try it. Do you want the drumming?"

"Yeah. The rhythm helps."

He closed his eyes and a moment later, a recorded drum playback filled the room.

"Focus on your breathing," Mother Ara said in a calm, soothing voice. "Feel the air fill your lungs as you breathe in and out, in and out."

The meditation exercise continued. Once, Kendi lost his balance and had to reposition himself. All throughout, Mother Ara's quiet voice urged him to leave his body behind, ignore it. But he couldn't ignore the physical sensations-the spear under his knee, the floor beneath his feet, the clothing on his body. He suppressed a grimace, frustrated. He couldn't keep up the concentration to ignore anything. It felt like something was there but just out of reach, and harder he tried to reach it, the further away it moved. Maybe the spear was the wrong idea after all.

Some time later, Mother Ara told him to open his eyes. The drum playback ended.

"That was pretty good," she said. "Better than before, in fact. Your heart rate dropped, and your breathing slowed considerably. Brainwave activity was a little high, but-"

"I can't do it." Kendi disentangled himself from the spear and dropped onto the couch. "It's still not working."

"Kendi, you haven't been doing this for even a week," Mother Ara reminded him. "You're doing very well. It takes months or even years of work to get to the point where you're ready to enter the Dream."

"Months," he muttered. The frog farm and its months of unchanging labor flashed before him. Had he just traded one kind of mindlessness for another? And how long would it be, then, before he got a chance to look for his family? Years? Martina would be all grown up before he saw her again, and Mom and Dad would be old and gray.

"Don't get discouraged," Mother Ara said. She shut off her data pad and put it away. "Your Silence is very strong. When other Silent touch you, they get a serious jolt. I don't think we could keep you out of the Dream if we tried. How are your dreams at night? Still vivid?"

Kendi shrugged, again feeling hemmed in by the tiny room. He glanced at his fingernail and the new chrono-display implanted on it. Lesson time was almost over.

"Practice on your own, too," Mother Ara continued. "Every moment helps."

"Okay." He gathered up the spear and checked to make sure his own data pad was in his pocket. "Are we done?"

"Not quite." Mother Ara's voice took on a more serious tone. "I got a call from your history teacher today."

Uh oh, Kendi thought. Kendi thought.

"She says you skipped out. You also missed language studies and philosophy. I checked."

"I had to work on this," Kendi protested, holding up the spear.

"Kendi, you can't skip cla.s.s. Everything you learn there is important, especially language studies. You have to learn to understand the Ched-Balaar."

"It's boring," Kendi mumbled. "Why can't we just wear a translator or something?"

"You might not always have a translator on you. Besides, the Ched-Balaar learned our language. It would be rude not to learn theirs."

"I can't sit that long."

"Learning to concentrate in cla.s.s will also help you meditate," Mother Ara pointed out. "And you can't take formal vows as a Child until you complete your education. You have to go to cla.s.s, Kendi. This isn't a choice-unless you want to leave the Children entirely. Clear?"

"Yeah, okay. Can I go now?"

"Not until you swear to me that you won't skip again."

"Fine. I swear."

Mother Ara got up from her chair and sat next to him on the couch. "Kendi, I know a lot of stuff is hard for you. You went through h.e.l.l. You lost your father and brother and sister and got sold into slavery, then you got sold again and lost your mother, and now you're here on a world where people live in treehouses with aliens. I can understand why you'd have a hard time caring about the history of Bellerophon or deciphering Ched-Balaar teeth-clacking."

Kendi didn't say anything. He just stared at the floor and let Mother Ara's words coast past him.

"If you want to talk about any of it," Mother Ara said, "let me know, okay? A lot of times just talking makes people feel better. Or if you don't want to talk to me, you can talk to someone else. The Children of Irfan take care of their own, Kendi. Maybe we're not the Real People, but we do our best."

Kendi still didn't answer. Mother Ara sighed and patted his shoulder. Abruptly, Kendi felt like he was going to cry. He held his breath to avoid it.

"Well, all right," Mother Ara said. "You'd better get going. And I have a dinner to cook. See you at the Festival games tonight?"

"Yeah, okay." Kendi took up his spear and pad and left before Mother Ara could see the tears gathering in his eyes.

"So what's the latest on the investigation?" asked Uncle Hazid around a mouthful of curried shrimp.

Ben looked up from his plate. The question had been directed at his mother, but something in Uncle Hazid's tone got his attention.

Mom blinked. "What investigation?"

"You know," Aunt Sil put in. "The one about the Dream killer. I've heard he can change shape in the Dream. Is that true?"

"How in the world would I know?" Mom said.

"You're a.s.sisting the Guardians on the case, aren't you?" Aunt Sil said. Like Mom, she was short and round, with a heavy face and thick black hair that swooped or twisted over her head as whim and fashion decreed. She wore a corsage of red and blue flowers. It matched the centerpiece on the table. The rest of the house was decorated with more flowers and the computer played Festival music in the background. Ben liked everything about Festival except the annual family dinner. Fortunately, that part always came first, meaning he could get it out of the way and enjoy the rest of the evening.

"The case?" Mom said.

"I heard all about it from Jenine Frank at the Guardian outpost just up the walkway," Aunt Sil said. "A nice thing-you're working on a famous murder case and you don't even tell your own sister."

Ben put his fork down, unsure how to feel. "Mom? You never said anything about this."

"I-that is, I'm not supposed to discuss it," she floundered.

"Well, certainly not with someone who isn't Silent," Aunt Sil said with a friendly smile toward Ben. "They wouldn't understand. But we're your family family."

Ben's jaw firmed until it ached but he didn't say anything.

"Sil!" Mom said. "That's not-"

"Did you get to see the body?" interrupted Tress. She was seventeen, also short and dark-haired, and already into advanced Dream studies at the monastery.

"Yeah!" said Zayim, who was sixteen and battling acne. "Was it all creepy? The news services said it was all bruised."

"Kids!" Uncle Hazid admonished. "A healthy curiosity is one thing, but this is gruesome. It's a dangerous situation. Everyone's running scared, Ara. What can you tell us?"

Mom face went tight-lipped in an expression Ben knew well. At this point, they may as well try to pry open a clam with their fingernails. "I said I can't discuss it. Any information about the investigation that gets out could get back to the killer and help him-or her."

"We won't tell anyone," Tress said, opening her eyes until they looked wide and innocent. Ben recognized that expression too, and he had long ago learned not to trust it.

Apparently Mom had learned the same lesson. "And how are your studies coming, Tress?" she said.

"Fine," she said. "But what about the-"

"And yours, Zayim?" Mom interrupted. "Did you pa.s.s your first-tier qualifiers yet?"

Zayim, who was more distractible than Tress, went on at some length about the tests he had taken in the Dream to prove the amount of control he had. Ben tuned it out and went back to eating. Zayim and Tress were always talking about the Dream and what they did there. Uncle Hazid and Aunt Sil were the same way. Usually this meant Ben felt bored and left out of family discussions, but this time it gave him a chance to think. He stole a glance at Mom. She was investigating the Dream killer? What did that mean? Was she tracking him down in the Dream? Would she be in danger from him?